Chapter 2 Lexi's POV
I was getting ready to go to Erik's house to see my baby. I haven't seen her since I left. Everyday being gone from her I wish I took with me, but I thought it would be better if she stayed with Erik. So he could have something to remind him that what they had was real.
I was actually scared to see Aquamarine. She was staying at Erik's parent's house. I wasn't seen them since the wedding. I don't know what they will say to me or what they will do to me. Will they hate me for what I did? What if they don't accept my apology?
I changed into my Chevy shirt, dark blue denim jean and my light brown cowboy boots. I French braided my hair to the side. I've changed so much. Most days I dressed very country. I looked at myself in the mirror. I sighed and pushed my bangs back out of my eye.
Someone knocked on the door. "Come in." I said. I was sitting on the bed just thinking about what could happen. I hope I wasn't going to be hated by Erik's family. I really didn't mean to hurt him. I was confused at the time.
"Hey, Lexi." Edward came in and sat on my bed next to me. "A lot of things on your mind I see or hear." He chuckled. I giggled a little.
"I'm scared to see Erik's parents again. What if they hate me for breaking their son's heart, leaving, and then coming back? I'm so scared." I cried a little.
"Alexia Nicole, you have nothing to worry about. Erik is an adult just like you. His parents were just worried that he was hurting himself. He was just keeping to himself not wanting to do anything."
"Will they hate me?"
"I don't know. You'll have to see. They may hate you, they may not."
"Oh thanks, Edward that was so helpful." I said sarcastically. I wiped away my tears.
"Hey, it helped you to stop crying." He chuckled. I stuck my tongue out at him.
I drove up to Erik's parents' house. My hands were shaking on the steering wheel. I turned off the engine of my truck. I looked in the mirror. I French braided my hair to the side. I was wearing my aviator sunglasses. I took them off to check my makeup. I decided on keeping it simple, like winged eyeliner, foundation, and baby lips. I took a deep breath before I opened my door. I got out of my truck and slowly walked to the front door.
I took another deep breath before ringing the doorbell. Aquamarine started barking. "Coming!" I heard Erik's mom say as she opened the door. "Oh hello." Either she didn't recognize me or really didn't like me.
"Hello, Mrs. Jacobson, it's me Lexi." Her eyes widen.
"Oh wow, hi sweetie. I barely recognized you. Erik wasn't kidding about you changing. Please come in." She opened the door wider. I walked in Aquamarine was sitting by Mrs. Jacobson's feet. Her tail was wagging like crazy.
"Hey girl." I put my hand out for her to smell. She started going crazy. Jumping, barking, and spinning around. "So Mrs. Jacobson, I'm really sorry for what I did to Erik. I really didn't mean to hurt him. It was a huge mistake now."
"Sweetie, I forgive you. I had a feeling you would come back. I've seen you two together. The way you two look at each other. You truly love him and you still do." She smiled. "And you know how I feel about you calling me Mrs. Jacobson." She laughed. I smiled.
"Sorry. So where's Erik?" I asked as I patted Aquamarine. She licked my hand and arm.
"Oh he's out back with Kyle and his dad. They're probably messing around when they're supposed to be cleaning up for a bonfire that Kyle is having with some friends tonight. You should come. I know Erik would really like that." Carrie smiled. I shook my head.
"I don't think I should."
"You don't think you should what?" I heard Erik ask. I turned my head. Erik, his brother and dad walked in. They were all sweaty. Erik wiped the sweat off his forehead. I looked Erik up and down. I couldn't talk, I forgot how too. My heart started beating fast.
"Oh um." I started to say.
"She doesn't think she should come to the bonfire." Carrie said for me.
"Oh you should come. It will be so fun. Tailgates, big fire, marshmallows, hotdogs, alcohol even though you guys can't drink mom and dad don't mind, just don't drive home." Kyle winked at me.
"Please come." Erik begged.
"Um sure, I'll come." I gave in.
"Sweet. I'm taking the first shower. See you later, Lexi." Kyle winked at me again as he walked upstairs. "By the way, Lex. Sweet truck." Kyle yelled from upstairs. I laughed a little.
"We'll leave you two alone." Mark and Carrie walked upstairs. So now it was just Erik, Aquamarine and myself. I got down on my knees and scratched behind Aqua's ears.
"Did you miss mommy?" I asked her. She barked. "I missed you, too Aquamarine." She licked my face. I laughed.
"I'm glad you're back, Lexi." Erik said. I got up from my knees. "It's been really boring without you here."
"Oh. Um what happened to college?" I asked. Erik wanted to go to school for something. He was still kind of confused on what he wanted to go for. Erik chuckled and rubbed the back of his neck.
"Yea. I kind of dropped out. I wasn't ready to go to school that time. I'm thinking about going back next year or joining the military." My heart stopped when he said military.
"NO!" I yelled. Erik's eyes widen. I covered my mouth with my hand. "I'm so sorry."
"No, I understand why you don't want to do the military plan. But I'm still thinking. Kyle thinks I should join. My parents think I should take a break from school for now until things…never mind."
"Until things what?"
"It's nothing." It was quiet for a few seconds. "I'm going get in the shower. You can stay if you want or you can go."
"I'll stay." Erik smiled. Which made me smile, too.
"Okay. You can either hang out down here or in my room?" I bit my bottom lip. I knew Erik had a bathroom in his room. His was the only one besides his parents.
"I guess your room." Erik nods his head. He starts walking towards the stairs. I followed behind him. Once we got to his room. Nothing really changed beside Aquamarine's bed was next to his bed. By the wall by the door was his desk. It was kind of messy with papers. He had two frames on his desk. I looked to see the pictures. One of them was a picture of us when Erik graduated. The other one was a picture of me at my 18th birthday party. I smiled. I heard the water turn on in Erik's bathroom. I looked at the papers on his desk. They looked like letters that he didn't want to send. I saw my name on a few of them. He wanted to write to me, but he didn't want to send them to me. I pulled out his desk chair and sat down. I started reading one of them.
Dear Alexia,
I'm not sure how I want to start this letter. I'm not even sure if I want to write this or send it since you're happy and what not. I just can't take it because I still love you and everything is so hard because I see you in my dreams, everywhere I go, in Aquamarine. I can't stand it. My family wants me go out and have some fun and stop sitting in my room.
There was more. A lot more. Three pages. I put it back on his desk and grabbed another one. A month after his wrote the first one.
Dear Alexia,
It's been a month. I've been on a few dates and nothing really happened. Some girls couldn't deal with me being in love with some other girl who I can't let go. Others I had to dump because well I don't think I'm truly ready for a real relationship. So I'm friends with the girls I dumped because they are hoping I'll be ready soon. I care about them, but as a friend though.
He's been on dates with other girls? I don't know why that broke my heart. We're not even together.
"What are you doing?" I heard Erik ask. I turned around and saw Erik standing in just a towel around his waist. I dropped the paper on the desk.
"Um. I'm sorry; I didn't mean to read them. I only read two of them, but not all the way through." I said quickly.
"Why did you read them?"
"I don't know. I was just looking until I saw my name on them. I'm really sorry."
"Lexi, I'm not mad or upset. I was hoping one day to send them, but I never got the gut to."
"Why?" Erik shrugged his shoulders. "Is it because you didn't want me to know how unhappy you were?"
"No, well yes because you were happy in your relationship. I didn't want to mess up your happiness." Too bad I wasn't really happy with my relationship. I was too busy thinking about Erik and wondering if he was happy and if he was thinking about me.
"So what time is this bonfire?" I asked to change to the subject. Erik was thinking and then shrugged his shoulders, like he wasn't really sure. "A little after it gets dark or a little before it gets dark?"
"I guess whenever. It's totally up to you. Also if you want you can bring some extra clothes." I nodded my head. That wasn't a bad idea. "But you can't not show up." He smiled.
"Okay. Well maybe you should get dressed."
"I guess I should." I got up from the chair. Erik grabbed my arm. "Please don't go." He voice sounded sad.
"I'm was umm going to step outside your door while you change."
"No stay here. I'll change in the bathroom." Erik let go of my arm and grabbed some clothes. He walked to the bathroom. I looked around again. His room was way too familiar to me. This whole house was familiar. It was like my second home. Erik's parents loved me and his siblings treated me like I was one of them.
I looked at the pictures on Erik's desk again. I grabbed one of the pictures, Erik's graduation. I sat down on his bed and looked at it. I smiled.
"I forgot my shirt." I heard Erik said. I turned around and saw Erik standing on denim jeans and no shirt. His hair was messy and still wet. I stared at his chest. I started biting my lip for some reason.
"Lexi?" I shook my head. "My shirt?" He pointed to his bed. I looked down and saw that I was sitting on his shirt.
"Oh sorry." I got up, grabbed Erik's shirt. I put the frame down on the bed. I walked to Erik and handed his shirt to him. "Um here's your shirt."
"Thanks." He grabbed my arms for some reason. He started moving a little closer towards me.
"What are you doing?" I whispered. He smiled. He hands slowly slid down to my hands. "Erik?" He shook his head. He rested his forehead on mine.
"Stop talking. Please" He let go of my right hand and placed his hand on my cheek. He lifted my head up. Our lips met. I never thought this would happen for a long time. Wait? I pushed away from him. "What?"
"I umm. I should go." I ran out of Erik's room before he could say anything.
"He what?" Tyler asked. I told her everything that happened at Erik's house. She couldn't believe just as much as I couldn't.
"Kissed me. I left before he could say anything."
"Why did he kiss you?" I shrugged my shoulders. "Maybe he will tell you at the bonfire."
"I don't know if I should go." Tyler shook her head. "What?"
"Go! Don't just sit here and thinking about it so much. Go and ask him why he did it. You're not going to sit here and not do anything to get him back." Tyler was right. I need to stop moping around and do something if I wanted Erik back, even if I was only going to be his friend. It was better than nothing.
"Okay. Just tell Rose and Alice, I'm not getting dressed up."
"Well at least wear something that would catch his attention. Not sexy or slutty. Maybe something like." Tyler got up and looked through my closet. "Like this." She pulled out a Lace dress with third sleeves.
"It's kind of short."
"So. You have legs for miles. Right Emmett."
"I'm not answering that." I heard Emmett say from downstairs.
"You don't think it's slutty?" Tyler shook her head.
"It's not super short that they will see your panties. Now unbraided your hair and do your makeup a little more natural, then you'll be good." Tyler smiled at me. I smiled back.
"How did you become so good at this?"
"Many years with Alice and Rose." She giggled. She walked out. I laid back on my bed and thought about what happened between Erik and I today. I wasn't thinking that was never going to happen all of a sudden. I was kind of glad he did it. I wanted to feel his lips on mine again.
A few hours after of sitting at the Cullens getting ready for Erik's bonfire. I did what Tyler told me. I unbraided my hair, so it was wavy. I left it down. I also did my makeup more natural, so just foundation, mascara and cherry Chap Stick. I was so nervous. It took me an hour to find outfit for if I stay the night. I was also for getting everything, like my keys, phone, shoes, and once again my keys.
"Lexi, calm down. It's a bonfire with his friends." I told myself as I sat in my truck in front of his house. I finally got out of my truck. I locked my doors. I wasn't really sure if I was suppose to go the back from here or just go to the door. So I just walked to the front door. I knocked on the door. Carrie opened the door.
"Lexi, sweetie you could have walked to the back." Carrie said. She smiled. She opened the door for me.
"Thanks. I wasn't sure. I'm sorry." I walked inside.
"It's okay. Everyone is in the back." I nodded my head. I started walking towards the back doors. I saw the fire and a few trucks. I opened the door. I heard a lot of laughing, music playing and Aqua barking. I walked outside and closed the door behind me.
I walked beside Erik's truck. I saw him talking to some blonde chick. He touched her shoulder and started walking towards me. I smiled.
"You showed up?" He smiled.
"Yea. Sorry if I'm late."
"No you're just in time. Want something to drink?" I nodded my head. He grabs my hand and pulls me with him to a big blue cooler. He grabbed me a beer. I opened it. I wasn't much a beer drinker, but whatever.
"Oh Erik, there you are." The blond chick said. She was wearing jeans, polo shirt and ballet flats.
"Sorry, Lexi showed up." He smiled.
"Oh." She looked at me and gave me a fake smile. "You're the famous Lexi."
"Um I guess."
"Oh I'm sorry. Lexi, this is Chrissy. Chrissy is a um friend from school."
"It's nice to meet you, Chrissy." She gave me another fake smile.
"Same. I'll be back." Chrissy walked away. She walked to a group of other girls.
"I don't think your friend likes me." Erik looked back at Chrissy. She waved at him. He waved back. He looked back at me.
"Don't worry about her. I'm really glad you came." He smiled.
"Yea me, too." I smiled back.
A few minutes ago Chrissy took Erik to talk to some other people. I stayed by Erik's truck watching him with her. He was smiling and laughed.
"You don't look like you're having fun?" I heard someone ask. I looked to my left and saw a guy with dirty blonde hair in dark blue jeans, blue plaid button down shirt and western boots.
"Um not really." I said looking down.
"Why not? You get to drink, have some fun, burn shit." I laughed a little.
"True, but I don't know most people here and I'm kind of shy."
"Well that's what the alcohol is for." He grabbed my beer that I took a sip from. "Well I see you're problem. You're not tipsy."
"I'm not much of a beer drinker."
"And you call yourself a country girl."
"That doesn't make you a country girl." I glared at him.
"I was kidding." He threw his hands up. "Let me get you something you might like." He winked at me. He walked to the cooler and grabbed something and walked back. He handed me a bottle.
"What's this?"
"Mike's hard lemonade." I opened the bottle and drank some. It was really good. "Better?"
"Yea. Thanks, umm."
"Oh god. I'm sorry. I'm Luke Kyles."
"Lexi Hale."
"Oh you're the famous Lexi." I giggled. "Erik talks about you a lot." I blushed.
"Are you like his girlfriend?" Luke asked. I shook my head.
"No." I wish I were. Again.
"Well I thought you guys were by the way you look at each other."
"No, we just have a good relationship."