It took no time to get Edward to forgive me, but he still thought about it. I could obviously tell by the way he stared at me. I started to kiss him, and at first he was reluctant, but he warmed up pretty soon. It was so much different from Jacob. Edward's was cold and gentle. Jacob's was warm and passionate. I walked back into my bedroom, and Jacob was gone. I completely forgot I just left him there. The last thing he saw, was me chasing after Edward telling him how much I loved him and how I didn't know what I was doing. Jacob probably thought I was complete jerk and never wanted to talk to me again. Me, Bella Swan, the worst friend ever. I found a note on my pillow.

Dear Bella,

I realize all of this was a mistake. A waste of your time. I can tell you love Edward. Alot. I could tell by the way you ran out and left me there. I'm not mad at you, if you even care if I am or not. I'll just forget this ever happened and go back to the way it used to be. I don't want to force you to do something you hate so much.

-Jacob

Great. I didn't want to go back to the way it used to be. I loved Jacob. I might not have realized it before, but I did. I always had. Even though I loved Edward, there was still this urge to spend every waking second with Jacob. Even if it did mean breaking Edward's heart. But I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I was in love with Edward, and he had already given everything up for me. I couldn't do it to him. To either one of them. I walked back into the hallway, and Edward was still waiting for me.

"Edward, I'll talk to you tomorrow. I have to think things over."

The last thing I said broke Edward's heart. I could tell. He left without a word, which made it even harder for me. Jacob was my moon and stars, and Edward was my sun. Both made my life worth living. Without the moon and stars, night would be dark and dull. Without the sun, the world would be dark and cold. Which one is worth giving up? Neither. And that's why it made it hard for me to choose. I couldn't live without either one of them. I decided to go to La Push and visit Jake.

"Hey Billy."

"Uhh.. Bella, Jacob isn't here.."

"Billy, you are the worst liar ever."

I rolled Billy out of the way and ran up stairs.

"Hey J-"

He wasn't there. I ran back to Billy.

"Sorry, Billy.."

Billy laughed and rolled out of the way. I didn't have to ask where Jake was. I already knew exactly where he would be.

"Hey Bella!" I heard a group of guys say stimutaneously.

"Hey Embry, Sam, Paul, Jared, Seth, and Quil! Wow.. That's a mouthful"

"That's what she said!" Quil and Jared yelped out. Typical guys. Especially a Quil and Jared thing.

"Where's Jake?"

As soon as I asked, it wasn't just laughs anymore. Jacob walked out the back, with giant gashing cuts across his chest.

"Oh my god! Jake! What the hell happened?"

Jacob looked at Paul. Of course. Paul was always looking for trouble. Emily pulled me aside to tell me what happened.

"Bella, Jacob came back yesterday night and he was past his curfew. Sam had gotten over it, but Paul was a little worked up. Him and Jake started bickering, and things got a little out of hand. Something was wrong with Jacob, he looked kind of sad. He didn't fight back or change. He just stood there and let Paul tear him apart. We tried to pull Paul off of him, but it was too late, Jacob had already gotten cut up."

I looked over at Jake and cringed at the thought of him just sitting there, being attacked. I walked back into the kitchen, where everybody was sitting around talking and laughing. Jacob had obviously gotten over it, because him and Paul were chatting up a storm, like usual. Leah was off to the side, watching Sam and Emily. It was really depressing to see the tears in Leah's eyes. She was so tough, only to be broken down so easily. I could tell she couldn't take it anymore. Tears started to pour out of her caramel eyes, and it worsened with every caress they shared. Finally, Sam kissed Emily, and Leah just walked out, without a word. The worst part was that nobody noticed. I ran out the door and followed Leah quietly. She finally sat down by the river that runs through the forest. I had been here only a few times, because Jake would take me here and tell me things about the pack. There was something different about this place, I just couldn't remember what it was. Then it came to me. This was where Sam and Leah used to go. I felt really bad for Leah. It reminded me of the field where Edward and I went almost everyday to reminisce about when we first met and how much we loved each other. I could see Leah's tears drip down into the water, and I started to cry. Big mistake.