3 weeks. NO distractions just me and the people I love and care about. My nerves are acting up again and my hands are shaking and I know I am going to have an anxiety attack. I am about to grab my inhaler when I feel a hand on my my cheek.

"Are you ok? I know this must be nerve wrecking for you to go back home when you have been away for so long. I am here don't forget that." My fiancee that one who calms my nerves. I met Declan when I first started at Vogue as an intern. My mom had to pull a few strings but she knew that I loved fashion as much as I loved food and that is saying something.

When I told her I wanted to leave when school let out she supported 100%. She always said to follow your dreams and laugh was too short to be stuck in a small town. After dad died mom became a workaholic and neglected me for years, but on the fifth anniversary of dad's death she knew that she was neglecting me because she couldn't handle the pain of losing the one person that gave up his life for her because she got pregnant at 17.

My father came from a wealthy family that only accepted the best. My father Eugene was a handsome young man that my grandparents adored. They thought he was going to law school and become the D.A. by the time he was 27. Apparently he was that smart, but he was rebellious. Whatever bad thing my dad did they paid people to get rid of whatever he did that week. My grandparents knew that my father needed to change, but he wouldn't. And so they made him intern for my grandfathers law firm.

One of the best in New York. That is where he met my mother. She was an intern. Rumor had it that my mother supposedly slept with one of the lawyers to get that internship and scholarship to Columbia. It wasn't true even though she was one of the youngest and brightest intern there. She was young and smart like my father, but quiet and shy. She was also feisty if you actually knew her. That is what my father told me. He was still rebellious and one of those men who had to conquer women, but when he met my mom that all stopped. She told him if he was to pursuit her he had to stop with all the sex and drugs and that if he proves himself to her then she would give him a chance.

He had problems at first and struggles, but she was there helping him the whole time. When he proved himself to her then he could pursuit her. They loved each other from the start. 3 months later she found out she was pregnant at 17. My father promised her that he would be there for every step of the way. When I was younger I would always ask my dad what mom looked like when she was younger.

Flashback

March 21 1994

I was young. Only 5 yrs old and apparently a very curious one because I was told I asked too many questions.

My father was in bed because he was too sick to get up. There was no school since it was Saturday. I played doctor that day because I knew my presence calmed my father down whenever he was stressed.

" How is my favorite daddy and patient doing?" I ask with a doctor's coat that my mother found at the store.

" I am doing very well Dr. Coraline." my father says with a smile on his face. I noticed that my father was getting skinnier and weaker. He was diagnosed with leukemia when I was 2 yrs old.

Even though he looked sick he was still handsome.

"Good because I hate it whenever you get sick." I say while getting into bed next to him.

"I have to go to work, but I will be back at 6:30 and then cook dinner." My mother says. She works at on of the law firms in Forks. She got her bachelors and masters degree in law when she was pregnant with me and when I was an infant. She worked very hard to get where she was. At 22 my mother was too smart for her own good sometimes. My father said.

"Bye mommy." I saw while jumping off the bed and giving her a kiss on the cheek while she gives me a big hug and she goes over to my father and gives her a kiss.

"Bye sweetheart. Me and Corie here are just going to watch movies and eat cookie dough ice cream." My dad says with a smirk. My mom gives him the glare, but then smiles at him.

"Bye Corie take care of your daddy for me." She says with a smile and I nod at her.

"So cupcake what movie do you want to watch?" my father asks

"The Lion KIng." I yell at him and he just laughs.

He puts in the VCR player and we start watching it while I cuddle in bed with him.

"Daddy what was mommy like when you first met her?" I ask after simba loses his father

"She was the most beautiful person I have ever met. She was caring, young and shy, but if you really knew her she was selfless and different." My father says. He seems to be lost in thought while describing my mother. Even though they fell in love and had me young I knew they loved each other so much.

" She didn't care for me much at first because I was a bad boy."

"You were a bad boy? But daddy you're so nice." I say shocked daddy cared so much for me and mommy. I never thought that he was a bad person.

"I was because your grandma and grandpa had such high hopes for me that I just didn't want to do what they wanted and so I did whatever I got in trouble and had to work for your grandpa and that is where I met your mommy and the rest is history."

"What did she look like?"

" She had raven black her. Dark chocolate brown eyes like yours. Dimples that I fell in love with. Whenever she smiled I had to smile because it was contagious. I knew from the first time I met her that she was the one for me. Even though we were from different worlds I would have given her anything she wants."

My dad is sleepy because he keeps yawning and so I just stop asking questions. I also fall asleep because I am so comfortable around him. What I didn't know that this was the last time I would watch our favorite movie together.

The stewardess announces that we have landed in Seattle. I wipe away a tear because whenever I think about my father I know he would be proud and disappointed in me with all the decisions I have made throughout the years.

"Don't be nervous I will be with you every step of the way. Lets wake them up. I know they will be excited to see your mom and stepdad." Declan always reassure me on things I am never sure about.

We are off the plane and walking through the terminal. I already know that at the gates there is going to be a welcome home sign.

"I guess they know when too much is too much." Declan says to me with a smirk

"Shut up. You know my little sister and her best friend like to go out on all this stuff."

My older sister and her clone and my mother and my stepfather all have poster boards that say welcome home. I smile at them for putting in the effort of my homecoming. I am not surprised that he isn't here. I won't blame him.

"Hi mom." I say while hugging her I haven't see her in a while because she opened up her own law firm and she has been very busy. My mother Anna and stepdad Paul have been doing well. They married when I was 10 even though I was mad at her he was a good guy. They are both lawyers and the best ones at that.

"Hey baby how are you and where are they? I have not seen my grandbabies in almost a year and a half."

Of course my mother would ask about them she adores them way too much. I am about to open my mouth to say they are with Declan then I hear little screams.

"Grammy! Papa!" Both of my little twins yell. People look at us, but I don't care. MY children are independent toddlers that don't give a care in the world. I would have named my son Eugene, but I knew when he got older he would resent me for it so it was his middle name.

Sawyer Eugene Anthony Collins. My baby boy who is 5 and a half years old. He looks exactly like his father the unruly auburn hair. Green eyes and boyish smile that everyone seems to fall in love with.

Amelia Masen Collins. My baby girl. She is the oldest out of the two. Born only 2 minutes before Sawyer. She is strong and doesn't let anyone bring her down. They look completely opposite of each other with her dark hair like mine and chocolate eyes. With little specks of gold around the irises. Though their personalities are the same. The act exactly like their father with their smarts and musical skills. All they have of mine is my temper.

"How are both of my grand babies been? I have missed you guys so much. I am sorry I didn't get to visit you guys I have been so busy. Maybe your mother should come visit me instead. New York is no place to live and raise children."

MY mother always does this to me. She brings up the topic of me moving back home, but I can't. There is too much history that it breaks my heart.

"Mom we already had this conversation. I can't leave and I know I can't face him." Only my family knows the real truth about everything.

"I just miss you so much sweetie that I want you home and I want to see Sawyer and Mia grow up."

"Anna stop pressuring the girl to move back home. She is an adult. She can make her own decisions." Paul says while I give him a hug. Even though he isn't my real father he has always been there for me no matter how bad I treated him. Paul has an older son and daughter. Sean was 15 and Charlie was 16 when I was 10. He joined the peace corps when He turned 18. Charlie was a free spirit when I was younger. She went to Udub for college and got a journalism degree and started working for the newspaper in Seattle. She met her husband Peter at the newspaper she worked with. They were married after months of dating.

"Corie! I have missed you so much I can't believe you are finally home. You look absolutely fabulous are those Jimmy Choo's?" My older step sister the fashionista.

" I have missed you too. Where are Peter and the kids?"

"They are back home. All the kids got sick because she flu is going around school."

Char had trouble conceiving when they first got married, but after 3 yrs of marriage they finally had kids. 2 boys and a girl. Hope, Logan, and Eric.

" I hope they don't get the twins sick."

"They won't I me what have you and Declan have been doing the past couple of weeks. Have you set a date yet? It has been 5 yrs."

" Not yet we have been too busy with work and the twins that I barely have time to ourselves."

"Oh so it has been awhile since you guys have sex?" She just says that out loud. My mom giggles while Alice is just laughing.

" Our sex life has been just fine. We have sex a couple of times a week so we are perfectly fine in that department."

"How are you Alice?" I say with a smile on my face. She was there also when I lost my dad. The big sister that I never had. She was the one who drove me to the clinic. She was the only person I told that I got pregnant. Well her and Char. Alice is married to Peter's best friend Jasper. They both met each other at the wedding and the rest is basically history. They have been engaged for awhile, but Jasper is in the army and is still in Afghanistan.

"I'm good. Jasper gets in next week so I am very excited. It is his last tour so he is finally coming home for good. I want him to be here for the birth of our baby. Jasper has been gone for a couple months. When he was home him and Alice found out she was 12 week. She is now at least 37 weeks. She is so tiny that she looks adorable.

"You look radiant by the way. Pregnancy looks really good on you." I say while tring to hug her.

We walk through the airport and get our luggage. We just talk about what life has been like and all that. We get in our rental car while the others get into Paul's SUV.

Declan puts the kids into the car while I get into the driver seat.

"Are you ready babe?"

"I am ready."

I was not ready to go back to Forks to face the I love.

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