Summery: Just how do you deal with a hormonal teenage shape shifter? That is what Renesesemee and Jacob want to know, and what happens when the Volturi find out about her and her power?
An: I would like to thank my very first reviewer hennaluv for her kind review. Thank you henna! I encourage further reviews from anyone who enjoyed reading reviews make me happy. When I am happy, I write see it is a win-win situation! Anyway, enjoy chapter two.
Thoughts/writing, Renesesemee's projections "Speaking"
Chapter 2 In the Forest
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I loved to fly. I suppose that most people would if they had the chance to fly under their own power, flying was very freeing and relaxing. I readjusted my tail and lifted my wings up I soared higher. It had taken me a long time to figure out how to fly as well as I did now, it had taken me almost month to figure out how to take off and stay up properly.
I glanced down at the darkening earth, even with hawks' eyes it was getting hard to see. Hawks weren't made for nighttime flying, I should have chosen to transform into an owl, they were virtually silent when they flew and they had wonderful night vision. (You would think that with all of my knowledge of animals that I would do better in Biology.)
My stomach gave a hungry rumble; I should have eaten before I left. I sighed and looked down again; searching for something I could eat in this form. Unlike my parents I didn't like to hunt, but that was mostly because I have transformed into half of the animals that my family consumed. I had felt (And still feel) guilty after each kill I made; I even had nightmares about all of the things I killed. I couldn't handle all the death so I stopped going with them on hunts when they went.
I even tried to be a vegetarian for a while, but that didn't work out very well. I was still a vampire… well part vampire and that part of me screamed for blood on occasion, like around the time my aunt Flow decides to pay a visit, or when there are too many humans around. The pull to drink blood is sometimes so strong during those times I can't go to school. I just might snap and eat one of my classmates.
Last time I checked that would be a bad thing.
I spotted a small flock of sparrows about twenty feet in front of me; I cringed at the thought of killing one. I liked sparrows; I once spent a week in sparrow form just because I liked the little birds so well. My stomach rumbled again, that decided it for me, if I didn't eat I would have a hard time transforming. I sped up flying over the cloud of sparrows who let out alarmed chirping noises.
I pulled my wings in and dived into the sparrow flocks talons extended, I felt a rush of wings around me as they struggled to move out of my way. They may have been fast, but I was faster. I felt the warm body of one of the little birds' in-between my talons and closed them tightly feeling its rapid heartbeat for a split second before my gripping talons stopped it.
The rest of the flock was shrieking and twittering as they dove at me as a group pecking and scratching at my wings and head. Cheeky little things, attacking when I can't fight back. It was useless for them to try, when I was in my transformed state I was as indestructible as my grandparents, (I had found that out the hard, scary, way). However, them mobbing me was still very annoying, I let out a shriek that made them scatter again. I flew faster, keeping a tight hold on my prey.
I didn't want to loose it after going through all of the trouble of catching it. As soon as I was sure I had lost the sparrow flock I chose a tree to land in. It was hard to land with the dead sparrow in one of my feet; it took me a couple of tries before I finally was able to stay comfortably on the branch I had chosen. I looked down at the sparrow, its tinny eyes half shut, its body impossibly still, I hated myself for killing it.
But it was too late to do anything about it now, I tore into it with a wickedly sharp beak, pulling feathers out and devouring its meat. Hunger made me forget my guilt as I ate, after a second there was just hunger and the satisfaction of satisfying my appetite. All too soon, my meal was finished and I felt sick again. I shivered and took off, I didn't want to stay with the remains of the bird any longer, it was almost too dark for me to see anything so I had to choose another tree close by.
I just sat there and shivered, holding down my dinner as best as I could, hating myself. A strange thought hit me then, I had school tomorrow. I let out a trembling squawk of laughter.
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(Edwards POV)
The first thing I did after Nessie's call was to think of all the places Hanna would go to, I knew she had a favorite tree she would roost in at the top of a near by hill, I would check there first. I turned to Bella, who had listened in on the entire conversation.
"I have to go find Hanna." she gave me a small smile.
"I know, just bring her back safely," I turned to our open window and jumped out "And stay safe yourself!" she called after me. I smiled at her concern, (ignoring the thoughts of my family as they questioned me about where I was going) even after all of these years she was still concerned for me. I don't think she will ever change; I turned my mind back to my run away granddaughter.
Hanna was faster and stronger than a normal human being but in human form, she was no match for a vampire at full strength. Unless she decided to go into one of her larger animal forms, like Jacob and the other werewolves, her fangs and claws could injure vampire skin. Emmet had learned that the hard way. But I had faith that Hanna wouldn't attack me, we were close, closer then she and her father were and that made me feel a bit of guilty pride. As I got closer to the apartment buildings that stood in-between, my family's home and the forest, where Nessie and Jacob lived the rapid thoughts of the humans living there assaulted me.
Check car oil, go to the store, what do we need again? Eggs, that's right I can get those at the farmers market-
What is she thinking about, is she thinking about another man? No, she wouldn't dare think about another man while we are having sex that stupid-
Life is pointless, I should just end it, oh it's almost nine now, I have school tomorrow-
I wonder if my baby is a boy or a girl?
Ok the square root of pi is-
I tuned them out as I passed, it was tiring to listen to the thoughts of humans day after day, very few of them were genuinely interesting to listen to. When I entered the forest, I only picked up the very vague images animals sent out, trees, and plants, others of their kind. I even herd Jacob once and his tormented worrying thoughts about Hanna.
I made sure to avoid him so he didn't know Nessie had called me; I headed toward Hanna's favorite hill keeping my mind open for her thoughts.
I didn't want to kill it, I didn't-
I stopped and looked around, that was Hanna's 'voice' she was close.
This is all moms fault, if she hadn't went on about my stupid grades then I could have eaten at home.
"Hanna."
Who was-? Oh, it's just you gramps. I should have known mom would call you.
"You shouldn't have run off Hanna, you know it makes Nessie and Jacob worry."
Well they shouldn't badger me about my grades. As she spoke, I looked for the source of her voice, its not like I'm some kind of super genius like they are. My attention was drawn to a tree and the hawk nestled in its branches, I smiled at it.
"Why don't you come and talk to me Hanna, in human form." The Hanna's intense yellow hawk eyes narrowed at me and her feathers ruffled she opened her wings and glided down, she landed on the ground a few paces away from me and transformed back, she wasn't wearing anything but she didn't seem to notice that. I shrugged off the jacket I was wearing and threw it to her.
"You should have brought clothing with you." I scolded, she shrugged.
"I wasn't planning on changing back any time soon," she gave a small almost sheepish smile "I actually forgot that my clothes don't change with me." It was true, her clothing just seemed to disappear when she transformed, we still haven't figured out what happened to it or where it went.
After a moments silence she spoke again. "So mom called you?" I nodded.
"I promised to find you," I saw her tense "I didn't say I would bring you back though." she smiled and turned around and started to walk away.
"Well you found me, bye gramps!" I rushed to her side-keeping pace with her easily.
"I can't do that Hanna; I would just have to find you again." No, you wouldn't. She thought. We walked in comfortable silence for a few minutes; I listened to her rambling thoughts for a few minutes before I realized she was trying to keep her true thoughts away from me.
"What's wrong Hanna?"
Nothing, nothing at all.
"You wouldn't try keeping your thoughts from me if nothing was wrong." I saw her shoulders stiffen for a minute and heard her thoughts turns hostile for a few minutes before she slumped and stuffed her hands into my jackets pockets.
It's nothing, just mom and dad bugging me about my grades, its frustrating you know? I nodded. She continued out loud "Its strange enough having parents that don't age, but do they really have to go to my school?" It's like I don't have privacy "I mean its one thing when your parents badger you about your school work, but when they call you stupid for not being able to do it when they can." I just get angry when they do things like that.
She turned to look at me. The worst part is they don't even know they are hurting my feelings half the time.
"Have you tried talking to them?" she frowned.
"No." Why bother?
"Well if you let them know how you feel-" her thoughts cut me off They won't change
"Look gramps, I don't want to talk to them, I just want to be as far away from them as I can get." She gave a hopeful smile in my direction Can I stay with you and grandma Bella tonight?
I sighed and nodded; I would call her mother and let her know what was going on as soon as she was asleep. Thank you! She ran over, hugged me, and kissed my cold cheek.
Kissing you is like kissing a block of ice, how did grandma stand it? She said with a joking smile, I smiled back.
"I suppose love makes us do stupid things." she giggled and squealed as I picked her up.
"Now let's get you home." Fine. Your place is probably more comfortable than a tree anyway.