A/N: Okay so this is the second of the emotions enjoy
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Hate
I feel hate for Moriarty for putting us through it, mostly John
I hate him for making me break John, for making me a monster
I hate him for giving me the nightmares and making my world one for a whole month
I hate him for not leaving us alone, who knows where we would have been now if he had?
But maybe he brought us closer?
I feel hate for myself- how could I put the man I love through a whole month of torture thinking I was dead?
I hate myself for it
I hate myself for crushing his world, for making him a mess, for returning the psychosomatic limp that I once took away,
I hate myself for lying to him
I don't think I'll ever forgive myself
Hate myself for breaking him, but he still loves me, still