I have been alone for a long time now. I still have my position as vice president of the company, but everything is different. My happiness is missing. No matter how long I try, I feel as if I'm missing him too much to rest.

"Ren, can you locate him?" I was yet again searching for Aoba. God, I miss him so much. I'm not giving up on him, I can't. Who knows what could have happened him…

"No… Noiz, I haven't been able to get any traces of Aoba. You should get some rest."

God he can piss me off sometimes. I AM searching for Aoba.

"No. We keep looking." I walk ahead of an alleyway which has a dead end.

"Crap another dead end." I stare at the wall ahead as it towers over me. Seems everything is preventing me from seeing Aoba. Its been months… I just need to see his face. No photos or anything like that. I need to touch his skin, his hair, his red cheeks and his lips. All of it. I need him in one piece, safe and sound.

"Noiz, Aoba wouldn't want you to become deprived of sleep and hunger." Ren urges yet again.

He's right. Aoba wouldn't let me go to work that one time because I was sick with fever.

"Nope, you're staying in bed today" Aoba straight forwardly announces. My temperature was 'sky high' by Aobas word. I have a fever.

"But I have to get to-" I raise my shoulders to get up but instantly, pushed back down by thin arms. Usually, I can beat these arms really easily but today, I had no strength.

"Nope! You need to rest ~" Aoba cheerfully exclaims. He's way too cheerful for me being sick. He's acting strange… No. Peculiarly strange.

"Hey wait" Aoba stops and turns to face me in my king bed. "Why are you so happy that I'm sick?"

"U-Um well… That's…" He evades my eyes and scratches the back of his head. What is he up to?

"Come on, tell me"

He sighs but obeys.

"Well… It's… Okay. It's just because you have been at work a lot, stressing. So… I-I was just a bit happy your body was saying slow down, thats all." He squirms, slightly stressed.

His face has gone a bit pink. How cute.

"So, let me get this right. You are HAPPY that I feel ill and gross?"

I just need to tease him more. Sorry Aoba.

"EUHH?" Aoba raises his hands in a defensive manner. "No! I'm happy you have taken a break from work. I can tell you work hard, so I thought it's great that your resting… That's all…"

He sighs and sits next to me on my bed, looking tired. Suddenly I'm overcome with a drowsiness.

Seeing this Aoba gives me a warm smile.

"You can sleep for a bit, y'know? I should do some tidying up" He gets up of the bed. For some reason I feel so cold now. I think him just being there kept me warm.

I grab his hand, causing him to halt.

"What's the matter? You need water?" He looks at me confused with a small 'o' for his expression.

"Lay with me for a bit." I say while closing my eyes. They're just too heavy to hold.

I hear Aoba giggle, which causes me to blush. Did it sound stupid? God, I feel like an idiot.

"Like a kid" He softly whispers and lays next to me. I instantly feel his heat, as his body weight rests on the bed.

I can feel him breathing… This is nice…

I hold Aoba closer and hug him tight. This actually feels pretty great, it's so peaceful. I'm not usually into this kind of warm, sentimental peace but… It really makes me see how important Aoba is… Hahaha, he really is my happiness. He's made me into someone really soft.

"You act tough, but I know. You like this" I hear Aoba murmur while moving his head onto my chest. I slowly place my hand on his fore head and stroke his beautiful blue hair. Every stroke I gave it, the deeper I felt, my consciousness enclose on me… Deeper and deeper.

"Noiz"

That voice… Is it… Aoba?

"Noiz!"

I shoot open my eyes and without hesitation, sat up.

"Aoba!?" I look around, to find myself in a dark alley, with a dead end. Oh. I remember now.

Ren stares at me, coldly.

"Noiz. I recommend going home."

I chuckle softly, but narrow my eyes to the ground. Everything I do, it just hurts. I was used to being by myself before. But now that I've experienced being with Aoba… Its… terrifying.

"Okay" I reluctantly stand up and walk. And walk. And walk.

We finally return home. It's quite messy as I've never really tidied before, Aoba always took care of it. He really did slave around for me, I should've thanked him more.

"…" I stand at the spot with wide eyes.

Wait. Did I just say… should've? Its as if I'm saying I will never see… Him…

"Noiz?" Why does Ren sound so confused?

"Noiz…" And now pity? It takes me a minute but then;

"Hm?"

…I see. I'm crying. I haven't done this for awhile. If Aoba saw me now, I know exactly how he'd act. He would bluster into tears too. I can imagine so clearly. Ha… He's made me so weak. But… stronger as well… How contradicting.

"Haha, Its nothing, Ren. Thanks for another day." Ren always helps me search for Aoba. I feel guilty. Just a bit. That's another thing. I used to think allmates could just be replaced, but Aoba has made me change my mind. Speaking of which, when Usagimadoki comes back (I sent him away to only return when he found Aoba) I should appreciate him more.

I walk to my room to sleep for a bit, then do my usual routine of watching the TV to see if Aoba has been sited.

"I wonder if I'll ever find him. What do you think, Ren?" I turn my head to Ren who is staring out of the window. He stays quiet.

"Ren?" I urge him to reply, but nothing. Starting to get agitated by his quietness, I walk over to him.

"Hey… Ren?" I poke his tiny doggie head which, to my surprise, causes him to run out of the room.

"Ren! What is it!?" I chase after, until he can't run any further, as the door to go outside is locked.

"Noiz, open the door" He promptly commands.

"Hmph." Thats pretty rude for an allocate to say that to someone higher up than him. "Why?"

"Please calm down and don't rush into this but… I can locate where Aoba is. And he's moving. Slowly."