So i usually dont update two days in a row but i was so excited about writing this story that i just could stop. Hopefully it stays like that because then the updates will be closer together.
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Part 2
Quinn spent the whole day both dreading and looking forward to glee. Glee was the best part of her day, it was a place where she still fit in and no one judged her, but he would be there. She would have to sit in the room for 45 whole minutes and watch Finn and Rachel get all mushy together. Just the thought of this made her want to vomit. But before Quinn knew it it was fifth period and time for glee.
When she arrived at the choir room she was the first one there. She said hi to Mr. Shuester as she took a seat on the far left side of the room. She figured she would give Finn the opportunity to sit as far away from her as he could.
All the glee kids started to file in. When Puck arrived he chose the seat to her, as usual.
Finn and Rachel were the last two to arrive. They walked in hand in hand and Quinn's heart sunk. She knew she had lost her right to be jealous the minute she lied to Finn about the baby, but that didn't make it hurt any less.
Finally the bell rang and Mr. Shuester quieted everyone down. He started his lecture of the day, but Quinn wasn't listening. All she could think about was the right now Rachel was sitting next to Finn, not her. That Rachel was holding his hand and making him laugh, not her. She hated that she had given Rachel the satisfaction of winning Finn, something Quinn swore would never happen, but it was her own fault that Rachel and Finn were together and she would have to live with that.
Mr. Shuester finished his lecture, something about hello, and they did vocal exercises for the rest of class.
Since it was Monday there was no glee rehearsal after school, which meant she would have the house to herself for two whole hours. Puck would be at football, his mom at work, and his little sister, Sarah, would be at soccer practice.
A couple of months ago Quinn hated to be home alone, it made her feel so lonely. Now, she craved the quietness of the house to herself. She needed a break from Puck's video games or his moms nagging about everything and she was sick of watching Hannah Montana with his sister. For two hours she could cry all she wanted without anyone seeing her and she definitely needed a good cry.
When she arrived home she got an apple from the fridge then went into the room she shared with Puck. It still didn't feel like it was her room. She kept feeling like she should knock before she entered.
She ate her apple and checked her face book. She had no notifications, but she didn't expect to have any. She looked at the clock on the computer and she still had an hour and a half before Puck got back from basketball practice. She made her way over to the closet and pulled out her bag. In it she had left a scrapbook she had made that she was going to give Finn on his birthday. She took the scrapbook over to the bed and opened it up.
The first page was full of pictures from their first date. He had taken her to dinner and a movie. She started to cry remembering that night. Their biggest problem back then was worrying whether or not they should kiss on the first date. Quinn ached to go back to a time like that where everything was simple.
The next page was filled with pictures of them at the homecoming game. They looked so perfect together; him being the quarterback and her being the head cheerleader.
She knew she shouldn't be torturing herself by looking at all these pictures, but she couldn't stop herself. As she went through the rest of the scrap book the tears began to fall harder and harder until she could barely breathe. How could she have messed up so badly? When she was little she remembered grown ups saying how being a teenager is hard and confusing, but she never really understood how that could be, until now.
She must've fallen asleep without knowing it because the next thing Quinn remember was hearing Puck walk in and throw his sweaty basketball bag on the floor. Quinn immediately sat up.
"H…How was practice?" she asked him trying to quickly wipe the dried tears from her face.
"Terrible," he answered. "Looks like basketball season is going to go about as good as football season went."
"I'm sorry."
"No big deal," Puck answered. "I don't even like basketball that much anyway. I'm just playing because it keeps me in shape." Quinn nodded. Puck turned around to see Quinn sitting on the bed, her face wet and splotchy. "Why's your face all red and puffy. Have you been crying?" he looked at her concerned.
"Bad day at school is all," she said quietly as she started to get off the bed. "I'm just going to go to the bathroom and wash my face." She made her way to the door, but when she passed him he grabbed her arm gently.
"Look," he started, "I know I'm not Finn. I'm not as reliable or trustworthy, but I'm going to be here for you and for that baby. I'm not going to end up a dead beat like my dad. I just wanted you to know that I'm here for you and I'm going to be there for our daughter."
"Thanks Noah," she said quietly. She gave him a soft smile then continued on her way to the bathroom. She knew what Puck was saying was genuine. Maybe she needed to give him more of a chance. She would never have Finn again, but she did have Puck and maybe one day she could love Puck like she loved Finn.
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The next day Quinn promised herself she would not spend all of glee staring at Finn and Rachel, that she would actually participate and try to have a little fun, but all that changed when Finn decided to share his hello song. Quinn had always thought he looked sexy when he sang and today was no exception. It was weird, though, listening to him sing and know it was not to her. She was used to him staring at her when he sang and it made her feel special, but now he was staring at Rachel and it made Quinn feel anything but special.
Luckily Finn sang towards the end of class and the bell rang when he was done because Quinn didn't know how much longer she could sit in there with him, but as she was getting up to leave she saw Santana and Brittany walk up to Finn who was still by the piano.
She could tell by the looks on their faces that they were up to something, probably something Sue told them to do. Quinn walked out slowly so she could see what was going on, but she couldn't hear them. She prayed Sue had cooked up some secret plan to break up Finn and Rachel so Rachel would become depressed and it would destroy the glee club.
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That night Quinn was sitting in her room working on her US History project when Puck walked into the room and closed her laptop.
"Hey!" she yelled. "What the hell was that!"
"I think we should go do something tonight. You've barely left this house all week."
"What did you have in mind?" Quinn asked considering his offer. It was true the only times she left the house this week was school and to go to the grocery. She didn't mind spending a night out.
"I don't know I was thinking we could go to dinner or something," he shrugged. "Now go get dressed we're leaving in ten." He left the room and she jumped off her bed to go pick out a dress. She knew they would probably go to some fast food joint, but this was the first time she was going out this week, so she felt like dressing up a bit. She changed out of her sweatshirt and into the dress and then let her hair out of the bun she had been wearing. She decided against putting on make-up, she never really wore it that much anyway. When she was ready she met up with Puck in the living room.
On the car ride there Puck told her all about how bad the basketball team was and how they were going to get crushed this weekend at their first game. She actually listened to what he was saying for once and even laughed a time or two.
Puck finally pulled the truck into a parking lot and Quinn was surprised to see that it was the parking lot of Breadstix, a sit down restaurant.
"No Dairy Queen?" Quinn joked.
"No, I thought tonight could be a bit more special," he said. He helped her down from the truck and took her arm as they walked into the restaurant. Quinn couldn't help but smile. Puck wasn't a huge romantic, but he did have his romantic moments and Quinn loved when they happened.
The two of them had a really nice dinner. They talked about the annoying teachers at school and how well they thought the glee club would do at regionals. Quinn told him old stories about how crazy Sue was when she was a cheerio. Quinn was happy for the first time in weeks and she didn't even think about Finn once. Maybe things do get better with time, she thought. Maybe she never did give Puck the chance he deserved.
"Do you want dessert?" he asked when the waiters were taking away their plates.
"No thanks I'm so full," she smiled.
"I thought you were supposed to be eating for two," he joked.
"I'm trying not to become as big as a hot air balloon."
"It's good when you gain weight, Quinn, it means the baby's healthy and growing."
"How do you know that?" she smiled.
He blushed. "I may have read it somewhere."
"And where might that be?" she wondered.
"I may have come across something about it when I was looking at pregnancy books at the public library," he practically mumbled.
"You've been looking at baby books?" Her heart leapt. Maybe Puck was as committed to this pregnancy as she was.
"Maybe," he said looking down. A tear fell down Quinn's face. "What was it something I said?" Puck said. She could tell he was racking his brain to see if he said something offensive.
"Yes, she said, but I'm not mad. I'm just so happy that you did that." She reached across the table and grabbed his hand. "You're a great guy, Puck, and you're going to be an amazing father someday." Puck smiled and gave her hand a little squeeze.
"And you will be a great mother someday." Even though they both agreed giving up the baby for adoption would be the best thing to do for her and them, it was times like these where Quinn would second guess their decision. She knew they would be able to do it together. Were they just running from their problem by giving the baby up? Or were they really doing it because it was the right thing? Quinn was conflicted and didn't know what to do anymore.
