Clare's POV
"Eli's hiding something, again" I said to Alli as I got ready for my shift in the tutor room. "Come on, Clare. I'm sure it's not as intense as you're making it" Alli said dismissively. "Oh, really? Let's see, the last time I found out he was hiding something, he turned out to be hoarder. The time before that, he had a dead ex- girlfriend. Every single time, it has been intense and had something to do with Julia." I said slamming my locker shut causing Alli to jump. I sighed heavily and asked "how am I supposed to compete with a dead ex?" Alli just looked at me and shook her head. "Yeah" I said softly as I turned and headed to the tutor room. Once I got to the room, Fitz was already there with his head on the table. I dropped my books on the table causing him to pop up. I wasn't in the mood to make small talk or even pretend I wanted to be there. I sat down and opened my books and said "let's get started". "Really? No how you doing? Long time no see. Sorry, my jackass boyfriend poisoned you?" Fitz said sarcastically while opening his books. I rolled my eyes and looked at him. "Why are you even here? Shouldn't you be in jail or something? How are you back at Degrassi?" I asked clearly annoyed. "Well, my mom talked to the school board about how unfair it was that I was going to be expelled while the guywho poisoned me was still allowed to roam these halls. I'm not in jail because- well you don't need to know all the details of my life. What you need to do is help me catch up and keep that little boyfriend of yours out of my face" Fitz said staring at me. I felt so uncomfortable in that moment but I refused to let him see that. I moved closer to him so that I was staring him right in the eyes. "What you need to do is not waste my time or threaten 'my little boyfriend'. If you make even the slightest hint that you will do something to Eli, these tutoring sessions are done. Do you understand me?" I said as calmly as I could. Fitz let out a slight chuckle and smiled. I waited for him to answer but he just nodded his head and turned to his books. I moved back and smiled, a little pleased that I made Fitz turn away first. Maybe this tutoring thing won't be as bad as it seemed.
Eli's POV
"Sadie looks like Julia? Really? Wow, Adam said as we played video games in my living room, how weird is that? I mean of all the new girls that could have possibly come to Degrassi, you have class with the one that looks like your dead ex." I just glared at him. Adam looked cleared his throat and asked "so, did you tell Clare yet?" I had been thinking about that all day. I had decided not to tell her but she could obviously see that something was wrong. Maybe I should just tell her and get it over with. I mean it's not like I did anything wrong. "No, not yet" I said realizing Adam was still waiting for an answer. "Man, I am so glad I'm not you. Can you imagine that conversation? 'Hey, Clare you know that cute new girl you saw me with? She looks and reminds me of Julia'. Clare will probably lose it" Adam said smiling and shaking his head. He was right. Clare had been pretty understanding about my past with Julia but how would she react to me saying that Sadie reminded me of her. I'm not going to take that chance. She's better off not knowing. Later, that night I had one of the best sex dreams I ever had. The problem was it was about Sadie and not Clare. How can I feel guilty about something that I have no control over? I mean Sadie's a cute girl, so dreaming isn't really wrong. As long I don't actually do anything, everything thing is still fine. Just then my phone rang. It was 2 in the morning and the only person allowed to call me that late was Clare. I picked up the phone and said "Hey". "Hey yourself, I didn't wake you did I?" she asked innocently. "No, it's fine. I was just uh cleaning up." I cursed myself for coming up with such a lame answer. "So, what's up?" "I just wanted to say sorry for yesterday. I'm sure if there were something you had to tell me you would. I know I can trust you." She said making me feel more and more guilty with each word. "No worries. I like seeing Saint Clare getting jealous. It's hot" I said trying to make her blush. "Oh, shut up and get some sleep. I'll see you tomorrow" she said with her voice going slightly higher meaning that she was actually blushing before I heard the phone click. "Oh, I am such an ass" I thought out loud before drifting back to sleep.
Clare's POV
So, I've been tutoring Fitz for a few weeks now and it hasn't sucked as much as I thought it would. He has turned out to be a really funny guy and an actual gentleman. It's weird, he's the last person I would've thought of as kind or considerate but after he opened up to me a little about his home life, my opinion of him has changed so much. Part of me even looked forward to our time together. To my surprise, I was even starting to think of Fitz as a friend. The only problem is I feel guilty for keeping my tutoring sessions with Fitz from Eli. It feels like I'm lying and nothing good could possibly come from lying. Okay, that's it. I'll tell Eli when I see him after my tutoring session with Fitz.
Eli's POV
I couldn't believe that Dawes would pair me up with Sadie but her thought was since my partnership with Clare had helped her writer's block, maybe I could have a similar effect with Sadie. I hated spending time with Sadie because the more time I spent with her, the more I started developing feeling for her. It was no longer about Julia or at least not as much but about her. I still liked Clare and still wanted to be with her but there was just something about Sadie that I couldn't explain. I couldn't do this anymore. I couldn't spend time with Sadie anymore. It felt like I was cheating even though I hadn't actually done anything. I walked to Sadie's locker to tell her I couldn't be her partner anymore. "Oh, hey Eli. What's going on?" She said bubbly. I took a deep breath as I prepared what I was going to say. I couldn't believe how nervous I was. "I don't know exactly how to say this but-"she cut me off by kissing me passionately. I was caught off guard and even more surprised when I realized that I wasn't into it. I pulled back and pushed her away. "What the hell, Sadie?" I asked confused. "You were going to ask me out but you were nervous. It's okay, Eli, I'd love to go out with you" she said smiling. "I have a girlfriend. You met her, Clare?" I said still slightly confused. "Oh, please. You haven't mentioned her in weeks and you obviously are into me. I mean why else are you always staring at me?" She asked with a confident smirk on her face. Oh, I really am an ass. That's the first thought that came to mind. I had been sending her signals for weeks. "Look, I'm sorry I led you on but I love Clare" I said surprised at that last statement. I had never said it to Clare and I didn't realize I even felt that way until that moment. I smiled at the realization but that didn't last long because the next thing I felt was the sting of Sadie's slap on my cheek before she stormed off. I held my cheek as I walked down the hall to the tutor room. I had to see Clare and tell her I loved her. When I turned the corner, I couldn't believe my eyes. There was Clare laughing and smiling with Fitz.