I refuse to go on and on about nothing to finally get to the point...Rick was having an affair. I had an inkling that he was but I explained everything away until it couldn't be explained anymore.
I found out when Shane came by asking for his tackle box. I guess Rick failed to tell Shane that they were spending the weekend together at a Real Men Love God Two day Retreat that was held in the outskirts of Atlanta.
The look on Shane's face. Nonetheless Shane tried to cover for him. He did a terrible job. The stuttering idiot trying to turn on the charm that only a dumbass Bimbo's would fall for.
Devil is a Liar.
Rick has been lying a long time. A very long time. Soon as he walked in the house I told him he needed to end it or I was leaving with the kids to my parents.
"Break it off with her."
He didn't deny it when I confronted him. I guess Shane gave him a heads up to know what to expect when he got home.
Rick left the next morning without saying anything. He came back pissed off. Slamming doors. Basically sulking but I didn't care. I wanted him to end it and that is what he did. What he wasn't ready for was to talk about it. He spent most of his time on the back porch drinking. He began drinking more than usual.
I wanted to know all the details. I wanted to know the when, where, how, why. He wouldn't tell me much. Only that it just happened...
He said it just happened. He said at first he was just flattered. He says it wasn't just her but he liked that other women found him attractive and that with her it was different. He never been with anyone like her before. It just happened and that it won't happen again.
I just can't understand how does something like that just happen and every time I think about it I get so pissed off. I ask for clarification. He gets pissed off or I get pissed off. It will forever be something that will always be unresolved for me. Rick is married to me and I know he had to actively pursue this other woman. The thought that he was an active and willing participant pisses me to no end but I can't get him to admit that part, no matter how I rephrase the question. I forgave him but I just don't know how I am suppose to forget.
It took almost a month for him to interact with his children like a normal human being or any semblance of normalcy. He was never rude to the kids. He loved them without question but he was distracted. Lost. Still distracted and lost.
Around me he was over the top. Touchy. Feely. Super apologetic and if I didn't' follow his script then he would get really super pissed off like everything was my fault. That I was to blame for him stepping out on me. He made me feel that. I had to tell my self that he was making an effort until the Prank Calls.
The Prank calls started gradually. It got to the point that Rick would turn white as a ghost whenever the phone would ring. When the phone would ring for the second time and he answered it . It was amazing how sometimes it would be Shane after the caller would have hung up on the kids or me.
It took over a month for him to be actively back on his cell phone texting when he thought he was alone. He would check his phone more than ever before and he put a lock on it. A four digit key code but messages still appeared across the screen. Mich. She was listed as Mich.
When he was asleep I checked his phone before the lock and there was no trace of messages except the one that appeared wanting to know why he wasn't responding to her.
I don't trust him anymore. I don't. I just don't.
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