THE END OF A NEW BEGINNING

The characters in this story belong to Stephenie Meyer.

I was shocked...That was impossible but, I mean, it really does fit all the signs. But, but how he, he said...well, I guess he has said a lot of things to me that weren't exatlly true. And I mean I manage to find a a coven of vampires so with my kind of luck it just happens that I have to go and do the imposible, right.

Wait, what am I thinking...I mean Ed- he was liar but the rest of them weren't were they? That was part of the reason Rosalie hated me, because I could have children and she couldn't. So, it can't be. I must be wrong... but, OH GOD, just because she couldn't...doesn't mean I can't. OH GOD, she's right, she's right, my mind kept screaming at me. But I can't have a baby, I mean there are so many reasons why, so probably the most normal reaction I have had to any life altering situation...I started to panic.

"No! I mean I can't, I'm not ready, he's gone, I mean…I,I,I." I couldn't breathe So I started hyperventilating. I wasn't ready for this, for a child. I'm to young! I I had a lif- I was thinking life a head of me but I lost that the second he, and with out him knowing or caring he took my life, my future, my everthing with him. Oh God, this child, my, child, ooour child, won't grow up with a father. And I'm only eighteen. I'm not mother material I,I,I can't do this. Oh God, Oh God. With all that running throw through your head, how on earth are you suppose to try and concentrate on breathing normally or at all. And I was starting to get a little woozy from the lack of oxygen going throw my lungs.

I think Angela was in front of me, but everything was very fuzzy. Then I think it was Angela's hand on my back, because there was something rubbing calming circles into my back. I think she was trying to calm me down and thabkfully it was starting to help and I could feel more and more air making it's way into my lungs and luckly things weren't spining as much, because that was starting to give me a head ach. "Bella breath…breath in out, in out," I then started coping Ang's breathing. "It's ok Bell I'm here and if you are pregnant. And Bella look at me," she stoped the soothing motions on my back so that she could take my face between her hands and force me to look her in the eyes. The proceded to say each word carefully so that I would under stand. "we don't even know if you really are pregnant. So just breath…ok" I was still fowling the breathing pattern she had put out for me and I think I was able to breath my own again, thankfully. And she was right we really didn't know if I was pregnant. Oh God pregnant. Wait. Stop. Breathe, in out. "Ok what should I do" I asked in a very broken voice. I had no idea what I had to do, so I just started to bawl my eyes out. I've been doing that a lot lately.

"Uh… I, I don't know... let me think...um I don't think we should go to a doctor because then you know the whole town will know why your there, so we should just wait till we know for sure, OK? Um, how about I pick you up from your house and we go to Port Angeles and get the pregnancy test there, and hopefully no one will see us. Uh... I'll be there the WHOLE time… I'm not going to let you go throw this alone, espeically if the test is positive and you are pregnant. I won't leave you got it!" I couldn't belive what she saying, I would thin k she would think horribale of me and here she is telling me she is going to help me through this. I didn't know how to react other then through my arms around her tall fram and try and hug the life out of her, and whisper "thank you," in my most quit yet a very loving and greatful voice. Ang smiled softly and whiped a tear from my face when I finally pulled away and said " lets get to lunch before it ends, then I'll take you to the nurse and we can tell her you're not feeling , uh... I'll stay with you if that's what you want." Angela finished by giving my shoulder a sqeez. It amazes me at how much she actually seems to care for me, It is like she is screamin g it at me. But I don't know how any one could care for me... I'm I just by looking at the expression on her face I knew she wasn't lying or faking that she really was a true friend. This new revalotion about how much Angela actually did care, the tears started to fall down my checks lightly.

Once I was pretty sure that I hade the water works under control, I looked up at her through my tear stained lashes and throw my arms around her and pressed my face into her shoulder for a second before I was able to actually put what I was feeling towards Angela into an actual sentence. "Thank…you…so...much! I am forever grateful you Ang. I love you and I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you here for me right know. And I would really like it if you stayed with me_ I kind of don't want to be alone right now." I whispered the last part.

She laughed a light little laugh to make us both feel a little calmer I think. Then went into one of the empty stalls and came out with a few pieces of toilet paper and started to wipe away the remains of my tears, before she started to talk again. "I love you too bells, don't forget that," she giggled " and I guess it's a good thing you don't need to wear makeup or you would totally have black strips falling down your cheeks," she laughed and to my surprise I actually giggled,GIGGLED, the first real giggle in awhile, and of all the times for myself to find some sense of humor know, know, of all times...is beyond me.

So we then proceded to leave the bathroom and head back to what was left of our lunch period. Angela left her arm around my shoulder to try and stop my shacking and for that I was thankful. I may not be feeling better about the situation exept for the fact that well... there is a situtation in the first place. I thought I heard Angela say something about how I didn't look to steady on my feet either, but I never saw her lips move. Huh. I don't know maybe I'm just losing it. I mean I could see it happening with all that I have been through, actually I am surprised that I haven't lost it yet, mabie this will be my breaking point. But I really didn't want think of what was going to come in the next few hours.

I was struck with a thought more like a question, that I wasn't really aware of. And I wasn't really sure if I was even ready to anwser this in the deep depth of my brain yet alone out loud. I didn't know what would be hardest for me to deal with... if I truely was pregant... or if I wasn't.

AUTHORS NOT: Hi everyone how is reading this I hope you all like my story and that I will try and post things quickly. But I only have up to the third chapter writen on microsoft and the rest seven or so chapters are all written in a note book but I will try and have them up as soon as I can. I also would like for people to review. I don't think I would be ending this story anytime soon because I have gotten some reviews and I love u all who did review my story and like it that I wouldn't just stop and not fin ish the story because I hate that and I love to write nad this my escape from the real world. OH and I would like to put in an extra special thanks to a really awsome friend Miranda for helping me with Ideas so I want her to get her credit...and she's just plain awasome!!! All hail Miranda ha! Srry for that but thanks all who are read luv all yall. -Shannon :)