Yoh sat up in his bed, glancing down at the empty space that la beside him, he could feel his eyes burning with tears. He closed his eyes tightly and clutched the blankets tightly. How could he not think about her. How was he meant to carry on with his cheerful self. There were so many problems that were flooding into his thoughts, Depression, anger, hatred all out numbering his happy, carefree thoughts that made him who he was. Was he going to lose himself. Who could he speak with.. Who would be able to help him.

He shook his head, and the moonlight slowly creped through his curtains, and across his bed. Clenching his eyes tightly, and burrowing his head into his knees, he cupped his hands over the back of his head, and cried. What more could he do without worrying the others. If he was to get out all his feelings alone, then when he was with the others he would be able to be more fake when talking with the others.

Outside of Yoh's door stood non other then Hao, he sighed, his hand hovering and hesitating on Yoh's door. He bit his lower lip and closed his eyes. He could hear his otouto crying, the thought of these feelings in his never ending smiling brother, brought up something that Hao had never felt before meeting Yoh. He was worried and didn't know what to do.. The weight of the world lay upon him and Yoh's shoulders.. Yoh was supposed to be the leader.. He was meant to be the one who knew what went down and when to back off. But now because of his current situation, Yoh's feelings had been crushed, and everything that he once loved and cared about was gone. Hao gave a small sigh before turning away from Yoh's door and heading back into his room.

The Funbari Onsen was the quietest it had ever been that night. So many dark thoughts lay upon a few peoples minds, apart from one persons. Whose realisation of a certain person had made that stupid smile crawl upon his face..

Horo sat smiling up at his ceiling Kororo sat watching her master slightly confused and yet happy. What was Horo thinking, who was he thinking about. Horo sighed closing his eyes, he turned to his small spirit and tilted his head to the side smiling even more.

"Kororo… What do you do, when you think you like someone, yet it's someone you shouldn't" he smiled again, before it turned into a small frown, his fringe covered his eyes, and the atmosphere became colder.

Kororo looked to Horo, and shook her head, flying onto his head and hugging into him as much as she could. He gave a faint smile and the room turned back to normal. He turned onto his side pulling the covers more over him, thinking about that one person. Whom he thought of as a 'friend' and a 'lover' he let out a small sigh, "Ren" and slowly drifted off to sleep.

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The morning that followed, was cold and restless. Yoh sat at the kitchen table, he was holding a cup in his hand with cold tea. He had sat like that for the past half hour. He was looking out the window, with a serious look upon his face. Amidamaru sat at the opposite end of the room watching his master. Yoh sighed and looked back to the others who were all laughing and talking as normal in the kitchen, he gave a faint smile and closed his eyes, looking back down and in his cup.

"Is that so, well.. Um.. I.. uh" Horo tried to think of something that could insult Ren, but he just wanted to keep a conversation going, to hear Ren's voice, at least by annoying him this way Ren spent and used most of his time with Horo.

"Exactly, it's highly likely that you would ever be able to do something as high classed as that" Ren closed his eyes, giving his usual smug smile.

Hao shook his head glancing at Yoh and back to Jeanne, he whispered "Babes, do you think.. That Yoh will ever be alright again?"

Jeanne looked to Hao and smiled "Are you worried Hao!" He looked to Jeanne and gave a small sigh, he nodded and looked back at the TV screen. Jeanne gave a small giggle and took a hold of Hao's hand, resting her head on his shoulder.

Horo sat down on his seat glancing at Ren now and then, he smiled picking up his controllers for his console and carried on playing 'need for speed: underground'

The atmosphere that appeared in the room when Yoh walked past to the bathroom, could not have been cut by even the strongest of knifes, everyone feel silent, from talking, laughing or even in the midst of a cough. Horo's face started to go blue as he held in his cough that he was in the midst of, he let out a gasp and coughed really loudly as Yoh entered the bathroom closing the door behind him. Ren looked to Horo and smiled before thinking about something they could do to help Yoh out more.

Ren stood up and headed into his room, Horo glanced to where Ren was and switched off his game quickly "Um.. I have to wash Kororo!" he sweat dropped, before smiling and walked away from the others, he walked over to Ren's room, and held his hand up, hesitating to knock. What was he thinking, he didn't truly know his feelings towards Ren, and who was to say that the Tao would even agree to the feelings, he would probably make fun of him or beat him in for even having a loving thought about him. Ren would probably take it offensively.

However whilst Horo was in this deep thought, he hadn't realised that Ren had already opened the door because subconsciously Horo had knocked, his face turned bright red as he stared straight into Ren's eyes. He gulps loudly, trying to open his mouth and speak but nothing came out. Until that voice, the voice that made living just that little bit better. Ren had spoken.

"You idiot, why are you looking at me like that? What do you want?" although it wasn't the most angelic of sayings.. Horo was still loving the fact that those eyes were concentrated on him, and those harsh sayings were the only ones that Ren would only use for him. Horo smiled closing his eyes and relaxing.

"Ren, I just wanted to ask.. If I could play on your PSP again.. I can't stand the atmosphere that's there whenever Yoh walks into the room, I want to help the guy but I think leave him alone for now and then we should have a few words with him"

Ren shook his head and turned from Horo allowing him to enter his neat and tidy room. Horo looked about amazed. However the turn of events that was about to happen was not expected by the two shaman neither of them, would have ever believed what happened next, would decided both their feelings and fates.

"You idiot, I didn't need a huge story. All you needed to say was about the PSP"

Horo followed after Ren to his bed side cabinet and picked up the PSP. Horo smiled and just as he moved closer to Ren his shoe was untied and he was standing on his lace with his other foot. There was silence in the house, and then a loud crash from upstairs. Ren lay on his bed, his eyes wide and confused on how he had ended up like this. Horo was now on top of the Tao and to both of their surprise, their lips were locked together.

Neither moved, and neither stopped. They sat staring into each others eyes until they heard Pirika shouting for them, with worry in her voice wondering what the loud crash was. Horo quickly leaped off of Ren blushing madly. Ren lay there, propping himself up with his elbows he looked to Horo, and also started to blush. Pirika walked into Ren's room and looked to them both she sighed, folding her arms across her chest, she shook her head and glared at them both.

"Can't you two just play nice for once. Instead of always attacking and fighting each other, you had me worried"

Horo looked to Ren and back to Pirika, he gave his usual goofey smile and shook his head his hands waving in front of him. He didn't know what to do or say.

"Pirika, it's nothing like that.. Um"

Ren sighed watching Horo trying to frantically resolve the matter. He sat up and looked to Pirika "I slipped on my carpet and landed on my bed loudly. It's not like these things come with a silent switch." He smiled and stood up. Horo looked back to Ren and smiled, looking back to Pirika. She just sighed, obviously not caring about what their stories was. She looked to them both

"Fine, whatever" she walked away from them and downstairs, leaving them alone again.

"Ren.. I-" Before Horo could carry on Ren's finger was resting gently upon Horo's lips. His eyes once again looking at his black gentle eyes, Ren blushed and nodded to Horo.

"Horo, what happened was an accident.. Don't worry I won't tell anyone" Horo looked to Ren upset, trying to hold in his true feelings, he just nodded and headed towards the door.

"S-sorry I even bothered you Ren" Horo hung his head low and walked out the room, and back to the others, he sat at the couch looking to the TV upset but just carried on playing his game

Ren watched Horo leave and closed his eyes tightly, clutching his fists. He had told the truth, hadn't he? It's what they both felt but.. Last night. He remembered feeling Horo's hand as he took back his PSP. He shook his head and let out a deep sigh, blushing a little thinking about his finger upon Horo's soft lips. He gritted his teeth. He was right, to say that to Horo, wasn't he? It was just a mistake, a major mistake. He pressed his finger onto his own lips, the finger he had pressed to Horo's a couple of minutes ago. He smiled thinking about the kiss.