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Misunderstandings
BPOV
Pulling my shirt over my head my mind was only capable of one worded thoughts. Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit!
Charlie; my father; would be home in literally a couple of minutes and all I could think about was Emmett. Oh God! I had just made out with Emmett Cullen! He had seen me, all of me. I could still feel his ice cold hands touching my naked skin, feel his hard - Christ! Breathe Bella. In… good. Now out… right, now in again…
Once my brain had figured out that the whole process of breathing came naturally-'ish', I practically fell down the stairs; my feet were moving so fast; and rushed straight into the kitchen to start making breakfast. After taking out the jug of juice and popping in a few slices of bread to toast I started a pot of coffee. Charlie would probably need the caffeine if he was coming back this early; fishing postponed due to hangover. Again.
Taking a deep breath I decided to brave the living room. At a quick glance it looked empty but I soon saw his feet hanging over the arm of the couch. Knowing he already knew I was there I walked to the back of the couch and peered down at him. His eyes were closed and he had a wide smile across his face; he looked unbelievably cute, I felt absurdly compelled to trace his lips with my finger… but resisted the temptation.
"Hi" I whispered lamely.
He opened his soft topaz eyes and I melted. "Hey" he smiled, "Umm Charlie's pulling up out front. Do you want me to go?" he asked his eyes full of uncertainty.
"No. I don't want you to go, but I don't think it would be a good idea for you to be here when he comes in, it wouldn't look very good, you know?" I sighed.
"How about I run back to the house and get my car then, I could come back and give you a ride to school? That way I'll get to see you again and the chief will be none the wiser about your night time activities regarding the opposite sex" he teased.
I felt myself blush when he said that he wanted to see me again but tried to keep my voice as casual as I could. I'm sure I failed miserably.
"Um, Yeah. That would be great. But as for my night time activities with the opposite sex, if I remember correctly I was doing perfectly fine on my own until you invited yourself into my room. Tsk, tsk on you Mr. Cullen, never would have thought you a peeping tom. Should I have you brought up on charges for just trespassing or should I add sexual deviancy too?" I threatened mockingly.
Chuckling he stood up and leapt over the back of the couch, wrapping his arm around my waist he lead me into the kitchen as the cruiser came to a stop in the driveway.
"Me? A sexual deviant? Hmm. I'll see you soon" he laughed, placing an all too brief kiss upon my lips before disappearing out of the back door and into the woods.
As I closed the back door I could hear Charlie walking through the front one, his weary trudge confirming my cancellation suspicions; he was hung over.
Joining me in the kitchen he slumped down in his usual chair resting his head on his arms, turning it sideways he realised I was watching him.
"Hey Bells" he croaked.
"Good morning party animal" I smiled cheerfully offering him a steaming mug, "Coffee?"
"Ugh don't. I'm sure that this situation is supposed to be the other way around you know" he groaned, greedily gulping at his drink.
"Probably, but I rather prefer you being the in house party animal. I actually want to graduate high school this year thanks. It wouldn't do for me to be the one staying out on a school night". I laughed as a deep blush spread across his cheeks.
"Indeed. Why I ever agreed to go on a midweek fish I'll never know… I think I may end up sleeping last night off in the stations cells at this rate" he grumbled to himself before sitting up straighter in his chair, meeting my gaze, "So. You're graduating in about a month then? Your birthday is shortly after isn't it? The big one nine" he beamed.
That grin scared the hell out of me. I answered hesitantly.
"Yeah, I guess" I mumbled, desperately pleading in my head; 'Please God, not a party. Please!'
"Well. I know your not a fan of the topic so I'll make this quick. You're Mom and I have discussed it and we have decided to forgo the usual celebration, instead we are going to pool our resources and replace the antique upstairs. We are going to get you a new laptop for when you leave for school" he smiled.
My jaw hit the floor.
"Y-You don't have to do that Dad. I-I have savings, I can use them to buy one".
He frowned deeply at me. Oh crap! Cue lecture… now.
"Isabella Marie Swan. You will not use your savings. I am your Father, Renee is your Mother. I, We are doing this for you. Stop being so bloody independent just this once" he scowled.
I knew there wasn't a chance I was going to win this argument, so in a classically melodramatic fashion I flung my arms into the air, "Ugh fine! But just so you know I am going to frown, sulk and pout when you give it to me".
He stood up, out right laughed at me then rolling his eyes walked out the kitchen door; I heard him mutter to himself as he climbed the stairs though, "I wouldn't expect anything less".
Well. Humph.
Charlie and I had bonded a lot over the last year, we were still very private people who liked our own space but our relationship had become less distant; like that of housemates co-habiting; and more like that of a Father and daughter. It was poignant that it took Edward leaving me; abandoning me; for us to become more than strangers to one another, to embrace each other as a parent and child should.
I distractedly tried to busy myself; I set a load of laundry to wash, I cleared up after breakfast, I started to wash the dishes; but my mind was having none of it. It had one sole focus, and it wasn't going to let me ignore it. Him. Emmett Cullen.
I couldn't stop thinking about what had happened, how good it felt to have him holding me, kissing me. He wasn't gentle; he didn't touch me like I was a porcelain doll. He wasn't hesitant. He knew what he wanted and was passionate in his pursuit to get it. I couldn't believe how very right it had felt either. I could only imagine what would have happened if Alice 'Oh God! Alice! She knew! She knows everything!'
Charlie snapped me out of my panic by clearing his throat behind me, "You alright there Bells?"
'Crap! I've been washing the same plate for almost five minutes!'
"I'm uh- fine. Yeah I'm fine Dad" I mumbled, placing the plate onto the draining rack.
"Hmm. Okay" he said narrowing his eyes at me, "I am going to head into the office, catch up on some paper work since I am not going to be fishing. I'll be back around seven but if you need me, ring me" he insisted, adding special emphasis to his instruction.
Ever since Edward had left Charlie had refused to let me suffer in silence and spend all my time brooding. After the first week; during which he dutifully provided Ben & Jerry's and Kleenex; my friends had started to spontaneously turn up to drag me shopping in Port Angeles, hiking down at the Rez, swimming down at First Beach. Charlie's feigned innocence assured me he had been behind it all and I loved him for it. The nights he had to work I found myself being babysat down at La Push, apparently the extended pack of wolves down there had decided every night was bonfire night when I was coming down; like they need the excuse to gorge themselves with copious amounts of food; I really didn't mind it all that much, I had become incredibly close to Emily during those nights. He had even managed to get me a job at Newton's; under the pretence of my needing to save for college of course. I dreaded to think about the levels of bribery and begging Charlie had been reduced to just to see me through my heartbreak. He never left me alone in my grief, he never once gave up hope that I would get over Edward.
Swallowing back the lump that had formed in my throat I shook my head; he was still waiting for me to answer him.
"Sure, sure. I'll be coming home after school so supper should be ready in time for kick off".
He laughed at my remark; clearly delighted that Jacob's vocabulary had rubbed off on me; but he was still looking at me, too intensely, for me to not realise his concern.
"Okay Bells, have a good day and for your own sake please don't zone out too much today" he chuckled as he headed towards the front door.
As soon as he left I attempted to sprint up the stairs, managing to trip myself twice. 'Progress' I thought to myself as I picked up my bag. My descent was slightly more calculated; I managed to get almost to the bottom before I ended up in a crumpled heap on my ass. 'Ow! That is definitely going to leave a mark'.
My fathers' warning was ringing in my ears as I dwelled upon my debilitating clumsiness. Seriously, after almost nineteen fucking years you'd think a person would have developed enough equilibrium to handle stairs! 'Ugh, get over it Swan, not going to happen'.
After dusting myself off I collapsed onto the couch to wait for Emmett to come back; 'if he came back' a voice in the back of my head lamented. I was flicking through the channels when I heard a gentle knock and the front door creak open. Looking back over my shoulder I saw Emmett standing there, in worn jeans and a black t-shirt. His eyes like liquid honey met mine and a slow grin spread across his face.
"Hey you".
I couldn't restrain my answering smile "Hi".
My voice was quiet and I even I could hear the nervousness in it. He shook his head a little and anxiety replaced his grin.
"Can I come in and talk to you for a minute?" he asked shifting nervously.
It worried me.
Why was he anxious? Why did he want to talk? Of course he would want to talk. He had obviously realised that last night… well this morning was a huge mistake. Of course he had! He's here to tell me he's leaving. Oh God'. I knew that he would regret it. He probably wants to make sure I didn't get the wrong idea, like some crazy lovesick puppy. It was only a stupid kiss! Easily the best kiss of my life but just a simple plain kiss to him. What was I thinking? What could I give him anyway? That was easy enough to answer. Nothing. A big fat nothing! Compared to his intensely physical relationship with Vampire sex goddess Rosalie I knew I had nothing to offer. I was just a pathetic fragile human virgin. Oh God! What was I thinking? I am such an idiot! It wasn't just a fucking kiss to me! I had let my defences down and invited him in without even realising it! Shit! Oh well, maybe it was better this way; get it over with quickly, like ripping off a Band-Aid.
Realising I hadn't answered him I mumbled an unintelligible response, indicating with my hand that he should come and sit down.
Walking quickly; so much so his outline blurred; he joined me on the couch dropping his head into his hands whilst taking in a deep, unnecessary, breath.
If I had any doubt about where this conversation was headed I didn't anymore.
'He was leaving'.
Unable to sit still I stood quickly and moved to the opposite end of the couch from him, I could feel my body trembling where I stood as an unsettlingly familiar pain started to tear through my chest.
'Please, please don't do this to me'.
As the screamed chant began to circle inside my mind I realised things like this just hurt more coming from one of them; which them I was referring to I couldn't decide. A Vampire or a Cullen.
EMPOV
As soon as I had sat on the couch, I heard her heart start to thunder in her chest, everything about her was screaming fear. Of course she was afraid of me! I busted in through her window last night and practically mauled her! Fuck! I am a worthless bag of shit! How could I have done that to her? She must absolutely fucking hate! I have to make her understand I never meant it. I have to tell her how sorry I am. Oh for fuck sake, I can't do this! I was sure last night that she wanted me too but now? She can't even sit on the same couch as me! Shit, I never wanted to hurt her! I know what I'll do… I'll get her a crowbar to hit me with after I have said my piece, she would only hurt herself if she was to try it with her bare hands. She should want to beat the shit out of me, after what I did to her. Oh God!
Taking another deep breath that I knew would do nothing to quell my inner turmoil I dropped my hands from my face and started talking.
"Bella, things can often look different in the light of day once you've had time to reconsider them", 'Fuck I am a sick scumbag', "I'm sorry for how I behaved last night, what I did it was uncalled for, you didn't deserve for me to treat you like that, I-" an angry hiss cut me off. I glanced up at her quickly and could see her literally trembling in fury; maybe I should get that crowbar now; her lips were slightly parted, her cheeks flushed and her eyes were shining with rage. She was beyond ethereal and absolutely enraged.
I swallowed instinctively.
"HOW BLOODY DARE YOU! YOU'RE NO BETTER THAN HIM! YOU HOW COULD YOU EMMETT?" she screamed venomously.
"I'm sorry Bella. I don't know what else to say to you, I know that everything about me draws you in and I took advantage of that. I truly am sorry".
"That's bullshit Emmett and you know it! I- I don't… ugh! Fuck! Why don't you just borrow his bloody speech and just piss off already! I can't take much more of this from you fucking vampires!"
She turned and ran from the room after her tirade was done, I heard her run up the stairs, stumbling on the last step but for the first time in my existence I couldn't make my body move.
I was rendered immobile, my jaw slack, hanging wide open.
What the hell was I supposed to do now? She loathes me… just like him… just like Edward. She thinks I came here to do the same as him? Didn't she want me to leave? If I stayed I knew that I would only make things worse for her. I had enough sense to know that I wouldn't be able to resist my desire for her; that much was evidently clear. I knew that she wouldn't; doesn't; want me like that so ultimately I would only end up making a fool of myself. I would end up luring her in with no chance of resisting me until it was over. I wouldn't put her in a situation like that again. I wouldn't take away her choice. Fuck! I knew what I had to do, but ugh… I didn't want too. I had felt lust before but what I was feeling for her was something else, something more. Every nerve in my body screamed for her. My arms yearned to hold her the second my eyes fell on her. Every thought I had had since I heard her moaning in the woods last night had been centred around her. I couldn't understand the intensity of my emotions, I had never felt anything like this to compare them to, but I knew that whatever I was feeling was a danger to her and like my bother I had to protect her from it. The only way I knew I of doing that was to leave. Would I be able to resist her long enough to say goodb-
Beep, Beep. Beep, Beep.
'Fucking phone!' I already knew who it was calling so I didn't waste time reading the caller ID, almost snapping it in half I flipped it open and raised it to my ear; regretting the action immediately.
"DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE" the voice on the other end screamed.
"Don't what Alice?"
"Leave her. Don't leave her. She loves you Emmett, she just hasn't realised it yet. She thought you regretted what happened last night, she assumed that you came to tell her you were leaving her. God knows I don't blame her. What the hell were you thinking Emmett!? Giving her that little speech you idiot! "Bella, things can often look different in the light of day once you've had time to reconsider them". Honestly Emmett! What was she supposed to think?"
"But. I didn't mean it like that".
"I know exactly what you meant to say Emmett, but you need to make her understand. Be honest with her and she'll forgive you, alright?"
"Honesty. Right. I can do that. Thanks for always saving me Alice; I almost ruined everything before it even had the chance to happen".
"Anytime Emmett. You know that. Now go get her. Please make things right. I miss her so much".
I was already standing outside her bedroom door by the time Alice had hung up, my mind solely focused on Alice's words; 'She loves you Emmett'.
I could hear her crying softly through the door, each droplet that rolled of her chin was like a knife twisting in my gut. I had hurt her already, but I was going to fix this. Knocking softly against the door; I wasn't going to enter her room unannounced again; I twisted the handle and pushed it open. And my cold dead heart broke.
She was kneeling in the middle of her bed, her whole body racked with hiccupping sobs. Before she could even register my presence I was at her side, her face cradled in my hands; my thumbs wiping away her tears as they fell.
"Bella. My God, Bella. I am so sorry. I made a real fucking mess of things didn't I?"
"Huhft" she sniffed, trying to pull her face from my hands.
I recited Alice's words for encouragement. 'Please don't let me screw this up'.
"Bella. Shh, I need you to stop crying and listen to me. Shh, Please listen", I said, attempting to sound authoritative.
She opened her mouth to object, but I silenced her, placing my hand over her mouth.
"Shh Bella, Please? I have been a complete and utter idiot and I know I've fucked up. I practically forced myself upon you when you were at your most vulnerable. You weren't thinking clearly and I took advantage of that. You have absolutely every right to be furious at me right now, I deserve it, believe me. It's just that when I came through your window and saw you like that, I was… well… I was stunned. And then after we talked and you fell I just… I just had to get to you before you hurt yourself. But the second I had you in my arms, the very moment I actually came into contact with your warm flushed skin, your scent overwhelmed me.
I wanted… no… I needed you like I have never needed anything else before in my entire existence. It felt like I was drawn to you, hopeless against the pull. Your skin, your body, your lips… I wanted it all. I should have stopped myself, but I didn't. Ashamedly, I gave into my desires. I'm sorry Bella, but my God, it just felt so unbelievably right. The second my mouth touched yours my whole body felt like it was on fire. I couldn't control myself Bella. I can't tell you how sorry I am for kissing you like that".
"You… you're… sorry because you kissed me?" she asked incredulously, her beautiful brown eyes wide.
"Yes" I mumbled, turning my head to the floor in shame. I couldn't look away from her completely though, so I settled for watching her from beneath my lashes.
"You think you took advantage of me? You think I didn't want you too?" she asked, a frown creasing her brow.
"Yes, I do. Everything about me entices you in Bella; it is what I am built to do. A human, despite how perceptive she may be about my kind, is powerless against that kind of allurement, especially when exposed to it so strongly. I wasn't thinking clearly and I took advantage of the situation Bella. I'm so sorry".
She's smiling? Why the hell is she smiling at me?
"Emmett. You didn't lure me in. Everything you felt I was already feeling long before you kissed me. I kissed you back remember. Did you sense even the slightest hint of reluctance? Kissing you was the most amazing thing I have ever felt. It was so intense, so passionate, I didn't want you to stop. I don't regret kissing you, and I don't want you too either. The only reason I reacted the way I did downstairs was because when you sat down it felt like you were going to say goodbye. I don't want that Emmett. I don't want you to go. All I could think about when you were talking was of everything I couldn't give you, all the things one of your own kind could. All the things Rosalie had given you. I had myself convinced I was just a rebound… whatever… to you".
Oh. My. God! This girl is something else. She didn't want me to regret kissing her! She doesn't want me to leave! She thought I was looking for a rebound fuck! Oh hell no!
"Fuck Bella! No! Christ! When I left you earlier… when I got back to the house, I thought you'd think about what happened and regret it. I thought you would think I was a total asshole for treating you like that. I mean I am your ex-boyfriend's brother for crying out loud and there I was, kissing you. I had my hands all over you Bella".
I couldn't escape the clarity of my memory as I remembered exactly where my hands had been and where I desperately wanted them to go nor could I disguise the low growl that rose up my throat as I remembered the scent of her arousal.
"Emmett. Did you once here me ask you to stop? Please listen to me okay. I am fine, more than fine actually, with what happened between us. I enjoyed every second of it. So what if your Edwards brother. He left me remember. I have done what he asked of me, it may have taken me a while, but I've moved on with my life. I am over him Emmett. I don't want him anymore.
"I'm sorry Bella. I'm sorry I am such an idiot. I never meant to hurt you; I never meant to upset you. What can I do to make you happy again? "I asked as I stroked a stray curl from her forehead, unleashing the full force of my eyes on her.
Wondrous girl that she is, she laughed at me.
"Quit trying to dazzle me Emmett, it won't work. You want me to be happy?"
I nodded vigorously, earning a round of giggles.
"Then promise me we won't talk about either Edward or Rosalie where possible, and please drop all this talk of taking advantage. It's a load of nonsense. I want to be happy Emmett; I want both of us to be happy."
"I can do that Bella, I'd do anything" I said, caressing her cheek with thumb.
"Anything?"
"Yep"
"How about you get me to school then, I am almost an hour late".
In the matter of a few seconds I had her cradled in my arms with her bag over my shoulder and was pulling open the door of Carlisle's Mercedes. Sliding into the driver's seat I smirked at her startled expression, keeping my eyes trained on hers I threw the car into reverse, stepping heavily on the accelerator as the car straightened out. We rode in contented silence the whole way to Fork's High school, not that I minded, the quickening of her heartbeat every time our eyes met told me everything I need to know.
I never came to Forks with the intention of staying but hell I was going to find out what Bella plans to do when she graduates in a couple of months.
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