Ok so people actually read this? haha I found it shocking, thank you for reviewing it meant a lot... I think I might actually continue this so here is the next chapter, enjoy.

I am not C S Lewis so obviously I don't own the Chronicles of Narnia.

"Edmund," her sickly smooth voice echos through the snowy air. I am in Narnia again, not seventeen but trapped again in my foolish ten-year-old body. "You look so cold. Come sit with me?"

She wraps her polar bear fur around us together keeping us warm. Drinking her sweet warm hot chocolate I feel my desires for her grow. My desire to serve her until death, my desire for power, my hunger, my anger, my greed. Everything in my being grows, multiplies by ten. Then I am stupid enough to ask for those awfully sweet Turkish Delights, never again have I eaten one. My once favorite sweet ruined by a sorceress.

Expecting to feel that rush of desire, my body aches for that high. That rush of the feeling I can have anything in the world I can ever want. The feeling I am in complete control, complete power. Instead I start to choke, my throat begins to close and I feel like I'm being robbed of my soul, my life, my everything.

The life is pulling right from me into her. She takes my power, snatching everything, and destroys it until I feel nothing. The hunger for everything is left, worse than it was before it felt satisfied.

Suddenly gasping for air, I collect myself as she smiles softly at me as if nothing happened. I fall for it, that smile blinding, enchanting, hypnotic.

"Mmm, I miss you," she murmurs as I bow to her. "Edmund, come back to me."

Her haunting voice echos into the distance while I twist and shake under the cold, wet falling snow.

"Edmund!" Lucy's sweet voice woke me from my nightmare.

I turned quickly to face her as I opened my eyes, letting them gaze upon the most gorgeous girl they have ever seen. Her cherry blossom pink lips formed a shy smile under my gaze, and her deep brown eyes clouded over with bashfulness. My fingertips voyage up toward her until they happily graze the skin under the hem of her navy blue jumper. Her soft cream skin is what I wish to memorize, if only I could truly do that.

"Good morning," I murmured, pulling her closer with my hand wrapped firmly around her waist.

Her musical giggle filled the room as she playfully nudged me away.

"Edmund, you have to get ready for school. There isn't any time for fooling around."

I raised my eyebrow at her words and watched with a smirk as Lucy's cheeks brightened with a light pink glow realizing her word choice.

"That is not what I meant," she remarked, smiling soft. Oh, how I could just stare at her lips all day.

I smiled before standing up and placing a "brotherly" kiss on her forehead. I walked around her in my black pajama pants and white tee, heading to the bathroom to get ready.

"I know Lu," I sighed.

School wasn't so bad, but Peter was lucky to be in the war, and Susan away from here in university. Lucy and I were left to finish and it wasn't easy with all the bomb sirens. Their annoying whine only signaled more school having to make up. I only prayed we never leave again, being stuck with Eustace was bad enough for the summer but now with our extended stay and his newfound understanding of Narnia, I can't tell whether I should be glad to be with family or not.

I might prefer that old man's mansion, compared to the stuffy pig sty of a house my Uncle owns. At least at the Professor's house there were many places to hide. I didn't need to share a room with little cousin Eustace, a constant reminder that I will never return to Narnia, and there was more free time with Lucy. There were more places to hide with Lucy, so we could do whatever we wanted without getting looks from people who know us or hear disgusting remarks on something they have no idea about.

In my last class I opened my satchel and wrenched out my notebook from between two ghastly medieval textbooks. Turning to a clear page I begin to draw my coveted home. The foliage, first, scatters across the page as I draw the enchanted forest and add human features to the bark of the trunks. Soon, my page is plagued with snow, illuminated by the shading of my pencil, and a lamp post is slightly off centered to the right.

I stared down at the picture before me, disturbed by the evil, yet beautiful sight. Narnia, the beautiful country of lush green glass and aged warm trees, cursed with that cold white bewitched powder. Ding, ding, signaled the end of class bringing me out of my trance and I closed the book wanting to get away from the sight that was permanently buried in my subconscious.

I met Lucy outside her class and from there, leaving Eustace, we headed toward our temporary dwelling place. The gas masks sway and bang against our sides as we walked, making me more irritated than I already was, and I know Lucy noticed. It apparently bothered her enough to comment.

"Okay stop," she commanded, pulling to the side. Standing under the cover of a few shops, she pushed me against a near pillar, hiding us from everyone. "What is wrong with you?"

I shook my head, pulling the collar of my black school blazer. "Nothing."

Lucy's soft eyes narrowed before she hit me and stormed off. Great, I thought as I hurried after her, pulling her small body back toward mine.

"I'm sorry Lu," I sighed, bending so my lips were at her ear. "I've just had a lot on my mind."

Straightening up, I pulled away from her and looked around while I cleared my throat. Grabbing her wrist I began to gently pull her home, since she stood in place, until she struggled from my grasp.

The rest of the way home was silent. It pained me to know I put her in the mood, but I wasn't about to tell her all I keep thinking about is that bloody witch, or our messed situation. I'm not going to tell her what Aslan really said to me the day I was rescued from the witch.

I'm not going to tell her that, that woman was my mother.

I wasn't about to tell a girl I'm in love with I am the son of pure evil.

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