March 12 th 1536
They days and weeks that followed the loss of our second child are as history tells them. The vipers that planned and hunger for my demise began to whisper the lies of infidelity into Henry ears. A simple idea to finish me off was far from the truth of what was really happening between me and my king. His angry at me was true though the reason for it were very different from what the world would ever believe, for each time he came to see me I would try and convince him to set my plan into motion.
"How are you today my love?"
"You know how I am Henry hurt and unhappy. Please just let me go!"
"Not this again Anne I will not listen! Do you understand ENOUGH!"
"NO HENRY! it's not enough I wish to leave this horrid life of queen and start fresh, I known you don't believe me but."
"I DON'T BELIEVE YOU! That's what you see as the problem to this plan? Huh Anne you're not stupid you never have been. I won't let you leave because I love you and…? "
"And? There a more selfish reason then the first"
"Oh really I'm selfish, huh you're not the only one in pain Anne. How long have I wanted a son almost 20 years and I've lost them again and again because of Katherine lack of ability to produce a living child. And now I lose them from you all because someone else hunger's for the power you stole from Katherine."
" How could you be so cruel "I screamed as my tears turn in heartbroken sobs henry expression turn's from one of anger to true anguish, a women's tears always were his undoing as he swore in them the truth of what we suffer in silence.
Sigh "I don't blame you Anne, how could I without hating myself as well. The second reason is simple but true it is selfish, what do you think I will become without you by me side?"
A long silence followed his statement I knew he was waiting for me to answer him but how could I, I just couldn't or in truth wouldn't allow myself to grasp his meaning.
"Oh just spell it out Henry I don't understand "
"A monster Anne I would punish the world, but mostly the innocent people in my court because they forced you to leave me. All for their own greed and power! They have already stolen two of our children; will you let them steal you as well?"
As his piercing blue eyes burned into mine I let the power of our love overtake me for just a moment as I ran into his arm and felt the pure power we held over each other I knew then and there I could never really leave his side. Divorce would create a monster a tyrant to be forgotten and unloved by his people in time. I could never allow myself to be truly that selfish, but then the thought struck me I wouldn't leave his side by law but by death instead, oh the answer was always there to let my enemies think they won would pave the way for mine and henry future children. As I smiled to myself I felt henry pull back an action I couldn't no wouldn't allow! I kissed him forcefully and felt pleasure fall over him as he carried me to our bed, we made love for the first time in weeks without any hate fuelling our passion instead it was pure unending love this moment of peace would seal my truth fate in the mere week that's followed.