Emma tried to throw herself into tons of studying, she brought home homework that wasn't even homework.

That'd set her mind off everything!

Ring, ring.

Emma glared at her phone but reached over on her bed to get it. She answered it exhaustingly.

"Hello?"

"Em.."

Emma stopped everything. Not what she needed right now. It's been almost a month since he left, he hasn't even called Ellie to see how she was doing or to tell how he was doing.

"Sean?"

"Yeah.."

Emma sat up more on her bed and awkwardly shifted. "What are you doing calling me?"

"Was it wrong? Sorry." He quickly said, "I'll hang up-"

"No, no." Emma exclaimed and shut up, wow, that looked desperate. She sighed through the silence, "I could really talk to someone." So many things were changing. At least he went through the shooting with her, understood things, knew how insane Jay could be.

Maybe she'd leave that one out though.

"Where's Manny?" he teased ,"You two are usually attached to the hip."

Actually barely, not as much as they used to be.

"You wouldn't know, you're not around." Emma bittered, it came out harsher than she thought, she blinked, "Sorry."

He coughed lightly on the other end, "It's okay, I deserved it, I ran away like a little boy."

Emma shook her head, "No, I'd run too if I could." She sadly laughed, looking down.

"From what, your life is perfect!" he insisted.

Emma's face looked bitter, "Stop putting me on a pedastale." She told him seriously.

"Can't help it, you're perfect to me." Came his flirtatious reply, Emma wasn't ready for it, kind of caught her by suprize.

"Have you called Ellie?" she tried to change the subject.

"Not lately." He breathed.

"not since we left you in Wasaga." Emma corrected tauntingly. He stayed quiet.

Sean finally spoke, "I was going out of my mind there, Wasaga made me think everything through, let me breath. Figure out whose for me, Ellie's not for me."

Emma smiled, happy for Sean, "So whose the lucky girl?" she asked, thinking he had met someone in Wasaga.

It was silent, but she almost heard him grinning on the other end, "You'll see soon. I'll talk to you later. Night Em."

"Night Sean." Emma said and hung up, looking a bit puzzeled at the phone but shrugged. It was good to hear from him, he was a good friend now.

That next Monday at school, Emma went to their last Dracula rehearsal before the real play this weekend.

When she entered, her eyes fell on the first person she saw closest to the door, Jay. She stopped walking.

Jay worked on the outside of the stage, putting fake rocks and tree leaves over it, nailing it until he saw Emma and stopped, looking at her just as intensely as she looked back at him.

He blinked and looked away, focusing hard on the work infront of him but mind still on her as she blinked and walked the other way, blinking once more from being so confused.

Jay frowned deeply but tried to keep his word to Spinner. Maybe he was right, Jay was too much bad for Emma.

"Hey Emma." Sully greeted her as she put her stuff down on the gym floor and she smiled barely and he smirked smugly, "I'm feeling all better now so we can defiantly practice that kiss."

Emma felt sick to her stomach when he said that, and Jay felt the same way. He didn't turn though, just focused harder on those rocks.

Alex was near with Amy and narrowed her eyes at Jay and glanced at Emma, catching the blonde sneaking a glance at him before walking off to go on stage.

Jay went back to nailing the rocks into the stage harder, piercing his lips together tightly, eyes full of jealousy.

It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag

As everyone practiced their lines, Alex smirked waiting for the kissing scene to come up, and Jay knew it was coming, trying to focus on the nail he was about to hammer in, trying to ignore it. Alex went behind him and fakely tripped, pushing him slightly when he went to hammer the nail and got his thumb. He winced hard and dropped his hammer, standing up and clenching his hand.

Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go

Jay looked up to glare at Alex, Alex just smirked right at him and nodded over her shoulder, Jay looked behind her and his eyes turned from anger to sadness, he had so much emotion in his eyes Alex had never seen before, and nor had he himself ever felt before. She gave him a 'that's what you get' look, before walking off proudly. Jay kept watching Sully kissing Emma slowly up on the stage.

Cause I just can't look its killing me
And taking control

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis

Emma pulled away and turned slowly, trying to hide from people watching as she wiped her mouth from Sully's kiss, it felt wrong, dirty. She turned back around, she found her eyes wondering to Jay's station where he did construction to find him looking right back at her, with a look she couldn't make out, it was mysterious, with a bit of betrayl mixed in. And though not even dating, or even SEEING Jay Hogart..Emma did feel she was betraying him.

But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside

That's when Jay turned and threw the hammer back into it's tool box and walked off, ignoring the plead of Jt for him to finish the work, Emma stood on the stage watching him go.

Something was going on here, and it was twisted, yet felt good, yet was too confusing.

As for Jay, he madly stormed out of Degrassi.

I never
I never
I never
I never

(mr Brightside-the killers)