Missing Her
I sat there in my bed listening to Ron's snoring. Hermione was sleeping too, but I couldn't sleep. I just couldn't stop thinking about Ginny! We were still working on trying to figure out how exactly we were going to pull of the mission into the Ministry of Magic, but that was the last thing I wanted to think about. I just couldn't stop wondering if Ginny was ok.
I shied, then quietly sat up and reached under my pillow to grab the Marauders Map. Then, I grabbed my wand from the bed side table. "I solemnly swear that I am up to no good." I whispered then taped the blank parchment. The blank parchment was no longer blank, it now showed Hogwarts. My eyes shot straight for the Gryffindor common rooms, looking for Ginny's name. Finally, I spotted her. She was in her dorm room, hopefully sleeping and having good dreams. But I still wasn't there to make sure of that. I hurt her, I did and I know I did, but I did it for her own good, and I told her that in the note I left.
She deserves better though. I whispered "Mischief managed" and the map was gone. Like me, I thought, I was missing from Ginny. I wonder if she could find a new boyfriend, that way if I don't make it she will be able to go on; to be able to forget me.
I laughed a little. If Ginny could hear me now, she would tell me to stop brooding and look on the bright side. I don't think there is one though; if I die then she will hurt, if I don't and she gets a new guy then I hurt. Well, there is the fairy tale ending, that I live and we get together and live happily ever after. But, I don't need to get my hopes up.
I just have to see how things play out. This war is no were near to being won so I just have to pray she is ok and still loves me. I will have to survive with remembering the few months I had with her. Remember her soft, vibrant red hair, the way her chocolate brown eyes could melt my cold walls that even my best friends can't break, and how much I love her.
I closed my eyes thinking only about her. I hope she's safe was the last coherent thought before I fell into a restless sleep full of dreams revolving around Ginny.