Chapter 2: Falling for you, again?
I sat in the kitchen, my head resting in my hands. Reality was just hitting me, and that little voice in the back of my mind was back. Think what this is going to do to your heart. It warned me. I began to consider what it would, but I stopped myself. I didn't care. The rumours, the press, the publicity. That didn't matter either. There's no way there'd be any cameras here. We were basically in the middle of no where, and everyone treated you as if you were just a normal person and we were. I lifted my head slowly. I heard screams and laughter coming from upstairs and Taylor gloomily walked into the room and took a seat opposite me.
"This is gonna suck ah?" She asked, dropping her head on the table with a thud. "Ouch." She cried in pain.
I shook my head. "I don't know, probably. I mean try, Taylor really, really try and make this work out. Please?"
She shook her head, her hair fanning out around her.
"For me?" I asked. She lifted her head, her hair falling into her eyes. She pondered for a second before slowly nodding her head.
"Thank you, you're the best and if you need to talk to me I'm here. Remember that."
"Thanks Miles. You're truely the best." And she got up and made her way outside.
I entered my room and saw Mandy unpacking her clothes. I smiled at her slightly and made my way to the closet. I opened it widely and grabbed a pair of white shorts, a white tank and my uggs. I slipped them on my small torso, quickly brushed my hair and made my way back downstairs to the farm. I sat in the stable, grooming my beautiful white horse, Twinkle. I had had her since I was three. Nick made his way up behind me silently.
"She's beautiful." He whispered. My heart jumped a couple of beats and I jumped out of the stool.
"Jesus. You scared me." I said clutching my chest.
"Sorry." He laughed. "I came to see what you were doing."
I picked up my sweatshirt I had brung down with me and threw it on before walking out of the stable, Nick following me.
"Want to help me get some eggs?" I asked picking up a bucket and making my way towards the chickens.
"Sure," he walked along side me and smiled. "What do we do?"
I filled the bucket with food and handed him it. "Guess!" I said, beaming at him. Well this was going to be funny. He nodded and made his way inside, the chickens running after him.
"Umm Miley?" He yelled above the clucks.
"Keep going. You're doing great." I yelled back in stiches. He really wasn't. How long would it take him to realise he had to put the bucket down to pick up the eggs? The chickens chased him around the barn, wanting the food. He threw the food towards the ground in panick before grabbing eggs and running back outside. He put the bucket down and put both hands on his knees panting. I laughed at him.
"What?" He breathed, crossing his arms against his chest.
"Nothing," I laughed picking up the bucket and making my way back towards the house.
"That wasn't meant to happen, was it?"
"No. It wasn't" I giggled. I was suprised, I thought it would be hard and awkward. I was shocked at how natural it felt to be around him. I felt like Destiny Hope, not Miley Ray. I felt like that little girl who wanted more than anything to be famous. I felt like the little girl who managed to live her dream and became Hannah Montana. I felt like the girl who fell in love, and I was still that girl in love.
When we got back to the house Nick ran upstairs to change out of his jeans and into shorts. I placed the eggs in the fridge and Demi stood watching me, arms folded. I turned and looked at her, a serious look painted on her face. I smiled and continued putting away the eggs. Her eyes were glued to my figure, her expression never changing.
"What?" I asked, drying my hands.
"Nothing." And she walked out the room smiling to herself.
"Well that was definately not nothing if you ask me. I mean somethings up." Taylor said from behind her magazine.
"Yeah Tay, um by the way you do know it's upside down right?" I said taking the magazine from her hand and turning it the right way.
"Yeah I did." She giggled nervously. I laughed and walked out the room and upstairs in search for Mandy. She always knew what to do in these situations.
"Manderz?" I yelled as I made my way upstairs. "Mandy?"
I made my way to my bedroom at the far end of the corridor. Nicks door opened and he walked out in only his shorts. I stood dead, my breath caught in my throat. I swallowed and I could feel my cheeks burning up. I hurried past him and into the room. I slammed the door shut and slid down it. My heart racing, the blood pulsing to my head.
"Miley? What's up?" Mandy said jumping off the bed and sitting infront of me.
"You! I yelled for you! And you-you -" But I couldn't finish it. My breathing became loud and heavy.
"Sorry I didn't hear you, but what happened?"
I placed my hands on my cheeks, trying to cool them down. I had no breath in me. "Nick. Nick he - " I breathed out. "He was shirtless and I bumped into him." I closed my eyes. Mandy just watched me, not really knowing what to say. "Mandy I want them to be here but I don't. I can already feel myself falling for him and I don't want to."
"Miles, don't be scared to fall in love again. Your relationship was the most beautiful and natural thing in the world. It was meant to be, and you know if you's aren't meant to be together God will give you a sign but he hasn't so just embrace the feeling. It's only human. You can't stop your heart from entwining with another and you're lucky that your heart has choosen Nick's cause that's got to be the most perfect heart for you." God I loved Mandy.
"I love you Mandy."
"I love you too Miles. Come on," she stood up and offered her hand out to mine.
We went downstairs and everyone was gathered on the front porch. Mandy sat down beside Demi and Taylor, making me sit beside Nick. Demi smiled at me and I weakly smiled back. Joe kept glancing looks at Taylor but she refused to even take a peak at him. Kevin rolled his eyes at the pair and I snorted.
"So Taylor?" Joe said, his eyes locked on her. She ignored him, inspecting her hair. She looked at me in panic and faked a cough.
"Oh no." She coughed again and stood up. "I'm gonna go lie down for a bit. I think I caught swine flu from that bacon." And she ran inside.
"Urgh! That girl is seriously out there." Demi said as we all laughed at Taylor. Joes head dropped slightly and I felt bad for him.
"Um Demi could you come and help me with something upstairs?" Mandy lied, smiling at me.
"Yes, of course I will." And the two girls left giggling to themselves. Mandy whispered something to Kevin before going back into the house.
"Joe, have you finished unpacking yet?" Kevin asked placing down the guitar he had held in his hand.
"No." He refused to lift his head up.
"Come on man, I've not done either if we've got two people doing it maybe we can get it done faster." And they both left. Leaving me and my Nick. I cursued Mandy over and over again inside my head. We sat side by side in an awkard but at the same time comforting silence. That was one of the things I loved most about our relationship, we didn't always have to talk. Just being beside each other was enough. I wanted to say something, but I didn't know what. Nick turned to me and I faced him back, watching those beautiful brown eyes study my face and body. He smiled slightly and his hand reached out, caressing my cheek.
"I prefer you when you don't wear make-up, you look just as beautiful." I bowed my head down, trying to hide my pink, flustered cheeks. He placed his fingers under my chin and tilted my head up, laughing to himself. "The same old Miley. She never knew how to take a compliment." I just watched him. Feeling myself falling deeper and deeper. My heart was growing stronger. It was scary but at the same time enthralling. I didn't want to fall for him again. There was no way he'd want me back. We both agreed, and he didn't look like he suffered as much as I did. But if I didn't want to fall for him again then why was I daring my heart to see how far it could go? There was no way I wanted to deal with heartache again, but I certainly would.
"What are you thinking about?" He whispered. I closed my eyes.
"Us." His hand ran down my arm and to my hand. He played with my fingers.
"What about us?"
"When we were last here, when we broke up, when we started going out, the night we said 'I love you'." A tear fell and I quickly brushed it away. Hoping he didn't see it. He let go of my hand and I opened my eyes.
"I'm going to go see if Kevin and Joe are okay." And he got up and went inside. I slapped myself on the forehead. Mental note to self; never talk about the past with him. I stood up and walked round the back of the house to my treehouse where my guitar sat from earlier in the day. I was in dangerous territory here, it was dangerous for both of us. I didn't want this, I didn't want to love him anymore. I wanted to be his best friend, I wanted to be there for him but I knew that my heart would never allow it and it was too difficult to try. I knew it would be too hard watching him move on, find other girls and I knew I definately wouldn't be able to help heal all his broken hearts knowing he could never fully heal mines.
We were meant to be. Our names fitted perfectly together; Nick and Miley. It was meant to be, we were meant to be the perfect disney couple or so people thought. It was harder than it looked. The press, tv shows, interviews, radio, concerts. There was the traveling and all the rumours. It was hard to keep a career going and also a relationship which consisted of phonecalls, texts and the occasional webcam chat. It was hard watching him spend more time with other girls, watching him flirt casually. But here we were on holiday together for three weeks and I wanted more than anything to have just a small romance. I wanted more than anything to be his girl again, even if it was for only three weeks. But not everyone's dreams come true, and not every dream you have can come true and all the dreams I had been dreaming about since I was a little girl had already came true and I knew it was time for someone else's to aswell. I had to stop being selfish and let some other little girl have her dream now.