A/N- Sorry it took me so long to update. I kept loosing things, and- oh well, I hope you like it. italics are thoughts. Review please.

"Have you told the others" Abby asked, breaking the silence that had fallen between them in the way to their respective cars. Ziva at her with alarm."No! No I couldn't, it-" The woman paused to collect her thoughts. "They have to trust me, Abby. I have to know they trust me, and that I can trust them." She sighed. "I never thought that I would actually care what they thought, but-" Ziva lowered her head, falling silent once more.

"Ziva, you have to tell them, especially Tony." Abby said firmly. "You think they won't like it when you tell them? Think how they'll feel if they have to find out some other way. Tony's team leader now, he's bound to hear more." And much as it pained her to admit it, Ziva knew that Abby was right. She pondered this as she drove off into the night.

The next day dawned cold and rainy, an ill omen to be sure, but Ziva pushed those thoughts from her mind as she exited the elevator. Tony was already there, he was never late anymore. McGee had yet to appear, but then, Ziva had made a point to be early.

"Tony" She said hesitantly

"Yes, Zee-vah?" he said with a grin, looking up from the files he was going through.

"I- I need to talk to you. Alone." She finished pointedly

Raising his eyebrows, he got up and led her to the elevator, waiting for it to begin it's decent before pushing the emergency stop and turning to Ziva expectantly.

She's leaving, isn't she? She can't learn from me, because I'm not Gibbs, and so she's leaving. Damn. When she first came I wanted nothing more. But she's not Kate, she never tried to be. And now, wit everyone still reeling from Gibbs departure. If she leaves- I can't let her. We need her. I need her. I need them all. She can't leave.

"Well?"

This is it, you got him him here, now you have to say something.

"Abby says I have to tell you. I didn't want- but you're team leader now, and-"

Damn, I'm babbling. Calm down, David. You know how to do this.

She wasn't even going to tell me ?She would, what, go over my head to the Director? Abby made her tell me? Since when did anyone make Ziva do anything? Why wouldn't she tell me? Doesn't she at least respect me that much?

"You're babbling, Officer David."

Oh, he'd noticed, had he? Well ow exactly were you supposed to start in on something like this?

"Tony, I- Ari was my brother."

Yep, this was it, she was- wait, what did she say? Ari was her brother? What did she mean? She couldn't possibly be related to that psycho. He killed Kate, shot her down. Every time I think about it I can still feel the blood hitting my face. Her brother. But that meant- Hell, what did that mean?

"Did Gibbs know?"

Did Gibbs know? DID GIBBS KNOW? I'm practically baring my soul and that's all he can ask?

"Yes, he did."

He knew? How could he let her work with us? How could he let her sit at Kate's desk when her own brother was the reason that Kat e was not sitting at it herself?

I knew he would take this badly. He cared for Kate, I can see it in his eyes. I have to tell him the rest. Then, maybe, he will understand.

"Tony, I killed him."

She killed him? Him, who? Not Gibbs. She couldn't, wouldn't. If she was going to kill him, she would have done it a long time ago. But then who could she- Not Ari. Gibbs killed Ari. But who else could she mean?

"Who?"

Who? Isn't it obvious? Does he have to make me say it?

"Ari, Tony. I killed Ari."

When she finishes speaking, I hear her voice break. Now I finally look at her, at her eyes, shining with tears on the dim elevator light. She looks at me, her face begging me to say something, to not hate her. I look into those tear-filled eyes, and that is how I know what she says is true. She did kill him, her own brother. And what can I say to that? I can't imagine finding out that the person you love is a monster, a monster on need of destroying. And then to go out and put an end to them yourself- I can't imagine hat. So what can I do, except hold her in my arms?

I hug him back, willing myself to not get lost in my tears once more. Tony understands. He doesn't hate me. So everything will be okay.