I was glad that the club meeting had been pushed back an hour so I could go home and take a small nap. As I approached the school door I thought back to the dream I had during my nap that involved my Takeo. I feel myself turn a slight red as I think about it and shake it off before I enter. It seemed somewhat weird to see the halls so empty when going to club instead of seeing them like this when leaving. My heart pounds more and more as I get closer and closer to the club. Just to know I get to see my Takeo makes me so happy. As I get a few feet from the club I can hear the muttering of the others.
I slid open the club door, walked through, and shut it on my way in. "Hi! Sorry I'm late. I kinda over slept," I place my bag with my uniform in it on the floor and slid my way over to Takeo giving him a seductive grin. To my surprise he look at me as if he were worried about something. Nakatomi looked so pale and like something had terribly happened. "Uh.. Is everything OK? Or did something happen that I should know about?," I questioned as a looked from Nakatomi to Takeo. The silence was deafening and the more the silence went on the more I wondered what was going on and why they were all so reluctant to tell me.
"Aburatsubo.. You're my best friend so.. For what I'm about to say I hope you'll be happy for me..," Takeo's voice trailed off as he scratched the back of his head. I looked at him curiously wondering what news he had to tell. "OK.. Proceed..," I said just wanting to know the fuck was going on. "Erm.. How can I put this..," his face shot the cutest shade of red, I suppose he was embarrassed to say whatever he was going to say, "Uh.. Me and Sawanoguchi.. We're…," he glanced at Sawanoguchi who just gave him a comforting smile, it angered me so when she always did this, but Takeo couldn't possibly mean that he and her were..? Nah.. It can't be.. Takeo took a deep breath and finally said it, "Me and Sawanoguchi.. We're a couple now.. Heh Heh.. Isn't that good news?"
My mouth fell a gape when I heard him utter those words. My heart felt like it had been ripped into so many microscopic pieces. "Me and Sawanoguchi.. We're a couple now..," the words repeated in the back of my mind. I wanted to pretend this was just some horrible nightmare, even though I know it wasn't. "How.. How could the one I love so much do this to me? Why would he chose that little bitch of an underclassmen over me?! Can't he see that I can, and would, love him more than she could ever hope to?!!," the thoughts ran through my mind so quickly. I couldn't stand to be there. I didn't want to be there with him and that.. That thing. Without much thinking I quickly snatched up my things and darted out the door. I think I might have accidentally shoved Nakatomi into the wall, but I was too angered and hurt to really notice anything. All I know I wanted was to get home and cry by myself.
I kept running until I found myself outside the school. I slowed down to a depressed stroll as I continued my way home. "Did I do something to make him not love me? Did my flirtatious actions push him farther away rather than bring him closer? Why would he do something to hurt me so if I am his 'best friend'? Why would he do this? Why..?," these thoughts ran through my mind. All the thoughts were clouded with "why" and "what if" questions. I felt the tears begin to slide down my cheeks. I couldn't go home and walk in with tears, because there's no way I could tell my mother and there's no way I could avoid her knowing if I walked in with tears in my eyes and early home from the club meeting. She is a good mother even though she can be extremely pesky at times.
I sat down on a bench in a secluded area of the nearby park. I set my stuff on the ground near my feet and buried my face in my hands and let the tears come. The evening air was cool and felt somewhat comforting from what all had happened. I wiped my tears away from my face with my shirtsleeve and tried to get a hold of myself so I could go home in peace. "Aburatsubo-sempai..?," I heard a familiar voice whisper to me. I glanced up some from my hands and realized it was Nakatomi. "Na—Nakatomi.. Wha—What are you doing here..? Why didn't you.. Stay at the.. Meeting?," I questioned her as I tried more to fight back the tears that tried to break through the more I tried to speak. She didn't answer at first but instead sat down beside me on the bench and placed a comforting hand on my left shoulder. "Listen..," she started slowly, "I know how you must feel.. That's why I left the meeting and went after you.. I know how hard it must be on you.. Trust me.. I know rejection is a hard thing.. I've dealt with it myself, y'know.. Sometimes the best thing you need is just a shoulder to cry on.. It really helped me.."
I simply nodded, and she tried to pull me closer. I complied and buried my face against her shoulder and just let the tears come. Nakatomi wrapped her arms around me tightly and slowly started to rub my back. "It—it's just.. I just.. I just don't know.. What to do..," I tried to speak but she just gave me a gentle squeeze. "Shhh.. Everything is gonna be OK.. I promise. Just try to relax.. I'm here for you..," she said and gently began to stroke my hair. The tears began to slowly subside as her attempts to comfort me had actually worked. Even though this day had turned into a total nightmare I really didn't feel alone. I actually felt like I had someone that understood what I was feel and everything that I had gone through and what I was going through.
And then it hit me. She did know what I was going through and she did know what I was feeling and the thoughts that ran through my head. She felt this way because I had put her through the same thing. When she told me how much she cared and loved me that one day I pretty much blew her off even though I do have a lot of feelings for her, but I did try to comfort her a little. Why would she comfort me at I time like this when I didn't do it for her when she went through it? Did she really care about me that much to put the past in the past and just worry about my well-being? I wrapped my arms gently against her body and I felt her give a slight, startled gasp at my actions. I squeezed her gently and pulled my head away from her shoulder to I could look her in the eyes. "Nakatomi.. I—I'm really sorry..," my voice trailed off some as she gave me a curious look. "What are you sorry for? You haven't done anything wrong that I can think of," she replied and gave me a concerned look. "Yes I have. You know that as well as I do. That day you told me how you feel towards me," I began as her face went from concerned to shocked and hurt, "That day I treated you as if I didn't care at all about your feelings. The truth is that I do.. I didn't say it that day because I didn't want to give you any hope and I figured you'd get over it quickly. But now I realize exactly what you went through.. How you felt.. What your thought.. The total feel of hurt and rejection..," my voice trailed off as I felt the tears swell up in my eyes again.
"Aburatsubo-sempai..," she started but I cut her off, "Listen.. I don't know why your even here to comfort me.. Especially after the way I treated you that day.. I still feel bad about it, but why don't you take what just happened as a moment of revenge?" "Aburatsubo-sempai.. Even though I know I can be a complete bitch at times doesn't mean that I would stop caring about you.. Even though after the way you treated me I could still never get over you.. I guess I just really like you OK?!," she snapped at me towards the end. It only made me chuckle to see her have her usual personality instead of being so damn serious. "Na—Nani?! So now your laughing at me?! Well, it is good to see you laugh.. But still!," I simply just smiles and moved my face closer to hers. "Y'know.. Sometimes you talk to much..," and with that, I still don't really know why, I quickly pressed my lips against her own and stole a small kiss.
To my surprise I enjoyed it even more than that one time Takeo accidentally kissed me. Was the one I neglected the one I really loved after all? When I looked back into her face she was the cutest shade of red. Even more cute that Takeo? I just smiled at her and felt my face start to turn a slight red compared to her dark, crimson shade, "Well I guess I finally found something that keeps you quiet, ne?" I chuckled some as she just sat with a shocked look on her face, and her arms still locked around me and mine around her. I pulled her in closer and laid my head back on her shoulder and she did the same to me. "Aburatsubo-sempai.. Why did you..?," her voice trailed off some and instead of answering I simply just gave her a tight squeeze and blew gently on her neck.
When I blew against her neck softly I felt her give a little shiver and nuzzled her face against my neck. She gave a soft sigh and I felt her lips gently press against the flesh of my neck. I felt my face heat up some more and countered her little kiss. I then began to feel that I was actually enjoying this as much as she was. The question is why, though. I had totally forgot about Takeo and my only thoughts were that of Nakatomi. It really didn't seem to matter much that Takeo now had Sawanoguchi. As long as I had such a good friend like Nakatomi everything was going to be fine. Maybe the term "good friend" isn't good enough. Maybe we could become more, then again maybe not. I just really didn't want her to feel the pain like I gave her before. I just wanted to be there for her as much as she was for me.
The evening sun was setting more and the daylight was quickly turning into night. "Nakatomi I maybe we should be getting home. It will soon be dark and all," I whispered softly in her ear. "Mmhmm..," was the only response I got and she gave me another tight squeeze. I guess she didn't want to let go and actually I didn't want to either for some reason. We sat there on the bench locked in each other's arms for a bit longer then I pulled my head away from her shoulder and loosened my arms around her waist. She also reluctantly pulled away from my shoulder and gave me a warm smile. I smiled back and gave her back a small rub before standing up.
I picked up my stuff as she stood up. I gently put my left hand on her right shoulder and smiled some, "Since it's getting dark is it OK if I walk you home?," I questioned due to the fact it seemed like the right thing to do. "It's more or less because you want to not because you feel it's the right thing to do…," a voice in the back of my head muttered. I shook it off some as Nakatomi simply nodded while her face blushed. We slowly strolled our way in the direction of her house. The streetlights had just started to light up giving the area a warm, kind of romantic glow. The stores along the street had started to close shop for the day, mainly the sidewalk cafés.
Even though we were walking in silence we were both enjoying the walk. We started to near an alley but I didn't think anything of it until we heard a large crash of the trashcans. Nakatomi jumped and clung to my arm just as I reach my other arm in front of her in protection. The only thing that emerged from the alley way a scruffy looking cat. We both let out a soft sigh of relief and I chuckled some at the whole situation until I realized that Nakatomi still clung to my arm. I looked down and gave her a comforting smile as she looked up and turned red. "I—I'm sorry Aburatsubo-sempai," she said as she quickly let go of my arm. "It's OK I didn't think it was an alley cat at first either," and as I said that I gently slid my arm around her shoulders to give her a secure feeling. She gasped some at my actions but quickly snuggled herself into my side as we continued our way to her house.
As we got to the entrance of her house she squeezed me tightly in a hug and I returned to hug. She looked up at with a happy smile on her face I haven't seen since before she told me about the feelings she had for myself, "Aburatsubo-sempai.. Thanks a lot." I smiled and placed a small kiss on her forehead, "I think I should be the one saying 'thanks' more than you." We hugged one last time before we said good-bye and she dashed into her home. I smiled some and made my way to my own home. As I walked along the dimly lit streets I realized how lonely I felt walking home, and yet how warm and comfortable I felt when I was with Nakatomi.
I strolled in through the door to my house and shouted, "I'm home!" My mom walked out from the kitchen and greeted me, "Your dinner is in the oven so it would stay warm." I nodded and got my dinner and quickly ate it then, after saying "good night", I made my way up to my room and flung myself on my bed. The only thing I could think about was my time with Nakatomi. I had completely forgotten about losing Takeo to Sawanoguchi. I gently placed my fingers to my lips as I remembered the kiss I gave her. "Could I really be over Takeo so quickly and already have fallen deeply in love with another?", this thought kept running through my mind as I closed my eyes and replayed the whole scene with Nakatomi over again until I slowly drifted off into sleep.
Okies! I know this one was kinda shorter than chapter one. I've started work on chapter 3 but it probably won't be posted as quickly as this one was. ._.;; Sorry it's just my birthday is coming up so I'll be busy! ^_~ Please R&R and tell me what ya think and any comments on what I should do for the next chapters would be appreciated! ~*~Nikkeh~*~