Normal POV
Flashbacks
Flashbacks in a Flashback
Inner Sakura
Thoughts
Sakura and Inner Thoughts
Chapter Two: Something I Had That Was Once Lost
A young Sakura sat tied to a tree, blood was caked into her hair and down the side of her face. Her body ached and her mind and soul felt blank, her long hair covered her eyes keeping her kidnappers from knowing that she had woken up, she knew it would mean something ver bad. Lifting her head up to get a better look the young girl noticed they had all fallen asleep, one had her belongings close by. Shifting her body and arms side to side trying to loosen up the ropes tied around her, she ignored the pain when it rubbed up against the gash in her arm. After a while she had given up, Sakura was confused to why they had kidnapped her in the first place. Her mother and her were waiting at the location in the desert where she would usually have been handed off to her father. This time though, they were attacked and her mother was killed while they took her beating her everytime she tried to escape or began screaming for her father. Giving up on trying to get loose, she began whimpering as tears fell from her eyes and landed on her bare leg.
"Tou-San!" She cried over and over bringing her knees up to her chest as best she could, trying to silent her sobs but they came too quickly and it woke her captors.
"You fucking brat! Shut the HELL UP!" One of them yelled back handing her, she bit her lips to keep herself quiet, she tasted the blood in her mouth. Looking up she fell silent, a shodowy figure stood in a tree, she immediately looked down, she had no idea if it was a friend, or worst...another foe.
"Finally she shuts up!! Hey Michio?! When are you going to kill the fucking vermon?" The same one who had hit her shouted across the way.
"I told you all, if you want her dead so badly then do it herself. That traitor Sasori will pay for betraying Suna, so taking away his wife and daughter is one way to do it. Rub it in his face and then kill him. But remember we have a better chance of winning by freezing him up by killing the girl in front of him!" The man laughed standing up passing a kunai to the man who spoke to him. Sakura's eyes widened and she scooted as far back into the tree as possible. The person inched closer to her kunai armed and ready.
"...T...to..TOU-SAN!" Sakura screamed tears cascading down her cheeks as more screams for her father escaped her mouth. The man swung his hand downward the blade of the kunai coming to end her life. Inching back with her eyes tightly shut she screamed readying for the blow, but it never came, opening her eyes she looked up to see a red haired man standing there tightly gripping the mans wrist before kicking him into the others. Sakura's eyes light up as she began to cry happily the man turned to reveal it was Sasori, he bent down and cut the restraints lifting Sakura up into his arms.
"Tou-san!" She cried into his shoulder wrapping her small arms around his.
"Shh, it's alright, daddy's here now." He whispered jumping through the trees to escape his persuers. They followed closly behind him along with other Suna Shinobi.
"DADDY!" Sakura screamed when Sasori was knocked out of a tree and she was wripped from her fathers arms.
"Let her go Kazekage!" Sasori shouted being restrained by two Anbu's.
"I think not Akasuna no Sasori. We will not harm her but merely set a new fate for you and her both." The Kazkage answered handing Sakura to another anbu who held her by the elbows standing her on the ground.
"DADDY!" Sakura screamed trying to pull herself from the anbu but she wasn't strong enough. Sasori gave the girl a sad apologetic look.
"I will wipe every memory of you out of her head, so one day when your paths cross it will be ninja versus rogue ninja. Sakura will be your death, or you will be hers." The Kazekage laughed swiftly going through a few hand signs before shouting out a jutsu. Sakura's eyes widened watching the magic of the jutsu flying towards.
"TOU-SAN!!!!" Sakura screamed as it hit her hearing the screams for her coming from her father. She laid there on the ground looking up at the trees and her vision soon went black.
'Tou-San I will never forget you...please find me...because I will be looking for you.' Was the last of her normal thoughts
Opening my eyes I shot up to a sitting position covering my ears and screaming curling myself up into a ball shacking. I felt someones arms around me running their hand running down my hair whispering comforting sounds. Their embrace was warm and I moved more into it my hands shot out and held onto their shirt.
"It's alright Sakura...daddy's here." I heard Sasori whisper rocking me back and forth as my screams reduced to sobs. Soon I stopped crying and we were still in the dojo, I could tell that everyone was trying not to look over, but there pittied filled faces gave them all away.
"I'm fine." I managed out and he helped me stand and we walked over to where everyone finally gathered.
"Alright let's get you introduced to everyone shall we?" Sasori teased poking his finger into my waist, I guess he was trying to tickle me.
"Dad...I'm hardly ticklish anymore." I groaned rolling my eyes, he just chuckled and ruffled my hair.
"Okay first off our leader was the one you were talking to earlier before he made you black out. His name is Pein, and his partner slash girlfriend I guess, her name is Konan. She has a few medic skills." He explained to me.
"Then why do you guys need me as a medic?" I asked with raised eyebrows.
"Because you're more skillful than I am." The woman Konan explained to me with a smirk, i just shrugged.
"The man who loves to cuss and kill just about everyone and fuck every female he sees is Hidan...I promise to never leave you alone in the same room as him, he's also an immortal. His partner is our accountant, this is Kakuzu. If you're ever able to steal money from him without having to pay him back or get him to buy you something without you haveing to pay him back then Pein will have a prize. No one has won yet." Sasori muttered the last part.
".....We'll see, but then again money is of no interest to me." I explained, my dad just rolled his eyes.
"Of course you know Kisame, Itachi and Deidara already so you need no introductions for them. Our little one eyed masked one is Tobi...his hyperness surpasses even Naruto's and his partner is our clea up on missions. He is Zetsu." Sasori finished explaining. I looked to everyone examining them all.
"That was easy enough, better than trying to memorize all the elders in Konoha!" I giggled running my fingers through my hair.
Well duh! All of their names are long and confusing! Inner me shouted, I kept myself from rolling my eyes at her.
"So have you calculated anything else from us?" Hidan asked me with a devilish smirk. I narrowed my eyes at him.
"I can probably kick your ass." I hissed at him putting my hands on my hips. Everyone went really quiet and my dad slapped his forehead shacking his head. This was too funny.
"Well now looks like we figured out your test. Fight Hidan, let's see your abillities." Pein said walking off the others in tow.
"I'm so going to fuck you over Pinky!" Hidan laughed walking to one end of the dojo. I stopped at the other end fists clenched.
'NO ONE CALLS US PINKY! CHA!' Inner and myself both thought, my face went serious and I turned to face Hidan getting into my fighting stance. Hidan transformed into some skeleton form and also got ready to attack.
"FIGHT!" Pein shouted and Hidan dashed for me head on.
"I'M FUCKING COMING FOR YOU BITCH!" Hidan yelled half way to me.
"DON'T JUST STAND THERE SAKURA....ATTACK HIM! DON'T GET PIG HEADED!" I heard my father yell to me. I simply smirked.
"I'm not....DODGE THIS!" I yelled, raising my fist up into the ground my hand glowing a bright green then slammed it down into the ground boulders of earth floated up, flattening my fist to open plamed, I balanced myself and spun kicking the boulder seeing it smash right into Hidan sending it backwards. I knew I blind sided him, because he couldn't see my movements. Standing up i watched Hidan push the boulder off him glarring at me.
"What?...Is that all you got?" I taunted tilting my head sideways and smirked.
"You little piece of shit!" Hidan hissed throwing out his scyth and it flew towards me, I had frozen at his words.
"You fucking piece of shit! I knew you were worthless...you should have never been born!" Sakura's foster father yelled punching and kicking a 10 year old Sakura.
"No, no please stop it!" She screamed.
"SAKURA!" I heard Itachi and Sasori both yell out, right before the scyth hit me it was stop by what looked like rose vines. I felt a bead of sweat rolling down the side of my face as my chest began to restrict, making it difficult to breath.
"Pinky?" I heard Hidan shout across the way, he was closer to me now.
"I will make you wish you were never born you worthless pathetic LITTLE MONSTER!" His words echoed loudly.
"STOP!!!!!!!!!" I heard myself scream the ground beneath us rapidly breaking apart, my fingers tangled in to my hair and i fell to my knees seeing the boulders beginning to spin around me. But it wouldn't stop...I couldn't stop!
"SAKURA!" I heard Itachi yell out and I saw that he had jumped to above me. He dodged some of the boulders that flew towards him and landed by me wrapping me protectively in his arms.
"ITACHI GET OUT OF THERE!" Pein yelled, and I knew why, my mind had taken control over my actions. It believed I was in danger again, thinking Itachi was the danger. I sensed the smaller boulders form into spikes and needles flying towards us. Itachi's arms tightened around me and I knew then he wasn't going to leave.
'I can't let him get hurt for my actions!' I thought to myself dropping my hands to the side sliding a kunai from one of my leg pouches. Closing my eyes and leaning more into Itachi's embrace I jammed the blade into my stomach.
"Sakura!" I heard Itachi shout as the spikes and needles fell to the ground dispersing into dust. Konan was the first over to us and carefully pried the kunai out of my stomach.
"Why'd you do it?" He asked letting Sasori rest my head onto his lap. They both had questioning looks...they all did. I laughed dryly to myself thinking it stupid of myself that I just got out of the infirmary and now I am right back in it.
"I guess I didn't want...anyone else's death...on my conscious...especially if it was someone, I'd blame myself for...if I was the reason...they had died." I explained trying to keep myself from falling unconscious.
"Sweety, why'd you freeze up? Can you answer that, don't force yourself if you can't." Sasori whispered doubling over and resting his forehead onto mine his eyes were closed. He was worried, something that he doesn't really show very often.
"I'm not...pathetic or... a monster....I'll prove that...to...konoha." I breathed out and the last of my will to stay awake died out and I fell unconscious again. By now I really did hate myself, everyone was right, Sasuke was right... I am weak.
"Sakura sweety, let's go you'll be late for school!" 11 year old Sakura heard her mother shout from downstairs. Sakura rolled her eyes poking her head out the door.
"Schools out today Kaa-San! Naruto blew up the cafeteria again, remember I gave you a note on that yesterday!" She shouted towards the stairs. It was true, Naruto had blown up the cafeteria but he did it with her help. She never got into trouble because Naruto would take full blame by the time she was going to confess. She adored him for it, because one everyone got freedom from school an extra day on the weekend and all Naruto got was and extra hour of class on Thursday.
"Well, alright sweety, so you know I am leaving on my mission now. I won't be back for a couple days so mind your father and behave okay?" Her mother yelled up the stairs again, Sakura just kept her hand rested on her silver hair brush eyes blank. She hated her father, and she hated her mother. One her father beat her, and second her mother was always blind to it or just turned the other way went it happened.
"Sakura did you hear me?!" Her mother shouted again.
"Yes ma'am!" She shouted back then sighed hearing the front door shut signaling that her mother had already left. Her father didn't work as a ninja anymore he kept his work to analyzing other ninja's weaknesses and breaking codes or secrets for the Hokage. So in other words, he was home a lot and usually the one to babysit her. Slowly walking out of her room she walked down the hall placing her hand on the railing to the stairs and silently made her way down. She needed to get out of the house before he saw her. If she knew that her mother was leaving on a mission, she would have faked going to school just to get out of the house. Stepping off the last stop she calculated that it was 7 steps to reach the door, 2 seconds to slip into her sandals and get out the door. She took the chance and ran. Before she could reach her shoes a hand shot out and pinned her roughly to the wall by her neck. Looking up with horrified eyes Sakura saw her father standing right there with a angry hate filled expression. His grip tightened around her neck, Sakura let out a strangled gasp.
"And where do you think you're going Sakura? You have no school today or the rest of the weekend. Mommy isn't going to be home until Monday, so we're going to have loads of fun! Aren't we sweety?!" He snapped throwing her to the hardwood floor away from the door, Sakura scrambled away and ran back up the stairs. She heard her father laughing but never heard him coming up the stairs. Sliding to underneath her bed she laid there pantings eyes full of fear. She steadied her breathing and silenced it and just laid for hours waiting for anything to happen, but nothing did. Crawling back out she padded over to her open door and looked out both ways and above her before heading back over to the stairs. She heard no sounds coming from downstairs, so she made her way down again, not to leave but because she was hungry. Reaching the bottom step she saw that her fathers shoes were gone, meaning he had left and had a babysitter watching her.
"Uh...oh." Was all she mangaed out before getting grabbed and being dragged back up the stairs.
"Lem'me go!" She struggled clawing her nails into the persons arm.
"You're not getting away this time Sakura. Your father put me in charge for the day." The man laughed walking into a guest bedroom throwing her to the floor in front of him. She felt her teeth bite down onto her lip and bust open. She chocked back a strangled cry when the man forced to her feet and stepped back to the bed and sat down, he was already shirtless.
"Strip." He ordered glarring at her dangerously. Sakura gulped slowly bringing her hand up the the back of her neck and began unzipping her red dress. Tears slid down her cheeks as she pushed the sleeves off her shoulders letting the material fall to the floor before doing the same to her shorts; leaving her in her undershirt and girl boxer shorts shivering in fear watching the man lick his lips at her. It made her sick to her stomach.
"All of it Sakura." He said nodding his head to her signaling to take the shirt and boxer shorts off. Shackily bringing her hand up she slid the shirt off first dropping it by her feet keeping her eyes tightly shut as tears kept falling down her cheeks her hands sliding the shorts down her legs leaving her completly exposed. This wasn't the first time, but it hurt every time and she always felt disgusting afterwards, she never wanted it. Standing there she kept to her spot hearing him get up and walk over till he stood behind her and knelt downhis hands planted on her shoulders. She shivered when he began leaving trails of kiss down her neck onto her shoulder his hands slid down her arms wrapping around her waist.
"Pl-please...stop!" She begged chocking out a sob. The man ignored her his hand coming up and cupping her small breast pinching the nipple, Sakura gasped trying to pull away but he held onto her tighter pinching harder. The arm still wrapped around her waist moved lower and his hand rubbed over her wet folds.
"Looks like you body says otherwise Sakura-Chan." He whispered huskily into her ear slipping a finger into her, she gasped out trying to double over but he pushed her back to standing straight plunging his finger in and out of her. Small pants escaped her mouth and she forced back the unwanted moans. Slipping a second finger into her Sakura squirmed in discomfort letting out a whimper of pain as he immediatly began plunging them in and out before she could get used to the extra limb.
"I bet that feels nice Sakura...your body wants this...give into it." He whispered pulling his finges out of her and shoved to the floor slipping her onto her back. Sakura bit back sob as both of his hands squeezed her breats before sliding down her chest, her stomach and down to her legs forcing them to bend. She watched him stand to his feet and undid the buckle of his pants and dropped them down, swollowing a cry she tightly shut her eyes feeling him pull her legs up and hoist the over his shoulders positioning the head of his erection at her entrance. Using on of his hands to pin her hands above her head she shoved his entire length into her. Sakura screamed out in pain her nails digging into the wood floor leaving scratch marks. Pulling until the tips of his erection was out he than slammed back into her causing her to scream out again for him to stop.
"Does it hurt Sakura?! I bet it does! Scream for me you little shit!" He hissed into ear before biting down onto her neck pulling out of her again and slamming back in over and over. Sakura screamed out until her voice cracked when he spilt his seed into her but she couls still feel his full length inside of her.
"Oh, you're hoping we're done don't you? Guess again you little shit I'm going to fill up every opening in you, just as your father instructed me to do." He hissed dragging her to her feet and pushed her back up against the wall lifting her legs up and forcing her to wrap them around his waist he still had one hand holding her wrists above her head as he entered her again but analy. Sakura felt her skin tare and burn as he pushed all the way into her pushing his whole body against hers kissing and biting at her neck moving in and out of her without letting her adjust again.
"STOP IT!" She screamed out trying to pull her arms free but her gripped onto them tighter slamming into her harder and faster kissing her on the lips forcing his tongue into her mouth silencing her screams when he released into her dropping her to the floor when he pulled out his erection by her head. Lifting her to her knees by her hair he forced himself into her mouth.
"If you even dare bite, you will wish you HADN'T! No suck you little shit, and you will swallow." He threatened holding her by her hair and thrusted in and out of her mouth ignoring her when she began gaging. Half way through it she passed out from suffocation and woke up still naked and covered in cum laying in the bathroom tub of her bedroom.
Opening my eyes I could feel tears running down my cheeks at the memory that happened long ago. Sitting up i covered my mouth to silence the sob that tried to escape, I wasn't alone in the room I could feel two presences in here with me and they were both asleep. I had no intention of waking them up, grabbing a pillow i rested it on my drawn up knees and burried my face into it rocking back in fourth letting out sobs. My hands gripped onto my arms and i felt my nails pierce through the skin and I cried harder. The dream felt so real again and I could that mans touches all over me, I could feel him inside of me.
"Sakura, un? Are you alright?" I heard Deidara ask sitting on the bed next to me. I didn't answer and kept on rocking back and fourth crying. His arms wrapped around me holding me still. I was scared, I couldn't get it out of my head and it hurt very badly.
"Sasori, un, somethings wrong!" I heard Deidara shout to Sasori. I heard my father jump up from their bed and run over to mine kneeling on the bed in front of me.
"Sakura honey, what's wrong? What happened?" He asked lifting my head from the pillow his hands caressing my cheeks. I chocked on my sobs feeling my body shack in tremors.
"Deidara go get Pein...NOW!" Sasori yelled, Deidara was out of the room in an instant and i was pulled into my fathers warm embrace whispering comforting words to me.
"Make it stop...make it stop...I don't want to remember anymore! Not my life in that fucking house in Konoha!" I cried out digging my fingers into his shirt, his arms tightened around me protectively.
"Everything will be alright...I'm here no one can hurt you." He said running his fingers through my hair.
"Be brave, little one
Make a wish for each sad little tear
Hold your head up, though no one is near
Someone's waiting for you
Don't cry, little one
There'll be a smile where a frown used to be
You'll be part of the love that you see
Someone's waiting for you
Always keep a little prayer in your pocket
And you're sure to see the light
Soon ther'll be joy and happiness
And your little world will be bright
Have faith, little one
Till your hopes and your wishes come true
You must try to be brave, little one
Someone's waiting to love you." I heard my father sing and the sobs I cried died down leaving me feeling numb inside and I knew my eyes showed it. I felts my fathers cheek resting my head as he rocked me back and forth. He looked up when Deidara ran back in with Pein.
"What happened?" Pein asked looking to me then to Sasori.
"Are you still holding that Jutsu over her, where she sees her memories?" He asked him looking back down at me.
"The Justu ended the moment she woke up! It only brings out locked up memories not memories she wishes to forget and keep in the back of her mind. That isn't any Jutsu's doing but her own doing Sasori." Pein explained seriously catching on with the situation.
"What did she remember Sasori no Dana?" Deidara asked out of breath.
"Sakura honey?" My father asked me trying to look at my face but I kept pushing my head downward to avoid looking into his eyes.
"Honey you need to talk to me please. I need to know!" He said rubbing my shoulders.
"Why does it matter...the mans' already dead!" I snapped involuntarily pulling away curling up into my knees. I felt the bed shift again, someone had sat down again.
"Sakura, who cares. What matters is that you need to tell us what happened so you can eventually heal from the memory." I heard Pein tell me.
"No...it doesn't matter because that man who adopted me will always find a way to get me...to hurt me. I will never open my mouth...never again." I cried, my father grabbed my shoulders.
"Listen to me Sakura! And look at me!" He hissed, I shuddered at his tone but obeyed though I hated when people saw me cry.
"Whatever that man has done...He...will...PAY! Now tell me what he did to you so I can help you!" He pleaded shaking me a little. My body began to shack again as I forced myself to remember that night again and told them everything feeling my protective wall arouund me fall apart to the ground. I couldn't stop crying so I didn't hear the words exchanged between Pein and my father, Deidara had sat by me again and hugged me.
"We'll help you get through this Sakura-Chan...we all will un." He whispered to me laying my back down and covered me up. I cried myself to sleep burried into either my fathers or Deidaras chest. Things weren't going right and I had a feeling they were just about to get worst.
There ya go chapter two, i hate my lemon/rape scene...but it had to be down *shivers* i hate typing those. But oh well Review and tell me what you think. And the song used is "Someone's Waiting For You" from the movie "The Rescuers"