Chapter# 2

After the peacekeepers guided me and Aveinus to the inside of the Mayor's Building, I sat on a really fancy chair waiting for my love ones to arrive. Of course, I know that my mother won't be here. Since my father's death, she hasn't been able to look me in the eye. I know that I remind her of my father, but yet I can't help missing her right now. I keep thinking about my other when the door finally opens. I see Elmira.

"I wasn't expecting to see you" I say with honesty. "I was starting to believe that you already hated me". My voice breaks. How weak I am. If I don't get myself together I won't last a minute in the arena.

She approaches me with a kind look in her eyes, and she hugs so tightly that for an instance I believe we are sisters. I am so naïve.

"It is not your fault," she says. "I know who the real enemy is. Don't forget it Lucida. They just want us to become monsters."

I can't believe she is still nice to me. However, I will never confess that I was already planning to get rid of her beloved little brother.

"Thanks for coming," I say. "Could you send a message to my mother?" I ask.

"Of course, it is the least I can do for you" she says.

"Just tell her that I love her" I say while trying to contain my pain.

"Be careful Lucida, and please try to help my brother in any way possible," she says with teary eyes.

How can I refuse her petition? I am not a coldblooded beast. I give it a thought, and simply nod. She is satisfied with my response, and without further words she leaves.

Almost immediately after Elmira leaves, Belmont comes in walking rather slowly. I am surprised that he didn't rush to hold me close and kiss me deeply. I notice a distant look in his eyes. He makes several attempts to speak, but at the end I am the one who breaks the silence.

"Hey," I simply say while wishing to break the ice and finally start our heart breaking goodbye.

He stares at my eyes for a few seconds before answering.

"Lucida, it is hard for me to say this, but I truly believe that you won't be coming back to me," he says with no emotion in his voice.

After his words, I start feeling like I am about to faint. My whole future is collapsing right in front of me. It is all so confusing. However, I manage to respond.

"How can you even say that?" I angrily ask him. "Don't you want to hold on hope, and expect for the best. I thought that you loved me, you idiot!"

"Hey! I am trying to be rational here," he responds. "I came in to set you free from our engagement. I don't want you to feel obliged to come back. It is for your own good."

"What! Are you delusional?" I ask with despair. "Can't you see that the only thing that keeps within me that necessity of living is returning to your arms?"

"Look, I don't want to keep up my expectations of your return. I won't even watch this stupid game! I will die before seeing your death being broadcast throughout all Panem," he says coldly.

"You are already killing me off," I say with pain and without any hesitation I continue. "I free you from our commitment as well. But believe me when I say that I shall return, and when I do, you will certainly regret everything you just said to me. You will never get me back. I hope you find someone that is just as stupid as you to make you company until you die, something which I sincerely hope happens really soon."

"Bye baby," he says with a deep mourning tone, while he tries to kiss me.

I instantly push him away, and spit on his face. I feel disgusted be seeing him so close to me.

"No, goodbyes jerk! A see you soon will suit the occasion," I respond shouting. "Next time you see me I WILL BE THE FIRST VICTOR of The Hunger Games! Leave right now!"

How could he do this to me? He was my whole world. A few minutes ago he was my only reason to live and now a feeling of hatred and disgust comes to me when I picture his face. Now I understand that he never truly loved me. If he had loved me, he would have begged me to return, and would have cried out his soul in my presence. That IDIOT! He fooled me; I guess that he just wanted me in his bed instead of his arms. If there only was a way to make him feel as bad as I do.

I was absorbed in my own thoughts when the door opens again. Someone that I would have never expected to see in a million years come in. It is Colden Silversmith. I remember that we were extremely close before the war, but we haven't talked to each other in a year. He rushes to me, and wraps me in a tight hug. I am quite surprised by this action, but I feel to desolate and I allow myself to feel his care.

"You are strong, Lucida," he says to me. "I have seen you my whole life. What you don't have with physical strength, you balance it with wit and strategy! Your brain is your biggest weapon."

I nod wit gratitude, but can't help myself from asking with confusion, "Why did you come to see me?"

"You were always like a sister to me, and nothing will ever change that. So be strong sis, and I expect you to see you back. Not that I need to tell you."

I give him a light smile and nod again. He was right; we always were like brothers, since we didn't have any sibling by ourselves. At that moment, I understood that our friendship was time proof. I hugged him tightly and say, "I will come back, brother."

After saying this, I feel so much better. I have some real family to come back and I will fight for it! However, peacekeepers come inside to take Colden away. He holds on tightly to my hand until we are set apart by the monsters in white.

After this, I am taken to the train station with Aveinus by my side. We are both silent in the way, and I truly believe that we will never speak to each other again. As we are escorted in one of the entrance by Cressida, I take a look back to District 5.

"I will return to you," I whisper to myself, and smile with melancholy. District 5 is the district of power, and I will show the Capitol that every cell of my body is filled with it.