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Chapter 2

"Oh god oh god oh god" I could hear coming out of my mouth.

He just left Jake just left, my husband of 5 years the father of my child just left. It had finally happened the confrontation me and Edward new was going to happen eventually it was over the lies, the deceit; the sneaking around it was all over.

I felt two arms wrap around me in an embrace I knew all too well I looked up to Edwards face needing to know if he too was experiencing the same emotions as I and he was, I could see it clearly.

Sadness for a friendship he knew was now over.

Shock that it had happened so suddenly and was over before a blink of an eye.

And at last the emotion we were both feeling yet ashamed to be feeling it, Relief.

We no longer had to hide.

"Are you ok" he said

"Would it make me a horrible person if I said yes" I replied

"Not to me it wouldn't" was his short reply as we both knew we would soon have to come clean to our families and friends if they didn't know already we had no idea what Jakes next move would be.

"Come let's go up stairs and lay down" Edward suggested.

"What if he comes back" I was on edge all of a sudden who knew what was going through Jakes head right now.

"Then were deal with it but I think we both know he won't be back tonight" Edward gave me a knowing look whilst leading me to my bedroom.

Yes he was right Jake wasn't the type of person to act out at least not at first in fact we most likely wouldn't hear anything from him for a few days. And then he would strike.

I just hope he wouldn't strike too hard.

"Do you regret it" he suddenly asked.

"You know I don't" was my reply. And that was the truth neither of us regretted it any of it I don't know what kind of person that made me … us... but at this moment I just couldn't care maybe it was all the emotions I was feeling or how my whole world had changed in such a short amount of time but as I started to drift into darkness I couldn't help but remember the night it all started almost a year ago...

11 months ago

"Dance with me" Alice shouted over the music

"I don't dance you know that Alice" I shouted back.

We were all in a new club called Haze it was Edwards 30th birthday so here I was celebrating along with the usual crew well most of us anyway my dearest husband was working late. I'd like to say this was a one off especially as he was missing his closest friend's landmark birthday but no this was a usual occurrence with Jake these days.

"Oh come on drink your shot and let lose for once Mia is safe with your parents for the night and Jakes away its time to play whoop whoop" was her drunk reply.

"Alice" was all I could say she was now giving me her puppy eyes she knows what that look does to me.

"Come on you know you can't turn this face down" she poked her tongue out at me.

"Fine but just one dance" I necked my shot took Alice's hand and lead her to the rest of the group who were occupying the centre of the dance floor.

"Well look who decided to join the party" was the first thing that came out of Emmett's mouth he was putting out all the stops tonight doing his best dirty dancing moves on Rose who by the looks of it was barely able to stand up right due to the amount of cosmos she had downed earlier in the evening.

Alice was already in Jaspers arms and together they were once again in their own little world that they both went to often.

"Where's your brother Emmett, shouldn't the birthday boy be here getting his grove on" I asked while trying my best to move to the music without looking like a complete idiot.

Before Emmett could answer I felt two hands wrap around my waist and a cool breath in my ear "right here" was the smooth reply I got before I was released.

"Where have you been" I asked him but already knowing the answer.

"Oh just calling your husband to see when he would be gracing us with his presence tonight" but by the look on his face the answer was the same one I got most nights.

"I'm sure he would be here if he could Edward he's just been so busy lately with work once everything dies down I'm sure he'll make it up to you" I said even though we both knew it was a lie Jake didn't have much time for many people these days he and his father Billy had always wanted to start a mechanics shop but was never possible due to the small population in forks and not enough business but fortunately over the last two years that has changed due to a new resort and shopping centre with many more buildings being built Forks Washington is becoming the new 'IT' town as the mayor likes to put it.

"I know I'm sorry Bella I don't mean to complain god I sound like a girl come let me buy you a drink" wanting to change the mood to a good one.

"Oh no mister it's your birthday I'll be buying the drinks tonight come on I fancy myself some vodka" I announced happy to be leaving the dance floor and wanting to cheer Edward up.

After about ten minutes of waiting to order our drinks and another five making them we decided to just get a few bottles of vodka and mixers so we wouldn't have to keep going up to the bar. We took them to a table near the dance floor so we could still see our friends who by the looks of it were not going to last too much longer, light weights.

"So how's my goddaughter these days I haven't see her in a while" Edward asked knocking his drink back.

"Oh you know still as cute as ever she's just coming out of her terrible twos so I'm very excited for that to be over" I laughed

"Mmm bet that's a relief" he said refilling his glass.

"You have no idea the other day she would not stop screaming we were in a shop buying groceries and for the life of me I couldn't figure out what was wrong with her she kept pointing behind us turns out there was a whole pyramid of pepper pig teddy's that she just had to have at the front of the store" I smiled taking a swing of my vodka and coke god that feels good.

Edward through his head back and laughed so hard that I couldn't help but join in I didn't think the story was that funny but then again when I looked at the bottle that was full only 10 minutes prior was now half empty how did that happen? Man we were on a roll tonight and yet I didn't care it was rare I went out these days and I wanted to make the most of it. So grabbing the bottle I refilled my glass and relaxed… maybe a bit too much it turns out.

AN: There is no schedule for when I plan to update this story it depends on any free time I have and of course reviews ;). Till next time.