Notes: oh man, this scene was so hard to write. I agonized over it. I'm so used to writing with anime in mind that its difficult to think with "real life" in mind. And this didn't help. I found it on my last fanart raid... atomicfireball./art/The-Doctor-And-The-Captain-59709094
Thank you atomic fireball. oooooh, but the Doctor looks so cute animated!
Ark -- 2
"It wasn't your fault." It was late, Jack and the Doctor were the only ones awake. The Torchwood team had long since gone home for a good night's sleep. Jack, on the other hand, didn't need very much in the way of sleep, and even if he did, he was too wired.
Finding out what happened to Mori had been Damon's reason for joining the team. Damon was sound asleep, curled up in a chair next to his sister's bedside. He'd work things out with Damon later, Damon's issues tended to be a timebomb. He'd simmer and simmer and simmer and get upset days after the fact. That gave Jack some amount of time to deal with Damon.
It was the Doctor that most captured Jack's concern. The doctor was seated on the couch in his office, and Jack slipped next to him on the couch with a sigh. "If you're about to hit on me again you're wasting your breath." Doctor said coolly. "How many tries does this make?" A sappy slow song was playing on the CD player. One of Toshiko's CD's, the label in her handwriting, "Gravity, Y.K. DoA F.M." (1)
"I heard about Donna." The instant groan from the other man told Jack he'd hit the right button.
"How?" That was bitter.
"Beer helps." Jack offered him a drink. The Doctor took it suspiciously. Alcohol would help Jack /later/. The timelord hadn't been entirely wrong. Jack was hoping to get Doctor by the end of the night. But this was more important. "Great minds think alike. So do the minds of those traumatized in battle. Sarah Jane decided to take Luke to the seaside after the battle. She ran into Donna on the seashore, who had gone to visit with her mother and grandfather. Sarah Jane thought there was something wrong when Donna didn't recognize her. Fortunately Donna's grandfather is more vigilant than her mother is. He caught up with Sarah Jane and explained the whole thing, Donna's memories had been surpressed, and if she remembered she would die, and the Doctor had left looking very depressed about the whole affair. She knows you better than any of us, and with age came wisdom that Martha or Rose don't have. She said, 'when the doctor comes again, he won't be in a good mood, he'll likely be depressed and out of sorts. Please try to get his spirits back up. What happened up there will tear him to pieces.'"
"So you're here to shrink me, nice try." Doctor said quietly, a wry smile on his lips.
Jack did something that a long time ago he never would have dared do. He wrapped his arms around the Doctor and whispered quietly in his ear. "You push everyone away, we try to reach out to you, every one of us. But you won't have any of it. You're willing to teach us, you're willing to save us. But we reach out to you the way we would someone we meet, anyone we would get to know, and it doesn't work. There's a magic barrier between us and you. And you won't bring it down. Now its the kind of thing that Legends are made of, but what about Doctor the man, not Doctor the legend, Doctor the man? What does he get out of being a Legend? He gets nothing. NOTHING." Jack whispered fervently. His grip became tender, though he didn't dare make a move yet. "What kind of existance is that? You know people, but you won't KNOW them. What are you afraid of...?"
"I..."
"Okay, there's the difference in ages, that's a polite thing, that's a gentlemanly thing. And the barrier of lightyears and centuries that probably span eternity for you. That's a good thing but it still gets you nowhere. You FOUND Earth? Why? Everybody says you come when we need you. Did you ever think that its the other way around? You NEED someone, and that need is so great that it guides your hand, and in turn the Tardis, to the people who will care about you and love you and take that barrier away like the sun breaking away the rain. Or perhaps you're holding back because you know that you'll still stay young, and each of us will eventually age and die?"
"For starters..."
"Okay, think about who you're sharing a couch with?" Jack smirked. "I'm not as old as you are, but I'm in the same boat..." He paused. "yeah, think about that. And as you know full well I know no shame." He chuckled. "How can I become attached to Ianto, who will grow old while I stay young, dissolving into ashes and sand and dust? Damon is a moot point given what we found out about him and Mori. Its because I let myself get close to them. I let myself open to getting hurt, because if you don't leave yourself open to hurt, you can't grow. If you don't leave yourself open to hurt, you are going to spend the rest of eternity alone. Instead of worrying about pain... ooooh, i know plenty of pain, I can't die remember? I'm reborn over and over and over. Kind of like Regenerating isn't it? Instead of worrying about being hurt... celebrate. Celebrate life. Celebrate the lives of those you care about. And when Ashes have gone to Ashes, Dust to Dust, Celebrate their memory! I have EVERY imporant battle to me, I have them marked on the calender so that I remember who they were and..."
"BUT YOU'RE YOU!" The Doctor shoved Jack away. "You're bubbling over with energy, you can't help connecting with people. You THRIVE on 'emotionally connecting' with people." Jack could tell he'd started to get through though. The Doctor had taken a long swig on his beer. "I'm not LIKE that!"
"No, you're intelligent and empathetic and if anything oversensitive. The constant losses have you moody and depressed and too scared of the aftermath to DEAL with getting hurt. You distance yourself from the rest of us because you're convinced that the instant you get close to somebody you're going to get hurt or they're going to get hurt. And then where will you be?" Jack got close again, planting his hands on the doctor's shoulders and starting to massage the tension building in them. Jack had all but memorized the kama sutra in all the spare time he'd had on his hands after the Doctor had left the first time. He knew exactly what parts of the body to rub, what muscle to kneed to relax a man.
Jack's plan was simple, yeah, 'shrink' the doctor, as the timelord had put it, but he truely felt that the other needed some kind of sexual relief. What the Doctor needed was some way to cleanse centuries of emotional stress from his head. When he was certain that he'd said his peace to the Timelord, that the other was going to LISTEN to what he was saying here and was sure that the other was fully willing he would make his move. But it was the psychological relief he needed most.
"If you don't learn to connect with people, even ONE person, you are going to be hurt over and over again. Do you understand that?" The Doctor responded with a sarcastic snort. "You know you're a smart timelord but a rotten people person."
"Oh really, well you're a dumb captain and an overenthusiastic 'people person.'" Doctor retorted, gulping on the beer again. Once again, Jack was juuuust where he wanted to be, pressed against the Doctor's back, massaging arms and shoulders and rubbing the tension out of them. "I admit that you will likely live a VERY long time, I'm almost a millenia old." But he wasn't flinching or inching away. "I've been through more..."
"And have more baggage yeah whatever." Jack smirked. "You're going to need a better excuse than that. When it gets right down to it, you're just too scared of being hurt to let anyone get near you." Silence. He'd hit it on the noggin. "You can face down the end of the world but you can't let anyone near you. That's kind of pathetic don't you think." More silence, a gulp on the beer, which was, by now, half gone. "Just once... just once trust someone..." Jack pleaded, wrapping the other in his arms for the second time.
There was the faintest, faintest infinitesimal blush building in the Doctor's cheeks. So Jack rested his head on the other's shoulder, leaning against his cheek affectionately. Hands moved to cover his, and for the barest moment, Jack thought the Timelord was going to shove him away. But they just stayed there. "I know what you want... I shouldn't."
"I know..." Jack said quietly. "... do you need it?"
There was silence, but then right when Jack thought he was going to be flat out rejected and shoved away and 'oh that's a low blow how dare you?'
Then the other turned around, and Jack's efforts were rewarded with a pained smile. Jack met that smile with a comforting, sympathetic look. And then he was pulled into a shy, shy kiss. Jack felt his body flush, and suddenly they were tumbling into a pile on the couch. Clothes couldn't be shed fast enough and the two tussled for position and Jack seriously hoped Gwen wouldn't walk in this time.
How he ended up on the bottom, Jack never could figure out. But they were too busy with their hands and lips and... "You sure about this?" Jack whispered with a devilish grin.
"Have you ever asked that before? Really." Doctor rested his forehead against Jack's, "Or do I somehow turn you into a blushing schoolboy?"
"The drawer, the drawer." Blushing, Harkness shot out a hand to try and reach the drawer under the coffee table where he kept lube juuust in case. He managed to get the drawer open, the Doctor beating him to it.
"That's where you keep it? Oh that is just... you're such a playboy." Yeah, a drawer full of condoms and lube under the coffee table was just a little too much. But between Damon and Ianto he had to keep them somewhere right?
"Less talking, more kissing." Jack husked, hauling the timelord around for another kiss. "You are... mmm..." He left it at that, closing his eyes, relaxing his body for the other.
"You are demanding..." Doctor murmured in his ear, Jack felt a finger slowly make its way in. "Tell anyone else about this and I swear I'll..."
"you'll what?" Jack smirked, breath hitching as a second finger joined the first. "Besides, nobody would believe me would they?" He snickered. "you're such a prude."
"A /what?/" Doctor smirked, finding the other's prostate and jabbing.
Jack howled. "I take it back... mmm... do that again." He begged.
"I don't think so..." Jack whimpered as the hand pulled away. He was about to protest when the Timelord sealed his lips with a kiss. At the same time, Doctor entered him with one swift stroke.
There was a squeal from the Torchwood captain, clinging to the other's shoulders. "mmm... mmmm... that is... lovely." He groaned.
The two paused, Jack resting his head on the Doctor's shoulder. The timelord's arms wrapped around him. And then movement. The first thrust was tentative, testing the waters. Jack's breath hitched. Then again, and again. The two began a slow rhytmn. In, out, breath as one. It was primal and powerful and beautiful, and then... Jack yowled, it shot right through him, pleasure in its purest form. "You are... beautiful... elegant..."
"As are you..." His hands tightened on Jack's arms. The two of them arching against each other in pleasure. The world seemed to slow around everything else.
"nnng so..." Jack came first, screaming his lover's name in the night and slumping against Doctor. The timelord came a moment later, the two of them panting and gasping against each other. "Heh... you were right, I do turn into a blushing schoolboy around you." Jack's lip curled in a warm smile. "I've waited and wanted so long..."
"You got your wish..." The Doctor said quietly as he pulled away. "We should get cleaned up..."
Outside, a mischievious smile curled Martha's lips. "Silly Jack... he needed it though... good work." The former companion hurried off into the darkness and peered into the infirmary to check on Damon and Mori. "Sleeping." She yawned. "I should get to bed too..."
Damon's eyes moved beneath his closed lids, the botanist remembering in his dreams a time long ago when...
1. Gravity by Yoko Kanno, one of the most memorable anime slow songs of all time. I thought it fit the Doctor pretty well. Lyrics here... www(dot)animelyrics(dot)com/anime/wolfsrain/gravity(dot)htm
and the other is "Fukai Mori" by "Do as Infinity" which is a good Dr. Who slow song in general. This is the english version. www(dot)imeem(dot)com/mizakiishimaru/music/l3vzq3t6/doasinfinityfukaimorienglish/