Chapter 1 a missing friend.

BB's p.o.v.

I remember that day well:

I walked into her room to find she wasn't there. Her presence not being there was ripping my heart apart. a plain white envelope caught my attion. I picked it up and opened it.

Dear Beast boy,

I know it's you because you would be the one with enough courage to enter my room after what I did. I know you must hate me now. I need you to know how I felt about you. Beast boy I loved you like you were my soul, but you have to understand that I couldn't take it anymore thinking, believing, knowing you can't love me.

I cried for hours and thought that if only she had known for sure how I felt about her, she wouldn't have disappeared. We never saw her again. We all had to go on with our lives, Starfire and Robin got together, Cyborg went to find a way to get over losing the girl he thought of as his younger sister, He found someone to love. He found Missy who is a lot like him, she likes the same things as he does she even helps him to build new T-cars and communicators and other things that the teen titans might need.

Razzi P.o.v.

I don't know who I was up until 3 years ago. 3 years ago I was in the hospital and told that I had long term memory lose of what had happened before, I didn't even know my own name. Being that the hospital went through the state to give me a new name it's Razzi. They said I reminded them of someone who could razzle dazzle people. So now everyone calls me Razzi. I also found out that I was pregnant that day. I have a 2 year old girl named Lighann since I didn't have a last name either the hospital gave me the last name Logan so that's my daughters as well Lighann maire Logan. She has purple hair with green tips, and bright shining green eyes with flecks of purple and blood red in them.

"Mommy!"

"Lighann, hush hunny it's okay mommy's here." I say as I hold my little girl in my arms and stroke her hair softly. She has bad dreams often, I don't know why she does the pediatricians don't know either they seem to think it might just be because she's so young and doesn't know where she is. We just moved into a new house in a place called Jump city. I know that this city is protected by a group of teens not much older then me who are called the teen titans, and I know they live in a tower shaped like a T. The only reason I know those things is because I looked up information on the city when I moved into it. I rocked her back and forth on my lap until she fell asleep and then I put her back in her crib and I went back to my bed and lay down.

* Dream

"Beast boy!" a girl in blue yelled out as a green boy fell from a roof, then she calmed herself down as he turned into a bird and flew back up to her. He landed on the roof and transformed into a kitten then rubbed up against her leg. The girl smiled a little before she heard a glass break. Her smile faded.

He transformed into his human self, his green hair spiked up as normal and his green eyes sparkling like everything. He pulled her close and kissed her. She could taste it in his breath he was drunk but then she knew she was too, there friend cyborg had bought beer and wine to celebrate Starfire's 5 year anniversary on earth as well as her 18th birthday. He pulled his jacket off , lay it down on the roof and pulled her down on to it. He ran his hands up and down her sides then removed her cloak. The next morning she woke up and found that he was gone and she cried herself to sleep again. She wrote a note and left... *

"AHHHHHHHHHHH!" I woke with a scream, and felt my self sweating from head to toe. I closed my eyes and leaned back against my pillows. It wasn't the first time I'd had a dream like that but I was no closer to understanding it now then I had been before, In fact I fell less understanding of it.

"Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!" I hear Lighann crying again so I get up and pick her up.

"Go to sleep, go to sleep, my little baby sleep in the night while god watches you, sleep and dream of all the things you want, sleep and dream of your Christmas, and your delights. " I sang to her in a soft voice. I sang for a while until she fell asleep once more then I put her back in her crib with a soft green blanket and a little kitten toy that she loved, she would put her arms around it and hold it close to her, almost as if she was one.

I went back to my room and turned on the t.v., the news came on and the first thing I saw was three of the four remaining teen titans, they were talking about how they couldn't find their old friend, she had apparently been missing for about as long as I had been with out my own memories part of me wondered if she was me or how ever you want to look at it. I listened to them for a while then tuned them out as my eyes began to get heavy at 1 in the morning I closed my eyes for the night.

BB's p.o.v.

I can't stop thinking about Raven we were 17 when she disappeared. Her hair was getting long again. I don't remember much about the night before she disappeared I heard from the others that we both had gotten drunk after star's birthday party, but I didn't know what happened.

We looked through all the papers in the cities files and there was no evidence of Raven any where, there was a file on a girl who had just moved to the city her name was Razzi and she was 19 with a two year old daughter, it said her last name was Logan it made me wonder where she was from. We gave up searching for Raven when we found her cloak in an ally with blood on the ground right by it, everyone figured she had been killed. My heart had fallen about a hundred feet when we found that cloak. Yesterday we had a memorial service for her and placed a grave marker by Tearra's stone self for her as well. Tearra died protecting us in the end and Raven we figure died trying to protect herself.

"Beast boy, may I enter?" came Starfire's voice.

"Sure Star." I said very softly as she opened the door.

"Friend Beast boy will you not come out of your room of sleep and join us in the room of living? we wish to watch old video's." she said as she litely put her hand on my arm.

"I guess, I'll be down in a minute, Star." I said as I got up. I heard her foot steps on the floor as she walked away my eyes began to run over with tears of hurt, I wiped them off pulled up one of Ravens cloaks and pulled it around me, then walked to the living room.

"Hey BB, you want some pop corn? " came Cy's voice from the kitchen.

"Sure." I said to him.

"Want some mustard?" Star asked very sweetly.

"Umm, no thanks Star, not my thing." I shake my head with a small smile on my face. I get up and go to the frig to get some soy milk. I pour it into a cup and then walk to the sofa again. Cy, Star and I sat down while Robin puts in a tape then he sits down and puts an arm around Star who leaned against him.

The picture changes to the beach out side of the tower and there sitting on the rocks is Raven her hair hidden under her hood as always, reading a book.

"Rae!" on screen Bb called out.

"Don't call me Rae!" She snapped at me.

"Come on, get in it's fun." I called out.

"No Beast boy, I don't do water." she said

"Please friend Raven." asked Starfire.

"Star.." Raven said her name.

We could see Cy and Robin sneaking up behind her and putting their fingers to their lips. Starfire pouted at Raven who just pushed her hood off and shrugged. Cy and Robin picked her up and threw her into the water so fast that she didn't know what had happened. You could hear her scream at them before the scene went black.

The picture came back on and Robin, Star and Cy were all sitting next to the radio listening to the newest song by Maroon five. Raven was sitting in a chair with a book in her lap reading, it wasn't just any book though it was a romance novel and she looked very into it. I came out of the kitchen with a glass of soy milk in it and a cup of herbal tea. I gave the cup of herbal tea to Raven who looked up and smiled at me slightly then pulled my hand into her's and she kissed me lightly on the cheek as a thank you.

"I'm going to go get something to celebrate Star's birthday and her 5th year on earth." Cy said as he walked out of the room.

About an hour later he came back. We all sat down and drank while we were talking. Raven walked up to the roof and I followed then it showed Star and Robin kissing, and Cy laughing as he beat his own high score on mega monkeys 3.

I pulled her cloak around me tighter and smelled it, it smelled like violets her favorite flower. I had gone through a lot of trouble to find the perfume she would always wear which she never admitted to. I closed my eyes as I heard her voice from the T.V. "Beast boy, how dare you.." I knew then the last thing was another tape the one where she had found me with her dairy before I had even opened it. I fell asleep on the couch with her cloak wrapped around me.