"WAKE UP!" Johanna banged on my door.
I rolled over and groaned, pulling my pillow over my head. "Go away! " I threw the other pillow at the door.
"AMARYLLIS GET YOUR LAZY ASS OFF YOUR BED AND GET DRESSED WE HAVE OUR PRACTICE TODAY!" Johanna hollered through the door.
"Ugh you're impossible!"
"Ryll." she said warningly.
"Alright alright I'm getting up!" I said.
"Good. The practice and assessment are in three hours so get up and come to lunch! I've let you sleep in long enough Ryll!" she said through the door. I hear her footstps receding and I undressed and got into the shower. I let the faucets run over my body for about ten minutes and stepped out, letting the air dry me off.
I dried my hair and put on a tight black shirt and some tight black pants. I put on some anchle boots as well. I figured, if I was going to be wearing something extremely dressy later that I was entitled to something comfortable right now.
I walked down the hallway, off in my own world, and I ran right into something really hard. I looked up to see Levi, his blue eyes sparkling, wearing his signiture smirk, his black hair covering his face a bit.
"Woah there spitfire." he smirked.
Where did this Levi come from? I asked myself. He's never normally been this nice, I mean ya, there was the other night and some of the meals but.. this is so... wierd.
"Cat got your tongue spitfire?" he smirked.
I shook my head and came back to reality. "New nickname for me Levi?" I smiled up at him. I normally was a snarky bitch but... it's hard to fight water with fire.
"Like it?" he smirked. " I think it's quite fitting."
" Fitting... I'm not so sure... but, I like it." I smiled up at him. He leaned down and brought his lips an inch away from mine.
"Can I kiss you?" he whispered sensually.
I wet my lips and that was all the encouragement that he needed. He pressed his lips to mine, fitting perfectly. He threaded his hands through my hair and pushed me up against the wall. He tipped my head up for better access and drove his tongue into my mouth. It's velvety warmth tasted and touched every part of my mouth. I realized that my arms were wrapped around his neck.
What are you doing Ryll? Hello? Amaryllis Viridienna Isadora Priscilla Ammie Snow WAKE UP! This is never going to work out you can't be doing this! One of you or both are going to end up dead by the end! You need to stop THIS INSTANT!
I pulled away and hurried off. I couldn't stay there one more minute or I wouldn't be able to stop.
I heard Levi sputter and try to regain his composure. "Uh..ah..buh...uh...Ryll!" he protested.
I hurried all the way to the dining room and was greeted by Johanna, Katniss and Talen.
"She's alive!" Talen joked.
I was in a fowl mood and I didn't laugh. I scowled into my food and Talen quirked an eyebrow. "Ryll, are you okay?"
I glared at him and went back to my food. I pushed it back and forth in the bowl. The little corn flakes were already soggy and now they just looked plain disgusting
"I'll take that as a no. Wanna tell me what happened?" he asked, his green eyes were concerned and his dark brown hair was falling in his eyes.
"No." I said curtly.
"Sure?" he poked my arm.
"Yes!" I laughed. He smiled.
"Poke. Poke! Poke poke poke poke poke poke!" he tickled and tazered my ribs.
I jumped up and squealed, running around the room. "No! Ah! Haha! Stop! Ohmigosh Ah!" I shreiked.
"Never! Tell me what happened and maybe I'll consider!" Talen laughed gleefully. The others left, probably thinking this was getting pretty akward very fast.
"I'll never tell!" I shouted, still running. I got to one side of the table with him on the other. He feigned right and I stayed where I was.
"Is that all you've got?" I teased.
He laughed. "Oh it's on!" He jumped the table and tackled me, turning in the air so that I landed on him.
My breath was knocked out of me in a woosh. I landed with my head hitting his chest and something criminallty hard pressed against my thigh. I blushed and I got up and pressed against him and he sharply inhaled. I fell back on his chest, slipping when I tried to push up. I tried again and it ended up the same. I finally just rolled off to the right and lay down next to Talen. He turned and leaned on his elbow. I turned and did the same. He grinned at me and I smiled.
"Are you going to tell me now?" he asked, still grinning. His long lanky form was spread fully and it made me feel extremely short.
I pretended to think about it, tapping my chin with my thumb. "Nope." I popped the 'p'.
He came closer, inching forwards on his elbow. His nose was six inches from my face. "You sure?" He breathed. It would have been really quite sexy and sensual, if it wasn't coming from him but the voice he used made me want to laugh.
I swallowed the laugh and imitated his voice perfectly. "I'm sure."
He frowned and got up. "Fine then. I was just trying to be nice. Whatever." he stormed off leaving me dazed on the floor. Life was just so complicated sometimes.
I got up and walked to my room. I had to be ready for 2:30 and it was 2:15 at the moment. I hurried to my room, making sure that Levi and Talen weren't there on the way. I had no wish to get into another... interesting... situation. I also didn't want to bump into Drey either.
"Ryll!" Speaking of the devil.
I hurried to my room and shut the door. He may have been my best friend but he was getting too forward for me. I really did like him but not that way. I shut my door and donned the black skin tight suit and some anchle boots, the same ones that I wore the first day I got here. I was just less flashy. It had some padding here and there, making me feel less...exposed. It was short sleeved, coming halfway to my forearms. It also came to halfway up my neck. There was a zipper and it went from my right hip all the way up my right side and all the way up the right side of my collar. At 2:30 Johanna came to pick me up at my room.
"Okay, so I don't want you to show the others what you can actually do. I want you to make yourself as mysterious as you can, not making anything you do in there too prominent, so that the others will not target you first. Got it?" she asked.
"Got it." I confirmed and nodded.
When we got to the room I went and sat on the far side, next to Emeretta. She leaned over and whispered, "What's wrong?"
"Them." I said fervently, motionning to the guys. All three of them. The only guy that I'm alligned with that I'm not pissed off, confused or just angry at is Peeta, and he's not even coming tinto the ring with me.
She laughed. "What did they do?"
"Kiss me, try to seduce me, and try to stalk me for the whole of my life!" I said agitatedly.
"I wish. No guy has cared enough to do that to me." she sighed.
"Ya well you can have one, two of them I'm still so confused about."
"Who is the one that I can have?" she curved up the sides of her lips.
"Drey." I said. "He's my friend and he really likes me but I don't like him the same way he likes me. He's just a friend."
"Well I don't mind, he's gorgeous and he's so nice!" she sighed dreamily.
Drey chose this moment to come and join in the conversation. "Who, might I ask is so gorgeous and nice?"
"Nobody." Etta said quickly.
"Which means, it's obviously somebody." Talen laughed. I knew exactly where this conversation was going.
I leaned over to Etta ad whispered. "You better get yourself out of this quickly Etta because I will not help you out."
Ilinca just sat there quietly, listening. I had no doubt that she was hearing everything that we were saying but she was so shy.
"Gee thanks Mary (Mahr-ee), that's so nice." she said dryly.
"Hey, you never helped last time."
"So, who is it?" Levi leaned in.
"Come on in guys!" Johanna motioned for us to enter the training room and me and Emeretta dashed off, followed by Ilinca. We went to the plant identifying station first. I learned about alot of the plants that I should eat and ones that I shouldn't. We went to the archery station, but we only stayed there shortly and then we went to the dagger station and all the others, in turn. At the end we were ushered out of the room and I dashed off with Emeretta and Ilinca to my room.
I heard the pounding of the guys' footstpes coming nearer. "Hurry guys!" My room was just at the end of the hall. I got to my door and opened it, making sure that Ilinca and Etta were both in the room. I saw the guys round the corner and I slammed the door. I slid the lock into place and leant against the door. One of them slammed into the door and it shuddered. I motionned for the other two to follow and we all went into the bathroom and locked that door as well.
"Open this door right now Ryll!" Drey shouted.
"Never!" I shouted through the bathroom door.
"Amaryllis Viridienna Isadora Priscilla Ammie Snow open the door this instant!" Drey tried again.
"Never should have told him my full name." I grumbled.
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" That's her full name? Amaryllis Viridienna Isadora Priscilla Ammie Snow? That's a really nice mouthful." I smiled dreamily.
I thought back to earlier when I kissed Ryll. It was... wow. She was a great kisser, but she broke it and now she was completely avoiding all of us. Something must have happened with Talen, because she just avoids Drey as routine now. But Amaryllis Viridienna Isadora Priscilla Ammie Snow is a beautiful name and it gives me so many possible nicknames. Vi is a really nice one. Spitfire is so fitting though, and it's so much nicer then what I used to call her, but those are too hurtful to even think about anymore.
"Levi? Hello? Earth to Levi, do you read? Houston we have a problem." Talen waved his hand in front of my face.
I shook my head. "W-what?"
"You were completely out man. Are you okay Levi?" Drey asked. He had obviously stopped pounding on the door.
"Yeah I'm fine, don't worry about it." I assured them. I walked up to the door and pressed my ear to it. I could hear some hushed voices and when the guys started to ask me what I was doing I shushed them and motionned for them to listen.
"... and he kissed me and I think I liked it but I'm just so confused! Talen found me right after, at the table and tried to get me to tell him but I refused and he stormed off. I just can't be with Drey for more then five minutes anymore without it getting akward. I thought I liked Talen, because I have for awhilee right? But then when we got here I started liking Levi but that is just so confusing and complicated. I need some serious help." Ryll groaned.
She likes me? I thought.
"Well Mary, what do you expect? You and Levi have been enemies ever since you were little. It's normal that you should be confused right now, especially now, before the Games. I think you really do like him though." Emeretta's voice came through the door.
"And, with Drey he isn't in love, he's just crazed and possesive, he thinks that you're his and it's his right to have you, not a priviledge. Talen is a really nice guy though, but I think you just like him as a friend." Ilinca whispered. She almost never talked so this was new.
"You guys think so?" Ryll asked.
"We know so." The other two said together.
"Do you think they're gone now?" Ryll asked, getting closer.
I jumped up and sprinted off, not waiting for the rest. Talen and Drey followed closely behind me. We turned the corner when Ryll opened the door. I stopped and the other two just kept running, not looking behind them. She stood there for awhile, I could hear her breathing. After what seemed like hours she whispered something I hadn't expected her to.
"Levi?"
I stepped forwards, around the corner and answered her, not realizing that that might not have been the smartest idea. "Yeah?"
She came towards me, slowly and my breath caught. She stopped about an inch away from me. She got up on her tippy-toes and came really close. "Levi," she whispered again, "you are an ASS!" she stomped on my foot and turned.
I grabbed her arm and spun her around. "That hurt spitfire. What did I do?"
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I stared at him like he was stupid, because, frankly, he was. "What do you mean what did you do? You know perfectly well what you did! You fucking overheard everything I said in there, and now it'll just be even worse then it already was!" Hot tears were now streaming down my face, and they weren't fake.
His eyes bore into me and they made me feel naked, like they could tell exactly what I was thinking. "Amaryllis I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you."
"Yeah but sorry doesn't make it any better!" I snapped.
"I know and I really want to make this up to you." Levi said. He put his hand on my shoulder and I shrugged it off.
"Just, leave me alone Levi." I turned to walk back to Emeretta and Ilinca.
"Vi..." he protested.
I stopped where I was, about a foot away from the door. Without turning around I gritted my teeth and said, "Don't. Call. Me. Vi." I stormed into my room and fell into the arms of Emeretta and Ilinca.
"Oh Ryll..." they both said.
I sobbed and sobbed and they comforted me. I finally stopped crying about an hour later. Johanna entered the room and saw me and hurried over to my side. "I'm really sorry hun, you look really upset but we need to go, the assessment starts in ten minutes."
I got up and nodded. I put on a bit of makeup to hide the ugly puffy red of my eyes. I walked down with Katniss, Johanna, Emeretta and Ilinca, Peeta was with the boys. When we got to the room outside of the training and assessment room we stopped and sat down at one table. At one point Levi tried approaching and got the death glare from both Ilinca and Emeretta.
"Okay so, you will be graded from zero to twelve, twelve being the highest. Talen Collins please come in."
I sat nervously twiddling my thumbs until my name was called. I went into the room, breathing deeply and trying to keep calm. I picked up a bow and some arrows and looked at the live where we were supposed to shoot from. An infant could hit the targets from this close. I backed up until I was touching the opposite wall, making sure they were watching me the whole time. I pulled back and stopped.
"What do you want me to hit?" I asked.
"The eye of the highest bird." the fattest one there said. "That's just luck." he stated when I did. I glared at him and he looked away.
I aimed again and let go, my arrow meeting it's mark easily. I did that three more times, splitting the arrows I had shot before. Next, I took some daggers and threw those at the bird, and hit it in the eye each time. I went on to tie some really intricate knots and finished with finesse.
" You can do better. " Said one with a large wine bottle in his hand. I scowled and threw a dagger at the place right beside his hand.
It quivered and was embedded at least three inches into the table. "Want your hand to match?" I asked sweetly. So much for my fantastic score. Oh well.
He shook his head quickly and motionned for me to leave, shaking. I walked to my room and collapsed on my bed, groaning. "Why did you do that Vi? That was stupid stupid stupid! You shouldn't have let your pride get the better of you you stupid stupid girl!" I berated myself.
Two hours later someone knocked on my door. "Ryll?" It was Levi.
"Go away!" I threw a pillow at the door and it landed with a thump on the floor.
"Not this time Ryll. We need to talk. Now." he said.
"I don't want to okay?" I said.
"Too bad. You're not leaving until we talk. That means you'd miss the scores that are coming on in twenty minutes." he said. I could hear the smile in his voice.
"I hate you." I growled.
"No you don't, you just don't want me to know that you actually think the opposite." he joked.
"Ya, well you already know, so what's the point in pretending Levi?" I snapped.
He stopped talking for a couple seconds and I actually thought that he was gone. Silly me. "Ryll do you actually feel that way about me? I mean, you have feelings for me?" he asked quietly.
"Yes I do, and they are definately not all good, actually they're mostly bad."
"And, you feel that way about Talen too?" he pushed on, not phased in the slightest at my response.
"I don't know anymore! This is all so confusing and I just don't know anymore! I don't know if I like you and I don't know if I like Talen! I don't know who I like more or less and I just want this all to go away!" I yelled. I had finally snapped. It was all just too much and pushing it like that, well that didn't help much either. I had been trying to bury it underneath and it had been working, until that blasted kiss.
"You can come out now Ryll." he said softly behind the door.
I stood up from my bed, still crying and opened the door. Levi was standing right at the edge of the frame, not in my room but barely staying out. I looked up and butterlies fluttered in my stomach. Stop! I yelled furiously inwardly at my stomach, it was doing all this without my consent, and last time I checked, this body belonged to me. Ignoring my command it fluttered even more furiously when Levi stepped even closer to me. His chest was square with my face and I had to crane my neck to see him properly. He leaned closely, stopping when we were almost nose to nose.
"Are you sure you don't know?" he breathed.
My heart beat faster and my breathing hitched. I had the urge to kiss him, wrap my arms around his neck and run my fingers through his hair. I wanted to touch him and it was breaking all my will down. I fought with the urge but I licked my lips unconciously.
He leant down even closer, touching our noses and then moving his nose down lightly, trailing my jaw all the way to my ear. I shivered and I felt him smile against my ear. "Kiss me Ryll. All you need to do is ask." he purred and I cursed him in all the languages I knew inside my head.
He circled behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist. He kicked the door shut and brought me over to the bed. I was painfully aware of something extremely hard pressing into my backside and I fought to ignore it. He kissed down my ear to my collar bone, taking his time. He kissed his way back to my ear and nipped the loab. I bit back a moan, hiding it as a cough. "You want to Ryll, just say the words. It's as simple as that." he purred into my ear again.
I was losing myself in him and I knew that if I did that it would be my distruction. I am Amaryllis Viridienna Isadora Priscilla Ammie Snow. I am sixteen years old. I have no siblings and I have no parents. I have no family. I am Amaryllis...It was like a mantra in my head. I kept saying it and finally I managed to block out Levi's voice and what he was doing to me. I turned to him and he grinned thinking he'd won. He ducked his head in and when his lips were centimeters away from mine I whispered, "Get. Out. Now."
He opened and shut his mouth stunned. When he didn't move I heard somebody knock at the door. "Ryll? The scores are coming on in a few minutes! Hurry!" Johanna called through the door.
"'Kay, I just need to take care of some... distasteful... things." I looked meanigfully at Levi meaning that's-you-I'm-talking-'bout-boy.
When Johanna had left I got up and distanced myself as far as I could from Levi without leaving the room. He looked at me and smirked, trying to hide the hurt in his voice. "So that's what I am to you? Distasteful? By your moans I thought you liked it."
"Ya well you thought wrong. You tried to seduce me Levi, you're playing with my feelings. What made you think that you had any right to mess with my feelings Levi?" I snapped at him, my voice getting higher with each sentence.
"I'm messing with your feelings? You tell me you like me, and now you're saying that you don't. You need to make up your mind!" he shouted.
"I said I didn't know how I felt! I was never leading you on! I told you exactly how I was feeling about all of this! You're Impossible!" I shouted at him and I ran from my own room. I ran all the way to the lounge where we were going to watch the scores.
When I entered everyone looked up and Emeretta and Ilinca motionned for me to come over. "Hurry, it's about to start!" Emeretta hissed.
I sat down quickly as the man came up on the screen. "And here are the scores!"
Talen came first, getting a six. I came next getting a... ten! Well then. That was unexpected. The Richardsonne siblings from both got eights. District three girl, Deviniadru Miles, got a six. Niko Goode, her partner, got a three. District four both got twos, district five Emeretta got a seven and Levi got a nine. District six both got fives(Amelia Triste and Larry Martin), District seven girl got a five and the guy got a six (Lozan Mettes and Lucy Diamond). District eight both got sevens (Maddison Gravess and Owen McInlock) district nine both got threes(Jessica Rogers and Liam Eddey). District ten both got twos (Meagan Lane and Josh Groven). District eleven both got ones. (Tillia Grind and Gavrael Roderick) The last district, Drey and Ilinca, was interesting. Drey got a nine and Ilinca got a ten. I'm not sure how she managed that but she was proving to be a good allie for this game.
When the screen went blank again I sighed and leaned back against the chair. Everyone except me left the room and when they were all gone I sobbed into the back of the chair, trying not to let anybody hear me. Why did it have to be me? Why couldn't I have been an ugly, unnotable girl whose family was unimportant. Who actaully had a family. Mine had all died when I was little. I never had any siblings. I don't remember my parents, other than one song that my mother used to sing to me.
Somewhere out there,
there's someone, just like me
I'm sure!
Somewhere out there,
there's someone who wont spite me,
I'm sure!
Somewhere out there,
there's someone who loves me,
I'm sure!
He'll take me for a walk,
in the sun-light open park.
He'll kiss me on the cheek,
and tell me,
there's noone else, for HIM!
I'll live a thousand years!
Before I'll let my fears!
Stand and block the way!
Oh! No it wont be long!
'Till he comes for me!
He will come for me!
I'm sure.
The only memory of my mother, a lullaby. The only other rhymey thing I knew was twisted: Jack and Jill went up the hill to smoke some marujana. Jack got high and dropped his fly and said 'do you wanna?' Jill said yes and dropped her dress and they had lots of fun but Jill forgot to take her pill and now they have a son.
I miss my mum. It's not fair that I didn't even get one person that was even close to a parentlike figure. And my non-existent love-life is even more complicated and non-existent now. Levi hates me and Talen is pissed. Drey is still psychopathically in 'love' with me. It all sucks. I was shocked out of my reverie when I heard a creak in the floorboards.
Duh duh duh! Hope you liked it! Review! Oh, and by the way, I have full copyright on that song, because that is origional and, in fact, mine. So, please dont be harsh about it, and don't steal it. It wasx made specially for this, for an older kinda sense, so yeah. Thanks!