ok, yes so update! yaaaaa! loki is a little deprest...and i dont own Avengers, that dosnt mean i cant dream. :P

Earl gray~~~

Why? Why did it hurt? Why? He had known that he would fail, suffer, but he still wanted to see approval in those haunting eyes, his father's eyes. The Allfather. He just couldn't handle seeing them again.

So why? Did he not already see thoughts eyes many times before, scolding and full of disapproval. Yet when he walked into the throne room head bowed refusing to look up he felt like his heart was being burned with the greatest of fire's, his legs being stabbed with thousands upon thousands of icicles, everything, every bone and muscle just hurt.

Risking a glance up, then instantly casting his look back down. Odin sat in his high chair Frigg to his left, his face stern and unemotional. Loki scoffed at himself of cores he was unemotional, he doesn't even love me.

He would die, and he would still of never felt approval, love, in his own father's eyes. Because I'm a monster, a voice whispered in the back of his head.

yes, yes I am.

"Loki, will you not look at me?" his body went frigid, slowly, stiffly he raised his head, green emerald eyes unmasked behind the unkempt black hair finally rested on the objects of his despair his whole life. Two stupid eyes.

But

But what is that! He felt his own eyes widen in shock. Silver, silver shimmering tears cascading down aged cheeks only to intertwine with the hairs of his beard.

"Loki, my son, you are exposed to protect the nine realms including Midgard, you not only failed this but became the one doing the harm."

Fear washed over Loki and he cursed himself. He was Loki the god of lies! He has felt fear grip him twice, once when the man of iron didn't react to the scepter and now this! The fear of death. He scowled, but Odin continued. "My son, I do not wish for your death, and it pains me that you think that I do. Your brother has been spending the last weeks in the library trying to find another solution, and I pray the one that he's about to present is a good one."

Wait what? He thought everybody wish's him death…what? Did he not try to concur a world just for approval, killing most likely thousands of people? Did he not take the Tesseract out of the treasure room? Why? Loki's heart gave an uncomfortable twist of a feeling he had not felt in many weeks.

Hope.

The doors slamming behind them made both Loki and Odin flinch, Thor.

The golden god approached Loki, never had the other god felt so happy to see his brother but Thor just continued to walk past him, not even looking…just like he did before. Hope was replaced with anger.

His back, the same back Loki has seen many times before stood in front of him, always hidden in Thors shadow.

"Father! I have found an option for Loki, please Allfather listen to me" Thor's voice for once didn't ricochet of the golden walls, but surprisingly calm.

The guards shifted behind Loki and he felt that insufferable… Muzzle, being taken off.

"Then speak what is on your mind" Odin sat down with a sigh, Frigg patting his hand reasheringly

Loki opened his mouth to speak but Thors voice boomed above his and it wouldn't have mattered any way because he was stopped midsentence with what came out of Thors mouth.

"Soul mates" came the determined voice of Thors, Loki let his jaw drop. Nope scratch the happy to see his brother completly, he still hated him.

"W-what!?" Loki frowned at his voice it was cracked and weak. Thor turned to him "Brother, we all know that you have not found your mate but perhaps if and when you do, they could point out your flaws and make you better…I know your…afraid to love since father cast out your children-" Loki stood and glared at Thor.

"I do NOT need to be reminded" placing two meaty hands on his brothers shoulders Thor continued.

"finding my own, changed my life, I have made fewer foolish mistakes and she seems to now all my problems and myself hers." Thor finally turned around, dark brown clashing with green, "perhaps if we find Loki's soul mate he may finally come to see his problems and become better at his decisions to."

Well this is better than death at least.

The king rose from his thrown standing at full height " I except this…alternative" Frigg, started crying, happy her son wouldn't die. Loki sighed, his father still hasn't approved of him and his idiotic brother just saved him well this situation is just peachy. Thor's shoulder's sagged in relief, his trade mark smile placing itself perfectly on his tanned face. Suddenly Loki felt himself being crushed.

"T-THOR!" the god of mischief crocked out with what little air he had left and just as soon as the words past his lips did he find himself being placed firmly back on the ground.

"Loki! I am over joyice (LOL) that we will be finding your soul mate!" his voice becoming the normal booming voice that only could belong to him.

"Joy" his voice was strained. Just what he wanted. To be chained down by some woman like Thor. Yes that's so fantastic.

"Let us go celebrate!" and that they would of done if a bolt of lightning didn't land between were they stood and were there parents stood. Shortly after a mass of yellow, wings, red and gold collided with the floor.

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Tata~~