People asked for it, so I'm writing it. May I say one thing first though? I'm letting you all know that there are a few things I hate. Well, there's a lot of things...but....I'll just list the relevant ones. I actually don't hate flames, I cheer them on. What I do hate are flames that are basically one liners. "This couple is wrong." Um...why... "This character wouldn't blah blah" um...why. Give me a reason, and I'll gladly say..okay...thats a possibility. Give me a one liner...I get mad, and I'm a very mean person. ^_^ So now, I shall address the issues in the fic that this is the next part to. Let's start with Koushiro. He was suicidal.. I know people are like, "He wasn't like that in the show." Like people have said, this isn't the show. Now, we have to remember Koushiro was adopted, and that's not exactly an easy thing to get over. And it is taxing on the psychological side. Sometimes, the mind breaks..and the fight or flight response comes in play. You either fight or you run. I believe this occurs on the mental level too. You can either work through your problems, or run from them. ::adjusts his glasses:: Now, moving on to Takeru. I want you to stop and think about this. How much has the guy gone through?! He's been chased by gun wielding puppets, separated from his brother, and has the girl he probably loves flirting with him and playing games. How many people could stay happy through all of that. Now, I'm moving onto the S&M portion, and I don't mean Sailor Moon. I'm talking about Sadomasochism. I thought I explained why it went on in the fic pretty well. My thoughts were, the two fought *alot* over every little thing. But in reality they were best friends. So I was like why not? ::cleans his glasses:: ^_^; Wow, I talked a bunch..
Yamato Nothing unusual. And You need to read this fic [ http://www.fanfiction.net/index.fic?action=story-read&storyid=106948 ] Otherwise you're going to be one confused kid.
I know, I don't own Digimon, if I did....the fics I write would be law! BWAHAHA!
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Secret Lives: Finale
by: Ishida Takeru
The sun danced with the dust bunnies under Takeru's bed. No, it wasn't his bed. This was the hospital bed. The bed he had been in for a week now. The week they decided it would take for him to come down from the drugs he was taking.
It was embarrassing. His friends would come in, and ask him if we was okay. He knew that in their eyes, he was a drug addict. And this would only give Daisuke more things to annoy him with.
"I'm so stupid. Why did I even think about doing drugs. Stupid stupid." Takeru had gone through the same thing day after day. How could he ever go back to school. How could he ever face his friends. He couldn't just go 'I'm fine now. I'm not a druggie any longer' and think they would look at him the same way. They probably thought he was sick, or crazy or both.
"Hey, Takeru!"
It was Hikari, the one person he didn't mind coming to visit. He smiled a bit. "Hi."
"I brought you your schoolwork again. I didn't think you'd want to get behind."
"Thanks." He blushed a bit as she kissed his cheek. He had thought had first that he had hallucinated what Hikari said before. But, found out it was true. "They're letting me out today, anyway."
"That's great news!"
Takeru nodded a bit. Yeah, great news. He would be forced to go back to being away from his brother by will of his parents. At least he didn't have to worry about Hikari flirting with him anymore. "I hope I can do this, I mean I can't--"
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"I can't love you back Taichi." Yamato said letting his head drop back onto his pillow.
Taichi closed his eyes to keep the tears from falling. He didn't expect him to suddenly feel the same way, did he? Life wasn't some fairy tale. It wasn't going to end up happy ever after and they all had many children. Unfortunately, Taichi was at a loss for words for once.
"It's not you."
Taichi looked up opening his eyes. "What do you mean." He whispered.
Yamato sighed deeply, it was hard to explain what he meant. It was hard to tell him, that he couldn't love somebody anyway. "I can't love you back." He choked out the words. "Because, Everytime I love someone we get separated." It was a known fact, not that it had happened too many times, but once was enough. He loved his brother, what happened their parents got divorced. It didn't matter that he could see him more often now. They were still a broken family.
Taichi stared at Yamato taking his time to think up the right words. Unfortunately they ended up being. "Where'd did you get such a stupid idea."
"Look Taichi." Yamato snapped back. "You don't know how it is to be away from your family. You have your whole family in one spot."
Taichi wasn't expecting that sort of response. "I...I'm sorry."
"What's there to be sorry for. There's no way to help me now. I have no way to punish myself for causing my family to split up."
"But, you didn't."
Yamato turned his head to the side. "Yes, I did. They say it's because they couldn't be around each other. But, I know the truth. To be blunt, I was a bratty asshole as a kid. I should have behaved. it's too late now, but at least I can be punished for what I did."
"I don't understand-"
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"I don't understand you." Koushiro said as he stared off into the distance.
Mimi leaned up against the rail of the bridge. "What don't you get?"
"Why did you just show up like you did. You don't really love me, you just said it so I wouldn't jump."
Mimi frowned before she began speaking again. "I wouldn't say something I didn't mean."
Koushiro started walking down the road, not waiting for Mimi to follow. Even if she did love him, that didn't matter much. He still didn't have his real family with him.
The sun began to set casting a duplicate of the sunset above on the icy waters below. A few leaves fell gently to the ground dancing with the wind on their decent.
"I'm serious, I wouldn't say something-"
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"I wouldn't says something I didn't mean." Yamato began. "I'll hurt myself if I have to. I'll be punished for all the pain I've caused."
"You didn't cause anything!" Taichi insisted.
"You don't know anything!" Yamato shouted back before lowering his voice. "They're letting me out today, so I'll be able to fix everything soon."
"I won't let you."
"You can't stop me Taichi."
"Yes, I can."
"There's no way you can watch me all the time."
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"There's no way you can watch me all the time." Takeru mumbled as Hikari walked him home. "I'm not a little kid."
Hikari frowned. "I can watch you everyday after school if I have to."
Takeru stopped and turned to stare at her. "I need to do this on my own. If someone is forcing me, I'll just go back to the drugs. It's like if someone tells you not to do something and rides you about it. You just want to do it more."
"I want to help though."
"I know, but you can't help me with this."
"But, Takeru."
Takeru began walking again. "If you bug me about this, it'll make things worse. I already have to go to those meetings. Isn't that enough to remind me of what I did."
"You're right, but.." Hikari began before Takeru interrupted her.
"But, nothing. This is the way it has to be"
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"This is the way it has to be Mimi." Koushiro said coldly. "I'm not meant to be in a relationship of any kind. I don't care what you say to the contrary."
"You can say that all you want, but that doesn't change how I feel."
"Nor, does it change how I feel."
Mimi turned her back on Koushiro, she didn't know what she could say to change his mind. Was there anything to say in the first place?
"I have things to do Mimi." Koushiro said before walking away. "You can't follow me everywhere."
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"You can't follow me everywhere Taichi." Yamato mumbled looking over his shoulder. Taichi had become his shadow in the last few days. He could barely get rid of him to go to the bathroom. In reality, he may have had some feelings for Taichi once. But, those were long since buried by the euphoria that pain had brought him. Taichi became a needle. A needle used to administer the drug known as pain. But, Taichi cared for him. He said he loved him. It was all a jumbled mess that Yamato did not want.
"I can and I will."
"You can't. What happens when I need to take a shower."
"I'll take one with you." Taichi cringed on the inside on how dumb. No, how perverted that sounded. But, he didn't want Yamato to do something crazy like burn himself with the hot water.
"You're not taking showers with me."
"I was joking anyway." Taichi covered. "I just want to make sure nothing happens to you."
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"I just want to make sure nothing happens to you." Hikari said as Takeru opened the door to his home.
"I'll be fine. I have this thing licked." Takeru knew he was lying, he could feel the underlying need for the drugs. He knew he had to fight it, but it was hard. He had hardly been clean for a week and it was starting again. People had noticed how he was acting too. They assumed that he was tired, or that he had a bad day. When the truth was he had a constant pang of desire. A desire to escape the world around him. To leave it all behind, and he wasn't sure how much longer he could hold off.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, I'll be fine." Takeru said. "I'll talk to you later." He closed the door and wandered to his room. It was already late as it is. He had gone to one of those meetings, and had felt stupid having to tell everyone about his "problem."
Takeru fell onto his bed, not even bothering to change is clothes. "Man, I have a headache." he mumbled as he stared at the ceiling.
Hours passed.
Takeru turned to his side, sleep was still avoiding him. He had chased it, but it kept escaping like a jackrabbit running from a coyote. He had to do something to get to sleep. He had to do something to get rid of the headache he had suddenly developed. "I have to do something to get rid of this craving. I can't handle it anymore. It hurts so much, I just want to go to sleep."
Soft footfalls signaled his appearance in his Mother's room. She was still asleep as he moved to the dresser. The moonlight shown on his prize like a rainbow pointing it's way to the pot of gold. At the end of the rainbow, a bottle of sleeping pills. Quietly, he took his prize and slipped back into his bedroom.
A few moments later sleep enveloped the Child of Hope.
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Taichi yawned as he watched the news. It was the same old business about car accidents and weather reports.
"A young boy, Takaishi Takeru was found dead in his bed. Doctors say he died from an overdose of sleeping pills. The police have confirmed it as a suicide."
Taichi's eyes winded in shock. Takeru killed himself. He didn't allow himself to grieve as one other thing came into his mind. Yamato. What would he do when he found out what happened. He would hurt himself, it was obviously. Taichi grabbed his coat and ran out the door, hopefully he wouldn't be too late.
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Too late, that's what Koushiro had decided. Everything that was happening came too late in his life. The bell had already tolled. He wasn't going to stay in the depressed rut any longer. One simple step and he would be free. Free of the torment and pressure of being a chosen child. Free of feeling like he was abandoned by his parents. Free to fly.
He took the one step that set him free to fly. He would never have to feel empty again. For his life would end as soon as he hit the ground.
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Yamato held the knife do his wrists. He had caused his brother to die. It was his fault, and soon he would be able to see his brother again. "I'm sorry, Takeru. I really am." He mumbled as he brought the blade across both wrists. His blood began to pool at the surface of the cuts, before spilling over and down upon the hardwood floor. Yamato glanced at the knife, two cuts weren't enough. Quickly he lifted the blade up and made similar cuts as the ones on his wrists up each arm. The blood began to flow down his arms staining them red. This was his punishment, this is what he wanted.
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Taichi knocked on the front door of the Ishida apartment. There was no answer, he tried again. He knew what had happened. He knew it from the moment the report about Takeru came on. But, he had to try to save him. Even if he didn't want to be saved.
His adrenaline was pumping as he ram shoulder first into the door. He kept on trying until the door finally gave way. "Yamato!" he yelled as he ran towards the kitchen. There he was lying in a pool of his own blood. Taichi stared in shock, he didn't know what to do. He had to call somebody. The paramedics, but what if their wasn't enough time. He had to try to stop the bleeding at least. He moved over to Yamato's body and slowly brought his fingers to his neck. There was no pulse. There was no breathing. There was no life.
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Secrets are hard to keep. Many times you tell someone, many times you die keeping them to yourself.
Taichi stared at the tombstone. Yamato was underneath the grave, lying next to his brother. Taichi wiped at his eyes slightly. "I hope you're happy. At least you'll be with your brother." He said as he walked away.
On the other side of the cemetery Mimi laid a single white rose on a grave. "I still love you" she whispered before walking away.
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It was rushed...I admit it.
Takeru You killed me!
I know..I'm sorry. Besides, I like the ending....I didn't leave nay room for grieving. I hate grieving.
Yamato You need some serious help.
Takeru He killed me! You don't kill your favorite character!
;_; Anywho...review please...its just a few moments. And um...I know this was put out waaaay late, but I just found what I was writing tonight..
Takeru He killed me!
Yamato Nothing unusual. And You need to read this fic [ http://www.fanfiction.net/index.fic?action=story-read&storyid=106948 ] Otherwise you're going to be one confused kid.
I know, I don't own Digimon, if I did....the fics I write would be law! BWAHAHA!
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Secret Lives: Finale
by: Ishida Takeru
The sun danced with the dust bunnies under Takeru's bed. No, it wasn't his bed. This was the hospital bed. The bed he had been in for a week now. The week they decided it would take for him to come down from the drugs he was taking.
It was embarrassing. His friends would come in, and ask him if we was okay. He knew that in their eyes, he was a drug addict. And this would only give Daisuke more things to annoy him with.
"I'm so stupid. Why did I even think about doing drugs. Stupid stupid." Takeru had gone through the same thing day after day. How could he ever go back to school. How could he ever face his friends. He couldn't just go 'I'm fine now. I'm not a druggie any longer' and think they would look at him the same way. They probably thought he was sick, or crazy or both.
"Hey, Takeru!"
It was Hikari, the one person he didn't mind coming to visit. He smiled a bit. "Hi."
"I brought you your schoolwork again. I didn't think you'd want to get behind."
"Thanks." He blushed a bit as she kissed his cheek. He had thought had first that he had hallucinated what Hikari said before. But, found out it was true. "They're letting me out today, anyway."
"That's great news!"
Takeru nodded a bit. Yeah, great news. He would be forced to go back to being away from his brother by will of his parents. At least he didn't have to worry about Hikari flirting with him anymore. "I hope I can do this, I mean I can't--"
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"I can't love you back Taichi." Yamato said letting his head drop back onto his pillow.
Taichi closed his eyes to keep the tears from falling. He didn't expect him to suddenly feel the same way, did he? Life wasn't some fairy tale. It wasn't going to end up happy ever after and they all had many children. Unfortunately, Taichi was at a loss for words for once.
"It's not you."
Taichi looked up opening his eyes. "What do you mean." He whispered.
Yamato sighed deeply, it was hard to explain what he meant. It was hard to tell him, that he couldn't love somebody anyway. "I can't love you back." He choked out the words. "Because, Everytime I love someone we get separated." It was a known fact, not that it had happened too many times, but once was enough. He loved his brother, what happened their parents got divorced. It didn't matter that he could see him more often now. They were still a broken family.
Taichi stared at Yamato taking his time to think up the right words. Unfortunately they ended up being. "Where'd did you get such a stupid idea."
"Look Taichi." Yamato snapped back. "You don't know how it is to be away from your family. You have your whole family in one spot."
Taichi wasn't expecting that sort of response. "I...I'm sorry."
"What's there to be sorry for. There's no way to help me now. I have no way to punish myself for causing my family to split up."
"But, you didn't."
Yamato turned his head to the side. "Yes, I did. They say it's because they couldn't be around each other. But, I know the truth. To be blunt, I was a bratty asshole as a kid. I should have behaved. it's too late now, but at least I can be punished for what I did."
"I don't understand-"
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"I don't understand you." Koushiro said as he stared off into the distance.
Mimi leaned up against the rail of the bridge. "What don't you get?"
"Why did you just show up like you did. You don't really love me, you just said it so I wouldn't jump."
Mimi frowned before she began speaking again. "I wouldn't say something I didn't mean."
Koushiro started walking down the road, not waiting for Mimi to follow. Even if she did love him, that didn't matter much. He still didn't have his real family with him.
The sun began to set casting a duplicate of the sunset above on the icy waters below. A few leaves fell gently to the ground dancing with the wind on their decent.
"I'm serious, I wouldn't say something-"
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"I wouldn't says something I didn't mean." Yamato began. "I'll hurt myself if I have to. I'll be punished for all the pain I've caused."
"You didn't cause anything!" Taichi insisted.
"You don't know anything!" Yamato shouted back before lowering his voice. "They're letting me out today, so I'll be able to fix everything soon."
"I won't let you."
"You can't stop me Taichi."
"Yes, I can."
"There's no way you can watch me all the time."
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"There's no way you can watch me all the time." Takeru mumbled as Hikari walked him home. "I'm not a little kid."
Hikari frowned. "I can watch you everyday after school if I have to."
Takeru stopped and turned to stare at her. "I need to do this on my own. If someone is forcing me, I'll just go back to the drugs. It's like if someone tells you not to do something and rides you about it. You just want to do it more."
"I want to help though."
"I know, but you can't help me with this."
"But, Takeru."
Takeru began walking again. "If you bug me about this, it'll make things worse. I already have to go to those meetings. Isn't that enough to remind me of what I did."
"You're right, but.." Hikari began before Takeru interrupted her.
"But, nothing. This is the way it has to be"
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"This is the way it has to be Mimi." Koushiro said coldly. "I'm not meant to be in a relationship of any kind. I don't care what you say to the contrary."
"You can say that all you want, but that doesn't change how I feel."
"Nor, does it change how I feel."
Mimi turned her back on Koushiro, she didn't know what she could say to change his mind. Was there anything to say in the first place?
"I have things to do Mimi." Koushiro said before walking away. "You can't follow me everywhere."
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"You can't follow me everywhere Taichi." Yamato mumbled looking over his shoulder. Taichi had become his shadow in the last few days. He could barely get rid of him to go to the bathroom. In reality, he may have had some feelings for Taichi once. But, those were long since buried by the euphoria that pain had brought him. Taichi became a needle. A needle used to administer the drug known as pain. But, Taichi cared for him. He said he loved him. It was all a jumbled mess that Yamato did not want.
"I can and I will."
"You can't. What happens when I need to take a shower."
"I'll take one with you." Taichi cringed on the inside on how dumb. No, how perverted that sounded. But, he didn't want Yamato to do something crazy like burn himself with the hot water.
"You're not taking showers with me."
"I was joking anyway." Taichi covered. "I just want to make sure nothing happens to you."
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"I just want to make sure nothing happens to you." Hikari said as Takeru opened the door to his home.
"I'll be fine. I have this thing licked." Takeru knew he was lying, he could feel the underlying need for the drugs. He knew he had to fight it, but it was hard. He had hardly been clean for a week and it was starting again. People had noticed how he was acting too. They assumed that he was tired, or that he had a bad day. When the truth was he had a constant pang of desire. A desire to escape the world around him. To leave it all behind, and he wasn't sure how much longer he could hold off.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, I'll be fine." Takeru said. "I'll talk to you later." He closed the door and wandered to his room. It was already late as it is. He had gone to one of those meetings, and had felt stupid having to tell everyone about his "problem."
Takeru fell onto his bed, not even bothering to change is clothes. "Man, I have a headache." he mumbled as he stared at the ceiling.
Hours passed.
Takeru turned to his side, sleep was still avoiding him. He had chased it, but it kept escaping like a jackrabbit running from a coyote. He had to do something to get to sleep. He had to do something to get rid of the headache he had suddenly developed. "I have to do something to get rid of this craving. I can't handle it anymore. It hurts so much, I just want to go to sleep."
Soft footfalls signaled his appearance in his Mother's room. She was still asleep as he moved to the dresser. The moonlight shown on his prize like a rainbow pointing it's way to the pot of gold. At the end of the rainbow, a bottle of sleeping pills. Quietly, he took his prize and slipped back into his bedroom.
A few moments later sleep enveloped the Child of Hope.
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Taichi yawned as he watched the news. It was the same old business about car accidents and weather reports.
"A young boy, Takaishi Takeru was found dead in his bed. Doctors say he died from an overdose of sleeping pills. The police have confirmed it as a suicide."
Taichi's eyes winded in shock. Takeru killed himself. He didn't allow himself to grieve as one other thing came into his mind. Yamato. What would he do when he found out what happened. He would hurt himself, it was obviously. Taichi grabbed his coat and ran out the door, hopefully he wouldn't be too late.
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Too late, that's what Koushiro had decided. Everything that was happening came too late in his life. The bell had already tolled. He wasn't going to stay in the depressed rut any longer. One simple step and he would be free. Free of the torment and pressure of being a chosen child. Free of feeling like he was abandoned by his parents. Free to fly.
He took the one step that set him free to fly. He would never have to feel empty again. For his life would end as soon as he hit the ground.
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Yamato held the knife do his wrists. He had caused his brother to die. It was his fault, and soon he would be able to see his brother again. "I'm sorry, Takeru. I really am." He mumbled as he brought the blade across both wrists. His blood began to pool at the surface of the cuts, before spilling over and down upon the hardwood floor. Yamato glanced at the knife, two cuts weren't enough. Quickly he lifted the blade up and made similar cuts as the ones on his wrists up each arm. The blood began to flow down his arms staining them red. This was his punishment, this is what he wanted.
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Taichi knocked on the front door of the Ishida apartment. There was no answer, he tried again. He knew what had happened. He knew it from the moment the report about Takeru came on. But, he had to try to save him. Even if he didn't want to be saved.
His adrenaline was pumping as he ram shoulder first into the door. He kept on trying until the door finally gave way. "Yamato!" he yelled as he ran towards the kitchen. There he was lying in a pool of his own blood. Taichi stared in shock, he didn't know what to do. He had to call somebody. The paramedics, but what if their wasn't enough time. He had to try to stop the bleeding at least. He moved over to Yamato's body and slowly brought his fingers to his neck. There was no pulse. There was no breathing. There was no life.
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Secrets are hard to keep. Many times you tell someone, many times you die keeping them to yourself.
Taichi stared at the tombstone. Yamato was underneath the grave, lying next to his brother. Taichi wiped at his eyes slightly. "I hope you're happy. At least you'll be with your brother." He said as he walked away.
On the other side of the cemetery Mimi laid a single white rose on a grave. "I still love you" she whispered before walking away.
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It was rushed...I admit it.
Takeru You killed me!
I know..I'm sorry. Besides, I like the ending....I didn't leave nay room for grieving. I hate grieving.
Yamato You need some serious help.
Takeru He killed me! You don't kill your favorite character!
;_; Anywho...review please...its just a few moments. And um...I know this was put out waaaay late, but I just found what I was writing tonight..
Takeru He killed me!