AN: So I know that this is like WAY later than I planned to update but I got really busy. My sister graduated, I was in my friends wedding (I spent practically the entire week leading up to June 15, the wedding, helping get things ready), then I had knee surgery. I've had several appointments since then(not all were about my knee) and I sold one of my textbooks and had to take a trip to deliver it. Lastly I had to update 'My Not so Secret Life' before updating this. Anyway things have calmed down now and I'll be out of commission for about another month so I'll try to update as much as possible in that time.
Rachel POV:
After hanging up with Marley I just sat on my bed reflecting on everything for a while, until Kurt and Santana would need to be picked up from the airport. It was really kind of pathetic how people thought I'd turned into a slut just because I was pregnant not even a full year after graduating from high school. It was also pathetic how people just assumed I'd been having sex with Brody just because we shared a bed, not my choice by the way. When I said we were sleeping together I meant we were literally sleeping in the same bed, not having sex, but people just assumed whatever they wanted.
See when I invited Brody to move in with us it was because I felt bad for him. He'd just lost his apartment and had no where to go. I mean yeah I knew he wanted more than friendship but I couldn't in couldn't in good conscience leave a classmate and friend homeless. Plus Kurt really didn't mind helping Brody out. But then there was the issue of where Brody would sleep. Kurt wouldn't share his bed with Brody, it wasn't really big enough anyway, plus Santana had called us to say she was coming to New York and wanted to room with me and Kurt. Anyway that meant that the only extra room we had would be taken up by her since Brody was supposed to only stay with us temporarily. Brody also refused to sleep on the couch so the only option left was for him to share my bed. I didn't really like that idea given how I felt about Noah but I couldn't just take back my offer for Brody to stay with us. I mean how bad would it look if after telling Brody he can stay with us for a little while I said "oh wait no you can't here because I will not share a bed with you, Kurt's bed is too small, one of our friends from back home is moving in soon, and you refuse to sleep on the couch. So sorry you can't stay here anymore.", I couldn't do that no matter how things ended up this way. Although in hind sight I guess I should've just told Brody he could stay here for like a week or two and then help him find a new apartment. But things didn't happen that way so I just have to deal with it even though Brody is a prostitute.
Then there's my whole situation with Finn and my feelings for Noah. How could I have let myself keep dating Finn on again and off again even after realizing my feelings for Noah? Oh that's right... 1)I was a stupid girl who thought she was 'in love', I mean I even almost married the guy which would've ended up in me giving up my dream of New York and Broadway and 2)back in high school I thought Noah would never give us another chance, he was only after sexual gratification back then. So basically I was scared to try with Noah and I thought that I actually loved Finn but I was wrong. The conversation Noah and I just had about our baby proved to me that he is willing to give us another chance, that and a million little other things he does for me on a regular basis, like calling me every week to check how things are going and letting me just talk to him when I have a bad day or even a bad week. So maybe it took me a little to long to realize that Finn isn't the guy for me. And, no, it didn't take me sleeping with him at Mr. Schue's almost wedding to realize that, I've known since he sent me off to New York on our supposed wedding day. But even after I realized that I still had to hold on to him because I'd told everyone we were meant to be together and I just couldn't be wrong. But then after Finn visited me in New York I just knew for sure that we couldn't even fool ourselves into being together any longer because I'd fallen in love with New York already and Finn didn't belong in New York anymore than I belonged in Lima. And I didn't sleep with Finn at Mr. Schue's wedding to try and get him back, because I have lingering feelings, or anything like that... I slept with him because I was a little bit drunk and very horny and Noah couldn't come to the wedding so he couldn't help me out. Sleeping with Finn because I was drunk and Noah wasn't there to help me was really just a moment of weakness where I needed to satisfy my needs and Finn was the best I could get at that moment in time and I justified it to myself by saying that both Finn and I were single and I knew that neither of us had anything. I know that because Noah stays tested on a regular basis so I couldn't get anything from him, I never slept with Brody, and I didn't inherit anything AND Finn stayed tested after he slept with Santana because we all know her history with guys prior to her falling in love. BUT the point is I was weak and had to justify to myself why I was doing it so really that should've been a huge clue to not do it but as I said about Brody moving in you can't change what has already been done.
I need to tell Finn but I'd rather have the doctor confirm it for me first just so I can be 200 percent sure. I know I need to be honest with him and I know that I also most likely am pregnant given how long ago my last period was and that timeline matching up to the time Noah and I were sleeping together on a regular basis. I just hope that Finn doesn't get too upset and understands that when I tell him I'm pregnant that there's no way it can be his seeing as our timeline for sleeping together was either before October when he visited me here in New York or at the wedding and either one would be impossible for the baby to be his given how far along I would be and how long it takes to tell if you really are pregnant.
Marley POV:
So after hanging up from talking to Rachel I decided that I needed to call Jake and have a talk with him. Rachel was right he deserves to know but I just don't want him to get upset at me or anything. I mean I am on birth control but even then I could've forgotten to take one or it could fail. There are definitely people who've gotten pregnant while they are on birth control so it's not like I would be the only one ever. I just can't stand the thought of me actually being pregnant and Jake being so upset that he would walk out on me though so I have to tell him as soon as possible and also explain to him about Ryder. I have no feelings for Ryder but him helping Jake out for my Valentines Day was sweet so of course I had to thank him but he took it too far when he kissed me. I really hope that Jake will understand.
*Marley* *Jake*
*Hey Jake. I have a two things to tell you and I hope that you won't get upset at me.*
*Hey Marls. If it's about Rachel I already know. Puck told me when he called. And why would I be upset at you?*
*Well I mean yeah I was going to tell you about Rachel but that's not what I called to tell you. First off just know that I love you and no one else. And secondly please hear my entire side before saying anything because I really feel like if you interrupt me that it will only lead to us fighting which would be counter productive to this conversation.*
*Ok I'll listen but really Marls. How bad can it be that you think we could end up fighting over it.*
*Well the first thing I have to tell you is that I think there's a possibility you could've gotten me pregnant. I realized after thinking about it that I finished my last period about a week before the wedding and I know we didn't use a condom because we were both a little bit drunk and not thinking correctly. I am on birth control but that can fail just like a condom can and there's a slight chance that I may have forgotten to take a pill or two before the wedding. Also I realize it's too early to tell for sure if we like took a test BUT I just want you to know that I don't consider abortion or adoption to be options if I am. I'll raise this baby on my own if I am and if I have to. I mean I would hope that if I was that you would support me but I do realize that I can't force you to and I wouldn't because I know if I did force you to support us that one day soon you would resent us for that. AND secondly on the Monday after the wedding I talked to Ryder at school. I know he helped you with all that Valentines Day stuff for me so I just wanted to thank him for that. Well he seemed to think that my thanking him and knowing he was involved meant he had the right to kiss me. I don't have any feelings beyond friendship for him and you know that I love you so please just don't be mad at me. I never even wanted him to kiss me. I love you and only you Jake. Whatever Ryder thinks is between is all in his imagination because I see him as a teammate and friend and that's it. Please don't hate me for what Ryder did.*
*Shit Marley. I can't believe we might be having a baby. First off how soon will you be able to take a pregnancy test that can tell us? And secondly I know you would never force me to be there for you and our baby but if you are pregnant than I will be there for you both. Also about Ryder I don't like it because you are dating me. But I am upset but again because you are dating me and you love me and Ryder had the nerve to kiss knowing all that. I'm not upset at you because you did tell me and you don't have feel the same way he apparently does but I wish you would have told me right after he kissed you instead of waiting. Just give me some time to calm down about this. And please let me express how I feel about him doing this to him without you interrupting. He needs to learn once and for all that you don't return his feelings and that we're dating Marls and I can teach him that.*
*Well it's been almost a week since I gave you my virginity and periods come once a month so I should be able to tell in about 2 and half to three more weeks. And thank you for saying you'll be there for me and the baby if I am pregnant. Also I understand why you feel that way about Ryder and what he did but please don't hurt him too badly. Just make him understand and then walk away because I know that it's pointless to tell you to just leave things like they are right now. As for telling you sooner well I was scared of how you would react so I talked myself out of it until Rachel convinced me that it was the best thing for our relationship. I had convinced myself that it would ruin our relationship if I told you about Ryder kissing me but Rachel told me that I needed to tell and I needed to tell the whole truth before someone else did or before Ryder tried something else. Ok so maybe she didn't use those words exactly but it's what she meant and it convinced me.*
*Babe I can't say for sure that I wouldn't have been upset but it would've saved me from wondering why you were acting so strangely since then. I can say though that if you'd told me the whole truth then that I would've hade just about the same reaction as now, minus the wishing you'd told me sooner. And of course I would be there for you and our baby. And if you tell me when you want to take the pregnancy test than I'll sit with you and wait on the results*
*Aww thank you Jake. You don't know how much that means to me. And of course I'll let you know when I'm going to take the test. I mean the results will affect both of our lives so why should I keep you from them since we're having this conversation now. But I'm getting tired so I gotta go baby. Rachel and me talked and cried for a long time so I'm wore out from that and school so I'm going to bed. I'll see you tomorrow.*
*You're welcome Marls. And thank you. Ok I love you baby. I'll talk to and see you tomorrow as well. Sleep tight and sweet dreams, of me of course.*
With that Jake and Marley's conversation was over and Marley climbed into bed and fell asleep within 5 minutes. She was so tired she didn't even dream much less toss and turn. It was the best sleep she'd gotten in a while. Prior to the wedding she hadn't been sleeping well because she was freaking out about Regionals and her eating disorder therapy had been more aggressive so she hadn't even had that much time to sleep anyway.
Rachel POV:
The morning after my phone conversations with Marley and Noah I called the closest and most highly recommended OBGYN to my apartment and set up an appointment. Right after I set up my appointment I texted Noah about when it was (it was set for a week from this coming Saturday at 11 in the morning.) I figured Noah could come down for at least the weekend and he would have to, unfortunately, stay in a hotel unless I found a way to get rid of Brody before then.
Anyway I was just walking out the door to go get some breakfast at this cute little dinner on the corner a block from out apartment when Noah texted me back that he would definitely be coming to my appointment with me. He said he was trying to get a flight for Thursday but wasn't sure what time it would get in. We texted back and forth occasionally for the remainder of the day but mostly it was just stuff that held no real meaning such as when I caught the heel of my boot in a storm grate while rushing from the dinner to my first class and when he fell out of bed after being surprised by Jake before Jake had to be at school.
AN 2: So I know this is short but hey it's an update. Up next is the Jarley pregnant/not pregnant reveal and probably the goodbye to Brody. And the Finn conversation.