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Hey guys! I'm so so sorry for not updating! Things were pretty busy around here and i'm trying my best. This isn't edited by my beta, but after thinking about it and receiving an incouraging opinion i decided to post it like this. Feel free to point out my mistakes. Which brings us to my current situation: I NEED A BETA! Pbroken is swamped and after her telling me she would understand if i wanted to find someone else i caved in. Is anyone interested or know anyone interested? Tomorrow i'm leaving for vacations and when i return i will see if anyone wants to be my beta and after choosing somebody i will take down this and send it to my new beta for improvements.
Disclaimer: I don't own twilight or anything related to it. I'm just borrowing the characters.
Song: October and April - Rasmus feat Anette Olzone. Great, great , great song.
EPOV
He still couldn't believe he was going to be a father, even after all those months of watching Bella's belly growing, Alice going crazy about baby stuff and his mother rivaling her on her enthusiasm. But now here he was, waiting outside the OR they had taken Bella.
It's not like he didn't know from the first moment he saw her that his life had a new purpose: her.
He was passing through a quiet little neighborhood when he saw a bookshop with the most beautiful window display. Then he saw a movement inside and everything else faded. She was … he couldn't even find a word strong enough to describe how beautiful she was. Long curly brown hair, big dark eyes, an angelic face, contrasted with a petite sinful body. Even her clothes were something out of a librarian fantasy he didn't know he had.
It had taken him three trips to that bookshop and almost an hour of eye contact to make a move. Well, backing her up against a wall was typically assault, but, that was only semantics. Up until then, he still wondered how he found it in him to seduce her.
Their relationship was something he never expected. She came in to his life so suddenly, changing everything. He learned things about himself he didn't even suspected, like how addicted to a woman he could be.
There was always a big flaw in their happiness, a sentence looming over their heads. He was engaged to one of the most unbearable women in the world because his dad had an agreement with hers. Tanya was pretty, something she had to thank her plastic surgeon for, caking herself with beauty products and hours of looking herself in the mirror. She also had the intelligence of a carrot and no intentions of doing something about it. Of course, when he met her he gave her the benefit of doubt. That didn't last long. He always wondered if she pretended she didn't notice him avoiding her like the plague or she was that stupid. One thing he was positive of: she didn't care. Bella was very jealous of her though and he never understood why. His heart was Bella's.
"Whatever Edward. Just go to your to your shiny little fiancée. She will be so pretty and chatty at your side. " She tried to shut the door at his face. That was the last straw. He shoved it out of his way, trapped her in his arms and picked her up.
"I missed you. It gets worse every time you tell me to leave. Since I first saw you, you are the only thing I can focus on. Everything else has lost its meaning", he whispered running his nose from her ear to the base of her neck, taking in her comforting scent. She shuddered, her breath hitched. She wrapped her legs around his waist and rested her head on his shoulder. He run his hand up her back and cupped the back of her neck, finally bringing her lips to his, like he dreamt of doing when they were apart.
Their kiss turned frantic and they fought to submit each other with their tongues. He managed to leave her mouth in order to trail kisses down her neck. She was arching in his embrace, making all those incredible noises. When his lips and tongue moved right above the hem of her nightgown, he knew they had to go to her bed.
They celebrated their reunion throughout the night. When he woke up he found her on the armchair across the room. She was looking morosely at the sky. He felt a huge weight crushing on his chest.
"Do you think that in a perfect world we could have been together, you know, like , everyone knowing about us, going to family dinners and vacations?" Her quiet voice startled him.
"I don't know baby. Maybe, maybe not. I just thank God that I found you, even under these circumstances. I love you."
She sighed." I love you too, so much it tears me up."
"I know love. I promise you one day, all these will seem like a bad dream. We will be together; I will do anything to keep you with me."
He hadn't told anyone about Bella. In a way she was his dirty little secret, except that this label made their relationship sound cheap, while he loved her with everything he had. Even if he had absolutely no right to claim her, he was more than ready to fight with any douche hitting on her.
When he woke up every morning he was ready to talk to his father and get it all out in the open. Then, he remembered his trust fund, his student loan and the money he would need to start his carrier as a doctor and sighed frustrated. He knew he shouldn't be stringing her along when things were this complicated, but he was lost without her. Well, it wasn't like he was involved with Tanya. He hated her and her cheap games.
He and Bella repeated a constant and painful pattern. They pretended they were a normal couple for about a week before she broke up with him. It killed him every time even if he knew she loved him. He tried to stay away, he really did, but he always came back to lived for the moments he could feel her next to him. The rest of the time he was just going through the motions. It was almost frightening how nearly everything besides her had lost its appeal.
He banged at her door until his hands hurt. If she didn't let him in , he would there all night long. He hadn't slept in days, he barely ate, he just waited for the pain to be bearable. It seemed though that he was hurting a little more each day. His eyes were bloodshot and he was wearing the same clothes, wet from the rain falling outside.
He couldn't tell how much time had passed, but suddenly the door opened and her head peeked out.
"Go away!"
He had wanted to tell her beautiful things like the main characters in he books. She deserved that. The only thing that escaped his mouth was a strangled plea.
"Please". When this whisper was uttered he collapsed on the floor in front of her. She came forward and her hands stroked his hair soothingly. He laid his hand on her stomach, then raised it to look at her. Her face was as sad as his. She caught his hands and helped him to get up. Not wanting to break their contact, he caught her waste and took her in her arms. Her hands wrapped around his neck. They stayed like this for a while, inhaling each others scents.
"Edward, I think you need to take a shower and change," she broke the silence with a watery smile. She led him to the bathroom and gave him towels and some sweats he had forgotten there.
He let the water wash down his sadness and desperation until he felt better When he got out Bella was already in bed.
"You seem exhausted, like me. Let's sleep," she patted the right side of her bed, the one he always ended up to and he laid next to her.
"I missed you," he sighed, pecked her lips and they snuggled together in silence until they slept. He decided that he would definitely find a way out of this big mess and ask her to marry him.
Alice come in with a cup of coffee for him and then disappeared inside the OR. Jasper appeared from somewhere, sat next to him and patted his back.
"Everything is going to be ok."
"I know I'm just impatient. I want to see our child and convince myself that this isn't just a wonderful dream. I 'm going to propose. I have this ring since the second month we've met. I used to torture myself by imagining a future with her. You know, everything that my parents have. Now, I can have that and I just thank God for my luck."
"I know what you mean man. I don't know what I done to deserve your sister. Without her help I couldn't have made it." Jasper was a patient of his sister's mentor, an abandoned and abused teenager he took in his house. They met when his sister passed by his house to take her teacher's opinion on her thesis.
His sister was a brilliant psychologist and Jasper was his best friend. He never knew how one of them never found out everything. He and Bella were never particularly sneaky.
She was at his door, her hair ruffled and her cute little nose red from the cold outside. He took her coat and started making hot chocolate -she never liked coffee. She was talking animatedly about her day. There have been a very famous author in her bookshop and she had initiated a wonderful discussion with the readers that had came to see her. He couldn't resist her enthusiasm and soon they were in his bed half naked. As he was ready to remove his pants, the doorbell rang. He let out a frustrated sigh and a very terrified Bella run to hide in his bedroom's bathroom.
He wore a t-shirt and tried to slow down his pulse. He hoped that whoever it was wouldn't notice that his hair was a tangled mess, his lips swollen and his breath short. Not to mention the frustrated look in his face.
"Come on Edward! I'm freaking freezing!"
"Hello to you to Alice."
"Were you sleeping?" She took in his appearance.
"what are you doing here? How are you Ali?" He tried to avert the conversation.
"I'm fine. I just wanted to remind you that tomorrow Malibu Barbie and her parents are coming for dinner. Fun times." She didn't miss her obvious distaste for his fiancée.
"Don't worry," she said taking in his sad expression," I'll help you to get rid of her."
"Thanks Ali, but I think I need to figure this out on my own."
"Ok. I won't pressure you. I'm here for you though."
"I know," he said and kissed her cheek."
"See you tomorrow," she chirped and took off. When she disappeared at the stairs, he all but run to the bathroom and attacked Bella.
"You are unbelievable. Someone almost walked in on us and you want us to continue?"
"Always." He drugged his lips down her throat.
Alice had also a very big part in their final reunion. Two days before the wedding, after a relatively long time following their most recent break up, Bella woke up crying and kicked him out for good. He had gone home and mostly sulked in an armchair for four days, thinking about everything. On the fourth morning, after some hours of sleep he cleared things up in with Tanya and willingly followed Jasper to a bar, where he saw something that made him flip. Alice and Bella were sitting together talking.
"Alice? Bella?" This couldn't be happening. His sister yelled at him, ready to punch him in the face. When she managed to calm down she told him how he met Bella, surprising him with her apparent approval of his love. All this time Bella was paralyzed in her seat. He kept glancing towards her, not able to believe that his beautiful girl was here. Alice brought him back to reality saying that Bella had news for him, making her blush.
"Er…you see, I…I'm pregnant." Suddenly, his mind was miles (or months and years) away. Bella in a stunning wedding dress, Bella with acute round belly, a lovely white house, a little girl with red curls and brown eyes, a boy with brown hair and green eyes… Alice helped him snap out of it and he took Bella's hand in his. He demanded to know how those two met and his sister told him everything, but he decided to process this information later. He had to do something more urgent. He leaned in to kiss Bella, but his soon-to-be-dead sister stopped him, saying he should get rid of Tanya first. He reigned himself in and got to what he had been doing this morning.
Tanya opened the door after the fiftieth time he had rang on the doorbell. She was disheveled and reeking of cheap perfume. Well, it probably cost like two hundred dollars a bottle, but it was awful.
"Hello, Eddie. What can I do for you?"
"I'm calling the wedding of Tanya. By the way, it's Edward. E-D-W-A-R-D."
"But the guests? The preparations?"
"I don't care." Her annoying dog –Chichi or Deedee , whatever- started barking from the bedroom. Then something he could never guess happened. Mike Newton bolted out of with the dog's teeth attached to his butt, screaming bloody murder. He literally doubled over in laughter.
"Marry him!" he choked and took off.
A text informed him that the two sets of parents were on their way. He smiled, thinking about when he told his parents about Bella.
He had gone to his father study and had a very exhausting conversation with him. His usually cool and easygoing dad had been very disappointed trying to convince him to change his mind. He had kept this on even when they went to the kitchen to sit with his mother. He was praying that Alice would come soon and back him up. His father, however, didn't know what hit him when the always sweet and patient Esme Cullen understood what they were talking about. Nobody really understood how quickly she wiped her favorite wooden spoon from the sauce she was making and banged her husband's head with it.
"Listen here, Carlisle Eugene Cullen. I never liked that Tanya girl and if our son is in love we should be happy for him, not ruining his joy. If you keep this up you'll be sleeping on the couch for the next month." She took a deep breath and turned to her son smiling:
"When do we get to meet her?" Needless to say, Esme loved Bella from the moment she saw her.
Alice got out of the OR crying joyously:
"Come on guys, he's gorgeous!" He run in the room and there was Bella in some sort of bed, holding their son. He sat in a chair next to them and held his arms out to take the baby. The moment the two pairs of green eyes met he knew he had everything he wanted. Except for one little thing.
"Bella, love? I told once that I would find a way for us to be together for ever. Now, there's nothing to stop me from doing what I wanted for a year. I want us to be a real family. Will you marry me?" Bella smiled, overwhelmed and breathed out a yes. Alice shrieked enthusiastically causing the baby to leave an equally excited garble.
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