It's time for glee club and you said you might get in the choir room late and you just told me to head on without you.
As I enter the choir room, it felt so weird not entering with you. We always go to glee club together and it's actually the first time where we didn't enter it together and I don't like it one bit.
I went to our usual seat which is at the back. I was about sit when I saw a white rose and a small white envelope attached to it again. I grabbed it and sat. A new rose but a different color this time and a new note.
I feel everyone's eyes on me but I didn't bother. I quickly opened the small white envelope and it's not handwritten again.. it's still printed.
A white rose represents innocence and purity.
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Everytime I see a white rose all I could think of is you. You're so innocent and pure Brittany and that what's make me fall in love with you more. You aren't like anyone on this miserable stinking world. You're different.. good different. If you could splash off your innocence and purity to everyone in this planet the whole world would be a much better place. You're one in a 7 billion Britt. I didn't say one in a million because there are 7 billion in this world and that means a lot of millions so that means in every million there's one just like you but there are none. And I think the expression one in a million is kinda offensive ..Anyways there's no one like you in this world Brittany, no one. No other woman could make me feel this way or even make me do this kind of thing.
Your Secret Admirer
"Who's that from Brittany?" I heard Artie asked
I look up from the note and saw everyone staring at me. I put the note back into the envelope and sat on my seat.
"It's nothing Artie" I said. He just nodded at me but I know he doesn't believe what I just said but he just wheeled away.
"C'mon Brittany tell us what the note said" said Quinn who sat next to me and so did Kurt and Mercedes. I opened and closed my mouth a few times trying to say something but couldn't.
"So who's it from?" Kurt asked.
I just shook my head at him and told him that I don't know who it is.
"Well girl, do you have any idea who it is?" asked Mercedes
"I was actually hoping you guys would tell me since you were here before me" I said
"Well the first one here was Rachel then followed by me but I already saw that rose and note when I got here. I don't know about Rachel though" said Kurt.
I just nodded. I looked at the door and saw you finally coming in. I sighed in relief knowing you're here already and they wouldn't bother asking me this questions anymore since they're.. kinda of scared at you.
"Fabray you're at my seat" you said and Quinn just frowned at you and left followed by Kurt and Mercedes.
"What did they want from you?" you asked as you take your sit next to me.
"Nothing, it's just that I got a new rose and a letter from my secret admirer and they were just curious just like me" I said not taking my eyes off at the gorgeous white rose.
"Oh..well um okay then" was all you said.
These past few days well..months actually, you've been acting very weird. We don't talk that much anymore, we always just fell into a comfortable silence and you don't stay over at my house that much anymore. Have you been sensing that I had a crush on you? Is that why you seem like you've been avoiding me that much? I haven't even told you yet but things are kind of getting awkward between us what more if I actually told you.
I didn't notice I was frowning deeply until you commented about it. You asked if there's anything wrong and I just said no. You didn't push the subject that much and you just said ok. Mr. Schue finally came in and started babbling about some artist that I really didn't care about.
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When glee club ended it's time to finally go home. I asked again if you're gonna stay over but you declined this time your excuse is that you have lots of homeworks to do but you said you're gonna drive me home.
When we were in the car it was too quiet even if the radio was turned on. We used to sing along to the songs but now we just remained muted on our seat. When you pulled over in front of my house , you didn't even got out of your car , you said your goodbye as I got out and drove off.
I went into my room and do the things I usually do before plopping down on my bed. I put the white rose on the vase with the pink rose from yesterday and put the note into the drawer where the other one from yesterday is also hidden there.
I played with Lord Tubbington a bit to distract me but he told me not get him involved in my problems and just let him be.
I lay down on my bed staring blankly at the ceiling. Maybe I should give my secret admirer a chance and just forget about you. Maybe it would be much more easier.
I sighed. But feeling won't change overnight now do they? They said a broken heart couldn't be mend in just a few days, it takes years. But my heart isn't broken..or is it?
I sat up and looked at the two roses. They're beautiful and the notes that are attached to it are so sweet and heart-warming. Now I'm really curious about finding who's this person. I don't even know if it's a boy or a girl. I'm attracted to both and I told you that, you were fine by it but you said you don't know how the society would react about that. How come society is even involved about this kind of stuff?
You just said that people aren't that accepting about gay people. But I'm not gay.. I'm just bicurious or does that automatically makes you gay? This is really confusing.
When I asked if you were gay you always snapped at me. You started yelling that you're not gay..somewhere along the lines saying you can't be but we make out and stuffs and you said that being a lesbian is a woman doing things with another woman and well I'm a woman..and you're a woman..so does that make the both of us lesbian? This whole labeling about you sexuality is really confusing. This is why I don't like labels. So what if I like guys and I like girls? Who cares? But you said the world does..
But in my world there are only 2 people in it and it's me and you.
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A/N: I know this is super short but please review and stuffs. I'm sorry for my mistakes Thank you so much for those awesome reviews and sorry this took a while but I've been busy these past few days and to the anon who asked if they made out before well the last part answered your question haha..idk even know why I wrote in the summary that it's AU but I'll fix it