'The Naked Here and Now'
Chief Medical Officer's Personal Log, Stardate 41209.2.
08:00 – Jean-Luc has been blanking me again. And when he's not blanking me, he treats me with such cold professionalism. He hasn't even called me by my first name since I came aboard and he's completely ignoring Wesley. Maybe I should have taken that transfer he offered me. Anything would be better than this awkwardness.
I just don't understand why he's being like this. We always used to get on so well. I mean, I know I must bring back painful memories for him, but I thought, after all these years, that we might be able to move beyond that and be friends like we used to be. It's so rare in life to meet someone who you just click with instantly, who you feel like you've known for years right away, but that was how it was with Jean-Luc and me. I don't want to lose that. I requested the assignment on this ship to get that back. All those years ago, he was my best friend and I was hoping that he could be my best friend here. I was even hoping that he might be a sort of father figure for Wesley, but nothing is turning out as I'd hoped. He's barely even looked at me.
I've just read back through this entry and it sounds so childish. I really shouldn't be letting this bother me.
08:45 – I mean, I don't even know why it's bothering me. There are plenty of other people on the Enterprisewho I can make friends with. Deanna, for instance. She seems nice. It's not like I need Jean-Luc.
08:47 – But I do need Jean-Luc.
08:49 – No, I don't. Computer, erase that last entry. And erase this one too.
08:51 – It's not like I'm in love with him. Sure, he's attractive, but who wouldn't find that voice attractive? I just enjoyed the platonic friendship we had before and, in a childish moment, I wanted it back. I'm fine without it though. Really, I'm fine.
08:52 – No, I'm not.
08:55 – Computer, erase last two entries.
09:14 – Maybe I should ask Jean-Luc if we can have lunch or something? Just so we can talk things through, find out where we both stand. I'll have to make very sure that it doesn't sound like a date though, otherwise he'll never come. He'd never think of me in that way.
09:33 – Well, talking to Jean-Luc will have to wait. Geordi went over to that damaged ship we found earlier and he's come back with some kind of infection. Riker thinks it might be connected to the Psi2000 virus which the old Enterpriseencountered years ago. They had the worst luck on that ship. They couldn't go for more than a week without being infected with something or fighting the Klingons or discovering a hostile mirror universe. I hope this Enterprise is a bit quieter.
09:54 – Jean-Luc and Deanna were just in here to discuss the whole Geordi situation. Jean-Luc was being weirdly professional again. I know Deanna was here too so he could hardly start treating me like a friend, but I still don't know how to deal with him when he's in his captain mode. It's so different from how he used to be back on Earth…Why am I even thinking about this? I should be concentrating on Geordi. Why am I so focused on Jean-Luc? It's ridiculous. Maybe it's because he and Wesley are the only familiar things on this ship at the moment. Yes, that's it. That must be it.
10:04 – Good, the doctor on the old Enterprisefound a cure for the Psi2000 virus. Well, that solves the Geordi issue anyway.
10:06 – Turns out the virus mutated. Actually, I'm not sure it is a virus…That doesn't matter. What matters is that the cure doesn't work and the infection's spreading. Apparently Tasha has it now. I'm starting to think it might be spread by touch.
11:03 – I'm so angry with Will right now! Deanna caught the infection or whatever it is and he touched her and then he touched me, so now I probably have the thing…Must focus and find a cure before the virus gets worse.
11:23 – The entire ship has turned into one big party. For some reason, I can't stop thinking about Jean-Luc…
11:29 – Is it me or is it really hot in here?
11:48 – The last time it was this hot, I was on a beach, years ago, with Jean-Luc. He looks really good in swimming trunks…
11:52 –Get a hold of yourself, Beverly! This is not the time to be thinking about Jean-Luc in swimming trunks...
11:53 –Maybe I should go to the Bridge and update Jean-Luc on the situation…
12:34 – That was fun. Jean-Luc was in quite a playful mood. I like flirting with him. His voice is really nice…
12:55 – I know I was meant to be doing something, but I can't remember what it was.
13:00 – I was meant to be asking Jean-Luc to lunch!
13:14 – No, wait, it was something else…
13:43 – Oh, the virus! I was meant to be finding a cure for the virus! I should probably do that…If I could only remember how these science-y things on my desk worked…
14:54 – Jean-Luc has really nice eyes. He was staring at me earlier. I think he likes me. I know I like him. He's really hot. Why did I never realise that before?
15:17 – Maybe I'll ask Jean-Luc to come down here…He could help me with whatever it is I'm meant to be doing…
15:19 – The virus. I keep forgetting the virus. Focusing now.
16:10 – All I can think about is Jean-Luc's voice and the way he tugs his uniform when he sits down…It's kind of mesmerising…
16:17 – I think I might be getting somewhere with this virus thing.
16:28 – That might be a cure. I should show Jean-Luc.
16:39 – He's coming in, I can see him. He's so tall and manly and manly and strong. I wonder what it would feel like to kiss him…
17:30 – The cure worked. I'm feeling more like myself now and the rest of the crew seems to be returning to their normal selves as well. I have a feeling that things might be a little awkward around here for a while; Will and Deanna seem to be avoiding each other and so do Tasha and Data – no one saw that coming! I can't quite remember what I did whilst infected, but I'm sure it wasn't anything embarrassing.
17:45 – I just saw Jean-Luc in a corridor. He literally ran in the opposite direction when he saw me coming.
18:04 – Oh dear, I'm starting to remember this afternoon…
18:07 – I went to his Ready Room. I sat on his desk. I threw myself at him. We flirted. We nearly kissed. No wonder he ran away from me.
18:26 – How could I have done that? How?
18:28 – More importantly, why did I do that?
18:51 – I mean, it's not like I'm attracted to him. We're just friends. It must have been the virus.
19:22 – But the virus makes people act on feelings which they already have which are latent or ignored which is why Will and Deanna were attracted to each other, which means…
19:29 – No, it can't mean that. The virus must have created new feelings too which is why whatever it was happened between Tasha and Data…
19:33 – Unless Tasha and Data already…
19:34 – No. Don't even think about that.
19:58 – I'm not attracted to him. I'm not.
20:08 – I'm really not.
20:17 – All the same, I probably shouldn't ask him out for lunch any time soon. He would definitely panic and think that it was a date.
20:23 – On the other hand, maybe lunch would be a chance to sort things out between us.
20:24 – Or maybe not.
20:41 – Oh, I'm confused! I've got to stop thinking about this.
21:15 – Computer, erase all personal log entries for today.
21:17 – I should probably confiscate that silly voice-imitator thing from Wesley. Wouldn't want him taking over the ship again.