Chapter 2
SPOV
It was a week after the accident, which was the most painful day of my life. It was Chad's funeral. It was hard for me to wake up that day, knowing that it would be the last time I'll see him on this earth.
Flashback…
"Sonny, sweetheart, it's time to go…" my dad called me while knocking on my door
"yeah dad, I'll be there in a minute" I know I have to be strong for this day, there will many people that will attend and the whole bunch of Coopers would be there and the Munroes too…
I wore a black dress and a light touch of make up, just to emphasize that I'm totally hurt and even broken deep inside.
When I entered the church, there are many people looking at me, as if I'm the most important person in the event. I was irritated by them! Today was supposed to be Chad's and not mine. All focus should be on Chad! It still kills me to see my Chad lying on the blue lovely casket that matches the color of his eyes.
When I reached my seat, Chad's mom sat beside me…
"Sonny, dear, even if you're not married to my son, you will always be a part of the Coopers." As she tried to comfort me. It was touching yet, it never helped ease the pain inside me.
"thanks" is all that I could say
It was now time to deliver our Eulogy, Chad's mom came first then his father, brother and sister, some of our closest friends…
Tawni's speech:
Chad was like a brother to me. We started out as enemies, but when Sonny came, everything seemed to change. Chad is always there for me and Sonny, he became our best friend and brother. Little did I know that Chad was in love with Sonny and that was the main reason he was befriending me…(by this time everyone in the crowd was laughing even me) but really, Chad was one guy who will always try his best to comfort you and be there for you in good times and bad times…even our most hated times which is the "bad hair days"! so Chad, wherever you are, don't worry, I'll keep my promise, I'll look out for Sonny your Sonshine. Rest in Peace Chad, we all love you!
I know Tawni was telling the truth and just making it much more easier for the both of us, since Chad has no other girl friends besides the two of us. To my surprise, my mom and dad was called too…
My mom and Dad's speech:
Chad would've been our son-in law by next week but unfortunately, he's here lying on this casket. Chad could've been the best son-in law in history. As we all know, Chad is the most conceited jerk in Hollywood that's why we never wanted our Sonny to fall for him but this guy, proved me wrong. He was the most sweetest guy and had earned my trust to be loved by my princess. (my parents cannot hold their tears anymore so they started sobbing in front of the people, they love Chad as much as I do and they treated him Family as well) I cannot do this anymore…So Chad rest in peace sweetie…the Munroes love you!
I was surprised by what my mom and dad said a while ago, I didn't expect this from them, and did my dad just called me his "princess" again? It was weird, the last time he called me that was when I was ten and now I'm 23! My came turn…all the eyes were on me now, great! (Sarcasm applied here, duh)
I really don't know what to say here. But all I know is that Chad made my life, he was always there to cheer me up when I'm upset or angry with the world. He made me see things that I never bothered to look at, he was everything to me. When he asked me to be his wife I felt like I was the luckiest girl in the world, we shared everything together. He loves me the way I love him. Chad, you are my everything but when you left it seems that my everything has fallen apart. I love you Chad, not Loved but Love and I will always do. I'll see you soon Chad…I'll miss you calling me your "sunshine" and your blue eyes, I'll always miss you and soon enough we'll be together again…
After I finish the speech, everyone awwwed and clapped their hands as if there was no tomorrow. By this time, I cannot hold my tears any longer so I ran outside the church and went to the park nearby. I sat at a bench and watch the blue sky, I looked at it closely and I think I saw Chad smiling at me, he's not smirking but smiling!
"I love you Sonny, I will wait for you…but you have to move on. Remember I will always love you Sonshine…Take care always!" and then he vanished.
I just smiled and whispered…"I will try, I will always love you too Chad"
That's the time I was able to let him go for the meantime.
Flashback ended
Today is March 17, 2017 a year after I lost Chad. Tawni and the rest of the So Random! Cast decided to have a get together. They know that I am starting to move forward so they had a karaoke at Tawni's house so we could sing together. It's been a year since I last sung in front of them.
"Okay, Sonny you go first…" Tawni instructed me, so I pressed the number 82092 (a/n 82092 is Demi's Birthday!) the song is "the way I love you"
The music filled the air…So I start to sing…I feel tears are falling from my eyes as I sing…
(a/n this is the second verse)
Letting you go, yeah
Is making me feel so cold yeah
And I've been trying to make believe it doesn't hurt
But that makes it worse yeah
See I'm a wreck inside,
My tongue is tied
And my whole body feels so weak
The future might be all I really need
And it might be wonderful
It might be magical
It might be everything I waited for a miracle
Oh, but even if I fall in love agin with someone new,
It will never be the way I love you…
Like a first love,
My one and only true love
Wasn't it written all over my face?
I love you like you love me
Like something pure and holy
Like something that could never be replaced…
The song ended and I realized all my friends were crying too…I passed the mic to Grady who was desperately waiting for his turn since he arrived. I immediately went to the bathroom and cried for the last time cause I know Chad wants me to move on. "I'll never love the way I love you Chad, See you soon, I miss you Chad". And this is the time I know I'm ready to move on.