Important Authors note... not really but okay. My family is getting a divorce, I'm choosing my mom. My dad is an alcoholic...Anyway I need help, I've turned kinda emo I try to control my emotions by digging my nails into my arms and hands. Yes I have a problem but it helps me calm down...Anyway if you went through this or something like it I'd like to hear from you. I can't punch pillows and my best nerd friend offered to let me hit him but I was like "I'd could never do that I would die" then he said "Anything just not yourself"... I ALMOST cried at his text, Ya we're like family so I don't know what to do I cried today at lunch and yelled mentally at my self to stop but I couldn't. So some people ask me when did you hurt yourself the first time, well it was last year me and this chick got into a major fight I mean MAJOR and I screamed because my dad choked me last night "playfully" and I was stressed. Later we had to talk with a teacher to control my tears I dug my nails into my arm quietly... I KNOW it's bad but I can't stop it helps with the deep pain. Anyways at lunch I looked so depressed my other BFF Alex came over and asked me what was wrong, my voice didn't work until he pissed me off and I almost yelled "Leave me alone!" He backed off and sat back down at his table, the problem is my ex sits with him so I didn't want him to think I was weak... Apparently he has family problems too, so Jess (My friend who my ex likes) told me to talk to him but he won't answer me. I'm really nervous I have to talk to a judge so my mom gets full custody of me (I also have a brother but he is 16 so he gets to choose but I don't AND his girlfriend has turned into a BITCH!) So alas I don't know what to do and I feel even more insecure now -_- Partly because my ex didn't want me and now I feel uglier than shit but anyways onto the story from Nate's point of view lets see what he thinks of this new girl
Nate's POV
As I walked to the office AGAIN I thought about what happened in the locker room...
I was getting dressed after swimming when a group of guys came and surrounded me, I ignored them and pulled my black shirt over my head. I put my stuff in my locker and tried to walk away but Lucas stopped me with a punch to the gut, I quickly reacted and socked him on the jaw. He cradled his face with his big beefy hands. His right hand man Tyler grabbed me from behind (I think he is gay -_-) (A/N My uncle is gay I am not against them). I flipped him over my shoulder and flung him to the ground. They all rushed me at once I felt elbows and feet crush me as I went down, I landed with a blop. I felt a pain in my gut and when I opened my eyes they were all on the floor. I got up and washed my face then left... I was walking to english when a teacher stopped me.
"Nate are you okay?" Mr. Walter said as he grabbed my shoulder.
"Yes sir" I said