This is kind of chapter one... the last one was too short, like a introducion. I hope you're liking.
Enjoy!
I was cooking dinner, while Rose and Emmett were watching TV. Better this way, really. If they tried to help, the kitchen would be on fire in probably a couple of minutes.
"Is Jazz coming?" I yelled.
"Yeah, he's late but he's coming!" Rose yelled.
I ended dinner, and set the table. Just when everything was ready the doorbell rang. Jasper. Emmett went to the door, to answer and I heard both talking.
"Dinner is ready!" I called setting a bottle of wine in the table and two beers.
The three walked in, and Jasper kissed my cheek before sitting down.
"How was work?" I asked.
"Good. But my boss is making me work 'till later to make up for the days I'll be taking"
"I hope they're not giving you too much trouble" I said.
"Not at all. How was your day?"
"I'm glad is finished and let's leave at that"
"That bad?" he asked chuckling.
"I had to read ten stories, that I don't know why people would think it would be a good book"
"Seriously, why you two don't date? You look like a couple" Rose said looking between me and her brother.
"We talked about this already, Rose" Jazz said.
"Well, I still don't understand" she said.
"Neither do I" Emm said.
I rolled my eyes and we ate in practically silence, just making a few comments here and there about our days. Emmett was dating Rose for almost two years now, and we were all waiting for him to propose, especially Rose. When they met, Rose didn't want to go out alone with Emmett, so she got a double date. She invited Jazz, and Emmett invited me. And we four went out a couple times, in Rose and Emmett's dates. I later was told that Rose wasn't comfortable in going out alone with Emm, because she was raped years ago, and Emmett being the mountain of muscles intimidated her.
So every now and then they ask why me and Jazz don't date each other. We thought about it, even talked about it. We're good buddies, and that's it. There isn't attraction. Emmett and Jasper took care of the dishes, and we all went to watch a movie. Rose slept in halfway through the movie, and Emmett was tired too, so he carried her to his room and went to sleep. Jazz an I continued to watch the movie.
"So, the days I'm taking off of work I said earlier…"
"Yeah?" I asked while yawning.
"It's a wedding. Rose is going and Emmett too" he said.
"Hm" I murmured.
"So, I was thinking if you want to go?"
"Me?"
"Yeah, they sent plane tickets and everything. They sent to an attendant, but I don't have one, and I thought you could go as mine companion"
"Really?" I asked.
"Yeah, and it's kind of…. I don't know, but there is a chick… The bride's sister, and she keeps hitting on me, so if you went it would save me from her too" he said rubbing the back of his neck, "So, would you?"
"Where?"
"It's in Chicago. They have a house, well, more like a mansion outside town, where the wedding will be, and we'll be staying there"
"This weekend?" I asked.
"Yeah, we would go Friday afternoon, and come back Tuesday"
"Hm…" I said thinking about it. He showed me his pleading eyes and I sighed defeated. "Okay, but I'll have to read on the flight and every moment possible, so I won't actually leave my job"
"Fine" he said, "Thanks"
I would go to a wedding in Chicago. As Jasper's date. I had a bad feeling about this.
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My bags were ready. The work I was taking with me was with me. I was dressed and we were ready to go. Emmett and I would meet Rose and Jazz in the airport. I was wearing jeans, purple converses, purple top, and a hoodie. I put my hair in a ponytail, and put some make-up. I brought my luggage to the living room.
"I'm ready" I said to Emmett.
"What?"Emmett shouted.
I looked confused at him, and he ran to stand in front of me, and glared.
"Hm?" was all I was able to ask.
"What the fuck is that necklace?" he asked.
I looked down, and shrugged seeing Edward's necklace. He had given me in my birthday, a couple months before we broke up with me, almost eight years ago.
"Why are you wearing this, Bells?" Emmett asked exasperated.
"I… I don't know. I had a feeling about this trip, and… it relaxes me, having it around" I said.
"He's gone, Bella. Stop tying yourself to him" Emmett grabbed the necklace and I realized he was going to yank it out of me. I grabbed his hands stopping him.
"Don't, please. I know. It's just… It calms me. But please don't do this" I whispered.
He sighed and let it go. He picked up our bags and went out without another word. I locked the apartment and followed him. He didn't say anything the whole way to the airport, and when he arrived there he just asked if we were late. He hated that I couldn't let Edward go. I almost did. I had a normal life. I just couldn't forget him. And when I was sad, nervous, or alone I would miss him a little. I would wear the necklace or one of his shirts he left. I couldn't look a pictures though, they made me too sad. But I had all our photos in a box in my closet.
Emmett never forgave Edward for breaking my heart and leaving. He wished he could have beat him, but Edward moved out of town before he knew what happened, and I had to explain to Emmett, or at least what I understood. He broke up with me, but never said anything about moving away, and he changed numbers, no one could contact him. I tried, really did, but couldn't.
We met Jasper and Rose, and checked-in. Emmett was sitting with Rose, and Jazz with me behind them. Before the plane could even move, Jasper was asleep. He seemed to tired this week that I let him, sleep on my shoulder, as I read what people called possible books. I spent the whole flight reading and playing with the necklace. When the plane landed, the feeling of something was about to happen, I couldn't tell if bad or good, increased.
I looked at the necklace. It looked like an ID military plate, but he engraved words that were always in my mind. "My body. My mind. My heart. My soul. Me" and when you turned it, "They are all yours. My Bella. My love"
When the flight attendant said we could go out, I put the necklace back, hiding it under my top. We all got out bags, and we rented a car. A simple car, a Ford Focus. Apparently the house was of the groom's family, so Rose and Jazz didn't know, we had to use GPS and the invitation address. I gasped when we finally found the house. Jasper was right. It was a mansion, not a house. Surrounded by trees, and it seemed an amazing place to have a wedding, if it wasn't raining.
Emmett hit the horn a couple of times announcing our arrival. It was a warm day, so I just put my hood on, not closing the hoodie. We got out of the car, and saw a couple taling in the porch, under a umbrella. We couldn't see their faces, but I didn't need to. There, in the guy's wrist, was something I thought I would never see again. Edward's leather cuff I gave him. I was sure of it. I froze, standing in the rain.
"Bella! What are you doing?" Jasper asked covering his head with his jacket.
"Edward" I mumbled.
"What?" he asked confused.
"It's Edward. I… I can't stay. Please, Jazz. Take me out of here" I said with tears in my eyes.
"Edward?" he asked shocked, "The dick that broke with you? Edward Cullen!"
I nodded and someone cleared his throat. I turned around and realized I was by the driver's door, so Emmett couldn't get out. I stepped aside and continued to stare at the wristband.
"Let's get out of this rain!" Emmett said.
"Bella, come on. We have to at least arrive. I'll take you to the airport later, if you want. But we have to get inside and get out of this wet clothes" Jazz said.
I slowly nodded but couldn't move. I just couldn't feel my legs. Jasper pushed me forward with a hand in my back. We stopped in front of the couple and once we were protected of the rain, the umbrella was lowered to reveal Edward and a strawberry blonde. The blonde was saying something to Rose and Jazz, but I couldn't hear. My eyes were prisoners of his green ones. The beautiful shade of green that I missed for almost eight years.
"Son of a bitch!" Ememtt said beside me.
He almost jumped on Edward, but Jasper and I stopped him. Rose and the blond were confused.
"Emmett!" I said taking his face in my hands. He still didn't look at me, he was glaring at Edward behind me. "Calm down. It's fine. Ignore it. Forget it"
"Bella?" Edward gasped.
I turned around and we stared t each other.
"Hm, everyone knows each other, but I don't" the blond said. "Edward?"
"Right" he said snapping out of our stare contest, "This is Isabella Swan, and Emmett McCarty"
"Nice to meet you" she said shaking my hand.
"You too" I murmured.
"I'm like Jasper's cousin, and the bride, Tanya" she said. "You must be his girlfriend. He spoke about you"
"Hm…" I said looking at Jazz.
"Tanya" Jazz said in warning.
"Oh, okay. Touchy subject" she said amused, "Rosalie told me all about you, Emmett"
He didn't answer too caught up on glaring at Edward. Edward still stared at me with wide eyes, and I tried to avoid looking at him, but glancing at him often.
"Let's get you inside and you can change" Tanya said.
We nodded and Rose, Tanya and Edward got in.
"We're leaving" Emmett said to me.
I slowly nodded, and looked at him with tears almost spilling.
"I told you I had a feeling. We shouldn't have come" I said, "It's his wedding!" I hissed. "I have to go"
"I won't oppose, but at least change from these wet clothes. Then you can go back to the airport" Jasper said.
"Fuck. Jazz is right, Bells" Emmett said. "Are you okay?"
I slowly nodded and took a deep shaky breath.
"She's going to pass out" Jazz said. "She's pale as a ghost"
"Bella, please, tell me you're okay" Emmett said.
My head was spinning, and my stomach turning. My body felt heavy, and my eyes cpuldn't keep open.
"Grab her" Emmett said before the darkness took me.
"She seems fine. Probably stress. She'll wake up in a few minutes" Edward said.
I felt something cold toughing my chest and I shrieked, before opening my eyes. I stared at Edward, above me, with concerned eyes, and a stethoscope.
"Hey, glad you woke up" he said.
I wanted to scream. I met him, eight years after he broke my heart. I thought I would never see him again. And I do, in his wedding. And he is totally cool about it? I gripped my hair and took a deep breath trying to calm down, and not scream at him.
"Are you okay now?" Jasper asked appearing over Edward's shoulder.
"Hm… Yeah" I mumbled.
Edward helped me sat up, and I blushed seeing everyone around, probably waiting for me to wake up.
"Oh, thank God, she's okay"
I followed the voice and gasped as I saw Esme.
"Mo – " I interrupted myself before I called her 'mom' like I used to, "E-Esme?"
"Oh, honey!" she said running to me and giving me a hug, "I'm so glad you're here!"
"I'll suppose Emmett and Bella know your whole family, Edward" Tanya said with an arched eyebrow.
"Long story" Edward murmured looking at me.
Before Esme could let me go, another pair of arms embraced me. They're tinny, thin, but still strong. I would recognize those arms anywhere, Alice's.
"I missed you so damn much!" she said.
I had tears in my eyes, and I sniffed. They let me go, and Esme cupped my face, and wiped away the tears with her thumbs when they fell.
"Everything will be okay now" she said.
"Emmett!" Alice said jumping on him, "Missed you giant!"
"Hey, pixie" he said hugging her back.
Esme pulled away and went to hug Emmett as Carlisle sat beside me, and hugged me too.
"Missed you, so much, Bella" he said.
"I missed you too. More than you can imagine" I said.
I cried in his shoulder. As Edward and I were together for a year and a half, and my constant visits to the ER, Carlisle became almost a second father. He pulled away, and smiled weakly as he held my hand. Jazz sat beside me, rubbing soothing circles in my back. I glanced at Edward thru my tears, and broke down, sobbing into Jazz's shoulder. He hugged me, and rubbed my back.
"Let's go" Jazz said and I nodded weakly.
"Go!" Alice shouted, "What? No! You just got here"
"This… This is a mess, to say at least, and we have to go." Emmett said.
"Care to explain, Emm?" Rose asked.
"I don't know. Should I, Edward?" he asked.
Rose looked between the two men, and I could see she understood when her eyes got wide.
"Oh! Edward. Hm, this is… bad" she mumbled.
"Come on" Jazz said.
I stood up, and he wrapped an arm around my waist almost helping me stand.
"Don't go sweetie. We just got you back" Esme said to me.
"I wish I could stay, but I can't" I said.
"Okay, someone explain why are they leaving?" Tanya asked.
"Believe me, Tanya, you don't want to know" Alice said. "Don't go, Bella, please"
I shook my head, and Jazz dragged me to the door.
"I understand you want to leave. But can we keep contact?" Carlisle asked following me, Jazz and Emmett out.
"You disappeared. We all tried to contact you" Emmett said.
"Rose stay. Emmett and I will take her back, and he'll go with her. I don't know if I'll go back too" Jazz said. "I'll call you from the airport"
"Okay" she said.
"You can stay. I would tell Emmett to stay but I think that if he does, someone will have a black eye on the wedding" I said.
"He would be on the hospital, not the wedding" Emmett murmured and ran to the car, getting in quickly.
"Are you sure you don't want me to go? At least 'till the airport?" Jazz asked.
"Yeah, I'll be fine. Call you later"
"Okay, be safe"
I nodded and kissed his cheek, he kissed my forehead, and I ran to the car. I stumbled on the way, so I was dripping wet when I reached the door. I didn't open though, as a hand grabbed my wrist. I turned around, and glared at Edward.
"Let me go" I said trying to pull my hand away.
"No" he murmured.
"Let me go! You're good in it!" I snapped.
"Bella…"
"What do you want?" I asked quietly, "Please, let me leave"
"Don't leave. Please, stay"
I stared at him in shock. He was seriously asking me to stay to his wedding? To stay the weekend when I couldn't even stay half an hour without passing out. Did he hate me? To see me suffer, seeing him with someone else? I looked away, my tears mixing with the rain.
"Please, stay" he said again.
I glared at him.
"Why should I? You didn't stay when I asked"
"I… What happened… Fuck!" he hissed and looked into my eyes, "Stay and I promise everything will be fine"
"You can't glue a broken glass vase, and think it's perfect as new" I said.
"Just… stay, please. I… We missed you"
"No, I can believe your family missed me. You… You didn't. You clearly moved on, and didn't think about me anymore" I shouted, "While me, was there thinking about you every single day, for eight years. I cried until I hadn't tears anymore. I clung into anything of you, like a life-saver. I was the stupid one, dreaming that I was dreaming. Wishing I would wake up, being seventeen, and you would give me a anniversary present, I would give yours, and we would continue together, go to college, get married, have kids and grow old together!
"I was stupid enough to believe what you told me! I was stupid enough to wrap my life around you, and when you left, it all fell apart! So, don't say you missed me. It's a lie. You're perfectly fine without me, and you did this" I said and yanked the necklace out of my neck "Here" I put it on his hand, "I'll stay. But, please, stay away from me"
I walked away, and back to Jazz who hugged me.
"I'll show your room" Esme said quietly.
I took a last look of Edward standing in the rain, looking at the spot I was. We followed her and she showed our room. I would stay with Jazz. He let me take a shower first and I put some comfortable clothes on, and lay on bed, praying I would fell asleep. After a couple hours crying quietly, I fell asleep.
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"Bella, wake up" Jazz said.
I groaned and opened my eyes.
"Hey" I said.
"Hey, good morning"
"Good morning" I said sitting up.
"People are downstairs taking breakfast. Waiting for us" he said.
"Oh, okay" I mumbled.
"Get ready. I'll talk to Emmett while you do" he said.
"Okay, thanks"
He nodded and left the room. It seemed a warm, sunny day, so I spaghetti strap dress, a white denim cropped jacket, and grabbed a black cross-body bag. I put a black bracelet, and let my hair loose. I put just a little make-up, and was going to put flats, when Jasper knocked.
"Can I come in?" he asked thru the door.
"Yeah" I said.
He entered and smiled at me.
"You look good" he said.
"Thanks"
"Hm, probably everyone will be out of the house today. Working on the last arrangements for tomorrow. But if you want Emmett or I can stay with you"
"I'll go with you" I said choosing another shoe since we would go out.
"Are you sure?"
"Edward will be with you?"
"No"
"Then I'm sure" I said smiling and getting up, "How do I look?"
"Perfect" he said.
"Thanks" I said and took his hand, "Let's grab some breakfast before Emmett eats everything"
"Yeah, he can end even Esme's banquet" Jazz said chuckling as we run thru the stairs. "Hm, and are we going to say that we aren't together as they think?"
"I really don't care"
"So, I'll say you're my girlfriend, because I really want to keep Irina away"
"Irina?" I asked.
"Tanya's sister"
"Oh, right. The obsessed with you" I said amused, "Really? Are you afraid she will do what? Rape you?" I asked chuckling.
"It's not funny! She's awful!" he said.
"Are you sure you don't love her?" I teased.
"Absolutely" he said poking my ribs, tickling me, and making me laugh.
"Stop, Jazz! Stop!" I said squirming, and I tried to pull away, but he hold me by my waist.
"Don't destroy the house" he said smiling.
I turned around and saw I almost stumbled back on a glass table. The family was sitting on it, and with arched eyebrows, and smiles. Except Edward. He was staring at me. There was a spot between Alice and Esme, across from Edward, but I decided to sit with Jazz in the counter.
"So, Alice and I will go to the florist. Carlisle, Jasper and Emmett will go grab the tables and chairs. Edward and Bel –" Esme stopped herself when Carlisle cleared his throat, "Edward and Tanya will take car of the last legal things. Rose you'll pick the dresses. Is that right?" she asked.
"Yes" Alice said.
"And me?" I asked.
"Hm… I didn't know if you would help…" Esme said looking between me, Edward and Carlisle.
"I'm here, I can do something" I said shrugging.
"Someone has to grab the cetin, and ribbon to do the chairs, and finish to put the souvenirs together"
"Okay" I said.
"And you would have to go to the graphic. They sent fewer photos for the souvenirs than we asked, and they said they would have the rest today, and someone had to go take" Alice said
"Okay. Write down the addresses and I'll go take the pictures, the cetin and ribbon, get back, probably then the guys will be back with the chairs, and I'll start the chairs" I said.
"Perfect! Oh, you'll be my made of honor when I marry!" Alice said got up and kissed my cheek, and took a pen to write down the addresses. "If you help me find a boyfriend maybe you'll get the job faster"
We chuckled and she took Esme by her hand pulling her out of the house.
"I'm going too" Rose said getting up.
"Us too" Carlisle said nodding to Jazz and Emm.
Emmett, Jasper and Rose kissed my cheek, and Carlisle kissed my forehead before leaving. Leaving me and the bride and groom. Oh, joy!
"I'll finish getting ready" Tanya said.
She gave a peck in his lips and left. We stared at each other until I couldn't handle the tension anymore. I grabbed the paper with the addresses, jumped out of the stool, and walked to the door quickly.
"Bye" I mumbled.
"Hm! Wait!" he said getting up.
I ignored and continued to walk.
"You're wearing high heels"
"Really? I didn't notice" I said sarcastically.
"I mean… You're in heels and walking quickly, without tripping"
"I'm not an uncoordinated seventeen-year-old anymore" I said. Why was he talking about my lack of coordination when I was younger?
"No, you're definitely not" he said.
I turned around and glared at him, he was grinning.
"I think you can take Alice's car, it got a GPS. And take the keys" he said grabbing a key from a hook close to the door.
"Why?" I asked slowly as I put the key in my purse.
"Because when you get back, you'll need to enter somehow"
"Not the key, Edward" I hissed, "Why are you talking to me if I asked you to stay away?"
"I just… I wanted to talk to you" he sighed, "I did miss you"
"Right" I snorted and turned around.
He stopped me, putting a hand in my shoulder. I froze, realizing the spark that felt eight years ago when he touched me, was still there. His hand trailed up in my shoulder, to my neck, and he pulled my hair up. I was about to ask what was he doing when I felt a necklace being placed. He let me go, and I looked down to see the necklace I yanked out yesterday.
"This is yours. Always yours" he said.
"You said a lot of things… A lot of promises with 'always'. None of them were accomplished" I said and got out, slamming the door behind me.
As there was Carlisle's Mercedes and a yellow Porsche I supposed the Porsche was Alice's and took it. I drove away from the house, trying to keep myself together. I was going to do things to help finished the preparations of Edward's wedding, with Tanya. It was really hard to keep myself together. I stopped by the graphic as asked, and had the pleasure to receive a package with little photos of Edward and Tanya. My mood was getting worse by the minute from then on. I grabbed the cetin and ribbon, and after I got all the fabric on the back of the car, without wrinkle it. I stopped by the drugstore and took a couple of Tylenols to help my headache.
I drove back to the house and found it empty. I opened the door with key Edward gave me, and took everything in, and put on the dining table. What I do now? The souvenirs. But where are they? I called Esme's phone, thank God it was in a note on the kitchen, and she told me everything was in the music room. I took the things to the music room and smiled when I opened the doors. It looked like the music room on their house in Forks. Edward's picano thought was different. It was a little dusty, even with the cape on it. It was strange, because Edward always took good care of his piano, never let get dust, or anything… If you wanted to see him freak with you, you would put a glass on top of the piano. He screamed with Alice for almost two hours when she did that.
I put the fabric and ribbon on the piano's bench, and had a flashback of when he played for me. I hold back the tears, and sighed relieved when I saw a iPod station. I took my iPod from my purse and connected. I sat on the ground making the souvenirs, while listening to music. I was on automatic. Sing, open the little box, put the picture, the little heart magnet with their initials, and a little plastic flower, close the box, still singing and went to the next box. I was singing 'When You're Gone' by Avril Lavigne when I heard someone come in the house.
I got up and went to the music room's doors. I opened to find Emmett and Jasper carrying a lot of chairs, while Carlisle carried one and looked around, musing.
"Hm, hi?" I asked.
"Oh, Bella! You're here, good" Carlisle said. "Where should we put the chairs?"
"Hm, I think here. Since a lot of things are here"
"Right" he said and walked in and settled down the chair.
The guys followed and put the chairs down, with a sigh of relief. After three trips, the room was filled with chairs, and they put the tables on the garage.
"We have to go grab… an arch? I don't really know what. Something for the altar. And apparently it's heavy. So, we'll have to leave you again. Is that okay?" Carlisle asked.
"Sure. Go! I'm doing the souvenirs, and will start the chairs soon" I said shooing them away.
I got back to the souvenirs, and ended quickly. I put the chairs around the room, with just space for me to walk around. I put the fabric into them, and was starting to make bows with the ribbons on the chairs. Since Edward broke with me, my music changed. Before funny, cheerful songs, now country, slow, sad songs. Taylor Swift was my favorite. I was singing along with 'Haunted', dancing around and fixing fabric in chairs.
Oh, holding my breath
Won't see you again
Something keeps me holding onto nothing
Come on, come on
Don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
Won't finish what you started
Come on, come on
Don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
I can't go back
I'm haunted
You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
But I never thought I'd see it break
Never thought I'd see it
The thing with country music, especially Taylor Swift, is that it always reminds me of what happened between me and Edward. When 'Forever and Always' started playing I had to fight the tears. It was so 'us', and it reminded me of the inscription I put in his bracelet.
And I stare at the phone
He still hasn't called
And you feel so low you can't feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said
Forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause I was there when you said
Forever and always
By the middle of the song the tears were running down, quietly. I had to stop, because it would get the fabric stained. I walked to my purse and looked for a tissue, I didn't found, so I just wiped the tears with my jacket sleeve. I was still singing, and just stopped when I saw I wasn't alone. Edward stood by the door, watching me carefully. There was pain in his eyes, and a part of me wanted to take it away, but a part of me wanted to ignore him.
"And I stare at the phone he still hasn't called. And you feel so low you can't feel nothing at all. And you flashback to when he said, Forever and Always" I sang.
I remembered how I kept waiting for him to come back and apologize. Or for at least come back. How I spent months like a zombie, people worrying about me. And how he promised to be with me forever and always, that day in our meadow.
"Oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong. It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone. Cause I was there when you said, Forever and Always…" I sang.
He took a step closer, and I broke out of the hypnosis his eyes put on me. I turned around and reached for the iPod to stop it. He grabbed my hand stopping me. I looked at him, and he was close, and pulling me closer. Another song started, and he held my right hand in his, in his chest, while holding my waist on his other one. I sang quietly as we danced.
I still remember the look on your face
Lit through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered for just us to know
You told me you loved me
So why did you go away
Away
I remembered of our afternoons in our meadow, hugged, laughing, kissing and declaring our love.
I do recall now, the smell of the rain
Fresh on the pavement
I ran off the plane
That July ninth, the beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt
I can still feel your arms
But now I'll go, sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss
I never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
I do remember the swing of your step
The life of the party, you're showing off again
And I'd roll my eyes and then you'd pull me in
I'm not much for dancing, but for you I did
I sang smiling with him, as he lead me on the slow dance. For a moment it was just us again. Edward and Bella, like we were seventeen again, and nothing changed.
Because I love your handshake, meeting my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you'd kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions
The song remembered of him so much, that's why I liked it. It was like it was telling our story.
And I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss
I never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe
And I'll keep up with our old friends
Just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are
He rested his forehead in mine, as the tears rolled down my cheek again. His eyes were sad, and I could see he had tears on them.
And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you, you wish you had stayed
You can plan for a change in the weather and time
But I never planned on you changing your mind
So I'll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know how to be something you miss
I never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
Just like our last kiss
Forever the name on my lips
Forever the name on my lips
Just like our last
The song changed, to a more cheering one. But we continued there, though stopped. He was looking into my eyes, and I was drowning in those green pools. I took a shaky breath, and regretted when I registered his scent. As sweet, but masculine, as I remembered. His eyes dropped to my lips, and back to my eyes. He leaned in, and our lips brushed. He cupped my face with his hands, brushing the tears away with his thumb.
"Bella…" he whispered and just when our lips were going to touch we were interrupted.
"Tanya, your bride, is looking for you, Edward" Emmett said.
I opened my eyes, shocked with what was happening. I took a couple of steps back, pulling away from his arms.
"I have to finish the chairs. For your wedding" I said more to myself.
"Bella…" Edward said.
"You really should go look for Tanya, Edward" Emmett interrupted again.
Edward sighed and walked to the door. But before he could pass, Emmett gripped him by his shirt, almost taking him off the ground.
"Stay away from Bella, if you want to live for your honeymoon" Emmett growled.
"Emm!" I chastised, "Forget it. It's fine. Just another day and we'll leave."
I was planning to leave after the wedding. Edward and Tanya would leave Monday to their honeymoon, but I wasn't going to stay for that. The wedding was torture enough.
"You fucked up. Now deal with it, and go to your bride" Emm hissed to Edward before letting him go.
Edward stared at Emm for a moment, and at me, before leaving. I took another shaky breath, walked to the iPod and put some rock on.
"Are you okay?" Emmett asked.
"Fine" I mumbled as I cut the ribbon.
"Don't do this now" he murmured.
"What?"
"Don't let the walls you built for years down now. Not for him. I won't stand seeing you be broken again"
"I'm fine. Everything will be fine" I said, "Eventually" I whispered to myself.
"We should have left the moment you saw it was him. No, I should have seen it first and took you out of here" Emm said.
"It's fine"
"Stop saying it's fine, when it's not!"
"What do you want me to say?" I asked exasperated. "The truth! Do you want t hear what I've been thru the last 24 hours?"
"Please, because we all can see it's not fine, and you're not fooling us!"
"It hurt, okay! He's marrying another woman! I'm doing the freaking souvenirs of the wedding! He almost kissed me! He makes it seem like everything is perfectly fine. This is fucked up. But I rather try to fool you, than to sit around and cry, being depressed, making people worry I would commit suicide like the last time! So, I'm blocking everything, and I don't plan to let anything out soon. Now, please, leave it alone"
"I don't know what to do, Bells. That's what scares me. That's what scared everyone eight years ago. You didn't have life in your eyes. You were empty. In a way you were dead, and we feared you would just… end the little life you had. We were terrified because we couldn't do anything to help you get better. You got better, but the life you had before never came back. And now, the little life you have back, it's getting weaker… Not vanishing, but weaker. Like a illness killing you slowly"
"It is an illness killing me slowly. A broken heart will always hurt. I learned to live with the pain. But what kills me is the memories, and lately is getting hard to block them." I said quietly, "Now, please, go. There must be something for you to help. Rose must be back from the dresses…"
"When you block things, trying to mask them to us, you're blocking us from getting in too, Bella. You need to let the right people in, so your heart can be healed" he said before walking out.
"My heart is broken and the only one that can fix is the one who's broken it" I whispered.
I wiped away the tears and continued to work on the chairs. Esme came to say lunch was ready, but I stayed there finishing it. If I ate I would probably be sick. After a few hours, everything I had to do was finished. I walked slowly out of the music room, and walked to the living room, where Tanya was sitting with Esme, Alice and Edward in the corner watching them. Well, he had a blank expression, like he was miles away from here.
"Hm, the chairs and souvenirs are ready" I said announcing my presence.
They looked up to me, and Edward continued with the blank expression.
"Oh, thanks!" Tanya said and hugged me, "You're great. Alice will have the best made of honor"
I smiled weakly at her, and she sat back with Esme.
"In what can I help now?" I asked.
"The guys are setting the chairs for the ceremony, and then the tables for the party" Esme said. "We're working on the guests' tables"
I looked at the board they had. It had pins, blues and reds, and with a little tag in each one, with names.
"The reds are the bride's guests?" I asked.
"Yes" Tanya said.
"We want to mix everyone, but to keep people together, so they can talk" Alice explained. "But there are people that can't be together"
"Hm… It's like minefield" I said. "And naval battle" They nodded, still staring at the board with frowns. "Okay, can I try something? You can change…"
"Sure" Tanya said.
I changed a few pins of positions, and made the tables half bride and half groom. They were putting the bride's guests concentrated on one side and the groom's on the other, like in all weddings, but that didn't help with the socializing thing they wanted.
"I don't know if this would work. You can change the guests if one can't be around another. And put the kids table close to the couple's table, but not so close to the dance floor. Kids around you, will be good to show your future… with… kids. And they won't be in the way if people try to get pictures of you. But if they get close to the dance floor, they can ruin something, running around…"
"You're a genius" Tanya said grinning, "Thanks!"
"You're welcome" I said.
"Oh, you could check the playlist! I liked a few songs I heard you listening to on the music room, and you could check if the playlist is good" she said excitedly.
"Sure. Hm, do you like slow songs?"
"A little, but not old songs" she said.
"Famous songs?" I asked.
"Yeah, this way all the guests will know, and it'll be a really cool party"
I nodded, but really wanted to yell 'what the hell?' She was… What Edward saw on her, is beyond me. She seemed brainless spoiled brat.
"Hm, and put the teenagers of the party, if there is any, in somewhere where people can see them" I said.
"Oh, right. We wouldn't want an accident of finding teenagers making out in the back of the party. Uncle John freaked when he found me in cousin's Helen wedding…" Alice murmured.
"That was embarrassing to say at least" Esme said. "Thank you, Bella"
"You're welcome. Hm, where is the playlist?"
"Edward's iPod" Tanya said.
Edward opened a drawer from a table in the corner of the room and took an silver iPod. I took it from him, and opened the 'Wedding' playlist.
"Is it in order?" I asked before pressing play.
"Kind of" Edward said.
"Okay" I said, "I can do something else while I listen to this…"
"Hm, there is a little job, but don't worry, we'll take care of it" Esme said.
"I'm here, I'm free. Tell me" I said.
"The arch of the altar, it's wrapped in fabric, but we think it's too monotone" Tanya said, "We bought paint, and would just give a little color. Nothing much, just a little touch"
"Okay, I'll change, and do this" I said, "Where is the things?"
"Garage" Tanya said, "Thanks"
"I'm glad to help" I lied smiling.
I ran upstairs, and put the clothes I brought to sleep in, comfortable clothes. I packed for a weekend on a wedding, so the only comfortable clothes I had, and I could risk stain with paint, was my PJ's shirt and a denim shorts. The shirt was Edward's. It was stupid to bring, but I didn't expect to see him here… It was a brown shirt. His old football uniform. It had his name on the back, but it was almost vanished with all the years, and in the front there was a "E. Cullen" and the number he was. I did a knot in the hem, to make it look like just an oversized T-shirt, mine oversized T-shirt. I had to put a hoodie on to hide his name on the back, and put my black converses. I put my hair in a ponytail, grabbed the iPod and ran to the garage.
I grabbed a paintbrush and the blue paint. Esme left a little ladder, that I would have to use to paint the top of the arch. The songs were good. Wouldn't be my choice but good. I continued to paint for a couple hours, of course my clothes were stained, and I was sweaty. It was a hot day and I was wearing a hoodie. I sighed and rubbed my arm on my forehead trying to wipe away the sweat. I pulled the hoodie of my chest, trying to have a little air, but wasn't helping. The music was loud on the earphones, so I didn't heard anyone coming in. I felt someone tap my shoulder, scaring the hell out of me. I stumbled forward, and almost fell on the paint, when someone stopped me from falling grabbing me by the waist. Edward. He steadied me, with a smile, and I turned off the iPod.
"Thanks" I mumbled and looked away.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you" he said, "I brought you this"
He gave me a bottle of juice. It was icy and I gulped down almost the whole bottle at once.
"You should take that off" he said pointing to my hoodie. "You're going to be sick, it's too hot for this"
"No, thanks" I mumbled.
"Why not?"
"Why do you care?" I undid my ponytail.
"You're flushed, you'll be sick quickly if you don't take that off"
"I'll be fine. I don't need a doctor"
"Okay" he leaned back on the wall, watching me with a smile.
"Why are you here?" I sighed.
"I have a question"
"I don't have an answer for you"
"Okay, I'll stay here until you do"
I sighed and ran my fingers thru my hair, before pulling it into a ponytail. He was really… Why he kept coming back? Did he like to see me broken?
"Ask" I said.
"Is that my shirt?" he asked.
I blushed and looked down. The damn hoodie was opened and I didn't realized. I closed it, and folded my arms across my chest.
"No" I said.
"It's my football shirt. The one I gave you to sleep in" he said. "Why did you keep it?"
"It's not" I said and turned away. "And… If it was, why I kept wouldn't be your business"
"You'll never forgive me" he whispered.
"No" I said.
"I know you won't believe me, but I was trying to do the best for you"
"You're right" I said, "I don't believe you"
"Edward!" Tanya called and entered the garage, "Oh the arch is getting perfect, Bella! Thanks!" I slowly nodded, "Ed, we have to go get ready for the rehearsal dinner. You too, Bella"
I was going to laugh for the 'Ed', he always hated nicknames. But the funniness of that was lost when he didn't say anything about it. When I teased him with nicknames he usually let it pass but grimace, or frown. He didn't when she called him Ed. He didn't mind when it was her.
"Right" I said and walked past them to the door.
"Something is bothering you, Bella?" Tanya asked before I left.
I sighed, turned to them. Edward was standing beside her, staring at me with pleading eyes. She had her arms wrapped around his waist and her head resting in his chest. The scene made a crack in my heart. One more. I smiled weakly, and shook my head.
"Nothing" I said.
She nodded and I turned away.
"Everything" I said under my breath as I walked inside.
Let's go to Edward and Tanya's rehearsal dinner. I can't wait.
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