The Shape Of Love

Chapter 2: Building Triangles.

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Roxas sat on the bathroom floor his hand soiled. Now what? Roxas took his time cleaning up. Hands washed, pants zipped, libido calmed, he looked in the mirror. For once in his life he hated his reflection. He was Roxas. And being Roxas meant being too self righteous to be able to love anyone. But his reflection revealed someone who wasn't Roxas at all. The mirror showed a boy who was so head-over heels for someone so out of reach. This boy in the mirror was vulnerable so close to snapping. So close to telling his twin his true intentions. This Roxas was screwed.

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Sora woke up as Riku stirred awake. He yawned while Riku stretched like a cat. Riku pulled on his clothes; Sora's eyes on him the entire time. "Perv boy." Sora blushed at the other's remark, Riku smirked in victory. "Anyways since we wasted time asleep its nearly 7pm. I gotta get home now… walk me to the door?" Riku asked. Sora was slightly upset that Riku was leaving, but nodded anyway. A question popped into his head halfway down the stairs. Were they together or not? He stopped, looking back at Riku who was a few steps up, "Does this make you my boyfriend?" A soft smile graced his porcelain features before Riku responded, "Yeh Sora, it makes us a couple." Sora's blush was a perfect shade of bubble gum pink, his expression so darling Riku could only chuckle. Sora turned his back and they continued down the stairs to the front door. What they didn't know was at the base of the staircase Roxas had heard the whole "couple officalizing" and his mind was going livid! -Ha Sora thinks he can replace me by being with Riku? Ha. Doubt it. Sora's always clung to me, ever since we were children. He loves me too! He just hasn't realized that love he has for me isn't platonic.-

Sora and Riku descended the stairs finally at the landing of the first floor. Sora caught Roxas' eye and froze. Oh. Shit. Play it cool Sora, it's all you can do. "Hey Roxy!" He said in a pseudo normal happy voice, trying not to let Roxas know how much he was still hurting. Roxas merely scoffed and stalked upstairs to their shared room. Riku kept his eyes on his boyfriend the whole time watching his expression unfold. It went from fakely happy to undeniably broken. Riku placed his hands on Sora's shoulders, "Don't worry about it, it's been worse remember 8th grade?" Sora nodded as he solemnly remembered for the second time that day. Riku saw the others sad expression and took the opportunity, and kissed him. Sora stood shocked and wide-eyed. "See ya tomorrow Sor." Riku flashed a gleaming smile and walked out of the house.

Oh god! Ohgodohgodohgod!!! –Riku kissed me! - Sora's mind was rushing, he felt giddy. Love struck little Sora couldn't suppress a giggle. A single kiss was cure enough for all the problems he was facing. Well until he entered the bedroom once again. Roxas was on the edge of Sora's bed, sitting stalk still. Sora approached cautiously, "Roxas?" Only when he was being serous did he not call him Roxy. Roxas glared up at his younger twin, his eyes held anger and hurt? "I can't believe you wrote me off that quickly!" Sora was finding it hard to understand. "What do you mean? I don't get what you're saying Roxas. Write you off?" "Oh shut it Sora! You know as well as I do, you only got with Riku because you're afraid of being alone. So you and your pansy ass fear, confessed to Riku hoping that if you were more than just a friend to him he'd stay with you. But Sora what pushed you to this? What reason made you so afraid? Me. You thought you lost me. Sor thought he lost his Roxy. Awwwh, isn't that fucking adorable?!" Roxas was angry no more than angry; his voice was dripping with malice. "You're so afraid of losing me Sora, face it, it's true. And do you know why you have a fear of losing me? You love me it's simple of that. Isn't it true? Remember back in 7th grade when you got your first girlfriend? And you wanted to kiss her? You came to me; you told me that you didn't know how though. Didn't know how to kiss. You asked me to teach you. And I did. You gave me your first kiss. You locked lips with your own brother…but that was only the beginning. Freshman year. Do you know where I'm going with this?" Roxas paused; Sora had a sick feeling of dread in his stomach. "Seems like you do remember. Freshman year you woke up from a wet dream, full erection under the sheets. You freaked out. You said it 'hurt'. "Roxy! Make it go away! Nngh! God Roxy it hurts!" You begged me so much I couldn't deny you. I helped you out. I did. You got your release only because of me. I jerked you off, and you, you spilled all over my hand. And during this time, during your first orgasm it was my name you moaned. Recently though you've been staring in the mirror while you wrap your arms around me, a smile and a blush on your face. Do you see it now? Do you see where I've really seen your true feelings? Do you understand now; that you love me." Roxas finished still staring at Sora.

Sora's thoughts were gushing around his mind plaguing his ability of comprehension. Did he love Roxas? What he said was all the truth, ever since they were kids Roxas had always been the only one he went to when he felt uncomfortable. Roxas was the only person he talked to until middle school started. Middle school, a girl named Namine broke into his world. 6th grade they had become best friends. 7th grade they started going out. But then Sora felt he wanted to kiss her, but the concept of kissing made him uncomfortable; he didn't know how. He'd never done it before, and like always when he was uncomfortable he went to Roxas. Roxas and himself, they kissed. His first kiss went to his brother. At first it was awkward and messy, but Roxas explained how to breathe how to slightly tilt his head. The last kiss before the lesson was over Roxas slipped his tongue in Sora's mouth. Sora reacted with a gasp. Roxas had pulled away with a smirk. The next day when he locked lips with Namine he couldn't help but compare her kiss to Roxas'. On a scale of 1 – 10, she ranked a 3, while Roxas got a pure solid 7. Roxas' lips had been softer felt more caring. Roxas won.

Sora thought over freshman year, since Roxas had brought that up too. Sora remembered that incident well. It was on the day he kissed another boy, other than Roxas. Again Sora had thought back to when Roxas had kissed him, he had to admit even a couple years later he still liked his brother's kiss better. Tidus the boy who kissed him that day, Tidus had copped a feel between his legs. The remainder of that day he thought about that touch. That night in bed he dreamed about that kiss from Tidus and that touch, but when he looked back up at the other boy in the dream it wasn't Tidus anymore. It was Roxas. Roxas and his smirking face. Sure he was startled but it felt amazing, his body was getting hot. He woke up with a tight feeling in his lower regions; a tent pitched under the sheets in his boxers. He felt uncomfortable; scared. He called out to Roxas who was across the room, pleaded for Roxas to help him. And Roxas being the great big brother he was, obliged to help him up until the point where Sora came on his hand and panted his name. Everything sexual Sora had ever done started with Roxas. Sora wanted Roxas as more than just a brother, he need that boy's touch.

"Sora, say you love me." Roxas' angry face had calmed down and the fire in his eyes had died too, but the command in his voice was ever present. Sora didn't speak a word. Roxas tried again, "Say you love me." The older twin was pushing Sora onto the bed on his back. Roxas' lips were hovering inches above the younger's. "You love me." Roxas breathed. Sora's eyes had been glued to his brother's mouth as he shaped the sound of each word. They were in such close proximity! Those lip, luscious lips, Sora wanted them. No wait… Roxas was repeating 'you love me' waiting for a response from him. The laying boy shut his eyes and pushed Roxas away. "It doesn't matter Roxas. I have a boyfriend now, and we're brothers. Plus you've never accepted anyone's feelings before, why would mine be any different?"

The next morning Sora awoke to an empty room, an empty bathroom too. No Roxas to be found. On the mirror Roxas adored so much was a message, "U LOVE ME." Written in shaving cream. Sora sighed, why was Roxas so intent on Sora's affection?

A knock on the door marked Riku's daily arrival. Only this time they'd walk to school a couple. Riku smiled a smile so kind anyone be it guy or gal would swoon. "Morning Sora." Riku awkwardly pulled him into a hug. But Sora had his mind on Roxas… the walk to school was silent and strained, so unlike every other day.

The bell rang and Sora turned to walk to class without saying a word; Riku pulled him back. His mouth captured Sora's for a brief moment and pulled away, "Ya know I am your boyfriend, you should tell me when something's bothering you." Sora's eyes locked with Riku's. How was he supposed to tell Riku that he was only with him because Roxas had left him? How did Sora say in a friendly way that he didn't love Riku, rather he was in love with his twin? How? Sora faked a smile trying to show he was okay, "I'm fine, if it starts bothering me again I'll let you know, okay?" Riku nodded and let Sora go.

In English 3 Sora's mind were miles away from the land of Huck Fin. Roxas vs. Riku. Sure Sora wasn't totally sure how comfortable he be doing anymore than kissing with Riku. Sora knew he loved Riku but how much? Riku seemed like he was going to be comfortable with their relationship but would Sora be okay with it? On the other hand Sora knew he could be comfortable with Roxas. Roxas had always made him feel safe. Sora could trust him and seemed like he wanted Sora to like him. What to do…

A few weeks had gone by; Roxas hadn't said anything more about wanting Sora to love him. Riku had been getting further into the relationship. They kissed and sometimes the older boy's hands would slip under Sora's shirt and roam his torso. Sora had kept his mind on Roxas the whole time though. Riku's touches had become Roxas' in his mind. Riku kissed him. Roxas. Riku touched him. Roxas. Riku said 'I love you' so many times but Sora could only hear Roxas. Sora should've been happy. Riku was his boyfriend. His! The entire female population at school was jealous that Riku picked a boy over them. Sora got a lot of hate glares. This wasn't fair. Not to Riku who was falling for a boy that wasn't thinking about him, and not to Sora who was being hated for a relationship with a guy he didn't even 'love' in that way. And certainly not to Roxas who was still keeping his one third of the love triangle quiet. Something had to change. Something had to give.

A/N: Oh yeh chapter 2 ish done :D So how will you guys respond to this chapter of revelations? Ahahaha man do you guys even like the way this story is progressing? Let me know! Review!!! I honestly try and reply to all the ones I get. I'm really happy for anyone who reads this! :D btw Happy Easter everyone!

Till next chapter!