Chapter 2: November and December
November 7, 2010 {Tuesday}
"Rachel, have you ever fallen in love?" I ask with my hand resting her cheek. "Yeah I think so" she answers, smiling at me I smile back, that kid happy smile doesn't seem to bother me anymore. It's weird though hiding in the bathroom, no one really comes in here after the bell rings. But there is still a chance we might get caught. Santana walks in I quickly move my hand from Rachel's face and put it by my side. "Hey guys what are you two doing here?" she asks walking up to us. "No reason" Rachel answers bluntly before walking out.
"What's going on, Quinn?" Santana asks me I just shake my head.
November 13, 2010 {Saturday}
"I love you Quinn" Finn says to me as we are laying in his bed, surprisingly it makes me feel awkward. He leans over to kiss me and I kiss him back, I don't want him to think that something is wrong with me. But maybe there is, he wraps his arm around me, bringing me closer, and kisses my neck. "No Finn, I don't feel like it" I say pushing him away by his chest. "Ok" he says but he keeps his arm wrapped around me. Finn is amazing guy he knows what no means but I just don't know why I don't love him as much as I used to. Maybe it's Rachel.
November 15, 2010 {Monday}
I sit by Finn in Glee club like always with his arm always wrapped around me. Rachel, Brittany, and Santana are singing The Only Exception by Paramore. I smile each time Rachel looks at me while singing. She sits beside me when the song ends I try not to smile to big because Finn will expect something. "You two get along now?" Finn asks and me and Rachel nod and answer "the best of friends."
November 19, 2010 {Friday}
"Since when did you start liking Rachel, Quinn?" Santana asks while messing with Brittany's hair on the bed I'm just sitting at her desk chair, spinning around. "Oh, um Halloween night" I answer, stopping the chair to face them. "Oh well what are doing for Thanksgiving?" Brittany asks, changing the subject. "Um I don't know yet I really don't even care" I answer starting to spin around again. "Quinn can I talk to you, alone?" Santana asks getting of the bed. "Brit, honey I'll be back, k" Santana tells Brittany as we walk outside the room. "I know you like Rachel" Santana tells me. "No I'm not..." I try to say but she cuts me off "gay, Quinn were you about say you weren't gay?"
I sigh and answer "San, to be honest I wasn't really thinking about saying that."
November 21, 2010 {Sunday}
"It's great to actually spend time with you" Rachel says laying down on my bed. "Yeah" I say, laying beside her. She lays her head on my chest without warning, and I rest my hand on her back. "Spend Thanksgiving with me just us" I say she looks at me and smiles. "Of course" she says and kisses me.
November 25, 2010 {Thursday}
"Mom I'm going out with my friends" I yell walking out my front door. "Ok" she yells back before I close the door. There was no school today since it was Thanksgiving and they didn't give us Thanksgiving break so yeah. And my family didn't feel like doing anything. "Hey babe" I say once I get in Rachel's car. "Hi love" she whispers I kiss her on her nose before she drives off.
"Here we are" she says, while parking the car. We both get out and go inside "no ones home?" I ask, she shuts the door and nods. "What do you want to do?" she asks I smile and wrap my arms around her waist. "This" I whisper and kiss her gently, and softly she kisses back slowly. I pull away and whisper in her ear "I love you" she hugs me tighter, I hope she will never let go. I feel her tears start to roll down her cheeks and become mine. I kiss them away am lay my forehead on hers. "I love you too Quinn" she whispers and she makes me feel like we are one.
December 8, 2010 {Wednesday}
"Quinn there is something up with you" Finn tells me when we are alone in the gym. "No I am perfectly fine" I say and smile. "Me and you haven't been hanging out so much anymore. It's always you hanging out with Santana or Rachel yeah Rachel." He complains I shrug my shoulders "what you don't care?" he asks, grabbing my arm. "I do care but if you think something is wrong with us because I hang out with Santana or Rachel too much. There is something wrong with you." I say, yanking my arm away from his grip.
December 17, 2010 {Friday}
"I'm breaking up with you" Finn says as we sit in his car in the rain. "Why?" I ask just wanting to know. "You don't love anymore I can feel it everytime we kiss that the love isn't there anymore." He answers with tears dripping from his eyes. "I do love you Finn" I say because it's true it's just that I love Rachel more. He shakes his head and pulls away when I try to wipe the tears from his face. "Finn" I whisper and take a deep breath before continuing. "If you think there is someone else then your right." He looks at me with anger and pain in his watery eyes. "Who?" he asks I don't say another word I just get out his car and walk home in the rain.
December 22, 2010 {Wednesday}
"Why haven't you been coming to school?" Santana, Brittany, and Rachel ask. "I have been sick" I answer Rachel sits beside me on my bed and grabs my hand. "Quinn, I know that isn't the only reason" Santana says, walking to the other side of my bed. I sigh then look at her and confess "Finn broke up with me and I told him there was someone else." I look at Rachel, she has a concerned look on her face. "Is there really someone else?" Brittany asks I nod and whisper "Rachel" Rachel smiles and kisses me on my nose. Santana and Brittany both smile.
December 25, 2010 {Saturday}
"Come on let's go to Mercedes Christmas party" Brittany shouts at me I just stay still on her couch and shake my head. "Quit being lazy Quinn" Santana says Rachel tries to yank me up while saying "come on babe." I give up and sigh "Ok, Ok I'm coming" I say, getting up. They all smile, the party was Ok until Finn saw me and Rachel kissing by the bathroom door. "So this is who you were talking about" Finn shouts Santana and Brit run over there quick. "You broke up with me, remember" I shout back. "And you cheated on me" he yells. We leave right at that moment.
"Quinn" Rachel whispers I just say "I have you and that's all that matters." She hugs me tightly and I hug her back as tight as I can too.
December 30, 2010 {Thursday}
I sit in class and write random words, thinking of Rachel.
You are so much better for me, our kisses tell me that. Your eyes help me realize how much I will never want to let go and how much I was blind, now I just want to see. Before I was ignorant now you made me wise, I can feel how fast my heart beats to the sound of your name. I can fall asleep to the sound of your voice singing me a love lullaby. Then I would want to wake up to your lips on mine.
The bell distracts me and I fold the paper and put it in my pocket, and walk out of the school. Only to see Finn holding hands with some girl. I feel something twist in my stomach. I just walk to Santana's car and get in. "Your jealous" Santana whispers "how do you know everything?" I ask, sinking in the seat. "I can just read you like a book" is all she says, driving off.
December 31, 2010 {Friday}
I swing beside Rachel at our park no ones here we just decided to skip school today. So it's like nine in the morning. "Rachel" I whisper with smoke coming from my lips. "Yeah" she says "let's go to my house" I say she nods and we get off the swings. I grab her hand and we quickly walk to my house, once we get there we sit by my fireplace, cuddled together. "Rachel I wrote something for you" I say "really what?" she asks and I smile. I start to say the words because I remember what I wrote.
"You are so much better for me, our kisses tell me that. Your eyes help me realize how much I will never want to let go and how much I was blind, now I just want to see. Before I was ignorant now you made me wise, I can feel how fast my heart beats to the sound of your name. I can fall asleep to the sound of your voice singing me a love lullaby. Then I would want to wake up to your lips on mine." She smiles and starts crying I wipe her tears away, and she let's me.