I do have several chapters done. I just need to figure out how to update and add chapters since this is my first time. You will probably fine several chapters uploaded and then delete today. Don't worry. It's just me trying to figure this system out! Lol!

Rated M for language. I'll warn you if any lemons appear so you can decide whether to keep reading or not.

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Chapter 2

It's been several months since she left our alpha, broken and crying. I can still remember the piercing screams of Jacob as we dragged him away from his heart. I can still FEEL his heart being ripped away. We had to hold him for several days before we were sure she had left the area and then he was under our watchful eyes for days after. He tried everything to escape. He even tried to use his alpha command to make us let him go. It went against everything we stood for to NOT follow Jacob's command. I wanted her back because I no longer wanted to feel this way. We all felt it.

Drained.

It was worse for those who had their imprints. They begin stepping it up a notch, catering to their imprints day and night. No request was ridiculous. My brothers became very possessive of their imprints. It was to the point of smothering their imprints, almost hiding them under lock and key. Not wanting to suffer the same fate as their alpha. Hanging on for dear life. My brothers were beyond whipped.

The council took matters into their own hands and stripped Jacob of his alpha role until the day he was fit enough to take control again. Never had the council stripped an alpha of their rightful title but it had to be done. Jacob was in no shape to command the pack. Nearly running us to the ground as punishment because we were the ones who dragged him away from her. In his eyes, we let her go so it was our fault she left. Jacob was now just a shadow of a man we once knew. He stayed in bed crying for weeks at a time. I had never seen him in this state of mind. Curled up into a ball, tears streaming down his face, gasping for air, clutching his chest, and murmuring about the pain.

He didn't have to tell us about the pain. We felt it. We avoided walking near his house during those weeks because every time one of us were near his house, we succumb to the pain and it brought us to our knees, pinning us when we laid curled into a ball. Non-Pack members had to drag us away until we could stand up again and even then we were scarred with the memory of Jacob's broken heart. The memory playing in a loop in our minds while we patrolled, affecting the whole pack. God we were all a mess those long weeks.

Afterwards, Jacob became a madman, plotting to get her back. Kidnapping and tying her down was number one on his list. He had us running around getting supplies and things he needed to succeed. Using his alpha command whenever we questioned him. This is when the council stripped him of his alpha duties.

Jacob became livid! He all but destroyed the town hall. Sam took over as alpha again. Sam now became the target of Jacob's rage. Sam continued to have Jacob phase and run patrol. Jacob hardly had the energy to do anything, let alone run patrol. But Sam argued Jacob needed to go back to normal activities or he would just sit there and die. We dreaded having to run patrol with him. His mind always on her. His heart always breaking…whatever was left of it.

Most days he would just go lay by the cliffs, not moving. We had to go find him to let him know his patrol was over. There were times he didn't acknowledge us or move from his spot. One time he stayed there for days. Sam had to command him to phase back and go home. It took a lot of convincing for Jacob to listen to Sam. Jacob's alpha nature still out ranked Sam no matter what the council did or said.

Jacob became a walking zombie. I tried everything to help him out. I would talk about everything not having to do with her or imprints. Do you know how hard that was? Jacob was always my best friend and it was killing me seeing him that way. He would occasionally break into a bleak smile for my sake. I knew he was forcing it because he always looked like it hurt him to smile. Jacob's dad, Billy, was beside himself at what to do for his son. Although Billy knew the pain of losing your love, Jacob's situation was worlds different. Billy's love never had a chance to come back. She didn't leave by choice. She was taken. Jacob's love chose to leave him and that was where Billy could not help him.

Often Jacob would cry in Billy's arms asking him why did she leave. All Billy could do was hold his child in his arms until Jacob cried himself to sleep. Even his dreams made him restless. Always dreaming about her and holding her in his arms again. Most times he would wake up either screaming or crying.

Like her, I cursed the hold imprinting had on Jacob. Although Jacob had imprinted, the bond had yet to be sealed. Jacob had to mark her in order for the imprinting to have a permanent bond between them. She wouldn't let him. It was one of the biggest reasons she left. She didn't want to be bound to him just because of imprinting. She did love him but she thought Jacob only loved her because imprinting demand he did. She never believed the love he held for her was true. She couldn't live like that. She loved him too much to have him believe he did not have a say on who he loved. She believe he had imprinted on her because he could no longer have her mom. She didn't want to be second place. The alternative to the choice he really wanted. She felt as if he was using her as a replacement for her mom. If he couldn't have her then she would be the next best thing. No. She wanted to be THE best thing. First place. First choice.

Nothing he did ever convinced her of that. The relationship became strained. I could feel her hurt. I could see the look in her eyes. Never believing she was enough. Never believing in the power of the imprint. I tried to explain to her we never imprinted on a wrong person. The spirits would not allow it. But she used Sam's love for Leah as a testament that imprinting can be wrong. Sam imprinted on Leah's cousin Emily just as he was about to propose to Leah. The day of as a matter-of-fact. Leah phased that same night. That was a very hard night for us all. Especially Sam. He was heartbroken yet he was head over heels for Emily. I can't even begin to describe the feeling. It was like being a madman. And again, we all had to endure this with our brother.

We came to realize Sam imprinted on Emily because as long as Leah was part of the pack, she could never give Sam what he needed…children. Children to carry on the blood line. Leah was so broken hearted learning the truth. She closed herself off from everyone. It was safe to reason that if Leah could not produce offspring, she would never imprint. She would be forever alone. She tried not phasing but her body betrayed her over and over again. The day Jacob became alpha, we felt some relief from the Leah/Sam/Emily pain fest. Leah was relieved she no longer had to be under Sam's command and have to listen to every command he gave her. She often rebelled against him and Sam always had to use his alpha voice to get Leah to do as he said. She wouldn't do anything unless Sam ORDERED her to.

In the beginning, he tried pleading with her. Using her nickname. She resented him it. That was one of the biggest fights we had to witness. Fur flying everywhere. Leah only gaining on Sam because he was too wounded to hurt his Lee-Lee more than what he had already done. But in the end, Sam had to do the one thing he refused to do. He made Leah bow before him in front of all of us. Submitting to the alpha, Leah was humiliated. This angered her more. So when Jacob took over, Leah would never let Sam forget he wasn't really an alpha. He did not carry the strongest bloodline to command the packs. She constantly threw it in his face. Jake had to make her stop. Again, Leah found herself bowing to her alpha, humiliated. Like Sam, Jake never wanted to do this to Leah but she was just too stubborn to let it go. They gave her many chances but she always pushed the boundaries.

Now with Sam given the alpha title, Leah found herself under his command again. Leah fought with the council saying they had no authority to give the position to Sam again but even she knew Jacob was in no condition to run the pack. So now Jacob became the target of her rage. So much rage running through the pack. Sam tried holding a bonfire to reunite us all but that ended in a fight between Leah, Sam, and Jake. It was a disaster.

These days, we don't know what to expect. We don't know what to do. The tension is ripping us apart. Those of us with no imprint find ourselves hoping not to imprint. I, myself, avoid eye contact at all cost. Females and males.

It's been known to happen. Imprinting on a man. A submissive is what he is known as. No one in pack life judges when this happens. I wasn't sure if I was a submissive because I am smaller than all my pack brothers, so I even avoided their gaze. I wasn't taking chances. I didn't want to feel to true hold imprinting had on Jacob and my other brothers. Even though she was no longer here, even though Jacob did not know where she was, he could still feel her. He could still feel her pain, her sadness, her happiness. What she felt, he felt. There was no escaping. As long as he could feel her, he remind alive. This was the only reason he continued to live. A failed imprint.

I still don't know what I am doing but I'm enjoying myself!