A/N: Hi guys! I'd like to thank you for the comments I got on my first chapter of this story. Already 111 views in 4 days. That may not seem a lot but I love it! Enjoy.

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I woke up from a dreamless sleep, once again. The sun reflected off the white sheets and into my still drowsy state. I reached to side to grab a calendar on my bedside table. It was Saturday, June 1st. In about 3 weeks, it'll be my Birthday and I'll spend my 19th year in this room just like the last 11 years.

Just when I was beginning to wake up, my doctor/consular walked in with a few books in his hand. He took a seat about 10 feet away from me, and gave me a light smile.

"Morning Misaki." His voice was as bright as the morning light and I couldn't help but smile back.

"Morning Dr. Kusama." I put my calendar back and looked at him in the eye. "Are you here for a checkup?"

"Actually no. I've come to tell you some good news." I brightened at his words. "I've talked to some of the other doctors and since you haven't had any problems in about 10 years, so we've decided that you can go outside again." I sat up and smiled from ear to ear at this news.

"Really?" I exclaimed.

"Really. If you want, you can go out today. But, if you want to go, everyone has to stay outside a 10 feet range because we still fear of what might happen."

"So I can go outside, but I can't talk to anyone?" I asked and he nodded sadly. I nodded also. I couldn't care less; I was just happy I could leave this room. I looked back at him with those books in his hands. "Are those for me?"

"Oh yes they are. We know we have to entertain you in this room and we know how much you like to read." I nodded as he handed me three books.

Ever since I came to this place, Dr. Kusama has been here to comfort and support me. He helps me eat when I need to, checks up on me when I start to lose control or is just someone to talk to when I have the feeling when it wants freedom. He's one of those people that can get close enough where I don't go crazy. He's one of those few people I can trust.

After about a couple hours, Dr. Kusama came in my room telling me it's time to go outside. I was fully dressed and ready with a book in my hand since I couldn't talk to anyone. I smiled and walked out with him and had a security guard behind us. When I finally went outside and saw the other patients sitting and standing, having conversations.

"Well, go enjoy yourself. You have about one hour." I nodded and the security guy and I went to go look for a bench for me to sit on. Once I finally found a good spot to sit down, I did and my guard took his place about a few feet away from me. I started getting into a book that Dr. Kusama gave me called The Tale of Two Summers. After maybe around 15 minutes, some guy came by me.

"Hi." He said and I looked at him with wide eyes. "I'm Sumi."

"Please...go." I whispered as I started to shake.

"Why? I saw you by yourself and I thought I would come over so you wouldn't be lonely." I dropped my book in my lap.

"Please. You need...to go...now!" I shouted in a whisper. I almost couldn't control myself anymore. "If you don't leave, I can't guarantee your safety." I said quickly. I saw my guard come over next and have a worried look on his face; I gave him a pleading look.

"Is that a threat?" He teased and my guard started to pick him up and pull him away, but it was already too late. "Hey, what are you doing? I was having a conversation with him." I grabbed my book and sprinted past people and back into the building. When I was back in, I ran all the way back to my room and barricaded the door with a desk I had and I slid on the floor and waited to take over.

I felt that feeling again; being thrown back into a corner. My body started twisting and aching. It started clawing the walls and my skin. I could feel it bleeding a lot and as the cuts connected I started tearing up my bed and wanting to beat my head against the wall.

When I started gaining some control, I started calming down and soon, I was sane. I sat up with a headache and I went up to move the desk from my door. When I put it back in its place, I heard a knock at the door.

"Come in." I said in barely a whisper even though they're going to come in, even if I don't want them to. As they came in, I was making my bed. I turned around to see Dr. Kusama and a guard next to him. "Hey. I know what you're going to say."

"I don't think you do." I looked glumly at him. "The guard that was next to you told me that you did nothing wrong. You stayed away from everyone and read and enjoyed yourself."

"But It almost came out and killed him if I hadn't of ran inside and barricaded the door." I said sadly. "Now I have to wait another 10 years just to go outside again." The doctor shook his head.

"No, you handled yourself in that situation by getting yourself out of it and preventing It from hurting anyone which is a sign that you're getting better." I looked at him brightly. "Why would we take away a reward for your hard work?" I smiled.

"So I can still go outside?" I asked enthusiastically. Dr. Kusama nodded.

"Yes. But before you want to celebrate, we need to get you cleaned up." I looked down at my body and saw that I had cuts and blood dripping from my arms and head. I nodded in agreement.

Once he left, I finished cleaning my room and I sat on the edge of my bed waiting for him to come back. When he did, he cleaned up my deep scratches on my forearm and wrapped it around with gauze. He cleaned up my forehead and wrapped it also with gauze. I looked up at him earnestly.

"Hey, Dr. Kusama?" I asked and he turned around looking at me questioningly. "Thank you. For everything." He smiled brightly. "Also, can I go to the restroom?"

"Yes, let me get you a guard so you-"

"Can't I go by myself?" I cut him off with my question.

"What if someone is in the room with you?" I thought about it for a second.

"Isn't there a handicap one?" He nodded.

"Okay, but come straight back here once you're done." I smiled and left the room. As I was on my way down here I walked by a lounge they had for the other patients. Once I found the bathroom, I went and washed my hands. I left the room and when I was walking back I saw a storage room closet open, then a hand grabbed my wrist to pull me inside also.

Looking around in the dark room to try to find out who just grabbed me in here. As I tried to leave, I felt the man's arms block me from my movements and I could see a glint in his eyes.

"I've been watching you." He whispered while feeling his lips on my ear.

"Wait. Who are you an-" I was cut off as his lips fell over mine in a passionate kiss. I didn't move as he kept kissing me.

I've always dreamed what it was like to be intimate with someone, even if it was just a kiss. I may have never got this chance again and I was going to take advantage of this.

His arms traveled to my hips and held me tightly as I placed my hands on his shoulders. He was pretty tall and I tried to kiss him back. I didn't know what I was doing and only did what I knew. His tongue licked my bottom lip and I opened my mouth a little and his pink muscle invaded my mouth; exploring every part of it. I stuck my hands through his silky hair and deepened the kiss.

I couldn't breathe but I couldn't care. My body wasn't shaking and my mind was foggy. His body was pressed up against mine and I just wanted more of him. The sparks were flying and I didn't want to stop. Once his lips left mine, he started kissing my neck and his hands up my shirt. I started getting a sense of where I was and I started to push him away.

When he let go, I was flustered and I ran out of the room and back to my assigned room. As I got there, I panted and Dr. Kusama looked at me shocked.

"Um..what...were you doing?" I felt guilty and confused.

"W-What do you mean?" I was nervous that he would find out what took me so long.

"Look down." He told me. I did as he said and I saw I had a bulge coming out of my sweats. I covered it with my hands and had a bright red blush upon my face. My doctor started to chuckle and I turned in embarrassment. "It's okay, but first you need to tell me what made you...that way."

"Okay."

It's going to be a long conversation.

A/N: Hey! And that's a wrap for this chapter and can any of you guess who the guy in the closet was? I also made an appearance of Nowaki! Hope you enjoyed this chapter.

Only 3 left!

By the way! The Tale of Two Summers is an amazing book and I highly recommend it. It's about the summer between two best friends and they email each other about what happened about their days. It's also a gay book. Very hot in my opinion.