A.N; Hello fellow Spuffy lovers! I was listening to my IPod while thinking of chapter 1 of COA, and then this song came on...I just thought this worked so well. So, this is what Spike was thinking as he died. Enjoy! :D
Song; Time of Dying by Three Days Grace
Disclaimer; I do not own BtVS or 3DG in any way, shape, or form.
(Spike's P.O.V)
On the ground I lay
Motionless in pain
I can see my life flashing before my eyes
Dead I fall asleep
Is this all a dream
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare
Pain was numbing every inch of my body as I lay dying on the ground. Every moment of my life was flashing before my eyes. Cecily rejecting me, saying I was beneath her. Angelus, Drusilla, and Darla finding me crying. Killing all those people, shoving the railroad spike through the man's head, after he has said that was what he would rather have done then having to listen to my poetry.
If I could've, I would have flinched. Why couldn't that have all been a dream? But even if it had been, would anyone had bothered to wake me from the nightmare? I will not die (I will not die)
I will survive
Though I tried hard not to get killed by Angelus, and even though I did survive, I guess none of that mattered. I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying
If Buffy had tried to stop me from staking myself, I guess I wouldn't have. I would not die if she was standing next to me, asking me not to leave her. I don't know why, but I felt alive when I was with her. Though even dying, I knew I'd wait for her forever. On this bed I lay
Losing everything
I can see my life passing me by
Was it all too much
Or just not enough
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare
I could only feel the soft grass under me, acting as my deathbed. The realization hit me that with my suicide, I had lost everything. But honestly, I didn't care. I could still see flashes of my past flickering past my eyes. I mentally scowled. Why hadn't I died yet? Was the stake too much, or was it just not enough? Either way, I was ready to wake up from this nightmare I will not die (I will not die)
I will survive
I just hoped that, even though I'd be dead in reality, I would survive in everyone's memories.
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying
I hoped, hell, I prayed that Buffy knew that even dead I'd still wait for her. I'd want her to know how I felt when I was with her, that I felt human, and not like the evil, vile monster I truly was. I hoped that in her mind, I would never die, and that she knew that I still loved her, and I always would.
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I will not die, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying
The numbness spread to my hands, and I could feel myself fall deeper and deeper into the darkness of death. Now, I don't think that I'll ever be able to prove this, but I swear that I managed to smile as th feeling of peace washed over me.
I was finally free.
A.N; Ok, I liked and hated how this turned out. But, it was kinda hard to use this considering the chorus starts out; I will not die. But, after hearing the first line, I had to use it! But, I think it turned out better than I expected.
Stay tuned for next chapter. And, just to torture you all, here's a little sneak peak!
(Spike's P.O.V)
She blinked. "I'm your escort."
I raised an eyebrow. "Escort to where?"
She stretched out her wings (Which kinda freaked me out, considering that I forgot they were there.), looked up to the starry sky, and, in a very curt tone, she replied; "Home."
So, if you want to see what that's all about, stay tuned!
Until next time,
Peace, Love, and Blond Vampires
Jalice
:D
P.S: For those of you who have never heard the song, link on my profile.