Wheeee! Chapter TWO! O It's amazing, I know. I said I wasn't going to continue it, but everyone said that they wanted to know what Kurama could have done to make everything from the first story could have happened after that letter, so this is my explanation. Yah.

Thanks to all of my reviewers,

TenshiSakuraTakai- My first Reviewer! And the only one to have read chap. two so far. O

Yuki-Amida- Second reviewer, yay I made someone else cry. D That was the whole point.

shiorifoxiesmom- You were the one that had wondered about how it went from the letter to Kurama leaving him, so here is the explanation.

Shiva-iceflame- Eh? I'm glad you liked it, and I'm sorry I made you cry. -looks sad- But I wanted to do it.

So here it is:

Tonight I Wanna Cry- Chapter 2
By: Rakki-gesakusha

Kurama's point-of-view

The day had started out basically the exact same as all of the others. I had been awoken for school, my last day for this week, and I was looking forward to spending the weekend with my koibito. Speaking of Hiei, he would be back soon. My heart leapt at this realization. I would be able to see him again after almost a month of being apart. My heart sobbed at the distance that had separated us, and I couldn't wait for the time when I came home, seeing you waiting in my window, and to be waiting in my bed, asleep from the wait I must force between us. I am most hesitant to be leaving for school, wanting to be here the second you arrive to greet you, but that would have to wait. We had both agreed that our relationship will not affect my schoolwork, and I am going to uphold this agreement no matter what.

Pushing a few more books into my shoulder bag that carried all of my items, I disappeared to cleanse myself wanting to be rid of the germs that could climb upon the sleeping body and more importantly of those which your body had once more caused me to bring about. Another dream. Damn my human body. It was still in the phase of teenager while my demonic side was much farther along. I climbed into the shower once it had been turned on rather hot all the while cursing the hormones that raged through my human side, and thanking the gods that I would soon enough have company in my showers.

A small smile came across my features as I remembered the first time you had agreed to take a shower with me. Mm...perhaps agreed wasn't the best word, but I shall use it nonetheless. You had been dirty, to much so for me to permit into my bed for the night. Training I believe was your excuse. You had kicked and screamed even going as far as to threaten to never allow us to mate again, but I knew that was an empty threat it would be as hard for you as me. I had never known that you hated water so. I think you were convinced that it would be cold like the rain you detested, but once I finally got you undressed and finally into said shower, you just stared at me looking very perplexed and wearing the most adorable expression of surprise that truly made you look like a child. Finally after a few moments, you said surprise and awe evident in your voice "Kurama it's WARM." Your wide-eyed expression was just to funny, and I began laughing. That instantly calmed you and you glared with one of those 'what-are-you-laughing-at?-I-don't-find-anything-funny' looks that tells me that you know I'm laughing at you.

It was now that I decided to share my deep well of knowledge regarding the ningen term "shower" and another perplexed look came over your face as you seemed amazed by such a thing. But I was done explaining, I had quickly removed my clothing and climbed in with you. I quickly washed down your body and your hair -which now smelled like strawberries my personal choice for shampoos- and allowed you to do the same for me, helping you with my hair.

Suddenly, I was jolted out of my daydream -or would this technically be a morningdream?- by the feel of ice cold water running down my skin. Surely I hadn't been unfocused so long? Huffing a slight sigh of annoyance, I quickly washed myself and got out. What I met once I was clothed in a towel I didn't like. Standing in the center of my room, having come from the window if an open window were any indication, was a guard and I was SURE it was from Mukuro. My heart sank as I took the letter outstretched in the guards hand. "From Lord Hiei." He told me, not quite keeping his eyes off of me. I didn't even bother to let him know that I noticed his wandering eyes, for I was to busy tearing the letter open.

I read the letter quickly before rereading it.

It read as follows;

Kurama,

I know that it is awful for me to tell you this, but I can't make it back today. I know I promised to be back by now, but it simply can't be done. Mukuro needs me to help her destroy a band of rogue demons that threaten her lands. As soon as this task is completed I will be back to you.

I really wish this could be changed, but it won't work. Mukuro doesn't trust anyone else to lead her guards, and I know I should be happy that I am trusted so, but I know you will be upset that I have to back out of our agreement.

This should only take about two weeks at the most. I will be back as soon as possible.

Hiei

Another full two weeks at the most without my Hiei? Giving a soft sigh, trying to convince myself that everything would be all right, I looked to the guard. "Tell him I understand." I truly didn't but I understood the position in which Hiei had been put by that bionic bitch. I really couldn't help but feel horrible at this moment.

I wanted Hiei back with me now, and part of my human side wished to complain of this. To cry it out as us humans sometimes did when things bothered us, but my demonic side -the proud Youko, Kurama- would never allow such an act. With a nod the guard disappeared, going to give Hiei the news that I had accepted. Perhaps Hiei would know that I DIDN'T accept? I doubted it. Hiei would just assume that I accepted enough for him to return in two weeks time. It was the way Hiei's mind worked, and I had accepted it as it was.

Once assured that I would now be left alone, I removed the towel dressing myself in the odd colored school uniform. It was a strange color, and it kind of clashed with my own bright hair, but I liked it. This morning though, it was the farthest thing from my mind. Two more weeks before I would be able to see Hiei much less hold him. Hiei was the strangest person when it came to being held. Sometimes, he hated it and wouldn't allow me to even when we were alone, but at other times he wouldn't allow me to let him go. I preferred when he was the latter, for I loved holding him.

Sighing lightly, I told myself to be patient that in two weeks, I would be able to hold him as much as I wanted, and I couldn't care less if it would be allowed or if he would fight to escape my grasp. I didn't believe that you would, for I knew that you liked me holding you just as much as I liked to hold you, you just weren't that much of a cuddly demon.

Picking up my shoulder bag, I managed to get my self into a calm enough state to make it so my mother didn't notice anything amiss. I even managed to pull out a smile. Grabbing a quick bite to eat and a quick drink, I managed to leave without her suspecting anything. Heading towards school, I carefully readied myself for a long day of boring classes and girls giggling and acting like complete idiots to try and get my attention. Though I must admit it does work, but not in a particularly good way.

I was about half way through my classes -and very proud of myself to have kept my mind off of Hiei- but that ended in my math class. The boredom -even as I fought to keep it off- overwhelmed me, and before I could stop it thoughts of you had made it's way inside of my brain. It provided me with images of what we had done together. The first time I had mated with you -you had been so shy in asking for it-, the time I had taught you to cook ningen food, especially ramen. Everything the two of us had ever done -and even hopes of what we will do in the future- came into thought and before I knew it, I was overwhelmed by the need to take care of my loneliness. Needless to say, by the end of the day I was downright desperate.

I walked through the group of giggling girls, not giving so much as a peek nor smile like I usually did. I think they figured out that something was wrong, for they slowly departed leaving me to my loneliness. All but a few departed me, and I was thankful.

Soon enough, I believed I had left them all behind. That was until I caught sight of the one. The clothing she wore was probably the most outrageous sight, and yet I felt drawn to it. She wasn't ugly, I could tell even under all the leather and black make-up. Eyes of the loveliest hazel stared out at me, and I could feel myself being drawn in. Even the thick black coloration about them drew more beauty to the eyes. She was rather gifted as far as a chest went, her leather corset more then showing this off. A tight black skirt clothed her lower half, going only to mid-thigh, not even, and thigh high boots covered her legs which were slim. I knew she was flaunting, and only trying to get with me, but Youko hissed to me that this was what I needed. What I wanted. Surely Hiei wouldn't care? He didn't even have to know. Actually, in a way she reminded me of my Hiei. Her dark choice in clothing, the confidence with what she spoke and moved, even her icy outer shell. Her underlying beauty was just like my Hieis. Their beauty was beneath the hardest core that they could create apparently. They were beautiful in an exotic way that got Kurama that caught Kurama and wouldn't let go. Perhaps that was why this had happened.

She must have been enjoying my wandering eyes, for when I finally settled upon her face again, she had a smirk settled on those beautiful lips. I had expected some sarcastic comment about my eyes wandering or some such thing, but instead I got "What's eatin' you?"

Now, I was the smartest teenager at a select highschool, and I could think of nothing more to do except blink stupidly at her. She gave a small frown, like she was smelling something nasty, and this was when I realized I hadn't responded. "Oh, uh...the person I am with is gone for now, and they won't be coming back longer then expected." Before I even realized it, the truth had spilled out, atleast I hadn't told her about Hiei, that he was a guy. Being gay was not very acceptable in the human world.

She then turned her lips back into that smirk of hers, "Poor you." Ah, there was the sarcasm, right on schedule. "Perhaps you can find someone else to...'fill her place' while she is gone?" I didn't know for sure, but I think she might have been hinting at it. Oh, Kami how the thought made me feel better. "Mm...perhaps." Judging on her response would tell me if she was hinting at it, or if she was telling me in her own private way to get myself a whore.

She gave me a smirk now, whispering now in a low voice, "There's a place down the street." My only thought at the moment was; When had she gotten so close? Giving my cheek a kiss, she stepped away from me and began down the sidewalk, and looking over her shoulder to see if I would follow.

I don't know what made me do it, but I followed after her entering a club whose name I'd never remember, and found myself in a private back room. She smirked slightly, seeing that I had made good on her subtle offer.

Everything after this is a bit hazy, until later.

xXxXxXxXxXx A few hours later xXxXxXxXxXx

My eyes feel heavy, but I felt very, very good. I took a relaxing breath, and my eyes slid close. Why keep them open? I couldn't see anyway. But then, I remembered what had happened and my eyes opened. I looked around me, and saw that I was still in that private room. Everything looked in order. That girl -whoever her name was- was gone. The room was lit only enough to keep it so that I didn't have to worry about being awoken about it. My clothes were...wait...where were my clothes?

I looked all over the room, and couldn't see them, I even reached out to turn on one of the lights finding that not even the extra light helped. Frowning I wondered what was going on. Before I could even get out of the bed, a voice caught my attention. A voice that made my entire body feel like it had been just dunked into ice water. "Looking for these?" My clothing was tossed from a corner, I couldn't yet see who it was that stood there, but I didn't need to see.

As the clothing floated to land on the bed before me, I tried desperately to make my mouth work. "Hiei...?" I could have cursed myself, for my voice sounded weak even to me. I was expecting for a silver sword, slashing into my gut to be my answer, but it wasn't. Red eyes focused on mine, and the hurt I saw in them was enough to make me regret even leaving the house this day. "Why?" I could feel it. The unspoken hurt behind each single letter. The massive amount of pain that had been forced into that single syllable. I also could tell the hundreds of questions forced into the simple word. Why? Why indeed. Now that I thought about it, the reasons I had given were stupid. They were not reasons, but excuses.

I could do naught but look at the floor who I discovered was a carpet of a grayish coloration with all kinds of odd...things in it. "Why what, Hiei?" I whispered. I chanced a glance up at him, and I saw the hurt and pain in those beautiful eyes of his double, no triple. I was so stupid to have said that. Why had I?

Finally coming from the shadows, I knew that it would be now. That he would kill me now. But instead I was met with a shaking voice that didn't match the always calm, always serious fire koorime. It didn't even match that of the shy lover I had come to know. It was shaking as he yelled at me, yelled what I should have known. "Why are you here? Why did you do that? Why were you cheating on me? Why did I trust you? Just, WHY Kurama!" I was at a loss for words. But what, truly, could I say?

You know how sometimes, you wished the world would just open up and swallow you away never to return? Or how you would die in one of those tragic events that no one would ever have thought would have happened? I REALLY wanted that right now. I was praying to anyone who would listen at the moment. But I didn't disappear, and I was stuck staring at Hiei who just stared back at me looking like he would cry at any moment.

I slowly crawled to the edge of the bed, ignoring the fact that I was naked. Before I could think to do anything else -like not do what I was going to do- I had tugged Hiei to me, and I held him tightly to me, my hands fighting to hold onto him, fisting his clothing even as he tried to push me away. "Hiei, please forgive me. I don't know what I was doing, I thought you wouldn't be back, so -"

He positively shoved me now, surprising even me. "So that makes it all right?" He yelled at me in anger, though none showed on his face. "I wouldn't come back, and so I would never find out?" He turned his head away, and mumbled softly so that I could barely hear. "I thought you loved me." Those words alone caused my heart to freeze. My breathing simply wouldn't work now, which really sucked for after this statement had been said, you turned and left. You said something over your shoulder, a sarcastic remark of hoping I had enjoyed it, but I don't really know. I hadn't even listened. I couldn't get over what you had said, and that you were walking away.

Finally, after you had closed the door behind you, I found my voice. "Hiei! Wait! I do love you!" Hiei didn't hear me. Closing my eyes, I got my clothes back on. Was it possible to be as crazy about being clean as I was, and even still be dirty? I felt it. I felt like something totally disgusting. You ARE though. A little voice whispered in the back of my mind, and I told it to shut up.

Many stumbles and wrong turns later, I was finally home. I listened to my mothers concerns about my being late, then he concerns over my not responding, and finally to her concerns about my health and sending me upstairs to go lie down. I did so happily, falling instantly into a deep sleep.

Tomorrow...That was the day that I would get my Hiei back. I would win him back, and show him that I had made a mistake, and that I still loved him. Tomorrow. I rest assured, knowing that tomorrow was the day I would get my lover back.

xXxXxXxXxXx The next morning xXxXxXxXxXx

I got up early, going to see KoEnma. He had no news on Hiei, but he did tell me that Hiei would be either at Mukuros, or at the house he had managed to get a hold of in the Makai. After telling me how to get there from Mukuros, he questioned why I wanted Hiei. It took a bit before he would be able to coax it out of me, but I explained, and KoEnma wished me luck, telling me that it was going to be hard to get Hiei back no matter how much I loved him.

I nodded, but I was to busy getting ready to leave for the Makai and Mukuro's palace to be able to listen fully. Once in the Makai, I was relieved that KoEnma was able to get me close to Mukuro's palace, being able to find out that the may or may not be there as quickly as possible was the top thing on my to-do list.

Mukuro's greeting for me was the farthest from nice. She told me Hiei wasn't back, and that he had left babbling something about how he was to worried about how upset I was to be able to stay. He had promised to be back by now, that he would make sure he was back and that he had only wanted to spend the night with me because he knew that I had lied about my feelings. Well, if that didn't make me feel like a heartless fool, nothing would. She also said, that it was my fault and such things in a rant that lasted for about a full hour or so. By then end of it, I was very ready to be pulling out my long locks.

I apologized profusely -believing it was the only way to get away- and told her that I promised to have Hiei come back soon. I made my depart once more, heading now in the direction of Hiei's apparent house. I was surprised that it wasn't in some distant part of the Makai. It was actually a little bit away from Mukuros palace. Though the closer I came to it, the more I understood. The area I entered through was so thick with vegetation, that I was convinced one could not be able to get through unless they took to the treetops which was Hiei's choice route. Had I not been able to simply have the plants move out of my way, I surely would have had a hard time getting there.

Finally after what felt like ten hours, I arrived at the door. I didn't know what I was going to say, or if Hiei would even answer the door. But I knew I had to try. Fisting my hand, I knocked gently on the door, my hand striking it a little harder each time so I could be sure Hiei heard me. After a few loud raps with my knuckle, I waited for Hiei to answer the door. My heart was pounding so hard against my chest I thought it would burst.

I was about to turn away, I had actually turned away, when I heard the door open and that voice call my name. "...Kurama...?" I turned back, and nearly felt my heart stop. Hiei looked absolutely adorable even though his eyes were puffy and red -had he actually been crying?- and his cheeks were tearstained. I caught sight of a picture of us in his hand and a letter I had written to him. Staring at the rumple clothed demon I felt my heart break -yet again- for what I had done. But Hiei was not going to come crawling back to him. "What are you doing here?" I could now smell the sake upon his breath, and I was stunned. Hiei'd been drinking. I managed to keep my thoughts focused though.

"Hiei...I need to talk to you."

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Heehee, evil cliffy. >3

There will of course be more! What kind of person would I be if I just LEFT you guys there. -laughs- So, yup.