Author notes: Thanks to those who read and reviewed the first chapter. I'm glad my stupid fic had somehow affected you, LOL! Well, here's the second and last chapter that tells about Reborn's side of the story. Hope you enjoy.

Warnings: This fic contains yaoi (malexmale), angst and character death.

Disclaimer: Amane-sensei owns it.

REBORN

1. Horror.

A groan rumbled inside his chest as he came, closing his eyes shut as he reveled on the opposite emotions that fought wildly inside his chest. He was happy to know that the dumb cow was still his but he couldn't help but feel sad as well when he knew that he was also hurting his lover in the process.

He exhaled and pulled his spent cock from his lover's bleeding orifice. He felt sorry for the physical pain but it was the only way to show Lambo that he owned him. His sad eyes traveled upwards and gazed wonderingly again at the purplish bruises that seemed to cover the dumb cow's waist, asking himself if he had also inflicted those ugly marks on him. He slowly released his lover's hips and as expected, the body completely fell down on the bed with a soft thud.

He took a deep breath and spoke. "Hey, stupid cow. Are you awake?" he asked in a cold voice.

No response was heard.

He nudged his lover's thigh with his knee, waiting for a reaction but there was none. He looked at the man's back and was somehow relieved to see it moving but in a very slow manner. Knotting his brows together, he violently tapped Lambo on the shoulder, everything around him seemed to stop in an instant as he saw the blood that stained the young Bovino's cheek. Silently panicking, he rolled his lover on his back and confirmed his fear, his eyes widening in horror.

2. Love.

He had never realized how he loved Lambo until now. He tried his best to keep his jaw from slacking as the doctor announced what was wrong with his lover but his efforts were useless. He still gawked and gaped as the doctor's words tattooed themselves in his head.

"He has Leukemia, Reborn-san. He's dying."

His heart thumped painfully in his chest, indescribable fear gripped him.

3. Lies

He was there, standing solemnly in a corner when the Bovino woke up. He fought the urge to run to him, ask him if he was okay, demand why he had kept his disease from him and the painful truth that he was dying. The Lightning Guardian looked around, his green eyes widening in shock as he saw him. He pushed himself off the wall and coolly approached him, his knuckles pale white inside his pockets.

Lambo looked down, avoiding his piercing gaze. He stopped beside his lover and just watched him, waiting if the other man would tell him the truth. Confusion and nervousness was anxious in the cow's features, probably wondering if he already knew his secret. He silently took a deep breath. "You're dying."

He felt his lover's body tensed. The other man slowly gazed at him and forced a smile on his face. "T-that's some funny joke."

In an instant, he felt anger wash over him like a tidal wave. "Stop fucking lying! I already know the truth! You're dying and you didn't tell me! Why the hell did you keep it from me?"

The guardian looked fearfully at him, then, he looked at his shaking hands, an expression of sadness gracing his face. "Why? You don't care about me anyway." He mumbled.

A stab. If the words he said were real weapons, he would've probably bled to death right then and there. He slapped his forehead and rubbed his temples, feeling like shit. "I was lying… dammit. I really do care about you, stupid cow."

4. Hate.

He hate himself. He knew it was too late to do that and regret everything he did to Lambo but he still felt it anyway. He knew he was at fault when he tried to cover his real emotions with coldness and sadism. It was wrong to treat the man he loved like he was some piece of shit but he couldn't help it. He thought showing affection was an act of showing weakness. He was Reborn, the Sun Arcobaleno. He was known for being strong and brave; there was no place for him to show weakness.

But now that he was about to lose the man he loved, he realized how stupid he was for thinking that way. Lambo was dying and all he did to his lover was bring him pain. It was too late now to make up to him. It was too late for him to show how he love and treasure the Lightning Guardian and it was all because of his stupid pride and senseless resolve.

He really, really hate himself.

5. Misery

Despite the pain he caused Lambo, the other man had still forgiven him. And through the forgiveness his lover had demonstrated, he only felt miserable. He definitely did not deserve to have Lambo.

It didn't take long for the entire Vongola to know about their Lightning Guardian's condition. Tsuna, Kyoko, Haru and Ipin cried when they found out. Yamamoto and Gokudera was on the verge of tears. Chrome also looked sad while Hibari had this sympathetic expression on his face. Everyone was traumatized with sadness and pain. Losing a friend was never easy after all.

After three weeks of staying in the hospital, Lambo decided to go home to the headquarters where he could be with his family. Kyoko and the girls would go to his room and feed him his favorite food while Tsuna and the other guardians would drop by sometimes to see how he was doing. As for Reborn, he would always visit his lover every morning and evening.

"You've changed." Lambo casually cited one evening as he lie down on his bed, his face pale and weak.

"I know." He replied as he held his lover's cold hand, playing with his fingers. He felt happy to be able to show his feelings even through small acts like this, but misery was still haunting him. He couldn't picture himself being alone once Lambo was gone. He wanted to prepare himself for what was coming but he knew no preparation could help him fight against the impending misery he was about to suffer after his lover's death.

6. Agony.

Two months. Lambo's life only took two months before the disease that slowly infected him took his life. His heart twisted and turned in pain, his entire being screaming in agony. He already expected the pain that would attack him, but he didn't expect that it was going to be this painful. Tears streamed silently down his face as he looked at the young Bovino's grave, gazing longingly and miserably at it with his raven eyes. He just couldn't imagine himself living without Lambo and now that he was gone, what would happen to him?

Was he going to die too? Continue living? Or forever wallow in this inescapable misery and intoxicating agony? God knew how he wanted to consider the first and last option but the Lightning Guardian's words before he died burned through his soul.

I know you're not dumb enough to kill yourself after my death. I'm going to be sad if I saw you in heaven or hell soon after I die.

Those were just words spoken probably in jest, but still it blew him strong enough to realize that his lover wanted him to live longer. He thought it was unfair, to continue bearing this horrifying agony alone while his lover look down at him in heaven or up at him in hell. But then, he deserved to carry that agony till the end for the countless sins and mistakes he did to the man he loved.

Carrying this heavy agony on his shoulder was his only way of making up for his sins and to remember his dumb cow.

Author Notes: I know sucky ending and maybe sucky chapter as well. Reviews are welcome and will be considered as love. Thanks for reading!