Set during Abyss

Hold on

Jack was ticked. Not so much on the whole 'I have to go back for her thing' but rather the whole 'lets desert the poor human so he'll face the torture alone.' Yeah that was what really ticked him off. This was not the way to keep the Tok'ra in his good graces. Now he was left alone to face the torture from Ba'al alone. Oh sure Daniel had shown up to keep him company, but his damn ascended friend wouldn't even spring him from this Hell. He needed some new friends.

Kanan had snuck away from the Tok'ra to go back for Shayla and they had been so close to freedom when the Jaffa had caught them. And then Kanan had just…left him. Under normal circumstances this would have made him extremely happy, but not when it as the snakes fault they went back in the first place. Well technically that wasn't true. Kanan had gone back for Shayla because Jack didn't leave people behind. Especially the one's that they were in love with.

Shayla's face came to mind and he was startled when he realized she almost looked like Sam. Same figure and the same short blonde hair. In the dark recesses of his mind he knew under no circumstances would he have left Sam behind. He would willingly die for her if that meant that she would be safe, and if she died he would die inside. There really had been no choice.

Jack still had Kanan's memories, even though the Tok'ra wasn't in him anymore. His mind unwillingly went to Kanan's memories of Shayla. At first Kanan had just used her to get to Ba'als quarters. But soon those feelings had changed and Kanan had fallen for the soft spoken woman. They had had an affair and Jack vaguely saw Kanan passionately kissing Shayla in the darkness of a room, away from prying eyes. And she had kissed him back, had loved Kanan as much as he had loved her.

And then his mission had ended and he had been forced to leave her behind. The Tok'ra knew the greater good that had to be done, and couldn't go back for the woman that Kanan loved. He wasn't even supposed to love her in the first place.

Jack chuckled softly. Kanan had been right, their two situations had been something alike. He wasn't supposed to love his second in command either and he did. The snake asked him if he loved her because he wouldn't leave her when they had been stuck behind the force shield. And his response had been that they didn't leave their people behind which was very true, but it had also had to do with him loving Sam. And there had been no way he was going to leave her there. He wasn't that kind of man. Which was why when Kanan had let him see his feelings for Shayla, he hadn't put up a fight when he had said he needed to go back for her. He knew the helpless feeling of being separated from a loved one. Like now when he was all alone. But as much as he missed Sam he was thanking whoever was out their listening that Sam wasn't with him, that she was safe back on earth.

Not only was the torture unbearable but the boredom was pretty bad as well. What he wouldn't do for a yoyo he thought as he situated himself on the floor of his cell.

"Jack." An ascended voice called out to him from the other side of the cell.

"Come to spring me Space Monkey?" Jack questioned already knowing what the answer was going to be.

"No." Daniel said sadly.

"Well you know I'm not going to Ascend so what the Hell are you doing here?"

"Every time you go in there your going to lose a part of yourself Jack, but you need to try your hardest to fight it…for her. They're so close to finding a way to get you out." Daniel told him. "Do you really want them to find a way to help you out and then for you not to be yourself?"

"I don't know who the her is your referring to Daniel." Jack said hoping he'd just let the subject drop.

"Don't play dumb with me. We both know how you feel about her, and how she feels about you."

"Is that really any of your concern?" Jack questioned him.

"Yes it is, Sam's my friend. I saw how hard she worked to get you home from Edora three years ago. It nearly killed her inside to be without you during that time. How do you think it's going to be now if you get out and your not the same man that she feel in love with?"

Jack really hated this kind of talk with Daniel. Hell he hated talking about his feelings to anyone let alone his once best friend turned ancient. "Well then I guess its better if I rot in here isn't it?" Jack threw out bitterly.

"No you need to get back to her. If you don't care about yourself, then at least think about her. If you don't come back she will cease to be the Samantha Carter you know and love."

"She'll be fine Daniel. Sam's strong. She doesn't care about me that much." Jack said uncomfortably.

"She blames herself for your being her. She thinks she forced you to get implanted with the symbiote. If you die, she will never be able to get over that. She loves you Jack, more then you'll ever be able to know."

Jack looked into Daniel's eyes and saw that he was telling the truth.

"I know you'll do anything for her, she needs you." Daniel told him honestly.

"Fine Daniel." Jack said giving up. It was really hard to argue with an ascended being, and then when he brought Sam into the discussion, well Jack would have agreed to just about anything.

"Hold on for her." And with that he was once again left alone.

Daniel though had made him realize something. He needed to get home. So he would fight, try to hold on as much as he could, so that if a chance arose he could get out of here and see his beloved once again.

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Author's note- Thanks for reading and let me know if you liked it. The last part should be up soon.