Chapter 2
My Choice
CPOV
This was it, the end I would finally be free, no more pain, no more hopelessness, no more suffering. When I hit the rocks at the bottom I'd be free, pain would be forever diminished, finally ceasing to exist.
Closing my eyes, I fall to my death, to my escape; to my serenity, my paradise.
Freedom never tasted so sweet. The gravity sentenced me downward into my reverie, free from the world that was once so hateful and full of darkness. Maybe now I could view the bright warmth light from above instead of the cold shattering darkness of life. Maybe, just maybe, I could be free, free from myself. I'll be able to feel the peace and tranquility of rest.
Just as I was about to be lost in my thoughts for eternity, two firm hands grab onto my ankles jolting me out of my slumber.
What in the world! I glance up wondering what could have stopped me until I realize it's not a what, but a who. Some blonde, almost golden, haired boy was hanging over the bridge grabbing onto my denim jeans around my slim ankles. From the way the lamp light glowed it made him look as if a semi-transparent halo was floating above his wavy messy golden hair. My eyes registering the turn of events, gaping wide in shock as realization kicks in.
"What are you doing" I scream exasperated. "What are you doing?" he retorts back. This was not how it was supposed to happen! "Isn't it obvious?" I whisper wishing his grip on my ankles would just slip allowing me to divert back to my escape. "Please, just let me go" I whimper feeling my eyes start to glaze over. "Now, why would I do that?" he smirks starting to pull me up.
"No! You don't understand! Please, just please, release me!" I beg squirming in his secure fingers. "I can't do this anymore…I'm better off if you would just drop me!" pleading with the stranger. "Sorry, little red, but I just can't allow myself to do that!" the blonde boy says tugging the frail red haired girl up.
Why? Was this god's way of punishing me? Was this his way of saying I'm not ready for you yet! I don't understand! It's my choice to go, my choice if I want to leave this obscure gloomy world behind! It was my choice…not his, not anyone's, but mine!