Author note: I dont own harry potter just the plot. sorry haven't updated in a long time because i had no idea what i was doing but now i do so expect more frequent updates. But this wont get out fast regardless because of school so im asking you to bear with me here.

and lastly the first part of this chapter may get a little confusing because it belongs to another story line except that it describes the present situation well so if anythings confusing please tell me and ill clear it up in the next update. thanks!

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Lily left the prefects compartment and walked back to Mary and Sirius's compartment; Potter was right behind her trying walk with her but failing. As they got closer she heard pleasurable moans and groans presumably being made by Mary and Sirius, Lily just squeezed her eyes shut and shook her head. Potter who was oblivious to the sounds of their obvious lovemaking tried to open the compartment door but found it locked.

"Uhh Potter if they locked the door I'm pretty sure they did it for a good reason." Lily pointed out.

James's eyes widened then his lips pulled up in a grimace. "Ew they couldn't wait until we got back to the castle huh?"

"Talk about impatience…" Lily said trailing off.

"Ha that's all Sirius, his mind is completely on sex and that's it." Lily leaned against the wall and slid down to the floor in an exhausted heap. James followed suit sitting next to her.

"Mary's the same way except she actually cares about Sirius; she really cares about what happens to him. She's liked him for a really long time since at least 4th year."

"Really" Potter asked interestedly.

"Yeah she tried to forget about him and the funny thing is, when she relaxed and moved onto other guys he started to realize he liked her physically if anything."

"Ha yeah Sirius got really jealous of that bloke uh Smith was his name I think. Anyhow after he got out of the broom closet with her one time, Sirius just hexed him so much he spent a week in the hospital wing. Rumor on the guy's side of the line was that Mary had a curse cast on her if any guy kissed her he'd end up in the hospital wing. Sirius did all he could to encourage the rumor." Lily cracked a smile at the story.

"Well they're together now not a lot will change that for awhile at least." Lily said worrying internally about what it would do to Mary if Sirius were to break up with her; she was already in so deep.

"Sirius won't be doing any of the breaking I can tell you that he's completely into her." James said softly clearly deep in thought. Lily laughed without humor as she reached for her wand. "What's so funny?" He asked her puzzled.

"That's what Eric's friends told me but when he realized I wouldn't give him what he wanted he broke up with me." Lily said comparing her latest heartbreak to Mary's situation; it worried her she loved Mary like a sister and did not want to see her hurt.

"Sirius isn't like that; he's honest granted he loves sex but he does care about the girl and he cares about Mary a lot more than the normal girl he's with." James's eyes narrowed and his voice adopted a sternness that had never been there before. She remembered the depth of the bond between them. A small smile played on her lips as she reminisced. She doubted she was wrong about him but she unconsciously gave him another shot.

"Can I ask you something?" Lily asked bracing for some more sternness on James's part

"Shoot." James said as he shrugged his shoulders indifferently.

"How did you get named a prefect? I mean you have the dirtiest record for playing tricks on people but yet here you are, with a badge." James's eyes crinkled as he smiled.

"I cleaned up my act last year, my quidditch captaincy was in jeopardy and then I was able to stop." He paused as if considering something. "Getting caught" He added which caused Lily to laugh.

"So since you asked me a question I'm going to ask you one." He told her seriously

"Shoot." Lily replied using his expression; he seemed to enjoy that his eyes twinkled mischievously.

"We've gone through an entire conversation without you biting my head off, why is that?"

"It may have to do with the fact you haven't hit on me asked me out or made allusions to the fact that I may one day be Mrs. Lily Potter and you haven't made references to," She paused considering what to say "Before." She frowned knowing this would cause an uncomfortable conversation later.

"Let's see if your friends are done shall we?" James suggested getting up and then offering an arm to help Lily up which she took. They continued down the train where they opened the door and found two fully clothed yet disheveled looking Mary and Sirius. It was right that Lily and James had not broken down the door.

"Well if it isn't our prefects." Sirius teased as Lily and James sat down.

"Well if it isn't the legendary two sluts of Hogwarts going at it." James threw back. Sirius paled whereas Mary struggled to retain a giggle. James threw a skeptical look at Lily.

Surprisingly for the rest of the train ride Lily enjoyed herself immensely. James did not once make any allusions to Lily going out with him or his most recent conquests for which Lily was most grateful. Instead they discussed favorite bands and quidditch teams but what were you going to expect from James who was the quidditch captain second year running?

Lily departed from the train walking side by side with James letting the happy couple have a few moments alone. James immediately caught her in a conversation about the latest death eater attack. Apparently the death eaters had blown apart a part of Ollivanders and as a result killed 2 pure blooded wizards along with 10 muggle-borns. Lily's teeth ground in utter anger but then she noticed James's eyes were flitting from her eyes to behind her. She looked behind her and found Eric kissing a blonde girl she knew as Sienna Moore the whore of their year.

James frowned in defeat "Sorry" he muttered. Lily was touched by the way he seemed to mildly care. Well enough to distract her as long as possible from the fact Eric moved on to a class slut. Lily frowned and shrugged her shoulders "He was always going to move on it's not your fault. Anyway how did you do on your O.?" Lily asked. He proceeded to boast about his eleven Outstandings and his one exceeds expectations; in potions of course. Lily smiled she had beaten him; she had gotten straight outstandings but let him boast because she asked. Soon enough they were approaching the great hall for the welcoming dinner. Lily was greeted and congratulated by all of Gryffindor on becoming a prefect. She sat next to her better friends; including Mary, Alice, Jude, Lizzie, Katie, Shane, Marlene and the most recent, Sirius and James. They discussed current events their summers and their N.E.W.T classes and before they knew it Dumbledore cleared his throat to begin the welcome speech.

Like every year Dumbledore gave the welcome speech and re-visited all of Filch's restrictions and again like every year most students ignored the part about Filch. Eventually however the feast was served and everyone dove hungrily into it. Lily had barely put a piece of chicken on her plate when Eric tapped her back. Eric looked upset and Lily frowned she didn't buy the sorry- boy act he was about to put on.

"Hey Lily can I talk to you for a sec?" His piercing green eyes stared intensely into her own; a look like that could have melted anyone's heart except Lily's. She regarded him coldly

"No you may not; please leave your ruining my dinner." Eric shut his eyes in frustration but turned away nonetheless. Lily continued to eat until James caught her attention and motioned for them to go meet Oliver for their prefect duties. James and Lily were alone in the corridor that led to the prefect's meeting room. For a few minutes none of them said anything they just listened to the sound of their reverberating footsteps. Suddenly James stopped, looked at Lily and opened his mouth as if to say something but he shut it again and continued to stare. Lily looked at him blankly but started walking when James sped up. Lily kept pace with him until he stopped and opened his mouth but again nothing came out. Lily intervened this time "James you want to say something so say it."

James took a calming breath "Do you remember in second year when we were best friends?" Lily frowned she loved yet hated those times. She used to be best friends with James Remus Sirius and Peter but they hid something from her and it tore their relationship apart. Now Lily was completely on the outside of their circle however it was not completely their fault. Lily pursed her lips as she nodded already not liking where this was going.

"I forgot why we aren't I mean today all of a sudden out of the blue there you are able to get along with me whereas before you couldn't even look at me without being disgusted. It shows our friendship is still there." James argued they had this conversation a hundred times Lily shook her head slightly.

"Friends don't keep secrets whatever you guys are hiding I could have helped keep it too but you chose not to trust me and now all we've got left are shreds."

"We tried to tell you but you wouldn't let us." Before this time James was never stupid enough to mention that. Lily's anger boiled and overflowed as she remembered the humiliation she had suffered that night.

FLASHBACK:

Lily had just gotten back from detention when she saw the guys she used to call her friends huddled around in a corner whispering amongst themselves. All whispering stopped as soon as she came within ten feet of them. With a frown she dropped her books and headed out of the tower and wandered the corridors for a while. Suddenly inexplicably her legs became rigid and she no longer had any control over it. It was the leg locker curse. She turned to see who cast it at her. She saw no one until Sirius and Peter came from underneath James's cloak. She kept her wand steady at her side until wordlessly freed herself from the curse. She doubted that they knew what she had done. Her heart squeezed as James; her James, revealed himself to be one of her betrayers. Her eyes glistened with unshed tears as she realized how sad it was that they had to curse her to talk to her.

"Lily." They acknowledged sadly.

"So what am I a prank now? Lily asked too exhausted and humiliated to play games. The last few months of fighting with them already cost her several days worth of sleep and finally she was sapped of her love for them. She was sapped of her love for James they didn't have a chance together if he was lying to her. Her heart gave a painful squeeze as the knowledge of this statement reared its ugly head.

"No you're our friend Lily and we want to be honest with you." Her heart lifted at this sentiment perhaps there was a chance yet.

"Well start from the beginning."

"We can't." This rejection had Lily from depression and sadness to fury in a matter of seconds. She stood up and got straight in their dumbstruck faces.

"Fine you can't but know this, this inability to tell me the truth will cost my friendship. Don't try and feed me whatever bullshit you have got cooked up because I know what it is. I'm tired of this and don't tell me its for my own good because I should be the judge of that not you. I' am as powerful as you are and for now, as strong but you overlooked that. Tomorrow I' am going to sit with Mary and I don't want you to bother me. This is it don't try and persuade me because I'll hex you." And with that Lily left her old friends behind and the tears she held back began to fall freely now as she crept quietly into Gryffindor tower.

End flashback.

"You weren't going to tell me James all you were going to say was that you were sorry you couldn't and if you can't trust me I can't trust you. Believe it or not if you had just told me we'd probably be going out now. But then again I can't say I care anymore." Lily spat viciously at the stone cold angry James.

"If you didn't care Lily you wouldn't be so angry." James said while calculating Lily's reaction. He observed that she looked like she could spit fire. With that she stormed away from him but what he couldn't see was that her anger masked her regret and sadness.