AN: Again this is just a simple upload of the chapter as it was nearly a decade ago.
Tamao's First Break Up.
Tamao shook her head trying to clear her mind as she approached the doors to the cafeteria. Nagisa needed her to help her while she was sick and the last thing she needed was for the others to think that something was wrong with her as well.
Opening the doors the Miator 6th year took a quick glance around; she couldn't help but smile as she gazed at one of her oldest friends and probably the second most popular girl in all of Spica. Yaya had grown quite a bit over the last few years. Her face becoming sharper and her chest growing a couple sizes, making almost every girl in all three schools drool over the girl while dreaming about her in their sleep.
Next to her sat her ever present girlfriend or as Yaya had come to call her lately the 'guard dog'. Tsubomi, the small Spica student hadn't actually grown that much in the last few years; secretly Tamao thought Yaya was actually quite happy about that as she still loved to flirt with the younger girls. A small chuckle escaped Tamao's lips as Tsubomi growled at some younger girl whom Yaya had started to flirt with causing the girl to look in fear at the pinket before making an excuse and leaving.
For a second she wondered where the third one of the fabled trifecta was, before shaking her head and turning to the Miator table as she walked down to let the her friend know what was going on.
"Morning Chiyo-chan, Kagome-chan." Tamao spoke softly as she stepped up behind the cute couple.
"Good morning Tamao-oneesama." Chiyo chipped as she turned to look at her mentor. Tamao smiled brightly as she looked the girl over. When it came to growing she was some where in between Yaya and Tsubomi, only growing a few inches over the years, her body staying small and her smile staying big. But her personality had taken on a much different form as time had passed. Tamao had watched the girl grow and mature becoming a hard working young woman but retaining that playful and spirited nature when she was allowed to let herself go from her work.
"I'm not going to be able to make it to class this morning so I was wondering if you could stop by and pick up any work from the teachers for me?" Tamao asked the girl who ended up being a mixture of her two beloved Onee-sama's.
"Of course. Is there something wrong Tamao-oneesama?" Chiyo asked. Tamao was one of the hardest workers she knew, even going to class when she was sick. In fact the only time she could remember Tamao missing class was because of a certain someone needing help. It dawned on her before Tamao got any words out and shook her head in understanding as Tamao explained the situation. She more then anyone knowing just how much the blue haired girl had been in love with Nagisa and how hard she tried over time to make sure that Nagisa was happy; but never pushing her feelings on the other girl.
"I will pick them up right after class and then bring them to you after clubs is that okay?" Chiyo asked. She would have liked to have taken them over right away, but she was the Club president and couldn't take to much time away from the group.
"That would be wonderful. Thank you Chiyo-chan." Tamao smiled as she squeezed the younger girls shoulder and nodded her head. "Have a good day." She finished giving both of them a smile and walked away when the two smiled and nodded to her in return.
Next Tamao made her way to the Lulim table to where her girlfriend sat with the reigning Etolie's.
"Good morning Etolie-sama." Tamao spoke softly as she gave the two a respectful bow making the one make a face and the other nod her head slightly in return.
"Honestly Tamao-chan, how many times am I going to have to ask you to call me Himeko?" The blond Lulim student asked. She had asked this question every day since the coronation that had made her and her partner the most popular couple in school. Granted her partner had been one of, if not the most popular girl in school since she first stepped on to the school grounds.
"Do forgive me Himeko-chan, it is tradition after all." Tamao smiled as Himeko rolled her eye's and then went back to talking with her partner.
"Took long enough, you had me worried." Makoto spoke up after Tamao turned towards her, concern filling her eyes.
"I'm sorry about that, but I got distracted." Tamao sputtered out and hoped the blush wouldn't be strong enough for Makoto to take notice.
"It's alright, where is Aoi-san?" Tamao's eyes narrowed as she glared at her girlfriend out the side of her eye still facing away from her to hide the blush. A part of her could guess that the noticeable trace of animosity in the girls voice when she said Nagisa's last name was because she was worried about Tamao. But that small part lost out to the much larger piece of Tamao that still loved Nagisa and it didn't like anyone irregardless of the reason to speak negatively about Nagisa.
"Nagisa-chan isn't feeling well, so I am going to have to stay back to take care of her." Tamao bit out more harshly then she intended to and felt herself wince as Makoto looked back at her hurt.
"Did something happen to Aoi-san?" The blue haired Etolie asked causing Tamao to turn and look at her.
"No Etolie-sama, she just had a ruff night, and I think she may have caught a 24 hour bug. As long as she gets some rest she should be back to normal tomorrow." Tamao explained.
"Good, please tell her we wish her a speedy recovery. Himeko lets go we have some work to do to get ready for the up coming celebration." She said as she rose and started to walk away to find the three presidents of the schools.
"Yes Chikane-chan." Himeko stood up following the woman she loved as she flashed Tamao and Makoto a smile before skipping away.
"Thank you Etolie-sama, I will." Tamao said as she gave the queenly like woman a bow to show her respect and gratitude before watching Himeko walk away smiling. She had been shocked when the two had arrived, Chikane had seemed so cold to her, but over time she noticed that the blue haired woman cared about many things, most importantly Himeko. But she had a strong code of ethics always working hard, even more so after she had become Etolie and repeatedly helping others out when she could. Although Tamao thought that it was more the Blond princess that had been an instigator in a lot of those situations but seemed to be happy about staying in the back ground and letting her beloved Chikane take the credit.
"What about tonight?" Makoto asked bringing Tamao's attention back to her.
"I doubt I will be able to make it. I'm sorry Mako-chan, I am just worried about Nagisa-chan. I have always taken care of her when she was sick." Tamao responded, sighing in frustration. She hated breaking her word to study with Makoto and the Etolie's but she just couldn't not be there when Nagisa needed her.
"Tamao, I am not trying to be mean, but we talked ab..." Makoto stopped when the ever docile poet turned and glared at her hard.
"I know okay? I meant it when I said I wanted to move past Nagisa-chan and that I like you; but that doesn't mean I am going to stop caring about her. She is my best friend and I want to be there if she needs someone." Tamao growled out and tried to keep her voice down so as not to attract to much attention.
"But when am I going to come first Tamao? You said after you told her then you would start spending time with me openly and now that she knows not only are you not coming to class you are skipping out on me for studying." Makoto slammed her hand down on the table as she stood up and glared at her girlfriend. She hated putting Tamao in a position like this but she was worried both about how her girlfriend was doing, and if they could ever move past the girls love sick like nature when it came to Nagisa.
"How about this, next week we can do something just the two of us?" Tamao asked trying to just end the conversation so she could get over and talk to the head sister and then back to Nagisa encase she needed her.
"What about this weekend?" Makoto asked frustration growing at such a long time for them to meet up when they had a perfectly good weekend coming up.
"I can't do this now." Tamao said as she ran her hand over her face.
"If you leave then this relationship is over." Makoto glared at the blue haired poet. She may like Tamao but she wasn't going to take a backseat to someone else forever.
"Haha you sure you want to do that?" Tamao challenged as she felt the desire to cry. She really didn't want to give up her happiness with Makoto but she had given up much more for Nagisa in the past and she new that her heart no matter how happy someone else made her, she would always give up everything to help the one that erased her loneliness.
"She will never want you Tamao." Makoto growled, trying to make her girlfriend understand that she only wanted her to be happy.
"It was never about me, even when I gave up the Etolie crown, it was all to make sure she was happy, and it is not about me now." Tamao spoke out slowly but determinedly. She would move on and love someone other then Nagisa, but she wouldn't ever stop caring about her, not for Makoto, and not for anyone.
"Tamao wait." Makoto tried to speak to the girl as she turned around. Tamao didn't look back as she walked to talk with the head sister.
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"It's okay Chiyo-chan." Kagome took her girlfriend into her arms as the girl broke down crying.
"Why Kagome-chan? Why can't Nagisa-oneesama love Tamao-oneesama?" The younger girl watched as Tamao for the second time in her school life walked among her peers as silent but strong tears trailed down her face. She had again just like all that time ago gave up something she had worked so hard for in front of everyone all to make sure the person she loved most was safe and happy.
"Don't cry Chiyo-chan we need to be strong, for both Tamao-oneesama, and Nagisa-oneesama." Kagome whispered to her softly trying to calm her down.
"What? Why do we need to be strong for Nagisa-oneesama?" Chiyo asked confused as she tried to stop the tears from falling like her girlfriend told her.
"I'm sorry Chiyo-chan, but I need you to trust me." Kagome said giving the girl a soft sad smile.
"What's going on, what aren't you telling me?" Chiyo tried to push herself from the Lulim girl but the girls strong grip kept her close to her heart as she fought the tears from her own eyes.
"Please believe me I would tell you if I could but I promised I wouldn't. I would never ask you tell me something Tamao-oneesama or Nagisa-oneesama asked you to keep a secret would I?"
"This has to do with that letter you received from Chikaru-sama isn't it?" Chiyo sighed and leaned back into her girlfriends embrace. She knew the girl was right and she wouldn't ask her to betray her onee-sama's but now she was afraid. Kagome had been more withdrawn then usual since receiving that letter last Tuesday and if it had to do with either Tamao or Nagisa she knew it couldn't be good.
"Yes it does, I can't say any more I'm sorry, but please be strong she will need us soon." Chiyo didn't know who her girlfriend meant when she said 'she' and she quite frankly didn't want to. She knew when it came time to figure out who it was that it would be to late to help the two people that showed her so much.
"I'll try Kagome-chan, I promise." She sighed out as she wrapped her arms around her girlfriend tightly and pulled her closer to her body trying to push the feeling of despair away from her by bring the person she loved closer.
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"I'm sorry it took so long." Tamao said as she walked thought the door.
"Nagsia-chan?" She poet questioned as she closed the distance to the sleeping girl. Getting so worked up this morning had been to much for the red head, having gotten so little sleep and then sitting up to make sure she didn't miss Tamao; only to have her body react so strongly to someone she only looked at as a friend caused her mind to whirl around in confusion combined with the exhaustion had knocked the poor girl out.
"Will you smile for me when you wake up? You have the most beautiful smile, did you know that? It can always make me feel better and right now I could really use a smile Nagisa-chan." Tamao whispered quietly to make sure she didn't wake up the sleeping girl. She gently reached up and took the warmed hand towel off the girls head and used her other hand to wipe away more stray hairs out of her face before giving her a sad smile.
"Actually I am kind of happy you can't see me right now. How much am I going to sacrifice before I learn my lesson?" She started to rise when she heard Nagisa mumble something and couldn't help herself as she leaned in closer to try and hear what the girl was saying.
"I'm sorry." Nagisa mumbled the combination of her words and the hot breath on Tamao's ear causing the blue haired girl to jump away and throw a hand over her mouth to keep from shouting.
Tamao watched the girl for a minute as she rolled over to face the wall as she thought about what Nagisa could possibly be dreaming about.
"It's got to be Shizuma, it is always Shizuma." Tamao sighed in frustration as she made her way to the bathroom to cool the rag down again and then replaced it on her roommates forehead. She then returned to the bathroom to clean her face. Tamao stared into the mirror, her eye's were puffy from the crying she had done after the brake up with Makoto.
"Well at least maybe I can sneak a peak at them while they are making out." Tamao said. It was disgusting even to her, but she knew that when she went with Nagisa to spend time with Shizuma she would spend most of the time thinking about what it would be like if it was her holding Nagisa's hand, or kissing Nagisa's lips or sharing the same bed of her unrequited love.
The next few hours past by lazily as Tamao continued to look over Nagisa as she slept and worked on her poetry. Around noon Tamao went down and got some food, knowing that Nagisa hadn't eaten breakfast and that she would be hungry.
"Hello Tamao-chan." Nagisa said nervously as the girl entered the room causing Tamao to jump and almost drop the the food.
"Hi Nagisa-chan, do you feel good enough to eat?" Tamao chuckled in embarrassment as she righted the food on the tray and walked near the bed. Nagisa scooted away from her as she approached the red head causing her to look at her in confusion.
"Is everything okay?" Tamao asked as she sat the tray down in front of the girl while Nagisa scratched the side of her cheek and kept her eye's on the food.
"Of course Tamao-chan, I am just still a little tired. Thank you for the food." Nagisa flashed the poet a quick smile before looking back at the tray and started to dig in.
"If you're sure, well I am going to keep working on my poetry, being the president means I have to set a good example right?" Tamao laugh stopped when Nagisa nearly jumped out of the bed when she put her hand on her shoulder making Tamao pull it back as if she had placed it on a hot stove.
"I am feeling fine now Tamao-chan so you can go back to class if you want." She offered both hoping that Tamao would leave her alone so she could try and sort out her confused thoughts over the feelings she had experienced earlier and that the blue haired girl would decline. She always felt better with Tamao around and even though the confusion was increased with the girl around the poet being here with her made the room feel much more warm and homey.
"Well I already asked Chiyo-chan to pick up my work for the day and I told the Head Sister that I would take care of you, but if you want to be alone then I can go." Tamao replied and felt her heart sink a little bit thinking Nagsia didn't want her around. Nagisa didn't say anything trying to figure out what she should do as Tamao gathered up her bag and placed all her work back inside before picking it up and started walking to the door.
"Wait." Nagisa nearly shouted as she grasped the girls arm hard keeping her from leaving as the food cascaded around her bed.
"Is everything okay Nagisa-chan?" Tamao asked as she turned to look at the girl who was holding on to her arm.
"Yes, but I mean I felt fine when I woke up this morning and then this happened so maybe it comes and goes, and if you already went to all the work to stay with me then maybe I should have you here just encase." Nagisa stuttered out trying to keep her face from lighting up with a blush. 'What the hell? Why did I stop her? This is bad, I should have let her leave, I have Shizuma I shouldn't be feeling these things.' Nagisa's mind screamed out at her, but still she didn't release the hold on her friend.
"I am always here to help Nagisa-chan." Tamao smiled as she turned towards the girl fully causing Nagisa to finally loosen her grip. Tamao bent over the bed and started gathering the food and placing it back on the tray and replaced it in front of the girl.
"Thank you Tamao-chan, you are the best friend anyone could ask for." Nagisa said and gave Tamao a big smile as she blushed a little bit.
"Thank you Nagisa-chan." Tamao whispered causing Nagisa's look at the girl closely. Nagisa felt her body tense up as Tamao brought a hand to her face and rubbed her cheek. 'What happened? Why does Tamao-chan look so sad?' Nagisa asked herself, she could see the sadness hidden behind the eye's of her best friend, and wondered what could of possibly caused the girl's usually radiant smile to carry such pain.
Nagisa thought Tamao was going to stop when she felt the girl place a hair behind her ear, but then felt her body lock up as Tamao moved closer to her face. 'Oh no this can't be happening. I have Shizuma, heck Tamao-chan has Mako-san, what the heck is she thinking.' Again her mind shouted at her demanding the girl to return to her sanity and put a stop to this madness. Like last time something stopped her from listing to the small voice and felt her eye's flutter closed as she prepared herself to be kissed by her roommate.
"What?" The word got stuck in her throat when instead of kissing her on the lips Tamao left a small kiss on her forehead. As Tamao leaned back, she gave Nagisa a warm smile and grabbed her bag before walking over to her desk and sat down to work.
Finally time seemed to kick back in and Nagisa felt her anger rise to heights beyond what she had been last night and she got up throwing the blankets off her only stopping at her dresser for clothes before stomping to the bathroom causing Tamao to turn around and looking at the girl with concern filled eyes.
"Nagisa-chan what are you doing?" Tamao asked as she started to rise.
"Nothing, I am starting to feel bad again and I think a warm bath might help out." She said through clenched teeth as she slammed the door to the bathroom closed before Tamao could argue that it wasn't a good idea.
'God damn it.' Nagisa shouted out in her mind as she threw her clothes onto the ground as hard as she could. 'Why? Why am I mad?' she asked herself as she turned the water on letting the shower warm up as she stripped herself of the shirt she had put on when she woke up while Tamao was getting her food and her underwear.
"It's all her fault, she is making me do this, I would never think about someone other then Shizuma." She growled out needing to hear her own voice as she stared at the door considering going out and telling Tamao to get the hell out of her room for causing the her to be like this.
Looking away from the door she saw something that made it feel someone had punched her in the stomach knocking the wind out of her.
'That's a lie, all I am doing is trying to shrug off the responsibility again.' Nagisa felt tears jump out of her eye's as she stared at the toothbrush container that had a small picture of her and Tamao smiling as Tamao attacked her from behind and tickled her till she cried.
'I love Shizuma, so why? Why was I mad that Tamao-chan got a girlfriend? She has been lonely for so long, she deserves to have someone. Do I just want to be her only friend, is it I am worried that she will stop wanting to be around me if she falls in love with Makoto?' Nagisa thought to herself as she turned away from the picture of the two of them and steeped into the shower to wash herself off.
"I don't think so. I have never wanted to kiss Yaya-chan, or anyone else that I call friends even Tamao-chan, so why did I get so mad? Why did I want her to kiss me? Was it so I would know I am more important to her then Makoto-san is? Even if that is true I shouldn't be willing to cheat on Shizuma just to know I am still her best friend." The mention of cheating on Shizuma caused the scene of Tamao standing nude in front of her as the water dripped slowly across her sexy body causing Nagisa to lick her lips as tight sensation on her lower body kicked in.
"Please God, let Shizuma not be so uptight this weekend." Nagisa said shaking her head violently causing water to fly around as her hair twisted around behind her. She could only hope this was all because of how off Shizuma had been the last two times they had spent time together.
Turning off the water Nagisa grabbed one of the towels off the hooks and wrapped her hair up tightly so it could dry and took a second towel and started to dry her body and growled in frustration when she got to certain area's as she hurried to get the water off herself so she would agitate her needing body anymore.
After getting dressed she reached out taking her toothbrush and brushed her teeth. After finishing with her teeth and blow drying her hair she got dressed and felt herself feeling a little better knowing she wouldn't be so exposed in front of Tamao, which only made her sign in frustration again. Since when did she care about her appearance when it came to Tamao?
"Sorry about that Tamao-chan, I just needed a shower." Nagisa said as she walked out of the bathroom and found Tamao still sitting at her desk.
"Tamao-chan?" Nagisa walked up and placed her hand on her friends shoulder as she leaned over to look at the girls face and found her sleeping with tear streaks on her face.
'Tamao-chan what happened while I was asleep?' Nagisa asked herself as she whipped the tears away from her friends face.
"Well, how about I take care of you for once?" Nagisa asked out loud and couldn't help but chuckle softly as Tamao let out a small snore in response. Gently raising the girl from desk she picked her up softly into her arms. She was surprised by how light Tamao actually was and made a mental note to make sure the blue haired poet started eating more because there was no way this could be healthy.
"Sleep well. I can't wait to tell Yaya-chan and Hikari-chan, they will never believe it that I was the one to take care of you." Nagisa smiled warmly as she watched Tamao snuggle closer to her pillow taking it into her arms. She could still remember the night that Tamao and her had shared a bed and Tamao had snuggled up with her. Feeling her face heat up in a blush over the memory of Tamao latching onto her body and holding her close the girl turned away from the bed and looked around the room to try and decide what to do till Tamao woke up.
Finally she decided that it would be a good time to read some of Shizuma's old letters so she walked over to the desk and took a few out and started reading them. Before she finished the first one she sighed and sat the letter down, the combination of her weird feelings towards Tamao and her frustration with Shizuma over their last few visits making it so she couldn't enjoy the lovely writing on the pages.
Deciding to spend her time on home work she spent the next hour and a half trying to finish the English class's work that she always slacked off on. She had only taken the class because Tamao had insisted it might do well to take it and to prepare her for the college she would go to after their time at Miator was over.
Nagisa's head shot to the side when someone knocked on the door, looking at the clock she wondered who it could be since no one was suppose to be out of class yet. Getting up she slowly walked over to the door trying to stay quite to continue to let her friend sleep and answered the door.
"Nagisa-chan what are you doing up I thought you were sick? Where is Tamao-chan?" Yaya asked as she looked at a perfectly okay Nagisa.
"Tamao-chan is sleeping, it seems like she had a really hard morning, do you know what happened?" Nagisa asked her friend, choosing to ignore the question of why she didn't feel well.
"She didn't tell you, her and Mako.." Yaya was silenced as she was hit upside the head from behind and turned to glare at her girlfriend whom Nagisa hadn't noticed behind the larger girl.
"That is not your place Yaya-sempai." Tsubomi returned the glare with equal vigor not backing down from one of her schools idols in the least bit. "Hikari-sama is going to be mad enough at us for skipping our last class and Choir practice so how about we don't go making more enemies."
"Yeah yeah, I will just have you give Hikari-chan a little service and everything will be okay." Yaya replied getting a second hit upside the head from a blushing Tsubomi who then shot the confused Nagisa a look.
"So what happened between Tamao-chan and Makoto-san?" Nagisa asked as she looked between the two girls as Tsubomi glared at Yaya again who just whistled and looked away.
"I think it would be better if Tamao-chan told you about it Nagisa-chan, but don't press her okay?" Tsubomi said giving Nagisa a strange look making the older red head feel uncomfortable.
"Alright, I will wait for her to tell me, I just hope she will be okay." She said as she cast a look behind her to the sleeping girl and praying everything was alright.
"Well are we still on for the tea party tonight?" Yaya asked regaining Nagisa's attention.
"Well I am feeling better and if something is really bothering Tamao-chan it might be nice to have everyone come and visit her, it might make her feel better." Nagisa said after a thinking for a few moments.
"Don't worry to much, I got just the thing to take take the edge off and help Tamao-chan relax." Yaya said giving Nagisa a wink as Tsubomi looked at her, the pink haired girls face a mask of shock.
"You wouldn't." Tsubomi nearly snarled after she regained her composure.
Nagsia was about to ask what the pinkette was talking about when Yaya waved the girl quite and looked back at Nagisa.
"Well we should be going, take care of Tamao-chan and don't have to much fun now." Yaya chirped as she dragged her girlfriend down the hall, away from a blushing Nagisa.
"Gezz she says the weirdest things." Nagsia said as she closed the door, and then walked over to her friends beside and knelled down and gently touched her friends face.
'Maybe she isn't so weird.' She let out a soft sigh and pushed the thoughts away as she continued to stroke Tamao's cheek. 'Please Tamao-chan, we already had a bad fight, I don't want either of us to hurt anymore, so please tell me what happened.' Nagisa pleaded silently with her sleeping friend and felt a tear slide gently down her face as Tamao rolled away from her touch.