Our Love

by Never Goodbye

My fanfic100 claim from LJ. All Jommys. 3 down, 97 to go. New When You're Gone 3rd chapter. Some things were cut out of the first one, so this is the real one.

2. Prompt 90 Home

Title Let's Go Home

Fandom Instant Star

Characters Jude Harrison, Tommy Quincy, Breif Darius Mills. Mentions of: Speed, Kyle, Wally (SME),Sadie and Kwest

Prompt 90. Home

Word Count 3447

Rating Teen

Summary Prompt 90. Home. for my fanfic100

A/N: I am working on a chapter story and a season. However I want to get more typed before I start to post them. In the mean time feel free to check out and review my Degrassi one shots and the story I am co-writing called "True Friends." I do promise you that my stories are a top priorty of mine.

In the mean time about this one shot. It's almost to long to be a one shot but no where long enough to be a chapter story. Sorry about that. Also I love season three's songs, so one will be in here, even though Jude hadn't wrote it on the show at this point. It is Au after Unsweet Sixteen. Tommy and Jude did kiss, however since I am such a die hard Jommy smutt fluff fan, he never told her to forget it. They did kind of ignor each other for a few days, but let's all face it this is Jommy we're talking about. So Tommy and Jude ended up going on a date. They ended up dating however no one knew since she was under age. Sadie moved on to Kwest when she figured out Tommy wasn't intrested. So the main things minus the Jade (gags uncontroably) happend in season one. As does season 2, minus Juderman and Jude and Tommy stayed together. She also stayed at his place alot, only a slecet few knew. However Tommy did leave in "Date with the Night" without so much as a decent goodbye but she never went to Berry meaning no creppy camer man and creppier pictures. However D could tell she was messed up over something so he sent her and SME out on a small, month tour in Canada and the East Coast, much like thier first one. Thinking it would help her feel better and it did a little cause she loved being on the road, but it didn't help as much as he thought it would. It takes place at the start of season 3.

Disclaimer: I do not own Instant Star it belongs to Epitome. Trust me if I did Hell would have frozen over about a billion times before Jade ever happened as well as Sommy!!! And Tim would be kept in my closet for my use only when I wanted. Lol. I also do not own "When You're Gone" it belongs to Avril Lavigne.( I do own copies of her three cds though) or "Big Girls Don't Cry" it belongs to Fergie. I do own my Ipod (thanks mamaw and papa for the x-mas gift. It get pleanty of play time) that has both songs on it.

"Da Da Da Da. The smell of your skin lingers on me now. Your probably on your flight back to your home town." The alarm clock goes off at ten in the morning. Another morning I woke up without him here. Hopeing he was on his way home.

I sit with my feet propped up on "his" soundboard. I swear if I didn't fall asleep to him telling me how much he loved me every night I would think he loved this studio and his Viper more then anything. I glance at my watch, he's been out there for almost forty five minutes on his cell phone. I glance over though the glass door and see him still pacing and running a hand though his hair. He looks up just in time to catch me and sends me a small smile. I smile as he walks though the door. "Just give me a few days." he says while he sits in his chair and pulls my feet from off of the soundboard and into his lap. He rubs his hands over my leg as he listend to whoever on his phone. "Fine." he removes his hand to massage the bridge of his nose. Uh oh this can't be good. He only does this when he's getting annoyed and pissed or is on the brink of a maigrane. I lean forward and kiss his forehad and run my fingers though his surprising soft hair and down to the back of his neck to play with the ends to try and calm him down. "I said fine." he says and hangs up. He close his eyes for a few seconds and then opens them and look into mine. He leans in and kisses me softly since we are alone in the studio. "You ready to go home girl?" he ask standing up and holds his hands out to me. I nod and we walk out of the studio, lock up G-major and head out to the Viper to head home.

An hour later we are climbing into bed. "Hey baby if anything happens just know that I love you." he says running his hand though my hair. "No matter what." he finished and places a kiss on my forehead. " I love you to Tommy." I say and lean in to kiss him good night then snuggles into his side, placing my ear over his heart. The only sound that's put me to sleep for the past few months.

"It's time to be a big girl now. And big girls don't cry. Don't cry. Don't cry. Don't Cry. Da Da Da Da." "And that was the latest single form the first Instan Star. Jude Harrison will be preforming live for the first time since her tour this past summer during this years Instant Star finale." I groggly am pulled from my thoughts and roll over to shut the alarm clock off. After I stretch and sit up against the head board, my eyes automatically glance to his side of the bed. Still made up. I knew that though. I could always fill when he was in bed with me. Not just because his arms were around me, but because I could feel it in my heart without even opening my eyes. But his side of the bed hasn't been slept in, in months. My eyes look on his side of the room and see that the jeans and jacket that still lie on the floor from the night before he left. I can't bring myself to pick them up. I think that if I do then he won't come back. But if I keep them there then he'll come back. He never could keep things out of place for to long.

"We thought we'd be somewhere else by now" Sadie's personal ring tone, that she picked out saying I wrote it about our reationship with each other and how much it's changed the past few years, rang out from my bedside table. "Morning Sades." I answer standing up from the bed.

"Morning. I know today makes three months that Tom..."

"I know Sade. You don't have to remind me." I snap at her. I hear her let out a sigh of sympthy. I didn't mean to snap at her. I really didn't even have the right. After she not only kept her own mouth shut, but threatened to put Kwest and SME six feet under if they didn't do the same, about Tommy and I. She's been nothing but great to me though everything. You would think walking in on her baby sister, as she still calls me, making out with her ex dream boybander in her sister's band rehearsal space. I thought she would go running to D, Dad, and the press, but she suprised me by doing the complet opposite. To this day only Sadie, Kwest, and SME knew about Tommy and I. Sadie made sure of that. "Sorry I snaped at you Sades. I just woke up and it's been a long and hard night." I tell her as I lay down on my stomach over the bed and my eyes land on the picture Tommy kept on his night stand. We were on the red carpet making our way into Mason's release party. The press would not let up till we stopped for a picture. We told everyone that we were just going with a group of friends, but the press would not let up.

"Tommy! Jude! Can we get one picture?" The press called out as we made our way down the red carpet. Tommy on my left and the dudes on my right with Kwest and Sadie on Tommy's left. "Kwest, Sadie! Over here!" some one yelled as the two stopped and the dudes walked over to a reported who asked how their first cd was coming. I turn to Tommy who just shurgs and places his hand on my wasit and we turn to the press. "You look great girl." He wishpers in my ear. I smile and turn from the press to him to find him staring at me. I look into his eyes and can swear I just fell all over again.

"JUDE!!!!!" Sadie yells pulling me back to the present. "Sorry." I say looking away from the picture. "What did you say?" I ask.

"D needs you to come in and record. Kwest, the guys, and I tried to tell him you need the day off, but you know D. He wants the song you're gonna do for Friday." she says.

"It's fine. The last thing I need is to be alone today. So I'll see you in a bit." we say our goodbye and I jump in the shower. After I'm done and ready I walk dwon to the basment studio that Tommy had put in for us at Christmas. He said it was for me, since I really wanted a home studio and was pretty much living there at that time. I walk over to the soundboard where I left my journal the night before. D wanted a new song, and I knew what I wanted in it, but nothing came out right and now I had to record it. I look down at what I had so far as I walked back up the stairs. Just as I make it into the kitchen the house phone rings. It's Sadie telling me to hurry up or someone looking for Tommy. Only Sadie, Kwest, SME, and Tommy's voicemail even knows I'm staying here. I open the kitchen door just as the answering machine picks up the call.

"Hey. It's Tommy. I must be at the studio," I smile just hearing his voice. I lock the door and jog down to the Viper. I couldn't even look at the car for a few weeks after I came back from tour. Then one day I just started to drive it and have been ever since.

I always needed time on my own. I never thought I'd, need you here when I cried. And the days feel like years when I'm alone. And the bed where you lie is made up on your side. When you walk away I count the steps you take. Do you see how much I need you right now?

"Jude you're late" D calls out to me as I walk into the G-major lobby.

"Sorry D. I was up all night working on a song." I say stopping in front of him.

"You get it done?" He ask and I look to the ground and slowly shake my head no.

"Jude I know Tommy leaving messed you up. But I know that you can write without him. You wrote your own stuff before you won Instant Star. You don't need him here to hold your hand so you can write a song." he says picking up my chin wih his finger. I slowly nod and look in his eyes. I know he's right, but it's still hard. " I need the song by the end of the day so you and SME can get the music done for Friday's show." I slowly nod and he walks away.

I walk into studio A and open the door. "Hey Kwest." I say and he lifts his head off of the soundboard. He looks almost as bad as I do. Tommy being gone has messed him up too.

"Hey." He says walking over to me and hugs me. "How are you?" he ask after kissing my forehead. I just shrug not wanting to talk about it.

"D wants a song by the end of the day. I don't even have one finished yet. So..." I trail off as he nods in understandment.

"I know where to find you." he finishes. I nod and walk out of the studio.

When you're gone the pieces of my heart are missing you. When you're gone the face I came to know is missing too. When you're gone the words I need to hear to always get me though the day. And make it okay. I miss you.

I open the door to Tommy's office and slip inside unnoticed. Only Kwest knows I even come in here to write and I want to keep it that way. I lock the door behind me and walk over to his desk and sit in his chair. I scan over the framed pictures on the desk. Our entire realtionship is played out in front of me. From the first time we met to my last concert the night before he left. There are a few candid shorts of us in the studio or back stage at one of my shows. Kwest or someone must have taken them without us knowing, because in each one we aren't looking at anything else but each other's eyes. On the walls there are plaques of Boys Attack and my abulms and a few other abulms he has worked on. I open the cover of my journal and his neat hand writing jumps out at me. "Most of us go to our graves with our music still inside of us." I smile thinking about how he made me promise not to be one of the people that went to my grave with my music inside of me. I flip open to the page with my current song on it and write the lyrics that pop into my head.

I've never felt this way before. Everything that I do reminds me of you And the clothes that you left the lie on the floor And they smell just like you I love the things that you do.

A few hours and a complete song later, I run into studio A to show the lyrics to Kwest. He reads over them and the music I wrote to go with it, he gives the okay and we lay down the vocals. After D okays it, I leave the studio and return to the empty house I have returned to for the past six or seven months. The next few days pass without any huge drama. Wenesday SME and I lay down the music and backup vocals to the song. Thrusday was spent getting ready for "Jude Harrison" night on Instant Star. Thursday night I sit at the judges table with Mason on my right nodding to 24 hours as the contestent Jimmy sings his heart out. And D on my left taking notes on the piece of paper in front of him. By the end of the night I hope to never hear my song sang so many different ways ever again. I smile and wave to the crew as I walk back stage to my dressing room. Just as I finish changing out of the jeans and top Portica had picked out for me and into my own jeans that I can actually breath in, one of my Green Day shirts, and one of Tommy's track jackets. Another thing that I have pretty much taken over since he left. My phone rings from my vanity letting me know that I have a voice mail. I sigh and walk over to it. It's most likely Kewst or SME making fun of me over tonight. Stupid jerks. I hit speed dial and wait to be connected.

"If I ever hear so many different versions of 24 in an hour timing again it will be to soon." I almost drop the phone when I hear his voice. "I know you're pissed girl. It's been two months and this is the first you've heard of me. I'm coming home soon. I'll tell you everything then. Just stay strong for a little bit longer. And just know that I..." I hear a door open and a muffled voice. "I'll be right there." He tells the voice. He must have moved the phone because I can bearly hear him and suddenly he take a deep breath. "Just know that I love you. See you soon baby." He says and a few seconds later I'm returned to the main voicemail options.

When you walk away I count the steps that you take. Do you see how much I need you right now.

"And here she is prefoming her newest song When You're Gone. Our first Instant Star, Jude Harrison!!" D's voice says as I walk out onto the stage with SME on friday night. The guys take their marks as I walk to my stool. They start the intro as I scan the adudince. I look to see if he's there by any chance. I feel my smile reach my eyes as they land on him standing next to the judges table. He smiles and gives me a small wave just as my cue comes in and I start to sign.

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cried

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone the pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone the face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone the words

I need to hear to always make it though the day

And make it okay

I miss you

I've never felt this way before

Everything I do reminds me of you

And the clothes you left they lie on the floor and they smell just like you

I love the things that you do

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone the pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone the face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone the words I need to hear to always get me though the day

And make it okay

I miss you

We were made for each other

Out here forever

I know we were

Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I do I give my heart and soul

I can hardly breath I need to feel you here with me

When you're gone the pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone the face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone the words I need to hear to always make it though the day

And make it okay

I miss you

I finish the song and my eyes land on his. Just with the look in his eyes I know that he felt the same way when he was gone and that he never wanted to leave. And that we are going to be okay and make it though whatever life thoughs at us.

When I walk into my dressing room he's there waiting for me. I run to him and throw my arms around him. I kiss his neck while mumbeling how much I missed him. He pulls back a little and kisses me while running his hands though my hair. "Let's go home girl." he says and I nod. He pulls me closer to his side as we walk out of my dressing room together. Not caring who saw us.