For some reason, I think my inner dislike for Jame/Logan comes out strongly in the story. lol

For anyone wondering about the title of the story, it will makes sense if you read chapter 6 of the other story, illogicality. That chapter has a bigger portion of Kames in it. The chapter should be up soon.

Abstract: Spin off story to "illogicality" dealing with the two taller members of big time rush. Kendall and and James aren't illogical but are they meant for each other?

Italics are thought, and "" are dialogue

Disclaimer: I don't own them. Interesting life if I do...

BTW THIS IS A EVENTUALLY SLASH of KAMES. DON'T LIKE, DON'T READ. But do try =].

Chapter 2 - Why I'm really angry

Back story (chapter 5) – James punched and yelled at Logan for getting Carlos hurt. Kendall calmed him down and told him to wait in their bedroom.

Kendall slides through the doorway silently and locks it. He looks at James walking in circles fisting his hands instead of holding a mirror. He sighs as he walks over to James' bed and jumps backward to lay down making a huge sound, hoping to grab the brunette's attention. Unsuccessful his attempt was, James continues pacing as if Kendall never walked in.

"James?" Kendall questions softly. "What are you doing?"

"Thinking Knight!" Kendall is shock hearing the hateful tone in his voice. He rarely ever hears this tone or is called by his last name; the last time being he "accidentally" threw a Cuda bottle out the window.

Kendall sighs and sits up patting a spot next to him. James ignores Kendall's offer and continues his unusual movement. Not wanting to be nice again, Kendall gets up, wraps his arms around James' waist and swiftly tugs him to his bed.

"Get off me, Knight!" James thrashes throwing his legs in the air but Kendall tightens his hold on him.

"Not until you tell me why you're so mad."

"Really, you can't tell?" James breaks free and stands up staring at Kendall with a scowling face. "Mr. I-am-so-smart and everything just got Carlos hurt! He could have died and in this hurricane no ambulance can come to save him."

"James, we know, he knows what he did was wrong."

"Then why did you protect him?" He retorts with a more intense demeanor.

"Because what good is it if he gets hurt too?" Kendall replies hoping his calm voice might help James cool down.

"No! Logan needs to learn and if beating him up is teaching him, I'll beat him up even if you don't."

"James."

"Shut up!" James snaps. "You're so stupid, Knight." James finishes and walks to the door.

"No!" Kendall grabs his wrist. "I'm not done with you." He says as he pulls forcefully James to the bed straddling him and pinning his arms over his head. James notices the strong intensity in Kendall's eyes.

"I'm not playing football, Knight. Now get off me!" James lashes out trying to throw the strong blond off him.

"Not until you tell why you're angry."

"Obviously I hate Logan!" James spats.

"NO!" Kendall releases all his emotional restraints. "What are you really angry about?"

"I HATE YOU!" James shouts not caring if the whole Palmwoods hears him. Kendall stares wide eyed as James stops moving and cries.

"What?" Kendall questions softly getting off James to sit at his side.

"I hate you." James repeats sobbing his words. Kendall also rarely saw James cries.

"Why, James? What did I do to you?" Kendall asks truly not knowing what he did to deserve his best friend's hatred.

"You cared for Logan." James says to a confused Kendall. "Forget it. I am going to watch Fashion Runway on TV."

"Stop James." Kendall begs grabbing his wrist once more. "Please." He begs softly sounding as if he is breaking down.

James sighs and sits next to him not facing him. He plays with his fingers. "You cared for Logan."

"I care for everyone."

"That's the thing." James whispers loudly. "You care for everyone. Anyone! You care for Logan, Carlos, Jo, your sister, anyone with legs you care for it."

"You're angry because I love everyone?

"No. I'm mad because you don't love any one person. You care for all."

Really confused, Kendall asks again, "You're mad because I care about everyone?"

"You don't love me." James finally sobs out with tears flowing.

"Of course I"

"No! You care for me. You care for everyone." He interrupts. "You don't think of me more than anyone else."

"That's not true James. We have been best friends since we were two."

"And that never stopped you from getting a girlfriend." James says shooting a bullet at Kendall.

"Are you mad that I have Jo?" Kendall asks feeling the pain in his voice.

"No well… no. I'm just frustrated that you don't care for me as much as I care for you." He frowns tipping his head downward letting the tears fall freely.

Kendall kneels on the floor and holds both of James' trembling shaking hands. "I care a lot about you James." James tilts his head to face Kendall's watery eyes.

"No you"

"I wait every night," Kendall interrupts. "Every single night for you to come home to our room before I go to sleep."

"How is that"

"I never go to sleep without seeing you come home safe first." Kendall gently squeezes James' hands.

"Kendall, we have a curfew."

"And that never stopped us before. But I have to know every night that when I'm asleep, you're asleep beside me, safe. Don't tell me I don't care a lot about you. If you're not home, I would run to every single door in this hotel searching for you. Heck I'll ask Mr. Know-it-all to hack your phone to find you. I care for you a lot more than you think I do."

James finally gives a chuckle. "Thanks Kendall. It means a lot." Kendall smiles back and stands up and pulls James into a hug.

"So, you're mad at me anymore?"

"No."

"You don't hate me?"

"I never could hate you." James chuckles again, thinking that it is quite the opposite.

Kendall breaks the hug. "Let's watch that fashion thing you like."

"But you hate that show." James says looking confuzzled.

"True. But I don't hate you." Kendall says with a smile walking out the room. All James did was stand still watching Kendall's back disappear from the room.

"I love you." He whispers before following Kendall out.

I hope you like the chapter. I felt this might have gone a bit OOC. I hope it was good. Please review.