Richard walked as if in a bubble of time, searching for things he had to fix.
He felt such guilt over all that had happened because of the tyrant's year long escapade in the old world and the new world. Guilt over the fact that his first priority had been Nicci and Kahlan and his son and not the people.
He remembered Zedd's words of comfort: "Richard. Listen to me; I have known you since you were a boy. You did what you could for them all. The moment Sister Verna told you of the problem, you warned everyone and they did not believe you.
They laughed at you. They said those horrible things about you and Kahlan."
He laughed to himself now at his response to Zedd's words, but then, nearly two years ago, it was still raw and painful for him.
"But, Zedd…."
"No!" Zedd yelled as he shook his grandson to get his attention.
"NO! No buts! No what ifs. None of that now."
He remembered Zedd holding him as he cried. But what made him snap out of it was in fact Cara's reaction when they found out about all the senseless killing.
They had only been in Aydindril for a month when they got the news. Cara had gone to bed early but awoken screaming.
Of all people, Dennee got to her first.
By the time he and Kahlan got to her, Jensen and Dennee were cuddling her, and thirty of her Mord Sith sisters were standing in the large bedroom, not sure what to do for her and scared as well, scared because they felt as she felt and were confused as to how to express it.
They also felt for Cara to react her being the one of them that was able to control their emotions the most that it was worse than they had feared.
"Hush now. It'll be all right," Kahlan had told her as she held Cara and let her cry. He remembered Kahlan singing a lullaby to her, and by the tenth time, all the Mord Sith were singing to her, too.
Richard!
He smiled as he heard Cara's voice in his head.
Richard!
Yes, Cara?
Stop it!
Stop what, Cara?
Doubting yourself Richard.
It sounded to him as if she were angry with him. He knew better. She was afraid for him. Worse she could not find him to help protect him.
I'll finish when i can.
thanks for reading.