So I totally forgot to say that twilight isn't mine last chapter… but come on we all know this already… so yea

Okay so I was hit with another plot bunny and had to get this out…I was minding my own business driving home when Adele's… Someone Like You came on and Bella started screaming in my ear to tell her story…

I lost sleep and became a bit withdrawn as her emotions kept going through me and when I just needed to tell someone… I looked to two of my closest friends Kyla and Steph and they loved the idea and pushed me to write this puppy…

Disclaimer: This story will have very harsh at points. There will be heart wrenching moments… I warn you now. You may hate a character or two but I promise no matter how bad it gets … there will be an HEA…. I believe everyone deserves a second chance and so this will be a journey of growth, humility, and finding the simple joys in life… the things that truly matter.

I need to thank my team… Stephanie, Kyla, Rachel, Bev, and Cheryl. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I know I hit you all with so many chapters last week. You never once complained, you just guys held my hand as I poured my heart out with this… I couldn't do this without all the love and helpful, encouraging words you always have for me… I truly love you all!

Chapter 1

Bella's POV

Song for chapter

Michelle Branch – Goodbye to You

Eight years prior…

I sat with his family as he walked across the stage. I had an immense amount of pride, as he strolled across that stage and shook hands with his mentor and family friend, our Principal. There wasn't a single person in the auditorium that didn't beam with pride, as the town's very own prodigal son received his high school diploma.

His smile was radiant and his eyes shined with an indescribable brightness that lit up the entire room. His cheeks were tinged with a slight hint of pink. The Principal spoke into the mic' and recited the speech that over the years became the very essence of every fear I had within our relationship.

"Congratulations son, I'm so proud of you. You will make all of Naples' proud, as you go of to the University Of Miami School Of Medicine. We have such high hopes to have a world re-known surgeon amongst our own. You my boy have the world at your feet and the full support of this town. Don't let anything stand in your way, because you deserve so much more than this small town has to offer, dream big my boy, dream big."

I've never to this day, heard our principle give such a life altering speech to anyone other than him, those words were reserved only for our very own golden boy.

Edward's whole demeanor changed after those words were said. I noticed right away. Even though it wasn't the first time, it is as if those words became his motto and law before my very eyes.

You couldn't see the change unless; you knew what you were looking for.

His muscles grew tense, his face became stone cold and he barely said three words to anyone, let alone the friends he had since birth.

You could see the question on all his classmates faces as they tried to figure out where 'our' Edward had gone; we didn't know this stranger before us.

These were big changes….

He liked attention and to be constantly told how great he was. So when he brushed off the words of praise, nor would he meet my stare, I knew something was wrong.

I never would have thought that this was the beginning of the end. The end, of us.

All throughout dinner I continued in my attempts to garner his attention. I tried, but failed every single time. You could say I was hard headed. And should have left the matter alone but my fear continued to propel me forward and demand answers. But time and time again I was simply told. "Nothing" or "For fuck's sake Bella, can you let me be?"

After that final answer I left him alone and prayed that I had the will to keep the tears at bay. Because at this point they were desperately begging to be let out.

By the time he dropped me off, he had barely spoken ten words to me at any particular time, during the evening. I tried to kiss him goodnight and give a hug, but he quickly pushed me off and said "Not tonight Bella just get out! I'll see you tomorrow, be ready by twelve we need to talk."

Not wanting to upset him any further, I simply did as I was told and got out of the car. I walked to my front door and went inside.

Thank god no one was awake at that time; I was able to escape upstairs without the Spanish inquisition. I knew that they meant well when they asked, how my evening went with the wonderful Cullen's and their golden boy. But after the evening I had, it would just destroy me to tell them the truth or even worse to tell them a lie

As soon as I stepped inside my small room I broke down.

I felt so rejected, almost as if he was embarrassed by me. He made me feel so, so insignificant as the night wore on, so small almost as if I wasn't good enough to be in his very presence.

Then came the words that would add insult and injury to my already fragile state of mind, the dreaded, "We need to talk."

I did the one thing that night that I haven't done since we moved here, and stopped going to church. I looked up towards the heavens… and I prayed.

I prayed that whatever was wearing him down, making him so hurtful and thoughtless, would stop. I prayed that the fun loving and romantic Edward I knew would come back to me.

And I prayed that he wouldn't leave me.

That was the first night my nightmare starring none other that Edward Cullen started.

All night, I tossed and turned. I kept dreaming off him telling me I wasn't rich enough, pretty enough, I was simply to plain and ordinary for him to even consider keeping me as his girl.

Lets just say that night I fought to not close my eyes and stay away from those horrible words. Funny enough as I think back now, I can see that my subconscious was already preparing, for the blow that was to come.

There was a knock on my door the next morning around eleven a.m.

My mother slowly opened my door and told me Edward was waiting down stairs for me. He had told her that I should dress warm since we would be taking a walk, and that I wouldn't be long.

I quickly dressed in a simple pair of sweats and his baseball team shirt. I hurried to the bathroom and brushed my teeth. I took the time to-put my incredibly long and curly hair in a messy knot so that it wouldn't get tangled as we walked. I slowly made my way to meet him by the door.

He looked at me with such distaste as he took in my appearance; I internally cringed under his critical eyes. He always said I looked sexy in his clothes. He always seemed to walk around with a sense of pride, that his girl wore his name on her body. So the distaste and obvious disapproval was like another stab in my already tender heart.

"Let's go, Isabella, I don't have all day and this won't take long, that I promise."

He turned his back on me and started to head to the small wooded area just behind my house. It was hard for me to match his long strides and he never felt inclined to give my short legs any reprieve. Occasionally, when he felt I was worthy of his acknowledgement, he gave a small glare over his shoulders, to indicate just how he felt about my presence and slowness.

We walked for what seemed an eternity. I stumbled and fell twice and would you believe he never once slowed or asked if I was okay. But he did grace me with another "For fuck's sake Bella watch where the hell you're going, I don't have all day to deal with your incompetence."

My tears which had been held at bay until that very moment, finally poured, just like the shower above us that was beginning to make an appearance.

"Oh please, spare me the tears sweet heart, you're a big girl and need to grow a back bone. Not every one is going to coddle your ass; I sure as hell refuse to."

He had never spoken to me with such anger and hate in his voice.

"What's going on Edward? You've never been so mean or full of disregard towards me. What have I done to garner such a treatment from you? Why?" I needed to hear him say the words, out loud, for myself.

"You silly little girl." He tsked at me like I was a child. "Be honest Bella and tell me you never saw this coming from me? For months I've been trying to push your ass away and just like the little leech you are, you tried to clutch on to me tighter." He stood stoic and said every single word as he looked me right in the eyes. I couldn't deny the contempt that I saw there. "Fuck! Even when I fucked Angela two months ago, you just took it in stride and refused to believe the rumors."

My mouth hung open for a moment, before my hand connected with his cheek.

"You fuckin mean to tell me all that shit was true? What… how… I mean we were always together. When the hell did you have time to fuck her?"

His response brought me to my knees…

"Oh, that's simple Bella; I fucked her on your birthday."

A sob erupted from me and I chocked as I remembered that night. He told me he was busy with his family and couldn't come, that his father had a very important colleague coming from Miami just to meet Edward and talk to him about the course and programs the University offered.

Of course, I understood.

I was the model girlfriend and everyone male in the small city of Naples was aware of how understanding, loving and devoted I was to him.

They all wanted me, yet here he just confessed to throwing me to the side for a quick fuck with a dirty skank?

"Why Edward, just answer me the why?" I pleaded through my sobs.

"Because I can't stand to look at you anymore, really it's that simple. Listen Bella, this was all really fun while it lasted, but I need more. I need better pussy. Wow I thought that would be hard to explain, I guess really it's not." He spit at me. I had never seen him so angry or careless towards anyone before. This man that stood before me now, was not my Edward.

I couldn't speak my heart was shattered, but that never stopped him from tearing me limb from limb for his sick enjoyment.

"You're just not enough for me, anymore! I dream of the big city and lots of beautiful women to warm my big king size bed, every night. I'm leaving to spread my wings Bella. To receive all the world has to offer me, and you well… you're just a poor, plain and insignificant little mouse that doesn't fit into my agenda. I need a woman that I will be proud to show off at all the parties, get togethers and dinners I attend with colleagues..." He shrugged his shoulders so casually. Surely, I had to be in shock. That would explain why I stood by so stoically and took all of his abuse.

"Sorry sweet heart but you just don't fit in my world anymore. So I might as well let you go back to your miserable existence now, while I move on to bigger and better."

I couldn't breathe.

My world had just been ripped from beneath my feet, and here he was talking as if we were discussing the weather. I had never seen a more uncaring and soulless man in my life. And to think I gave him five of the best years of my life… the thought alone just about tore me in two.

Was I so insignificant that he saw me as nothing more than useful toy to have, until something better came along?

I couldn't look him in the eyes. I knew I should look him dead in those gorgeous green eyes that I know are to bring me nothing but nightmares in the future. I deserved to demand answers, but I was unable to utter a single syllable and my chest grew tighter with each painstakingly harsh breathe I took.

Seeing me on the ground and having what I'm sure was a small panic attack brought him some weird comic relief, because the beautiful bastard just laughed at my pain and suffering.

"As much as I find your sad excuse of a show amusing, Bella get real and get it together, because I won't be here to take you back home. I'm leaving to go to Miami now. My family is heading down with me and looking for a place to live down there too." He turned to walk away, but decided to leave me with a few parting words first. "Alice told me to tell you goodbye and that she will be back to spend some time with you before the final move. But I'm sure once she settled in and has made better friends, you'll be nothing more than a distant memory. Goodbye Bella hopefully someone from this town will take pity on you and put up with you're mediocrity."

"Oh and one last thing babe" he called over his shoulder in a condescending tone.

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

And then he was gone.

He never turned around or cared if I made it home in one piece.

He never once called anyone to come and find me.

He just left me there to die from a bleeding heart and empty soul.

Because the bastard took that too.

*Hides behind concrete wall* please don't kill me folks… trust me when I say all this has a purpose… I know it looks bad but all I ask is that you trust that I know where this is going …remember above all I promise an HEA

Next update we will continue with the rest of her first day and night without him… just warning you… bring mass quantities of tissues…

See you in two weeks….

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