Two Minds, One Choice
Chapter 2, Jonny's Perspective
It was 10 minutes til the end of our shift, we were all drained after the long and emotional night, after hearing that our friends and colleagues were involved in a fatal car accident and the future was looking pretty grim for two of them, and then walking into the staff room to see one of my oldest friends from nursing college, sitting there with the crazy and argumentative relatives of a mollycoddled mummy's boy having a laugh and a joke about anything and everything, this day will be one i wont be forgetting in a hurry. The moment i heard Bonnie's voice, i knew it was her, i had a feeling and i was right. Hours later we were stood at the medicine trolley, stock checking and having a catch up, i saw Jac, standing in the doorway, looking at us both, tears building up in her eyes, her breathing gradually getting louder and deeper, i could see the colour just drain away from her already pale skin as we stood there laughing and joking. I put it down to her hormones, they had been all over the place since she was diagnosed with endometriosis, and the fact that she had, had a right strop on her all through the shift and had been throwing starky comments left right and centre at anyone in her path, anyway she's 6 months pregnant and this was normal for women to be like this, but not Jac, jac was different, Jac was strong, she rarely showed her emotions, rarely showed that she was weak and vulnerable, at this point i began to worry about her, but didn't speak up, to afraid for her to shut me out again, just as i had got her to open up to me. After 5 minutes of her standing there, i could see her walking away, clutching onto her bump, where our little girl lay comfortably and safely. I really wanted to go after her, but I really wanted to stay and catch up with Bonnie, a friend who i hadn't seen in over 10 years and probably wont see her after today for god knows how long. 30 minutes later we both made our way around the ward, checking on the patients and making sure they had enough water, needed any assistance and taking obs, on my travels i started to worry about Jac, i know how jealous and vulnerable she gets when i see old friends, and as i came to think about it, i hadn't seen her in a while and i was worried that she's gone and done something stupid again, all these thoughts were running through my mind, as i secretly wasn't over the 'Termination' business, why was i thinking that she would do this to us, to our little girl again! I stood in the doorway to bay 3 in a little world of my own, as i thought about all the things that Jac could have done in the short time that i hadn't seen her.
After standing, staring in to thin air about the loves of my life, bonnie brushed past me, "Hey Maconie, what's wrong with this face?" She asked, sensing something was wrong, i snapped back into reality, i brushed myself together and started walking with bonnie, "Nothing wrong with me, i'm A ok!" I replied , not in the mood to talk about Jac as i was still panicking as i reached the end of the corridor, i quietly walked up to the door, not making a sound just in case she was in there, i slowly opened the door to see the room was empty. I walked over to her desk, looking for a sign or to tell me where she had gone to. When i approached the desk all i could see was a photo frame with 3 scan pictures of our daughter, all lined up in order and with the dates they were taken on written in silver pen, so it was visible, i reached into my pocket, still looking at the door, which was a jar, so i could hear any voices or footsteps that were heading my way, and pulled out the flat keys which she had given me a few hours ago. I sat there smiling, thinking about our future, about how perfect life is going to be when we are a little family, when our baby girl was born and the life me and jac are going to give her, after 3 minutes of sitting there looking at the keys, daydreaming about our future, i heard an emergency call, "Quick, cardiac arrest, get the de fib and prep theatre 1!" A voice called that sounded familiar. I placed the keys on the desk without thinking and ran out as quickly as i could. I entered the ward to see a load of people running into bay 2, suddenly a doctor brushed past me, her fiery red hair flowing freely as she ran towards the emergency call, it was jac, where she had appeared from i will never know, i had searched the whole ward for her even her office and she appears from no where. She certainly was mysterious, maybe thats one of the many reasons why i love her.
As we got into theatre, the room stood still as Jac and Mo worked frantically on the patient who had a blocked aoertic valve and needed a stent graft urgently. 20 minutes of silence later, the feisty women sighed with relief as the stent seemed to be holding. "You ok to finish up here Jac, i need to catch up on this transplant case!" Mo said as she began to take her scrubs off, "Sure go ahead, ill be fine!" Jac said still looking into the patients cavity, not even glancing up to look at me. When Mo had left theatre, i walked over to her and stood next to her, "Where have you been all this time?" I asked quietly so no one else could hear us, making her pause what she was doing, she turned her head to face me, when our eyes met, she stared into them, i could almost feel the daggers stabbing me directly in my pupils. I could feel her acid whit about to be unleashed, "I had a meeting with Eliot and then i went to the toilet! Anything else you want to know nurse maconie?" She answered , with her acid whit in full swing almost biting my head off in the process.
We had been out of theatre for almost an hour now and again Jac had gone AWOL, little did i know she had gone into hiding in her office, Bonnie walked past the nurses station and pulled a face as she sat down next to me, "You aint still pining over that ginger witch are you Maconie, You don't need to take that off of a doctor, mother of your child or not!" Bonnie said, trying to comfort me when really all she was doing was making the situation worse than it actually is, i couldn't hold it anymore, "Bonnie you really don't get it do you, i love her, i love our baby! I would do anything to just be with her right now and take all of her worries and pain away but i cant i i just cant ok!" i said with a sudden urge of anger ripping through my body as i walked past her and headed towards the locker room, slamming the door behind me , to say bonnie was shocked was an understatement. A few seconds later bonnie opened the door slowly, " Jonny mac is it safe to enter?" she joked as she entered the room...
Im gonna finish this off on the next chapter at the beginning i went into more detail than i thought i would have LOL! Then ill just continue the narrative story underneath probably wont be until next weekend as i have work all day everyday next week sorry !x
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